Dongfang Luoqi did not come back, and Lan Zijin heard that he went to the front line.

She didn't want to believe it, and felt that Dongfang Luoqi would definitely come back. She sat in the room for a long time, waiting, waiting for him to come back and take her with her.

But she didn't wait......

"Dongfang Luoqi, you bastard!"

Early one morning, Lan Zijin was eating breakfast and scolded casually.

With that, she dropped the steamed bun in her hand and turned around and walked towards the door.

"Zijin, what are you doing?"

"Jin'er, it's snowing outside, so you might as well stay in the house!"

After hearing this, Lan Zijin turned around and went back to the house and began to pack his luggage.

"Zijin, where are you going?" Fleur was a little anxious.

"Leave me alone."

Lan Zhiyuan walked over and said, "Jin'er, you have to tell us where you want to go, and my brother will go with you." ”

"No, you don't."

"You, you can't be so willful!"

"I said no, no! Brother, you help me take care of Fushang and Wanwan, one of them doesn't know martial arts, and the other has fists and legs. ”

After that, Lan Zijin went out with his baggage, completely ignoring the wind and snow outside the door.

She came to the stable, picked a sturdy horse at random, turned over, and ran into the snow.

Along the way, she scolded Dongfang Luoqi in her heart.

"Dongfang Luoqi, bastard, you said you would go with me!"

"Dongfang Luoqi, I hate you! I hate you to death! ”

……

Over and over again, as if this was the only way she could be afraid of ice and snow and get a psychological comfort.

Near the gate of the Eastern King's City, the road is lined with bare poplar trees, standing tall in the wind and snow.

A man in a black shirt stood in the middle of the road, as if waiting for her to pass.

Who dares to stand in her way?

Lan Zijin was fearless and continued to gallop on horseback.

When she approached, she realized that the person in front of her was Dongfang Luoyu.

"Phew!"

The horse stopped, and Lan Zijin sat quietly on the horse, motionless.

"General Dugu doesn't recognize the widow?" Dongfang Luo Yu said coldly.

Lan Zijin jumped off the horse, walked in front of Dongfang Luoyu, and knelt in the thick ice and snow.

"Greetings to the lord."

"General Dugu, where are you going?"

“……”

Dongfang Luoyu obviously already knew where she was going.

"You must not go out of the city without the orders of the widows, understand?"

"Minister......

"Get up, it's cold on the ground."

Dongfang Luoyu stretched out his hand and wanted to help Lan Zijin up, but Lan Zijin avoided his movements, quickly got up and took a few steps back.

"My lord, the minister must go."

"Why?"

"Does it have to be a reason?"

"Yes, tell the widow why you have to go."

“……”

Lan Zijin didn't speak, she still had no way to admit her relationship with Dongfang Luoqi in front of Dongfang Luoyu.

Looking at Dongfang Luoyu's face, Lan Zijin lowered her head, she couldn't look directly at Dongfang Luoyu's gaze, that gaze made her uncomfortable.

"Lan Zijin, is Dongfang Luoqi so important?"

“…… Of course, he is your younger brother. ”

"I know this, he is the younger brother of my mother's compatriot, but he will not have an accident, this is not his first expedition, why are you in a hurry to go to the front line to find it? You miss him a lot, don't you? ”

Lan Zijin was speechless, because Dongfang Luoyu's words were all in her heart.

Indeed, Dongfang Luoqi, as a prince, has excellent swordsmanship and the ability to lead thousands of troops, so she doesn't need to worry about it at all. Under the protection of the army, Dongfang Luoqi will not be in any danger. It's just that Lan Zijin misses him very much.

She couldn't sleep well every night, wondering if Dongfang Luoqi would suddenly come to her, but he didn't......

She misses him, thinks of sleepless nights, and doesn't know how to eat.

"Zijin, you've changed."

"I haven't changed, I've become you."

Dongfang Luoyu took a step forward, looked at Lan Zijin's red eyes, and wanted to reach out and touch her hair. But she dodged.

Dongfang Luoyu smiled and said, "Look, you've changed." ”

Lan Zijin looked up at him and responded with a smile.

"You have changed, you have not changed your appearance, not your figure, not your ideals, not your character, not your heart, the person you pretend to be in your heart has changed."

"You should have known."

"I should have known, but I just don't understand why, and now I'm even beginning to wonder if everything between us is true, whether you standing in front of me are real, if your love for me is real. Oh, no, no, that's not what I said, I should say, your love for me is not true. ”

Lan Zijin's heart ached, as if he had been pierced through his heart by ten thousand arrows.

She knew that she would have to face Dongfang Luoyu's questioning sooner or later, but she hadn't figured out how to answer yet.

Tears welled up in her eyes and rolled down.

"Why cry. Isn't it me who should cry? ”

Lan Zijin shook his head, stretched out his hand and wiped his tears with his cuffs.

"I'm sorry."

All she could say seemed to be sorry.

Originally, she didn't think it was a betrayal, but when Dongfang Luoyu really stood in front of her and questioned all this, she was still very heartbroken and guilty.

"Why? Tell me. ”

"Because, you and I have not stood the test of heaven."

"Really? Is this the reason why you fell in love with my brother? Is that why you've come and gone between our two brothers? ”

Lan Zijin looked at him, a sneer appeared on the corner of her mouth, although she felt guilty, she would not bear everything in front of Dongfang Luoyu.

"Why? I also wonder why! Why do I love you so much, no matter how much I wait, I can't wait...... Alone in the deep palace...... Why do you want me to live in the palace, why do you abandon me day and night and ignore another woman! I'm also a woman, and I'm going to be jealous too! I'm jealous of her! I am jealous of Simon Uyah, and I am very jealous...... I'm jealous that she can be your queen, though I know I don't deserve it...... I'm jealous that she can give you a baby, a healthy child! I'm jealous that she can be pampered by you every night, I'm jealous that this world makes you care so much, and you are becoming more and more indifferent to me! Dongfang Luoyu, I love you, I have loved you, and I haven't been able to completely let go until now...... Do you know how heartbroken I was the moment I just saw you? I lost two children for you, what else do you want from me...... Can't I use this dilapidated body to accept another man who loves me deeply? Do I have no right to fall in love with someone else? Will you be happy to see me lonely all my life? Looking like Chu Ning'er waiting for a thousand years, are you satisfied......"

The hysteria was mixed with intermittent choking, and even though she said what was in her heart, she was still depressed. The bitter heart is like being pressed by a heavy object on the bottom of the sea, and the blood flows into the seawater and mixes with the seawater.

Tears kept falling, down her face, falling into the thick ice and snow under her feet, and disappearing.