Cheng Rao curled up in the corner of the bed, gasping for air.

After just now, she feels a little better now.

Cheng Rao pulled up the quilt next to her to cover her head and fell asleep.

When I woke up again, it was already the next morning.

When she opened her eyes, she habitually looked over the bed, and it was empty.

Cheng Rao sat up, raised her hand and patted her forehead, then stood up with her shoes on.

A key fell from the ground.

She crouched down, picked it up and looked at it.

Not hers. He probably stayed last night.

Cheng Rao put the key away, thinking that she would return it to him next time she had the opportunity to meet.

But when I think about it, I think it's a ridiculous idea.

In a place like this, where is the next time we meet?

Whether or not you will be alive tomorrow is a question.

Cheng Rao walked to the table next to her and prepared to wash.

When I walked over, I found a note on the table.

Cheng Rao picked up the note, and wrote a paragraph concisely and clearly: Last night, thank you.

Signed: Wei Chi.

With vigorous and powerful brushstrokes, Cheng Rao picked up the pen next to her, and her fingers slowly rubbed the barrel.

She remembered the touch of his muscles and the blood-pumping lines.

………

"Doctor Cheng, hurry up, a new patient has arrived here!"

When Cheng Rao was distracted, volunteers had already come to call her.

Cheng Rao came back to her senses, put down the pen, washed up as fast as she could, and ran to the MSF camp.

After coming over, Cheng Rao saw several children who had been shot, lying on the emergency bed with painful expressions.

These children are not very old, they look like they are only four or five years old, and they all look thin because of malnutrition.

"Cheng Rao, are you here? Hurry up and prepare for surgery, the situation of these children will not be delayed for long. ”

After the logistics staff saw Cheng Rao, it was like finding a life-saving straw.

"Okay, I'll do it right away."

After putting herself into work, Cheng Rao was attentive and serious.

The child Cheng Rao was responsible for treating had a very serious gunshot wound, coupled with his own malnutrition, and the child also suffered from congenital diseases, so he did not survive and was not breathing on the operating table.

"Breathing stops on 131, the operation is over." The nurse who was performing the operation with Cheng Rao looked at her, "Doctor Cheng, it's hard work." ”

Cheng Rao didn't speak, took off her gloves and mask, and walked outside.

………

Cheng Rao sat down on the ground, staring into the distance in a daze, her eyes dry.

She has been with Médecins Sans Frontières for more than a year, and she has watched patients die in front of her for more than a year.

She wanted to save them more than anyone else, but unfortunately in the end, she couldn't do it.

Many people who have more experience than her have told her to learn to accept it.

At least for now, she can't accept it.

"Are you uncomfortable?" When Cheng Rao was in a daze, a man walked up to her and sat on the ground with her.

Hearing this voice, Cheng Rao came back to her senses and looked over.

It's Shao Dong.

Cheng Rao and Shao Dong met when they participated in rescue activities, and since they met for the first time, the two of them have basically participated in the same rescue project, which is also a coincidence.

Cheng Rao and Shao Dong get along well, Shao Dong has more experience than her, and will give her a lot of guidance and advice at work.

"Well, it's very uncomfortable." Cheng Rao nodded, "It's really cruel to watch a life disappear like this." ”

"But that's not your responsibility." Shao Dong raised his arm and gently put it on Cheng Rao's shoulder, "Don't be too uncomfortable." ”

As soon as he bumped into him, Cheng Rao immediately subconsciously shrank his body.

After feeling her movements, Shao Dong was stunned for a moment, and then reacted.

"I'm sorry." Shao Dong took the initiative to apologize to her, "I forgot, you don't like contact with the opposite sex very much." ”

"It's okay." Cheng Rao shook her head.

Shao Dong: "Don't be too sad, I see that your face is not very good, didn't you sleep well last night?" ”

Last night...... As soon as Shao Dong mentioned last night, Cheng Rao thought of Wei Chi again.

She clenched her fists, beads of sweat oozing from her palms.

The desire in my heart began to stir again.

Cheng Rao didn't reply for a long time, Shao Dong saw that she was distracted, so he smiled and said, "It seems that she really hasn't rested well." ”

"You go to the logistics side to take a rest, and eat something by the way, I heard from them that you haven't had breakfast yet." Shao Dong reminded Cheng Rao with concern.

"You say," Cheng Rao said abruptly and asked an inexplicable question: "What are we living for?" ”

Shao Dong was silent for a while, and then replied to her: "To live is to meet the people you love the most, and also to do more good deeds." ”

Cheng Rao did not speak after listening to Shao Dong's answer.

Shao Dong raised his hand and patted her on the shoulder, using as much force as possible that would not make her uncomfortable.

"Okay, don't think about it so much, you've done your best today, and no one will blame you."

Cheng Rao: "......"

Shao Dong: "Go eat something, your blood sugar is low, you should be uncomfortable later." ”

"Thank you, Shao Dong." Cheng Rao took a deep breath and thanked Shao Dong.

Five minutes later, Cheng Rao came to the logistics office.

The logistics staff here is already delivering breakfast to everyone.

Ruan Bai saw Cheng Rao coming over and took the initiative to greet her: "Cheng Rao, you come here, I have already prepared breakfast for you." ”

Ruan Bai is a little girl in the logistics center who has a good relationship with Cheng Rao.

Cheng Rao stepped forward and took breakfast from Ruan Bai's hand, but she didn't have much appetite.

Thinking of the child who couldn't be rescued, she blamed herself incomparably -