117. A month in Chang'an
The night in Chang'an is very similar to Yecheng, except that it gets dark late, the climate is relatively dry, and I never feel cold in the middle of winter.
I didn't like the cold, in fact, the weather suddenly cooled down, and I had to wear thick clothes, but in the two years I stayed in Yecheng, I slowly got used to the cold, just like getting used to this loneliness.
Do you know what cold is? In the long and boundless night, there is no end to see the light, there is never hope, only the cold iron chain accompanied, the most beautiful music is when I leave, the iron chain makes a dangling sound.
It's just this vague sound that tells me that I'm not lonely.
I am free, but I am in bondage; I am gentle, but cold and introverted, I am frivolous, but I am deeply hidden.
In the two years I spent in Yecheng, I learned how to be at peace for a long time, how to pass the words of other people's hatred like the wind, how to restrain my heart, and how to play the world.
Maybe this world does not give us any choice, if we want to survive in this era, we must be ruthless, and be an iron-hearted wolf in hypocritical sheep's clothing.
In the world of the jungle, if you become weak, you are destined to be eaten away, this is a world that belongs to men, and some people try to change the laws of this world.
There is no right or wrong in this world, the winner is the king, the loser is the villain, since ancient times, a moment of honor and disgrace, can not represent a lifetime of honor and disgrace.
Women are already weak, but they want to pretend to be a rigid appearance, even if they are framed and wronged, they have no power to fight back, even so, they say that the world is ups and downs, waiting for an excellent counterattack opportunity.
Maybe I was born to watch people kill each other, I know the ending, I watch them fight to the death, interested, when a person forgets the past, she may be different from before, but what has not changed is the blood in the bones, boiling because of aggressiveness.
There are thousands of flowers in the world, but there are no flowers that are red for a hundred days, and everyone wants to be the most delicate flower.
I said that if one day, I ascend the throne as the emperor and join hands with Qing to rule the world together, okay?
She laughed, as if the sentence was really funny.
But I have never forgotten what I said, one day, I will become the emperor, and at that time, she will be the only one who can stand side by side with me and share the glory!
Maybe sometimes, she is really different from before, and I wonder if she is really different, she said that her name is Gao Wanyue, and she said that she is not a night harrier, but what does it matter if the name is such a thing?!
I don't mind what her name is, I only care about the person in front of me, who this person is, she may have a past that I don't know, but there will be me in the unreachable future.
Chang'an seems to be very long, although the days are very long, and the days of darkness are very short, but just these few hours don't make me feel very long. 【¥ ! @更好更新更快]
It used to be such a quiet night, I would see her from time to time, with red sleeves and incense, cutting candles in the window, holding a glass and drinking until dawn... But now there is nothing
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The dawn in Chang'an always comes earlier than elsewhere, and I have developed the habit of getting up early in Yecheng, I don't like to be lazy, and the cold in the early morning will make me more awake.
Today seems to be exceptionally cold, the morning sun is rising, the white grass is frost, looking at the bright sun in the sky obscured by the fog, everything is so hazy.
"Husband." Behind him came the figure of a woman, graceful and graceful, holding a silver-white fox fur in her hand and walking to his side.
"It's already deep winter, the weather is cold, how can you be so careless, how can you be sick." As he spoke, he blocked him tightly from the slightest wind.
"It's good to tell the next person to do it." He stood still, letting her be considerate of his concern.
"It's okay, I like to do this." Her cheeks flushed, too shy to look him in the eye.
The person in front of him is his husband, and he is also the king of Qi of Great Wei, in fact, he enjoys the glory and wealth around him, and she also hopes that they can be an ordinary couple, living a life of affection between you and me all day long.
This is the dream of all women in the world, the so-called glory and wealth, but it is just a passing cloud, thousands of years later, a hundred years later, there is nothing left, only a sincere heart, which is a piece of sincerity to him.
When I first saw him, I fell in love at first sight, how could there be such a gentle man in the world, his smile was like a March breeze, blowing cold, but his eyebrows always showed a sad look with a faint sadness.
Maybe she was wrong, his sadness was not the melancholy that came out of his bones, but the sadness of not being able to ask for it, and he was plotting to be the king of the world.
He may have agreed to marry him for some purpose, or perhaps because of his father, but he never regretted his decision to marry him, because this was the first time in her life that she listened to the decision made by her heart.
She believed that she could help him, because she was the daughter of Da Wei Yuwentai, Yuwenyan.
She was weak, but for the first time, she dared to talk back to her father, stubbornly rejected her mother, and married him desperately, Yuan Shu!
"Good work, Yan'er." This is his wife, his princess Qi, a thoughtful, delicate and comprehensive woman, but she, like ordinary women, is too confined to petty love, and she can't get rid of the shackles of mortal dust.
