By the time I returned to the apartment with heavy steps, I felt unwell, and I was even more lightheaded, and my mouth was dry and I had to lie back on my bed and fall asleep.

In my unstable sleep, the scene when Cheng Jing and I were talking repeatedly appeared, again and again, every time it appeared, it was enough to bruise me again, knowing that it was in a dream, always struggling to wake up, but there was no half strength.

After tossing and turning repeatedly until the next morning, I was finally awakened by the sunlight refracted from the window, and after waking up, I felt a feeling of nirvana rebirth, and I still had a splitting headache, which seemed to be the expected cold.

So he called Lu Lao, told him about Duan Ruochen's situation, and told him that I had returned to the company, Lu Lao wanted to tease me a few words like in the past, but after hearing my hoarse voice and coughing non-stop, he knew that I was sick and asked for leave, so he endured it and let me rest.

After hanging up the phone, I went to take a hot bath with my soft body, and then went back to bed and lay down, but I couldn't sleep, and it happened that there was a heart-rending singing voice in the haberdashery store next to the apartment.

I struggled to get out of bed again, grabbed a heavy trench coat from the closet and wrapped it around my body, and stumbled to the balcony. The snowflakes had stopped, and it was sunny outside, but the old snow on the ground had not melted and was covered with new snowflakes.

……

The loneliness of the fire, the silence of the freezing.

I can't hold you for no reason, and my hands are like half-useless.

Flooded by the sea, sliding from the top of the mountain,

Terrible longing is alive.

The loneliness of the fire, the silence of the freezing.

Hold on to something.

Sometimes I don't even know too much about myself,

I don't want to pray, so I have to bear it,

Terrible longing churns.

……

I've always longed for happiness, both in and out of my dreams, not only repeatedly, but also enjoyed.

But all of this has turned into despair before it can be realized.

The loneliness in my heart is like being submerged in the sea, with nowhere to hide or talk to.

The loneliness and longing that burns like fire will always exist in the heart, like a phoenix nirvana, immortal and immortal.

Don't know what you're holding onto? I don't want to compromise with this touching feeling, but the longing for you is still in my heart, and the terrible sorrow and pain always hit my heart, as if it were churning and churning in the depths of my soul......

Listening and listening, tears quietly slipped down his face, and then dripped down his cheeks into the placket, yesterday's forbearance and strength can no longer be disguised today.

What I feel is not the thousands of holes in this song, but Su Jianxin's mentality of being able to face life calmly, detached, and tenaciously in the face of the invasion and tossing of the years after the vicissitudes of life, which makes me awe-inspired.

I asked myself, I had only experienced one of life's ups and downs, and I had become depressed, so I would never get to his level. I just want to ask my Ah Zhe, if I can't hug you in this life, then what's the point of my life?

The song was long over, it was a cheerful song, out of tune with my mood at this time, and I dragged back to the bed with heavy steps, rubbed my head into the pillow, and began to mourn my lost love.

I don't know how long I cried, suddenly there was a crisp knock on the door in the apartment, which pulled me back from the confusion of thoughts, I thought it was my crying that alarmed the other colleagues, and quickly stopped sobbing, but the knocking on the door still did not stop, and it became more and more intensive, it seemed that I did not open the door, and the trend would never stop, I had to get out of bed in a trance.

"Shen'er, Shen'er, you're scared me to death!" As soon as the door opened, a figure rushed up like the wind and hugged me tightly, "It's okay, it's okay!" ”

The person holding me was Lin Xuan, and the person who followed closely behind her was naturally Chen Chen.

"Lin Xuan, you hurry up and let go of me." I was so hugged by Lin Xuan that I couldn't breathe, and hurriedly begged her for mercy.

"Shen'er, why are you so hot?" Lin Xuan touched my forehead in surprise, wiped her forehead again, and exclaimed.

"I'm fine, it's just that there was some wind blowing yesterday, and I have a fever, so you don't have to make a fuss." As soon as I finished speaking, I coughed twice in a row.

"Have you seen a doctor?"

"I woke up in the morning and found out, and I was fine after a while." I pulled Lin Xuan on the bed and sat down, "You sit, I'll go boil water for you." ”

"You better don't toss, I'll go." Lin Xuan pressed me on the bed and went to the kitchen to boil the water.

Chen Chen had a cold face the whole time, but now he came up and wiped my forehead, and then turned around and walked out without saying a word.

"Chen Chen, where are you going?" I looked at Chen Chen in panic.

"I'll be back in a minute!" Chen Chen didn't look back, turned around and went out after dropping the words.

