When I was a child, we had a lot of thoughts that now seem silly and funny, such as why I wasn't good-looking enough, there was no word handsome at that time, why didn't my parents buy me better ones, why my eyes were myopic so early, and it was very unusual to wear glasses at that time, but I was ridiculed by the whole class as a four-eyed chicken for two years, until everyone started to wear glasses. Comparisons are still prevalent in middle and high school, and then in the blink of an eye, they go to college. At first, I was very uncomfortable, the first discomfort was that there was no one around, I ate and went to school alone in the car, and when I got together in a small group in high school, I always felt that the life of a person was unimaginable, and just getting close would feel like I couldn't breathe on the moon. I never thought that it would not be long before I lived such a life, I would subconsciously envy when I watched others get together, and I felt that others were looking at me when I was eating alone. At that time, I was far from being in the state of mind when I wrote "Loneliness is a must for you", but blindly thought that loneliness was shameful.

Loneliness is never shameful, and people who think loneliness is shameful are shameful.

In addition to this, I also began to inevitably encounter frustrations, unlike in the past, as long as I worked hard, I could always do well in the exam, but how could life only be exams. From joining the work to the present, it can't be said that it is smooth sailing, but there is no catastrophe, and I no longer want to read those exam books, so I began to write my own personal essay collection "Youth Untitled", record my own bits and pieces, and read some reading materials to empty myself.

You know that loneliness and frustration will suddenly come to you at some point and become a part of you, and maybe this is a process that everyone has to go through. Later, I remembered my myopia, some things cannot be avoided, we have to get used to it, we must be our own as we are, accept our loneliness, frustration, and loss, and learn to get along with ourselves like this. If you want to overcome these, you must first accept them and accept all your shortcomings.

It's fair to say that sometimes it's much more useful to admit that you're weak than to pretend to be strong.

First of all, you have to realize that you are not strong, so that you can know yourself, and you can know who you really are. There are a lot of people around me who can't accept loneliness, can't accept boredom, can't accept failure, can't admit themselves, so they always have to decorate themselves with all kinds of material things and lies in front of people, thinking that this will be perfect. However, after a long period of contact, you will know that getting along with such a person will have a sense of unreality, just like when you are in contact with a virtual thing, what you feel and what you feel is false and flashy. And when no one can see them (in fact, this is most of the time, after all, a person's time in front of people is limited), they are empty, lonely, sad and anxious. Because they can never find their truest selves, they are used to playing various roles and end up being just empty shells. So they will always suddenly feel lonely, anxious, and lost, and no matter how busy they are, they can't fill their hearts.

I think everyone grows up feeling the most unique when they are young, and then they start to deny their old selves. Life is probably swinging in constant inexplicable self-confidence and inferiority until you find a balance. Later, I found that the best state is to be humble with the world, to be independent from myself, and then to fully realize what kind of person I really are.

Loneliness may be difficult, but it's a part of me and I accept it. I may not have a lot of talent, but that's part of me, and I'm comfortable accepting it. Because of this, I feel fulfilled, and I feel that I am truly living every day. Whether it's in front of others or in times of frustration, I can keep my rhythm coming. People who run away from themselves can only lead to the collapse of their own world in the end, and become more and more insecure. Fulfillment can only be from the inside out, and a sense of security is always the most reliable for yourself. Unlike pretending to be strong, it is rooted in the earth and will not fall down when the wind blows it.

A person can fool in front of others, but if he can't pass his own level, it doesn't make any sense. The so-called growth is to be more and more able to accept yourself as you are, and to get along better with your lonely self, your lost self, and your frustrated self, and accept it. Then face it, everyone will have a low time, but don't let it affect you to move forward. And I'm probably such a clumsy person. Since I was a child, I didn't say good things about candy that I wanted to eat, but when I grew up, I was glad that there was an invention like a supermarket that could support myself without talking. As for the future and the path to take, some people are very smart enough to find an exit, and some people are quick to give up some easily. I just couldn't give up and wasn't so smart, so I had to exchange time for talent, hard work for luck, and go on so clumsily. Yes, I'm weak in a way, but that's my strength.

The best appearance of a person is probably to be calmer, accept all your weaknesses calmly, no longer be anxious about how others are doing, and still be able to maintain the rhythm when no one can see you. In this way, you may walk very slowly, but you will walk more solidly than anyone else, and you don't have to be afraid to step on the air with one foot, and you don't have to be afraid to go to other people's tracks.