Chapter 61: Love is also painful

"This path is my own choice, no matter whether I regret it in the future or not, I will not blame Sister Xue. Sister Xue, if you put a hundred and twenty hearts, I will definitely not blame you. Tao Jingjing said firmly.

I smiled a little and said, "Okay, you can follow me in the future." But I have a word to remind you, no matter how we mix, we are still students, don't forget to study hard. ”

"Sister Xue, don't worry, I know which is more important." Tao Jingjing told me, turned her head to Bi Cailian and said happily: "Sister Xue agreed!" ”

Bi Cailian was not as happy as Tao Jingjing, but asked Tao Jingjing very worriedly: "Do you really want to be a gangster?" ”

As soon as I heard Bi Cailian's words, I knew that she was the same as me before and didn't want to be a gangster.

Tao Jingjing said: "What's wrong with being a gangster? Cailian, it's better if you want to be with me, it doesn't matter if you're not with me, we will always be good friends. If they bully you again, I will help you. ”

"Jingjing, you're so nice!" Bi Cailian said movingly, frowning: "I haven't thought about it yet, wait until I think about it, okay?" ”

"Okay-" Tao Jingjing stretched out her voice and said yes, hooked Bi Cailian's neck with her hand, and said dotingly: "Cailian, you don't have to be so bitter and hateful. You don't want to be with me, and I don't blame you. ”

"I know." Although Tao Jingjing said that she would not blame Bi Cailian, Bi Cailian was still a little embarrassed, and she smiled awkwardly.

Tao Jingjing also saw Bi Cailian's embarrassment, stopped talking about this topic, and said to me: "Sister Xue, my classroom is at your feet, if there is anything in the gang, just go to me below and find me." ”

"Okay." I smiled and said, "After school at noon, you wait for me, and I'll introduce you to the people in the gang." ”

"Well, there's nothing wrong with that Sister Xue, I'll go down first."

I smiled and nodded, and Tao Jingjing and Bi Cailian went down.

Looking at the backs of them going downstairs and leaving, I thought to myself that I had another reason to go to Mei Xue, and then I could see Lu An.

Just thinking about it, my excited heartbeat accelerated.

I really wanted to go to Mei Xue now, but I was afraid that Lu An would not be in the classroom, so I thought it would be safer to go to him after class, so I endured it and didn't go.

......I exhaled, relieved my heartbeat, and was about to go back to the classroom when Zhu Jiahui came up.

She was walking unhurriedly, but when she saw me, her speed instantly increased, and she ran up and shouted to me: "Mo Xue, Mo Xue......"

"What's wrong?" I stopped and asked her.

Zhu Jiahui ran up to me, took my arm, rolled her eyes on my face, and said, "My cousin came to you just now?" ”

"Well, she told you everything, didn't she?" I asked with a smile.

"the!" Zhu Jiahui burst into a foul language, "I just met her downstairs, and when I saw her coming down from upstairs, I thought she was looking for me, and asked her if she was looking for me, and she said no." ”

"I asked her who she was looking for, and she said no. I guessed that she might be looking for you, and seeing you here, I think I guessed right. What did she tell you when she looked for you? ”

I deliberately hanged - Zhu Jiahui's appetite: "What do you guess she told me?" ”

"What else can I say, I must say that I want to mess with you. Did you say yes? Zhu Jiahui asked curiously.

"Do you want me to say yes?"

"Ouch!" After being hung twice in a row, Zhu Jiahui became anxious, pulled my sleeve and said, "Mo Xue, don't hang, I have an appetite, tell me quickly." ”

"I promise you, will you blame me?" I asked worriedly.

Zhu Jiahui pushed the glasses on her face and asked strangely, "What are you blaming for?" Mo Xue, I found that your thinking is so old-fashioned, and the gangsters are not necessarily all bad, but also good. I think you're going to be a good bastard. ”

"Thank you!" Hearing Zhu Jiahui's words, I was very moved, "Are you willing to mix with me?" ”

"I don't want to." Zhu Jiahui said she didn't want to without thinking about it, and laughed out loud after speaking.

I thought she would say yes, but I asked, "Why?" Didn't you just say that gangsters are good? ”

Zhu Jiahui pointed to her glasses and said, "It doesn't agree." I'm more than 800 degrees nearsighted, and if someone knocks off my glasses during a fight, I'll be like a blind man. If you can't beat others, you will be held back. ”

"Why are you so nearsighted?" I asked, shocked.