After the water boiled, Lin Xuan poured me a cup first, and then poured a glass for herself, and then began to count me down with a crackle, "Duan Ruochen said that he gave you a vacation, I thought you would go back to Zhanyang, or contact us, but not only did you not wait for your call, but even the phone couldn't get through, it seems that we have come to the right place, otherwise with your strong temperament, no one will know about falling ill in the apartment." ”

"I'm such a big person, I'll take care of myself." I picked up the glass and blew it twice, "You don't have to worry about it. ”

"Yo, this is just a disease, and my temper has risen." Lin Xuan hated the iron and nodded at my forehead and said, "Did you desert in the hospital, so you were returned by Duan Ruochen?" ”

"yes, yes, I was packed." I smiled wryly and explained to Lin Xuan, "Duan Ruochen can move in a wheelchair now, and there are special nurses and nurses, so he asked me not to go in the future." ”

"Then you should be happier, look at you like this, you must have been in the hospital for a long time." Lin Xuan said happily: "When you get better, don't go back to that place." ”

I nodded, a little absent-minded for a while, just when Chen Chen came back in a hurry, he made me a white porridge, and threw me two boxes of medicine, "Eat two of each medicine, and eat after drinking the porridge." ”

"Oh! Thank you! "I picked up the porridge and drank it, although the white rice porridge did not have any taste, but for people who were sick and had not eaten a few meals, it was like a delicacies from the mountains and the sea, so I drank a bowl of porridge in three times and two times, and then the boiling water was not hot, and I obediently took the medicine.

"Pack up your things first and follow me back to Zhanyang." After I finished taking the medicine, Chen Chen said.

"I won't go back, Lu Lao and they are busy at the construction site every day, and I think there are still a lot of things waiting for me to deal with on the company's side." I shook my head and said to Chen Chen: "I know, it must be Duan Ruochen who didn't worry about me and let you come to Luzhou, but I'm really fine, you have to believe me." ”

"If you were really fine, you wouldn't have cried into panda eyes, didn't Situ Yunzhe do something to you again? Let's go back to Zhanyang to find him. Chen Chen said angrily.

"Chen Chen, don't!" I hoarse and panicked to stop it, Chen Chen turned around in confusion, frowned, and looked at me suspiciously.

I was so frightened that I quickly lowered my head.

"If you don't want to tell me, then I'll have to go to him." Chen Chen seems to have seen the crux of the problem.

"Chen Chen, listen to me, now my heart is very chaotic, and I don't know how to tell you, let's wait until I think about it and then tell you, in short, I will take good care of myself and work hard." I was afraid that Chen Chen would really go to Situ Yunzhe, so I pretended to be relaxed and said.

"That's good! Lin Xuan is here to accompany Shen'er, since I'm here, I have to go and visit Duan Xiaozi. After Chen Chen dropped the words, he slammed the door directly.

"Shen'er, don't be afraid, he's a paper tiger." After Chen Chen left, Lin Xuan winked at me.

"It's really unreasonable, Lin Xuan, why haven't you ever been afraid of him? Every time he started a fire, my legs trembled with fear. "I cheered up and started a family trip with Lin Xuan.

"Don't you believe it, let me tell you a secret, when I was in B University, once I accidentally said in front of him that there was a senior boy pursuing me, guess what?"

"What's wrong?" I also want to know what Chen Chen did in the end.

"He pretended to be dismissive, but the next day, when I heard that the boy was beaten all over the ground and looking for teeth, I guessed that this guy did a good thing, but he refused to admit it, so I got angry with him and threatened that if he didn't apologize to others, I would cut him off from now on."

"Did he go?"

"Of course, he not only brought a gift to apologize to others, but also took the initiative to bear the person's medical expenses!" Lin Xuan covered his mouth and smiled.

"It seems that Chen Chen has already been surrendered by you." I looked at Lin Xuan resentfully, "Why haven't I heard you mention this matter, we know each other in vain, and worry about you in vain." ”

"This kind of thing that damages Chen Chen's face, he naturally refuses to let you know." Lin Xuan said proudly: "So, I said that Chen Chen is a paper tiger." ”

"Huh—" I snorted through my nose.

The two chatted for a while, and suddenly felt sleepy, thinking that the effect of the medicine had volatilized, and after a while, they really fell asleep.

When I woke up again, it was already evening, and Lin Xuan had been guarding me, but I didn't see Chen Chen.

"Chen Chen, haven't you come back yet?" I looked around again and asked Lin Xuan.

"I'm back early, he thinks you're about to wake up, and you're going out to take out takeout." Lin Xuan wiped my forehead again, "Hmm! The fever is almost gone, take medicine again, rest for a night, and tomorrow you will be alive again. ”

"I just said that I am not so fragile, I have often run to the construction site for more than half a year, and I am stationed at the construction site in the later stage, and my body has naturally practiced very well." I stuck out my tongue at Lin Xuan.

Chen Chen returned to the apartment with a large bag and a small bag after a while, he gave me a lean porridge, and bought me a lot of snacks that can be eaten as breakfast.

Chen Chen clearly treated me as a weak child, but this feeling is really good, very down-to-earth and warm.