Cardamom did not take the umbrella handed over by the bodyguard and left the hospital in heavy rain.

She had just taken a shower when she got home when she received a call from her agent.

"Cardamom, you just knelt at the door of the hospital?"

"Hmm." Cardamom was stunned, "How do you know?" ”

"Someone took a video and a photo and posted it on the Internet, but fortunately, people who are not familiar with you can't recognize it in the dark light, and the video and photo haven't attracted much attention, and I've already dealt with it here." Agent Cao Mei sighed, "Cardamom, what's going on?" ”

"You know about Dong Wei's car accident, right? Mu Rong thought I did it, and punished me. ”

Cao Mei was stunned for a moment, "Then Mr. Mu won't cut off your resources in the future, right?" ”

"I don't know, if he wants to break it, he will break it, and I will continue to mix it up. And even if he covers the sky with one hand, there are still some people who are not afraid of power, and it is impossible not to give me a way to live. Cardamom said, suddenly frowning, "Shhh ”

"Cardamom, what's wrong with you?"

"I suddenly had a stomachache and hissed ......"

"You wait, I'll go over to you right away."

When Cao Mei came, Cardamom was already curled up on the sofa in pain, his face was pale and his forehead was a layer of cold sweat.

"Could it be acute appendicitis? I'll take you to the hospital right away. ”

Cao Mei drove Cardamom to the hospital, and the doctor did some examination and took an X-ray and concluded, "It's not appendicitis, it's just fetal gas." ”

Cardamom was stunned, and Cao Mei was also dumbfounded.

Why did I find out that I was pregnant at this time!

Cardamom clenched the snow-white sheets under her, "Doctor, I didn't know I was pregnant. ”

"Early pregnancy." The doctor said, "Your uterus is relatively backward and thin, so it is less likely to get pregnant. This kid, how did you decide? ”

"I ...... I think about it, thank you, doctor. ”

The doctor nodded, "If you decide to have this child, you need to have a good examination." If you don't want to, then schedule time as soon as possible to do human-flowing. But there is one thing I need to make clear to you, you have difficulty getting pregnant, and if you don't want this child, there is a high chance that you will not have another child in the future. ”

"I see."

Cao Mei helped Cardamom out of the emergency room and found a chair to sit down in the dark hospital corridor at night.

"What are you going to do? Do you want to tell Mr. Mu? ”

"Can't!" Cardamom grabbed Cao Mei's hand, "Sister Cao, it's impossible for Mu Rong to ask me to give him a child, and ...... Dong Wei is back, I shouldn't be around him for long, this kid ......"

Cardamom clenched the socket of her back teeth, her heart churning with colic, "This child can't stay." ”

"Then you should tell Mr. Mu, right? He may be angry if he knows that you have lost his child. ”

"Can't let him know." Cardamom said: "Sister Cao, you have to help me keep this matter a secret no matter what." I know you feel sorry for me, otherwise you wouldn't think about me everywhere. But I know what I am, this child didn't come at the right time, and he shouldn't have been. ”

"I can help you keep it a secret, but you have to think about it too." Cao Mei also felt distressed when she looked at her pale face, "Let's not talk about whether Mr. Mu admits to acknowledging this child or not, you also heard what the doctor said just now." If you remove the baby, you may not get pregnant again in the future. ”

Cardamom was silent.

The two of them sat quietly in the dimly lit hallway, and I don't know how long it took before Cardamom finally spoke, "If you can't, you can't." Even if I have a child, it is just repeating my fate, and not coming to this world is also a relief for the child. ”

"Make your own decisions. If you really want to take it out, I'll arrange a hospital for you. ”

"Sister Cao......"

