In April 2009, I was interviewed by a magazine for the first time in my life. The interview was about the Wenchuan earthquake.

The magazine wanted to make a special issue of the 5.12th anniversary festival, and through the school's Youth League Committee, several students in the hardest-hit areas were interviewed. I am from a hard-hit area, and my teacher recommended me to come for an interview.

At the time, I didn't think I'd work in magazines one day, but I was honored to have this experience.

Although that magazine collapsed within a few years, I still have that issue of the magazine. When I was chatting, I told the editor-in-chief about this experience, and said Aren't you afraid that I will destroy "Dong'an Lakeside"?

The editor-in-chief smiled, "If "Dong'an Lakeside" collapses, I will throw you to Dong'an Lake!" ”

So, I quickly shut up. Then knock on the wooden table.

Because of the love affair between Er Ya and Sijie, I deliberately reduced the frequency of contact with them.

The girl I had a crush on for many years was okay with my friends who kept calling me "brother", and I couldn't say anything but bless them!

That's right, it's just not blessed!

Erya will still call me and send me messages. Sijie still calls me brother, but I always feel a little awkward.

Huahua called me and told me everything she had in Jincheng. Tell me that in addition to dancing, she also learns some vocal knowledge.

Huahua sang to me "My Motherland and Me" that we had sung in elementary school on the phone, and asked me what was the difference.

I replied, "I'm hard of hearing, so I can't hear any difference, but you sing so nicely."

Flowey giggled on the other end of the phone.

My roommates asked me if I was a girlfriend.

I said no, just good friends.

The roommate was surprised, "Didn't I hear the girl saying that I can't be separated from you for a moment?" ”

I smiled helplessly, "It can't be separated from the motherland for a moment, not with me." ”

……

In my heart, I re-called Sijie a brother, after I got along with Ding Ding.

I told everyone in "Lonely Smoked a Cigarette" that I was in love, and then posted a photo of me and Tintin.

Sijie praised me in the group with lightning speed, gave me a thumbs up, and praised Ding Ding for his good looks.

Erya and Huahua both tacitly chose to be silent.

Huahua no longer takes the initiative to call me, let alone sing in the calls I take the initiative to call. I asked her if she was busy with her studies, and Huahua said that the main reason was that she didn't want my girlfriend to misunderstand.

I told Huahua that I told Tintin that we are brothers, don't worry, Tintin won't misunderstand.

Flowey responded to me with a "hehe" and didn't have extra words.

Not long after, Erya took the initiative to upload a photo of her and Sijie climbing the Great Wall on QQ space.

I saw that some students left a message below saying that the four precepts are winners in life.

Some classmates also commented that the curtain of youth came to an end, and there was no goddess again. I don't know if it's the truth or a joke. Erya just responded, just like you praised me.

I could only stare at those few photos, click on them, zoom in, and close them.

Tap again, zoom in, and close.

It should be said that my youth has come to an end, and the goddess is gone.

I tried to like Ding Ding from the bottom of my heart as I liked Erya back then, eat with her, and go shopping with her. Go to the library for self-study together, and go to the movie theater to watch movies together. Let's talk about the past and imagine tomorrow together.

One day, Tintin and I counted the stars on Lover's Slope. Tintin leaned on my shoulder, took my arm, and said gently, "Da Chun, it's good to have you." ”

And my response was so incomprehensible, "Don't you think this turf is a bit prickly?" ”

Tintin pouted and gave me a roll of his eyes, "But people just want to stay with you......"

I have to be honest that Tintin is being coquettish to her boyfriend, but I think it's a, and I can't stand a woman's actions the most.

"We're together every day." I have to have a boyfriend at least the same posture, I'm quibbling and avoiding.

"Tonight, I just want to stay with you and not be separated......"

It was May 20, 2009.

We still use the Nokia 6300, which has a long standby time and does not have to think about charging it every day.

That night, we went to open the room.

I must admit that I am not a saint, we stripped each other naked, we hugged, we kissed.

But when I was on the verge of kicking, I was not even as good as the Chinese men's football team, and I didn't shoot at all.

"Tintin, I don't think we can do that." I lay on top of Tintin and didn't dare to look her in the eyes, "Let's leave the first time in the cave room for candle nights." ”

I still remember that at that time, my mind was full of Erya's figure and face, it was the dream of the night of the class reunion, and it was the entanglement between me and Erya in the dream.

When I climbed off Tintin, Tintin's eyes were complicated.

After we broke up, Tintin told me that she thought she had a good eye and that I was a good person, just not the right person.

I was embarrassed, looked around, and whispered, "I'm sorry...... Sorry ......"

"In youth, no one is sorry for anyone," Erya said, "I am voluntary." ”

……

After I came out of Yibo Yuntian, I felt like my world had collapsed.

At the class reunion, the hand-holding between Erya and Sijie turned out to be just deception, in order to urge me to confess. But I took it seriously, and although I didn't bless them, I gave up on myself.

That night, it wasn't a dream, it was a real thing. It's not Erya who I'm pressing underneath, it's Huahua.

I guess that night, when Huahua heard me call Erya's name, in addition to the blood that flowed, there were tears left.

I ran to Dong'an Lake and looked at my face reflected on the lake, like a loser.

In the last ten years, twenty years, because of my cowardice and cowardice, it is not one person, not two people, but three people, four people.

Even so, I still didn't have the courage to shout, and I was afraid that the people around me would treat me like a madman.

Youth and love, I seem to have lost them.

Huahua likes me, Sijie and I like Erya, Erya likes me, in this emotional food chain, I should be the biggest winner, but I became the biggest loser.

Erya followed the four rings, and Huahua had Yang Hai.

Then, Sijie died. Yang Hai, scattered.

……

In the end, I went home.

Turn on the shower head and let the cold ice water slap indiscriminately on your body.

I looked at my drooping little brother and said to myself, "I always thought you were a chick, but I didn't expect you to have a pestle ten years ago." ”

By the way, he reached out and slapped it hard.

"Call you a pestle, call you ......"

As soon as I hit it, I was so painful that I squatted down holding my little brother, and I couldn't straighten up for a while.

The cold water falling from the shower head is not only cold but also painful because of the drop.

In the end, he straightened up, turned on the hot water, and shivered a few times.

The next day, I sneezed to the magazine. The editor-in-chief saw that I was in an abnormal state and called me to the office to take care of me.

"It's okay, editor-in-chief." I sneezed and replied to the editor-in-chief, "I kicked the quilt last night." ”

The editor-in-chief smiled, "It's time to find someone to cover you with a quilt at night." ”

When I was about to go out of the editor-in-chief's office, the editor-in-chief gave me a look, "What I told you yesterday, you hurry up." ”

"Okay."

"In addition, come up with a plan, I plan to make an appointment with a few Dong'an literati to hold a Dong'an Peach Blossom Theme Poetry Club, and the next issue of the magazine will publish a few more articles about Dong'an and Peach Blossom." The editor-in-chief said.

Hearing the editor-in-chief say this, I stopped.

"Editor-in-chief, that could affect magazine sales."

"Sometimes, we have to be a little emotional, too." The editor-in-chief smiled, "Since it is "Dong'an Lakeside", I always have to speak out for Dong'an." ”