Because of his phrase "Come to me", I was absent-minded all day.

It naturally cleared me that he did not say this out of love, but out of humiliation and revenge.

But what can I do? Run away?

I can't escape!

Because Sister Ling also interviewed Huo Nanyi alone, she was praised by the boss, she was in a good mood, so she invited everyone in the editorial department to dinner.

I refused on the grounds that I was not feeling well.

After work, I also left the company. But he didn't go home, he walked aimlessly on the street, like a walking corpse, not knowing where to go.

Looking at the street by people coming and going, to the beginning of the lights, there are few pedestrians. The hustle and bustle purified into silence, but none of it had anything to do with me.

In my world, there is only heavy sin and darkness.

At seven o'clock, I walked in the direction of the bar.

When I arrived at the bar, it wasn't eight o'clock. I found Sister Sun in advance and explained to her that I would not come again in the future.

She didn't ask much, just said that she would talk to her boss later, and by the way, she would settle her salary.

As usual, I finished tonight's procedure.

When I went back to the dressing room to change clothes, Sister Sun gave me my salary, patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Cherish!" ”

I bowed and said, "Sister Sun, thank you for taking care of you in the past few years, please say goodbye to my sisters on my behalf, and say 'thank you' by the way." ”

I have been playing the piano in this bar for more than three years.

On the day of 11/13/13, I will never forget it.

On that day, it was snowing lightly in Zilan City. I finally fled to the safety of this small city with only a bag and a beige trench coat on my hand.

Choosing it as the destination was just a fortuitous mistake. Originally, I was going to Luning City, but I was in a trance, so I accidentally came here.

The pickpocket may have seen that I was a stupid little girl who was so bullied, and as soon as I got out of the car, I was robbed, and the few hundred dollars left in the bag were gone.

That night, I huddled in front of a bakery, hungry and cold, and suffered all night.

The next day, I was looking for things to do, but I was a complete "three-no" product: no diploma, no technology, no experience. My legs are thin, and no one wants me.

Night fell, and I was like a wandering spirit without a belonging. With a bag in his arms, he swayed through the street with his cloak scattered.

At that time, I thought I was a proud princess. Even if he was so hungry that his chest was close to his back, he bit his lip and couldn't let go of his dignity to beg for food.

dragged his weak body and walked, and he didn't know where he went. It's just that I'm hungry and want to cry, and I'm so cold that I want to die.

In a daze, I followed some people into the bar, which was Shenghuang Bar.

Stepping inside, the lights were dim, the heavy metal music almost broke my ears, the heavy smell of wine was pungent, and I felt that my empty stomach was tumbling and vomiting.

The waiter came over, saw that I had soiled their bar, and politely said, "Miss, are you okay?" ”

I looked at him in amazement, for I mistook him for caring about me, a stranger who had soiled their territory, and I had an indescribable feeling in my heart.

But his next words made me see the reality.

He said: "In view of the fact that you have soiled our bar, please compensate 300 yuan, thank you for your understanding!" ”

I almost burst into tears when I heard his words, but I held back.

I know that no one will ever feel sorry for my tears anymore.

"I'm sorry! I don't have any money. "I tried to stand up straight, bowed and apologized, and showed great sincerity.

It's a pity that my sincerity is not even a fart in his eyes.

"No money? What should you coax a three-year-old? You don't have money and you run to the bar to get drunk? If you don't have money, you're still drunk and smashing the field? Why do you think it's a charity, huh? ”

He took off all his polite pretense and yelled at me. At that time, I didn't even breathe, for fear that he would beat me up directly.

After he finally finished yelling, I cautiously raised my eyes and caught a glimpse of a piano in front of me, and I don't know where I got the courage to walk straight towards the piano.

Before the waiter caught up, I sat down and started playing.

Maybe it was to save face, but the bar, which was still dancing around the crowd just now, suddenly fell silent, as if it was listening to my music attentively.

At the end of the song, there was a wave of applause.

The waiter came and dragged me off the stage, and he took me backstage and told Sister Sun what had just happened.

Sister Sun looked at me with a cigarette smoke and only asked me, "How old are you?" ”

I honestly returned: "I just turned 19 two days ago. ”

She looked at me again, snuffed out her cigarette, and said, "I'll follow my sister in the future!" Then he threw me a slip skirt and said, "Put it on!" Come with me! ”

I didn't say no because I was really hungry.

She took me to the Qing Bar, and that was the night my career began.

Gradually, I stopped resenting the chaos of the bar.

When I found out I was pregnant three months later, I was thoroughly in love with it, and only this chaos was the only luxury I deserved.

When I was five months pregnant, I left the bar. Although the little sisters inside were all very nice, I was still afraid, afraid that they would know about my dirtiness, afraid of being ridiculed.

So sometimes when they "gave up" to save me, I panicked because I deceived them with my pure appearance.

But human selfishness blocked my sincerity, and I never had the courage to expose such an unbearable self to them.

I used deception to win their favor and goodwill protection.

As a liar, I don't even have the qualifications to say "thank you" to them.

I straightened up and started to change my clothes.

"Click!" Sister Sun lit a cigarette and half-leaned on the dresser, her eyes staring at me all the time.

She looked a little panicked at me, because there was an inexplicable smile in her eyes, which seemed to be sarcastic and happy.

"Muzi, you're leaving, and you don't plan to tell the truth to your sister? You're not an orphan, are you? ”

I buttoned my buttons and looked up at her.

In the end, he nodded and said, "No." ”

"So you're a rich daughter and playing away from home?"

I smiled bitterly, shook my head and replied, "Sister Sun, you think too much, how can there be so many rich daughters who experience poor life in reality." Even if there were, it wasn't me. ”

Sister Sun looked like she had to break the casserole and ask to the end.

I put on my coat and said, "I'm just a cowardly fugitive from life." ”

took the bag, went up and hugged her, "Sister Sun, I really appreciate your cultivation and kindness." I'll go first, you can go back and rest early! Good bye! ”

Without waiting for Sister Sun to say anything more, I strode out of the dressing room. Actually, I'm running away, I'm afraid that if I stay any longer, I'll tell Sister Sun everything.

Nowadays, I am most afraid of being seen through, because I am afraid that they will see the filth inside me.