"Don't worry, you will avoid Mr. Mu's eyes and ears. It's just that you can't sit in a small confinement and rest all the time. After all, with your previous work status, suddenly taking a break like that for a while will raise suspicions. ”

"I know. Sister Cao, thank you. ”

"Don't thank me." Sister Cao sighed, "I gave you an audition for the second female number, and I will have surgery tomorrow morning and go to the audition in the afternoon." ”

"No problem." Cardamom stood up, "Let's go, go back." ”

Sister Cao drove, Cardamom sat in the back seat and turned her face to look out the window, her hand unconsciously touching her flat lower abdomen.

A life was being conceived there, and if it weren't for today's accident, she wouldn't even feel it at all.

It's just that I just met by fate, and I'm about to say goodbye.

Baby, it's a pity not to be your mom. I hope that you can find a happy family and grow up safe and happy for a lifetime.

I...... I'm sorry......

Tears burst out of her eyes.

Cardamom raised his hand to wipe it off, hooked the corners of his mouth and chuckled, those things that should not be extravagant should be expected anymore.

She had been with Murong since she was seventeen years old, and now four years later, in a few months she would be twenty-one years old.

"Sister Cao, don't send me to the apartment, I want to go home and see."

"Back to your house?" Cao Mei was stunned for a moment before saying, "Okay." ”

Cao Mei turned the car around and drove towards the city's urban village.

The place was old and dilapidated, there were not even a few bright street lamps on the street, and there was a smell of dilapidation everywhere.

The people who still live here today, except for those who have not waited for the demolition and have no money to move out, are left with all kinds of tenants.

After all, the rent is cheap, and you can also steal electricity and the Internet outside.

Cao Mei sent Cardamom downstairs and said that she would come early tomorrow morning to pick her up before leaving.

Cardamom stood under the old seven-story building, looking up in the dim light of the sky.

When she met Murong at the age of seventeen, she naively thought that this was a light shining into her dark life.

She approached cautiously, humbly and timidly delighted, like a thief trying to hide the light in her pocket.

But she forgot that light never belonged to darkness!

She couldn't get out of this darkness either.

After all, she is just a humble and cowardly thief and liar who never dares to walk in the sun generously.

Cardamom smiled lowly and walked into the corridor where the sensor lights were not on.

The corridor was very dirty, there was garbage thrown away, and there was drunk vomit from people, and no one cleaned it for years.

Cardamom went up to the third floor, took out the key in her bag and opened the door, and there was a disgusting strong smell of alcohol.

Her dad was lying on the old fabric couch with the bottle in his arms, still clutching the belt that had been pulled off.

Cardamom's heart tightened, and she walked quickly to the room, took out the key and opened the door to enter.

The skinny child was curled up at the foot of the bed, holding his thin body in his hands, already asleep.

Cardamom turned on the light and stepped forward, and at a glance saw the newly drawn scar on the child's arm.

"Huh?" The child woke up, subconsciously trembling and hid back, and only stopped when he saw who it was, and stammered and said timidly, "Sister, sister." ”

"It's me." Cardamom carried the child to the bed, "Lai Ba beat you again when he was drunk?" ”

Lai Ba is her father.

Although Xiaodouzi is twelve or thirteen years old, she is thin and thin, and she looks like a child of five or six years old, and because she has autism, she will never say anything other than stammering and calling her sister. The development of IQ is also very slow, and there is stupidity in his eyes.

He was holding Cardamom's hand with attachment, and he couldn't understand what Cardamom was saying at all. Or if you understand it, you can't figure out what those words mean.

Cardamom gritted her teeth, "Don't be afraid, my sister will give you medicine." ”

Xiaodouzi relied on her very much, and sat obediently waiting for her to be drugged.

Cardamom looked at the scars on his body, old and new, and crunched in his back teeth.

She mixed into the entertainment industry, although she is not very good now, but she has some income, and she has long wanted to take Xiaodouzi to live with her.

But Xiaodouzi has no way to leave the familiar environment, and once she leaves, she will be agitated and even self-harmed.