I have been classmates with Zhu Jiahui for more than a year, and I don't know how myopic she is.

Zhu Jiahui pushed her glasses again and said, "I look at it with a flashlight every day." I won't tell you, I borrowed another nice one. ”

Speaking of this, Zhu Jiahui patted her stomach, and there was a copy hidden in her clothes.

"Exceptionally pretty. Do you want to see it? I'll lend it to you when I'm done. ”

"No, I don't look." I hurriedly refused.

There are many classmates in our class, both boys and girls, boys watch fantasy, girls watch romance.

They also circulated among themselves.

A classmate once asked me if I watched it, and I said no, for fear that it would affect my learning.

But I don't know what affects learning in the world, not only yes, but also chaos.

"Let's go to the classroom. While you're not in class, you can read two chapters. Zhu Jiahui pulled me into the classroom.

When she arrived at the classroom, Zhu Jiahui took it out of her clothes and sandwiched it in a book to read.

When the teacher comes, he just flips the page he is holding.

Zhu Jiahui, I'll take out a math book to read.

After only two glances, my thoughts drifted to Lu An, I haven't seen him all night, I don't know if he is a little more handsome today than yesterday.

The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to see him, and I thought it would be nice if I was in the same class as Lu An.

If I were in the same class as Lu An, maybe I wouldn't like Ning Haiqi, maybe I would......

Thinking of this, I suddenly thought of a question, that is, Lu An's classroom is above my classroom, but why I have never seen him for more than a year.

I'm sure I'll remember him if I'd seen him before.

Because his eyes are so clean and pure, they are unforgettable at first sight.

Later, I learned that Lu An was a transfer student.

The day I first met him was the first day he had just arrived.

Later, I also learned that Lu An came to my school for the necklace around my neck.

Although he was not the person sent by Xue Minhao to trouble me, his encounter with me was also a premeditated plan.

"Bell bell bell ......" I thought about this, and I kept thinking about preparing for class twice.

Hearing the bell ringing, I told myself to stop thinking about Lu An and study hard.

But during class, I still couldn't help but think about Lu An, especially when class was about to end, I thought I would be able to see him soon, and my heartbeat accelerated again.

"Bell Bell Bell ......" The bell rang for the end of class, and I felt like I was scared.

Waiting for the teacher to leave, I quickly got up and walked out.

The moment I stood up, my heart beat faster again.

"Boom! Boom! Dong ...... "It's like there's a drum beating in my heart, and every time I knock it, my heart trembles."

I held on to the handrail, walked upstairs step by step, and came to the door of Lu An's classroom, I pretended to be calm and looked inside, and I saw Lu An at a glance.

He didn't wear a school uniform today, he wore a black sweatshirt, which made him even more handsome.

"So handsome!" My heart was beating so fast.

Afraid that Lu An would find out that I was looking at him, I quickly ran past the door of his classroom.

Running to the door of Mei Xue's classroom, I saw Mei Xue turning her head to talk to someone, but she didn't see me, so she said to the boy by the window: "Classmate, please help me call Mei Xue." ”

The boy knew me, and shouted to Mei Xue with a smile: "Mei Xue, your boss is here." ”

Hearing the boy's words, Mei Xue immediately turned her head and smiled brightly at me, then glared at the boy, pointed at the boy and said, "You respect Sister Xue." ”

The boy smiled with a hippie smile.

Mei Xue ignored her and ran out quickly.

After coming out, Mei Xue's first sentence was not to ask me if I was looking for her, but to ask: "Sister Xue, have you seen Lu An?" ”

I'm in a good mood today, I didn't bother with Mei Xue, she always looked at Lu An in front of me, gave her a look and said, "What do you say?" ”

"Then you must have seen it, otherwise Sister Xue, your face wouldn't look so red." Mei Xue looked at me and smiled.

I stretched out my hand and rubbed my face, and said, "Every time I come, your classmates look at me, and I'm embarrassed, and my face is red." ”

"Oh." Mei Xue looked at me meaningfully.

I pulled her sleeve and let her walk in front of me, and said, "Let me ask you something, what do you think of accepting a freshman in high school?" ”

"Sister Xue, someone is looking for you again?" Mei Xue asked excitedly.

I nodded.

Mei Xue was excited and worried: "If you can receive the first year of high school, it must be good." Sister Xue, you didn't refuse someone, did you? ”

"If you refuse, I won't come to you."

