Chapter 4 What is Happiness?
The train that Zhao Yali and Chen Weishan took was a slow train, no matter whether it was a big station or a small station, it would stop when they saw the station, and all the aisles of the entire carriage were crowded, and Chen Weishan, who was already exhausted, had to stand up, otherwise there was a danger of stepping on it. He took Zhao Yali in his arms and tried his best to protect her, but Zhao Yali still felt that the strong squeeze made her a little breathless, and she put her handbag on her head, because the bag contained cosmetics and mirrors, she was really afraid of being squeezed......
Finally arrived at Qingshan Station, this is a county seat, there are many people down, and there is finally more space, Zhao Yali pulled Chen Weishan and quickly occupied the side of the aisle by the door, put the bag on the floor, both of them were very hungry, Yali took out the tea jar to fetch boiled water, and took out the leek egg buns bought in the small restaurant at the entrance of the village in the morning, the two of them talked and laughed while eating, Yali took boiling water from time to time for Chen Weishan to drink, very happy.
After lunch, Yali wanted Chen Weishan to rest for a while, he was indeed too tired. Yali sat on the ground on the carriage, letting Chen Weishan lean on her leg and she held him in her arms......
Chen Weishan soon fell asleep...... I don't know what he dreamed of, and sometimes a shallow smile appeared on his face......
Yali watched Chen Weishan sleep sweetly in her arms and felt very happy. I remember that once Chen Weishan suddenly asked her what happiness was, and she told him without thinking: "Sing the songs I love to sing, and the people love to listen to my songs; Love those I love, and those I love love me. That's my greatest happiness. ”
Zhao Yali not only loves vocal art, but also likes to study philosophy, and at the same time reads a large number of ancient and modern Chinese and foreign masterpieces, and deeply understands the truth. She often thinks that different people have different understandings of the popular word happiness, and its connotation will change with the changes in people's social status, living environment, economic strength and age......
Some people think that having true love is happiness, and some people think that the struggle to create the future is happiness...... At this time, she suddenly remembered the two poems "Island Love Song" and "Fate" in the "Lao Xu's Blog" on the website "Singing and Dancing" website. I remember that there was a fierce debate among the classmates about these two poems, and there were several understandings, so she specially sent a note to Lao Xu and asked him what the original intention of creation was. Lao Xu quickly replied enthusiastically: "Thank you very much for your attention to my work. The poem "Island Love Song" was published 20 years ago when I was engaged in creative work in the political department of a certain army of the Chinese People's Liberation Army, in the poem "If I still exist in the world, it will always be your kingdom", which is the use of anthropomorphic creative techniques to express the island's feelings for the seawater, and the island tells the sea that if there is no earthquake and island subsidence, as long as I still exist, I will always be yours, showing a kind of loyal emotion...... The poem "Destiny" was written and published by me in June 1983. In May 1983, the Central Committee of the Communist Party of China issued the "Decision to Learn from Comrade Zhang Haidi", and eight proletarian revolutionaries of the older generation, including party and state leaders*, Ye Jianying, and Li Xiannian, wrote inscriptions for Zhang Haidi, commending her positive and enterprising spirit of selfless dedication. I was deeply moved by Zhang Haidi's deeds and improvised this poem. This is an inspirational work for the whole world, in which the poem eulogizes the tenacious spirit of Beethoven, Ostrovsky and Zhang Haidi, who are disabled and have struggled endlessly, and has been widely praised by the society. ”
With the sound of the train moving forward at a constant speed and rhythm, Zhao Yali silently said to Chen Weishan in her heart: As long as I live in this world, you will always be yours, and you will always be mine, and no one is allowed to abandon anyone, we must learn from Beethoven, Ostrovsky and Zhang Haidi's tenacious spirit of facing life and be strong in life......
When people are on a journey, whether they are lovers or husband and wife, some can only share blessings and benefits, but they cannot share difficulties; And some can only share hardships and hardships, not blessings...... The world is big, people's hearts are different, and there are thousands of strange things throughout the ages...... Zhao Yali thought far and wide, thinking of employment after graduation, of the fierce competition in the future workplace, of getting married and having children, and of the support of the elderly on both sides...... All kinds of thoughts, every strand of them hold her heart and her responsibility......
It was already more than eight o'clock in the evening when the train arrived at Donghai Railway Station, Zhao Yali and Chen Weishan each ate a bowl of mutton braised noodles at the braised noodle restaurant at the school gate, and then went back to the dormitory to rest, and agreed to eat together in the school cafeteria at seven o'clock tomorrow morning, and go to the "Singing and Dancing" website together at eight o'clock to sign up for the competition......