Cardamom had no choice but to let him continue to live here, give Lai Ba money fixedly, and warn him not to fight Xiaodouzi again. But now it seems that the effect of the warning is not obvious.

"Sleep, my sister is guarding you, don't be afraid."

Little Beanzi looked at her and closed her eyes for a while to sleep.

When he fell asleep, Cardamom went out and kicked at Lai Ba, who was lying on the sofa.

", who?! Find the dead old man to kill you! Holy! Lai Ba was kicked to the ground, got up drunk, and scolded before he could see who it was.

Cardamom stared at him coldly, "How did you guarantee when you took the money from me?" ”

Lai Ba squinted his eyes to see who the person who came, "Hehe, who should I be, it turned out to be the big boss of our family." What's going on? When you have money selling meat with others, you feel that you are awesome, and you can show off your power in front of Lao Tzu? Tell you, no matter who you climb on, then you are also a thing that Lao Tzu ejaculated, and you deserve to raise Lao Tzu for the rest of your life! If you want money, you have to ...... Belch...... You have to give! Dare to threaten Lao Tzu, I really think I am some kind of awesome force. Hahahaha! ”

Cardamom was furious in his chest, and he raised his leg and kicked Lai Ba's belly.

Lai Ba was drunk and couldn't stand steadily, but she kicked over in an instant, fell on the coffee table, and rolled to the ground with a thunderbolt.

"You take the money from me and promise not to beat the little beans again. If you hit him again, don't think about taking another penny from me, don't you hear? ”

"Damn, you slut, you dare to beat you Laozi! Lao Tzu will kill you today! ”

Cardamom stepped on him and made him unable to move, "Lai Ba, I'll tell you!" If it weren't for my own father, I would have killed you a long time ago. ”

Lai Ba was stunned.

Cardamom took out a thousand cash from her bag and threw it on the ground, turning around and going back to Little Bean's room.

She closed the door, and she could still hear Raiba's crooked cursing in the room, and finally the sound of the door closing.

Needless to say, Lai Ba must have taken the money and went out to gamble again.

Cardamom stood tired for a while before lying down next to Little Bean, and slept next to the child.

The next morning, she bought breakfast for Xiaodouzi and told him to eat well and take medicine before leaving with Cao Mei to go to the hospital.

Cao Mei glanced at her in the rearview mirror, "Didn't sleep well?" Did you do it with your dad again last night? ”

"Well, he hit the bean again." Cardamom rubbed her eyebrows.

"You can find a way to get the little bean out and live there."

"It's useless. I've tried before, and if I take him out to live, he will be upset and self-harmed, but if I hadn't found it in time, he wouldn't have been able to save him. Cardamom turned her head to look out the car window, "Let's treat the disease first, and when the disease is cured, it will naturally be able to be brought out." ”

Cao Mei wanted to say that even if Xiaodouzi was curing, but living in such an environment, he was always beaten, and I was afraid that the effect of treatment would be minimal.

It's like an endless cycle, if Xiaodouzi's illness is not cured, he can't leave that home. But staying at that home when he was being treated, that was the cause of his autism.

Induced while treating, no one knows when it will be a head.

And cardamom is wrapped up in this endless loop, never seeing where the future lies.

When I arrived at the hospital, I did a series of examinations first, and when I was about to enter the operating room, Cao Mei said: "Cardamom, have you thought clearly?" If you go in and out, you can't regret it. ”

"Figured it out. Don't worry, something like that...... I'm used to it. ”

If you don't have any hope, you won't be disappointed.

She was in the dark, and when she opened her eyes, all she could see was darkness, so she could only close her eyes and move forward step by step.

Cardamom smiled, followed the doctor into the operating room, and lay down on the operating table.

The nurse was doing the preparation work next to her, and the doctor was holding the syringe, "Now I'm going to inject you with anesthetic, is that okay?" ”

"Yes."

Cardamom stared at the ceiling, her head drifting into a drowsy light.

Goodbye, baby.