"That's too." Mei Xue grinned and asked me, "Sister Xue, what is the name of that freshman in high school, did you want to join us because she was bullied?" ”

"Her name is Tao Jingjing, and the classroom is just below mine. She didn't want to mess with me because she was bullied, but because her friend was bullied, she helped her friend get angry and beat the little minions of the Butterfly Gang. ”

"Wow!" After listening to my words, Mei Xue exclaimed, looked at me and said, "Sister Xue, isn't this you?" ”

"Well, I think she looks a lot like me, too." Whether it is in action (being bullied and daring to resist), or in thinking (being a gangster who does not bully classmates and does not ask classmates for money), Tao Jingjing is very similar to me.

When Mei Xue heard what I said, she was a little worried, grabbed my arm and asked, "Sister Xue, you are so similar, you must appreciate her very much." You're not going to forget about me when you have her, are you? ”

"How so? If you count as friends, you are number one in my heart. "I will never forget the love that Mei Xue helped me.

Without her helping me, I wouldn't be where I am today.

"That's good, then I'll be relieved." Mei Xue smiled at me.

"Well, that's what I'm here to tell you about. You talk to Lu Ying and the others, and I will introduce you to each other at noon. I'm leaving. "With that, I'll go.

The moment I turned around, my thoughts drifted to Lu An, thinking that I could see Lu An again.

I straightened my back and walked forward, and when I wanted to walk to the middle of their classroom, I pretended to have no intention of looking inside, and I could see Lu An.

To my surprise, before I could reach the middle of their classroom, I saw Lu An, standing on the balcony at the door of the classroom and looking into the distance.

Looking at Lu An from the side, Lu An looks better, and feels like the person in the painting, perfect and impeccable.

Seeing Lu An standing in front of me, I had Mei Xue's feeling last night: I hope that this road will not have an end, and I can keep looking, watching, and looking at Lu An.

But this road has an end after all, and I slowly came to Lu An's side, and passed by him through countless airs.

After passing by, it's time to get away.

The moment I was far away, my heart hurt hard.

I feel like it's like me and Lu An, and I will get farther and farther away from him until I can't see him again.

……

I don't know how I got downstairs, I just know that every time I see Lu An more, I like him a little more.

But I knew very well in my heart that it was unlikely that I would be with him.

So, I'm in pain.

I used to watch TV and see that someone liked someone else, and others didn't like her, she was very miserable, I was very puzzled, thinking that others don't like her, wouldn't it be good if she didn't like others? Isn't it painful?

It wasn't until I encountered such a situation myself that I realized that the matter of feelings is not as simple as I thought, I like whoever I like, and I don't like anyone I don't like.

I also persuaded myself to focus on studying, not to think about these impossible, and even slandered Lu An in my heart, saying that Lu An was a person like Ning Haiqi, but when I thought of Lu An's face, I couldn't dislike him.

Maybe only when I really see that Lu An is a person like Ning Haiqi will I give up on him.

At this time, I wanted to follow Mei Xue's advice and try Lu An, but I was a little afraid to try.

I'm afraid that if I really try to find out that Lu An is a person like Ning Haiqi, I will be uncomfortable, I will ...... I don't want to hate him now, I just want to like it.

And now is an extraordinary time, I was blocked and beaten by Qiao Mengdan and Gao Caifeng in the morning, I am afraid that they will do something.

So, in the end, I decided not to try it yet, and it was not too late to try again when our position as a gangster stabilized.

After school at noon, I waited for Mei Xue and them first, and then went down to find Tao Jingjing.

Tao Jingjing, like me, stood on the balcony at the staircase on the second floor and waited for me, looking up, not afraid of people at all, and immediately smiled at me when she saw me.

"That's the guy, right?" Mei Xue looked at Tao Jingjing and said.

I said yes and went down with Mei Xue.

"Sister Xue......" Tao Jingjing called me Sister Xue first, and moved her eyes to Mei Xue: "This is another Sister Xue, right?" ”

"There's only one Sister Xue, just call me Fat Snow." Mei Xue never forgets to maintain my identity as the boss of the evil gang.

Tao Jingjing said: "Then I might as well be respectful, and I will call you Fat Xue." Fat Snow, how tall are you? ”

"One meter seven."

"Wow, that's so high!" Tao Jingjing looked up at Fat Xue, her eyes flashing with little stars, "If only I had you as tall." ”