In the afternoon, Haiyan finished writing "Suggestions on the Development of Hongye Group" in just one hour, because these suggestions were questions she didn't know how many times she had thought about, so she thought that Chairman Xu Jinze was in a meeting and was going to contact him another day. She stood in front of the window and looked at the sea, when she thought of meeting Xu Jinze, an indescribable sense of happiness surged in her heart, and all kinds of wonderful associations could not help but appear in her mind, at this moment, she seemed to see Xu Jinze smiling and listening to her gushing speech, and her eyes have been staying on Xu Jinze's face, Xu Jinze's slightly dark face is full of healthy ruddy, and her amiable expression is full of resolute looks, she is looking at Xu Jinze while trying her best to freeze this image in her mind, She wished that this image would appear in her mind every day, forever and ever...... Today, after the adventure with Xu Jinze at the Four Seasons - Xi'an Flavor Restaurant, Haiyan quickly combined the legendary Xu Jinze introduced by others in the past with the Xu Jinze she saw with her own eyes, and she cherished every impression Xu Jinze gave her in her mind, and involuntarily entered the situation of worship and infatuation with Xu Jinze......
At this time, a gust of sea breeze blew, blowing up the curtains and dancing in front of Haiyan's eyes, interrupting Haiyan's association, she suddenly missed her father very much, since she was five years old after her mother died, Dad is her only relative who depends on each other, she feels the happiest moment is when Dad accompanies her to eat, she keeps asking Dad some of the reasons she doesn't understand, Dad patiently told her a lot of truths that make her suddenly enlightened, she looked at Dad with satisfaction and laughed, intoxicated in the infinite innocence......
Haiyan happily came to the department store with her Bank of China Greatwall card to buy a beautiful dark blue T-shirt for her father, and she wanted to honor his father with the first pot of gold she had earned in her life, which was also the happiest thing for her......
When Haiyan handed the T-shirt to his father, indicating that he had bought it with the first pot of gold he earned, his father couldn't help but burst into tears, he thought that he had worked hard to pull the child up, and the child finally had the ability to earn money, how could he not be excited......
Dad told her that her stepmother went on a business trip to the Northeast, and then Dad made a few of her favorite dishes when she was a child......
Xie Yuhan accompanied Xia Wusheng to the District Civil Affairs Bureau in the afternoon to get the marriage certificate, and then went straight to the airport hotel and stayed in room 12 on the 9th floor.
Xia Wusheng suggested that the two of them take a shower first and then go to the restaurant to eat. Yuhan had just finished taking a shower and didn't have time to get dressed, when Xia Wusheng suddenly hugged her from behind: "Madam, my beautiful lady, let's rest for a while before going to eat." With that, he carried her to the bed...... Outside the window, the sea was undulating and rolling for a long, long time......
Xia Wusheng, who was sweating profusely, went to the bathroom to take a shower again, and Yu Han was lying there with his eyes slightly closed, and his face was lying there as if he was still in a dreamlike situation...... She often divides the siege of marriage into three districts, the first is the villa area, the second is the group area of high-rise buildings, and the third class is the shantytown, she thinks that she has lived in the villa area, and the luxury life she dreamed of has finally come true, and since then she has entered the upper class, living in a luxury house, taking a luxury car, not worrying about food, not worrying about clothing, is this kind of wealth the happiness of life? But she was very sensitive to the fact that after receiving the marriage certificate today, it seemed that Xia Wusheng immediately flashed an aggressive domineering, a kind of self-respecting arrogance, and after coming to the airport hotel room, Xia Wusheng suddenly checked her mobile phone text messages and received and missed phone numbers without her permission, this behavior made her very angry, but she considered that she had just received the marriage certificate, and she didn't want anything unpleasant to happen, and she suppressed the fire in her heart. All these made her vaguely worried and melancholy in her heart, but she repeatedly warned herself: never say, learn to be patient...... It is not easy to let the wound in the relationship between husband and wife, and once the wound appears, it is difficult to heal...... How to tame this wild horse-like husband, she has no bottom in her heart now, she wants to observe it carefully, and wait until she understands his personality characteristics, but there is one thing she is determined, she will never be the kind of soft wife who will only enjoy happiness when she stretches out her hand to eat and open her mouth, and she must be a strong wife who can truly control the overall situation......
Born in a family of education, Xie Yuhan has been influenced by a superior culture since she was a child, and her parents like to use the professional thinking of teachers to arrange her daily life, and strictly require her to study at every stage. She has been a child who loves to read since she was a child, she is gifted and intelligent, and her memory is very amazing, she has read a lot of books over the years, especially interested in Chinese history, the changes of dynasties, the fate of emperors and generals, the situation inside and outside the court, the mystery of success and failure, she has said everything. There are many successful women in Chinese history, but Yu Han is determined to win the strengths of all families and walk out of a path of their own success, in her mind, those successful women have great limitations, have fatal weaknesses, she often thinks that if she is in that historical position, she will do better, more outstanding, better than them. On the way to the airport hotel with Xia Wusheng after receiving the marriage certificate today, she announced to herself in her heart that from today onwards, she will officially enter the first step to rule the Xia dynasty, she is a person with tenacious will and perseverance, as long as it is something she decides carefully, no matter how difficult it is, she will unswervingly achieve her goal. Over the years, she has always liked to think in multiple directions, and always likes to ask herself three whys in her heart: Why is this happening? What should I do? What will be the consequences of my doing so? She is quick-witted, eloquent, and a scheming woman. Her laughter has an extraordinary charm, no matter where she goes, she always arrives, hearty laughter comes first, people who are familiar with her, as soon as they hear her sweet and moving laughter, they know that the beautiful blonde Xie Yuhan is coming.