Most of the women in this world are like this, indecisive, stagnant, always obsessed with immediate happiness, without a long-term vision, looking.
Maybe there are no exceptions in this world, all women are like this, except that Wushan is not a cloud, he has seen a woman with the world in mind, and he will not like such a little woman again.
It's just that such a woman is very suitable to be a wife, and he will respect her like a guest and raise his eyebrows, but he can't tell what is in his heart, because there is no common topic.
"Woo woo" only felt that there was a burst of churning in the stomach, and I couldn't stop vomiting.
"Yan'er, what's wrong?" Yuan Yu walked over and patted her on the back gently.
"The concubine body, the concubine body seems to have
Hello. She looked shy, she was embarrassed to say such a thing, and her face was flushed.
"Really? Yan'er, is this all true? With a gentle smile on his face, Yuan Yu asked softly, just like usual.
"It's true, I felt vomiting more than I did yesterday, so I called the doctor to take a look, saying that it was more than a month." She never dared to look into his gaze, she knew that she had been immersed in such a look,
But I feel that something is missing, shouldn't ordinary people be ecstatic when they hear about such a thing? Why is he so calm, he is really calm, and your own happy expression is very different.
"That's really nice." He rubbed his hands together and held her, not knowing what to say, this was his first child, and it was such a surprise even though it had come at the wrong time.
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Helped her back to the bed, covered the quilt and half-leaned, "Husband, do you hope to be a boy or a girl?" ”
"It's only been a month now, where will I know what men and women are, you can rest for a long time, I'll take care of official business!" He waved his hand and motioned for the maid to come forward and take care of her.
She was a little lost, and she couldn't say anything, so she could only stay alone, this moment was a little sad, she wanted to cry, but she had already told her that she couldn't be emotional when she was pregnant, and she couldn't cry sadly, so not only bad for herself, but also bad for the child, she remembered it all.
Yuan Yu, who came out of the room, looked hurried, followed by a man in dark blue clothes, "Why is this happening?" He asked the person behind him with a little anger.
"Shouldn't you be happy, my lord?" He asked puzzledly, he was also very happy about this kind of thing, after all, this was the lord's first child.
"This is a child with the blood of the Yuwen clan, how can he survive in the world!" He is the emperor after all, if at that time, a child with the blood of the Yuwen clan will be his biggest threat.
"Could it be that there is something wrong with the prescription he gave?" He began to suspect the man who was dressed in purple and was as warm as jade.
"You mean the Boy?" It's impossible, if he took it back from Yecheng in person, and didn't pass through other people's hands along the way, there should be absolutely no problem.
"Su Fang, hurry up and send someone to recover the bottle I gave you, and then send someone all the way to Yecheng to ask me for an understanding!" Everything is just his imagination, a speculation, unconfirmed, and unbelievable, it's all true, it's really happening.
Thanks to the fact that he found it early, if he found it later, the consequences would be unimaginable.
Huan Duck! The name that made him gnash his teeth.
I can't believe that he is so yang and yin, the things he wants are already fake, if all he has in his hands is like this, then...
It's too late to say anything now, so hurry up and get people back what has already been sent.
From morning till night, he was restless, waiting for the news to come back, and in the depths of the darkness he had no light in the room, and the only source of light was the moonlight.
Once upon a time, moonshine was
His only source of light, the moonlight was soft, not as dazzling as the candle flame, and many people were close to warmth like moths to the flames, and finally they could only burn out, and the moonlight was cold and could not feel the temperature, but it was brighter than anything else.
He can't do anything now, he can't go anywhere, so he can only wait where he is, waiting for Su Fang to bring back the news.
"Husband." Yuwen Yan crept in, groping her way forward in the dark, looking for his direction.
"Yan'er, why are you here? Why don't you get a good rest? He was still sitting on his stool, without the slightest hint of getting up.
"Husband, it's so dark, I'm afraid." In the dark, she couldn't see anything clearly, and the candles in the house where she had been afraid of the dark since she was a child kept going all night.
Yuan Yu walked over and hugged the person in her arms, she was different from people like herself, she had not experienced any hardships since she was a child, she grew up carefree, she was praised as the pearl of her palm, she did not suffer any setbacks, maybe the decision to marry herself was wrong in itself.
But this decision has also become his talisman, allowing him to have everything he has now, and even the unimpeded road in the future, and it is only natural that he will return it with warmth.
"Husband, why do you always sit alone in the dark?" She hugged him tightly, feeling the sandalwood on his body, which was where she felt at ease.
"I'm used to it, in the deep palace of Yecheng, I came here like this." His words were so light and breezy, but they were deeply seared into her heart, and she always felt how good it would have been to meet him earlier, and she would not be so lonely if she had been with him, and she felt more and more distressed.
He hugged the person in his arms without any waves, "Yan'er, do you know the taste of wine?" ”
(End of chapter)