What does the first meeting look like, when, and where? Speaking of which, I seem to have forgotten about it. I only remember that red, the red seems to make the world lose its color, and there is only the blazing red in your eyes. Chen Zhi, do you still remember the first time we met?

I said I was about to forget, but I lied to you, I always thought that your red will be the deepest mark of my life, how could I forget everything about you? But later, I realized that time can smooth out everything, including memory.

Do you know. Your image is already blurry in my mind, it's been a long time since we've seen each other. And for now, this state of affairs will continue.

You are the proton of Qiguo, and I am the concubine of Zhao Guofuguo's family, and the identity on the two of us is a joke for us. I don't believe in identity barriers, and I try to get closer to you. I'm a blue girl, how could I be disturbed by a small identity restriction! I, Lan Yao, have always done whatever I liked, so I indulged myself and indulged myself like you.

For the first time, I felt distressed for a man, and I felt sorry for that mask-like smile, how many times have I wanted to tell you, if you don't want to laugh, you don't have to laugh, I will cover you in the future. But I know it's just rhetoric, and it's pointless. For example, the concubine who was in a bad mood and hit you casually. I'm angry with her and feel sorry for you, but what can I do?

That concubine may be punished but more likely it will not affect at all, and I, I can only quietly pray that she will be punished, but there is no substantive action. It's also the first time that I have experienced my weakness and helplessness, and I really can't cover you at all.

I quietly took the ointment and gave it to you, and this is the best thing I can do for you.

Approaching you again and again, every time I get closer to you, my heart is full of joy, it is full of sweetness.

Actually, I envy Jing Ning very much, not envy her identity or anything else, but envy that she can be with the person she likes brightly, it's really good.

Two people who like each other, the most beautiful thing is that they have a marriage contract that binds the two since they were young, and when they are older, they can get married after counting the days, and they are really always together.

We've missed out on our childhood sweethearts, and I don't want to miss the rest of my life with you.

So, I boldly sent you an invitation to go to my Zhuangzi outside the city, and you readily agreed. In fact, at the moment you agreed, my mood really soared to the extreme, and you also have a good impression of me, who said that we can't be together in the end. I, Lan Yao, have always been a rulebreaker.

Spending time in Zhuangzi outside the city was the most enjoyable time for me, and I don't know if you would think so too. There are no annoying people, only beautiful scenery and confidants, and there are people you love the most; There is no deceit, every day is full of happiness and joy when I see the person I like.

Jing Ning and Xiao Rin were in love there, Xiao Yuan seemed to have won the Wind Pavilion as well, and I have you by my side. It's beautiful, it's good. The beauty is not real, the good is not real. As I bathed in the sunset with you, I thought, let's just go on like this, how good it is. The years are quiet, and the life is safe.

Before leaving Zhuangzi, you said to me softly, "Die young, embroider a sachet for me." The voice was low and gentle and seductive, and later I often covered my face to recall this paragraph, and my heart was full of shyness. Was it the thought in my heart that I had all along, or was I confused by your voice at that moment, so that I agreed with you so easily?

This is the last time we'll see each other.

When I came back, I felt that everything had changed, and rumors quietly arose. Actually, I don't care, I like you, I like Chen Zhi, even if you are a proton of Qiguo, but I just like you, what can I do? But I'm sorry, or helpless, I need to think about the Fuguo Mansion that gave birth to me and raised me.

I was grounded, I was loved by my grandfather who loved me the most, I don't blame him, I resented the person who spread the rumors. Qianqian analyzed, but those few people, hmph, only those few people's virtues still want to ascend to the supreme throne, wishful thinking. Whoever stands in our way will not end well, and this is my curse.

I obediently stayed in the Fuguo Mansion, this is my most well-behaved time, I didn't sneak out of the mansion, I think, I'm so well-behaved, grandpa can lift my grounding as soon as possible, so that I can see you again as soon as possible.

I pinched the sachet embroidered for you, a red plum, I am good at dancing guns and swords, I don't love female workers, will you dislike my rough craftsmanship? I figured out that even if you don't like it, I'll force you to say what you like.

After all, I sacrificed a lot for this sachet, because of this sachet, I still need to embroider a few more sachets for my grandfather and parents, fortunately I was grounded, so I can be patient again, otherwise I would have secretly run out to see you!

I thought it would be good to just be grounded and wait for the storm to pass. But I never thought that I would be forced to go to my hometown, do you know that I am going to be forced to leave? went to Yangzhou without any acquaintances, and didn't even know how long to stay.

I cried and ran to find Jing Ning, and I asked her if she could help me give you the sachet. Jing Ning said that it is not safe to do this, yes, at this moment, it seems that everything has to be more careful. I stared blankly at the sachet in my hand, I had embroidered it, but I couldn't give it to you with my own hands, but I couldn't give it to you, and I didn't even know if I could give it to you again.

Yangzhou is really deserted, although the scenery is very good, the climate is also very good, but there is no favorite of you. I held the bag in my hand and counted the days. When will you come to pick me up, when will we see each other again. I've changed, I'm not like myself at all, I'm not crazy anymore, I'm just sitting there and remembering, remembering all your past and mine. Even if I think so, with your presence, it will still be beautiful, and my smile will still be very sweet.

Finally, I was taken back to the capital, I sat in the carriage, staggered into the capital, looked at the bustling street market, looked at the majestic palace, and suddenly some tears welled up in my eyes. Finally, I stepped on a piece of land with you, and breathed the dry breath of the oppressive and exclusive capital.

Oh, that's just what I thought, thought I was syncing towards you. But in fact, you're missing.

You go back to the country of prayer, go back to your own country, be your own king, I believe you have that ability, as long as you want, you will definitely be able to.

Actually, I would love to ask you, did you leave voluntarily, what about me, what should I do? Did you hesitate for a moment before you left, thinking about me?

So we... Will we see each other again? But what's the use, by the time we meet again, you'll already have a wife and children. My wife is not me.

I suddenly understood the shackles of identity, and I couldn't break it.

I don't have a chance to give it to you again, and I don't want to give it to you all of a sudden, and you won't want it again. But I was reluctant to throw it away.

In the capital, it's snowing. Chen Zhi, goodbye.