After a night of barely freezing to death, I got hungry and habitually went outside looking for bins.

After looking around, I found that the gap between the county seat and the prefecture-level city is not only the railway station, but also the garbage bin.

The garbage bins in the county not only do not have expired food thrown away in the supermarket to pick up, but also have no food to satisfy the stomach.

I was so hungry that I had the urge to grab a handful, and it was a big deal to go to prison.

The next day, I crouched weakly on the side of the road, looking at the passers-by, examining who was my prey.

My first target was a trembling old lady. I guess she's too old to resist, so if I rob her, it should be easy, right?

I gritted my teeth and secretly wanted to do it. But a second before I started, I remembered my grandmother, and in the endless grief and longing, I chose to give up.

My second target was a woman on crutches. She had leg problems, and I figured if I snatched her bag, she wouldn't be able to catch up with me.

But this idea was dispelled when a little boy ran over to her with a smile and called her "Mommy......

After waiting for a morning, I chose several goals, but in the end, for one reason or another, I gave up again.

Perhaps, I don't want to rob at all. I'm just a poor hungry man, I just want to eat a full bite and that's it.

On the third day, after not eating for a long time, my eyes were black when I was hungry, and I wanted to fall down and never get up again.

But in the evening, when I was extremely hungry, I suddenly felt as if I was not hungry anymore, and even my whole body was as light as a swallow.

It's an amazing feeling, and it scares me at the same time.

I know that this is a physiological reaction of people before starvation, which can also be called a return to light.

But I was only hungry for three days, didn't I say that a man would die without food for seven days? Why do I only have three days, is it because I am too weak to make it to the seventh day......

Thinking about it, I looked up feebly and looked at the stars in the night sky.

It's so beautiful, I feel the stars in the sky for the first time, and I even feel that the stars tonight are more brilliant than any day in my sixteen years of life.

It's as beautiful as a mother's eyes, like a father's back, and like a grandmother's kind smile.

For a moment, I suddenly felt that it was not bad to die like this, at least I didn't have to live alone in this world, at least in another world, there was a family that loved me and accompanied me.

Thinking about it, I seemed to hear my mother's voice in my ears, and she seemed to be saying to me, "Hui'er, Hui'er, come on." Mom and Dad, and Grandma, are all waiting for you here......"

The voice was staccato and then very noisy at the end, as if a lot of people were around me, babbling about something.

I tried to listen, I wanted to see, I wanted to know who was with me, if it was my family who had come to pick me up.

As a result, I found that everything in front of me was black, and I did not look up at the sky, but closed my eyes tightly, hovering between coma and consciousness.

In a drowsy state, I felt someone feeding something to my mouth, and I subconsciously pursed it with my lips, and a sweet taste came from my mouth.

Is it soda? It's so sweet, I want to take a sip.

My mouth opened slightly, and the sweet taste entered my mouth again, and at the same time, a strong voice sounded in my ears:

"This person is still saved, Gangzi, you can get some more individual energy drinks! By the way, find an individual energy bar and crush it into it, the effect will be better. ”

"Yes, Squadron Leader!"

As I listened to their conversation, I managed to open my eyes, only to find myself lying in the field, surrounded by a group of soldiers. They were looking at me with concern or joy.

The man closest to me shook two fingers in front of my eyes and asked:

"How many fingers are there, lad?"

"Two ...... Two roots. "I said with difficulty

"Well, that's good! Don't worry, you'll be fine. ”

"Thank you...... Thank you. ”

The man smiled and nodded, and after saying a polite word, beckoned the group to carry me onto a military truck.

I later learned that I had pre-death hallucinations due to extreme hunger that day, and finally stumbled out of the county and collapsed in the wilderness.

If it weren't for the fact that there were troops engaged in field training nearby, and if it weren't for Squadron Leader Huang who rescued me, I, a wandering beggar who was deported to a strange county, would have ended up in a tragic end in the wilderness of violent corpses.

After three days in the army camp, I found myself in love with the place, and I fell in love with the carefree life that never had to worry about the world.

The most important thing is that the relationship between people here is very pure, pure to the point that there is no class, so pure that there is no indifference or numbness between the rich and the poor.

What is here is a strong sense of comradeship, and it is the heartfelt care between people.

Since then, I have made up my mind to stay, and I will not leave the camp with a dead face.

On the eve of the troops' imminent departure, I begged Squadron Leader Huang for a whole day, begging him to accept me as a "child soldier".

At first he disagreed, saying that he had no right to conscription and that I was not old enough to join the army.

In desperation, I begged him on my knees, tearfully telling what I had experienced in the past six months and my yearning for the army.

Squadron Leader Huang was moved, he sympathized with my loneliness and helplessness, and at the same time was moved by my determination to join the army.

After learning more about my situation, he reported to his superiors and asked me to let a "doll" who was not old enough and did not have enough identity materials to participate in the conscription that year.

Half a month later, Squadron Leader Huang took me back to that cold city. After several twists and turns, and after completing my identity materials, and after undergoing the physical examination and assessment of the Armed Forces Department, I became a soldier in his squadron and served until the second year after his transfer......

Time flies, and before you know it, seven years have passed. Although time has lifted my body out of that period of suffering, my devastated heart can never go back to the past, the grassland, the sky, and the deep blue ocean that belonged to me before.

When my thoughts returned to reality from reminiscence, the sky reflected a touch of crimson morning glow, I silently lit a cigarette, inhaled deeply, swallowed it into my lungs, and slowly closed my eyes full of crystals in a burst of spicy.

A touch of morning sun shines on my face through the window, the light is warm and comfortable, as if it can dispel the haze in the depths of people's hearts, and let me breathe after being tortured.

I looked at the sky outside the window, looked at the white clouds, showed a smile, and said softly:

Father, Mother, Grandma, are you all right in Heaven?

Can you see me as I am now in the distant kingdom of heaven? If you see it, I think you'll be pleased.

Hui'er was admitted to university, and Hui'er fulfilled your wishes, although it was a little late, but Hui'er did it......