I was so scared that I clung to the car door, and I didn't dare to beg her to slow down.

If she wants my life to pay for it, it's okay, after all, I owe her.

But, with the screech of brakes, the car stopped on the side of the road.

"Scared? Don't worry, how can my aunt be willing to kill you? Get out of the car, I'll have to go back to the meeting later! ”

She got out of the car first and waited impatiently for me.

Frightened, he got out of the car, followed her, and went up the stairs.

Until I arrived at my grandmother's grave, looking at the statue, my guilt intensified inexplicably.

Grandma's smile is so kind and kind, she must be a good mother!

Thinking of this, he looked at his aunt cautiously.

What I owe her may not only be the missing mother's love, but also a warm home.

"Auntie, can you tell me about that? Why did grandma ...... Will you save me and die? ”

She didn't answer, as if she hadn't heard at all.

But I knew she didn't want to talk to me.

I didn't ask anymore, closed my mouth, and prayed silently, hoping that my grandmother would be happy.

"Your teddy bear fell on the road, and you yelled that you had to pick it up, and she ran over without doing anything and was crushed to pieces by the truck. The flesh was blurry, and I still remember that scene, as chaotic as a ketchup spilled on the floor. ”

Her flat tone was like a knife to Ling Chi, chopping my heart little by little.

I couldn't help but clench my arms tightly, not daring to look at my grandmother's portrait, and even wishing that I still couldn't see it.

"Did you think about me at the time? For the sake of your teddy bear, he did not hesitate to pay for his own life. Does she have my daughter in mind? ”

The aunt sneered and bent down to caress her grandmother's face, "I hate this the most, obviously I am their biological daughter, but none of them love me, but they just spoil you, just because you are likable?" ”

"Auntie, I ......" bit her lip, not knowing how to explain or comfort her.

If, as she claims, I robbed her of the love that belonged to her, then what can I explain?

It's just to clear the charge of stealing her things.

But the truth is, I am a shameless thief!

"Azi, you know what? Every time I see your fingers flying on the keys, I feel the urge to chop them off. Seriously, I hate you. ”

She turned her head abruptly and stared at me, but the smile on her face never faded.

"Auntie, if you really hate me so much, then kill me! Or, I'm going to die myself. As long as you can repay my debt to you, and wash away my sins, as long as you are happy. ”

I was reluctant in my heart, for some reason, when I said this, I felt a strong traction, and my heart was guiding me to some extremely vague memories, as if, in this world, there is something else I am worth caring about.

But, in the end, what am I reluctant to give?

Just as I was in a daze, my aunt walked up to me and put her right hand on my shoulder.

"Ah Zi, my aunt has forgiven you, really. It's just that when I think of those things, my heart will always sting inexplicably, and I'm a little unwilling. ”

"You know what? I always felt homeless. Even though I live in a high-end villa and go in and out of various high-end banquets, my heart has been wandering. You won't understand this kind of uneasiness and hesitation. ”

I almost blurted out, "Do you think the same way?" But I still didn't ask.

Does my aunt feel the same way?

But I obviously saw her radiant and enjoying, how could she be the same as me?

"So, Ah Zi, don't blame Auntie, okay? I was conflicted about doing that before. I know it's your home too, but I just can't help myself. As soon as I see you, I will remember how pitiful and failed I am. Forgive my aunt for her cowardice, okay? ”

She clutched my hand, and though her palms were sweating, it was colder than I had been in the winter.

She was scared, afraid that I wouldn't forgive her.

But when am I qualified to sentence her?

Isn't I the real sinner?

"Auntie, don't be like this, I didn't blame you. I owe it to you in the first place, how could I ......"

"Come back then! Auntie needs you! Don't leave your aunt alone to guard the empty villa, Ah Zi promised her aunt, will you come back? ”

Looking at the anticipation in her eyes, the guilt deepened, and she was overwhelmed.

I clearly know that if something like this can happen once, there will be N times. I also know that she asked me to go back, the purpose is not simple, but ......

I can't afford to refuse.

A slightly wavering heart, beaten by guilt, told me that I was not qualified to refuse, and that it was my duty to meet all her demands.

Finally, in her satisfied smile, I saw my own cowardice, and the ugliness of compromise.

And just like that, I promised her. And as she wished, as soon as she returned to the city, she went directly to Sister Tang Li.

She stared at me tentatively, and I stared at her face with my eyes held up, but my thoughts had already been withdrawn, like a puppet.

"You say, you're going to resign? Mu Zi, tell my sister what you think in your heart. ”

Then, with her hands folded and her chin folded, she waited for my explanation.

"I, Sister Tang Li, it's fine, it's just that I'm tired and don't want to ......"

"Then give you time off, paid time off, until you want to come."

She blocked me domineeringly.

Still looking at me inquiringly.

Perhaps, she already knew the real reason for my departure, and she was just waiting for me to say.

"Sister Tang Li, I'm sorry! I really can't stay in Verry! Thank you for your acceptance and cultivation! ”

He bowed deeply, hurriedly straightened up, and opened the door to run out.

"Mu Zi, don't condemn yourself to death just because you took a wrong step. Go back and get some rest, and when you calm down, come back to me. ”

didn't dare to turn back, closed the door gently, didn't linger any longer, and left the company.

I came to Vierrui more than half a month after moving out of the wooden house.

At that time, my aunt stopped my and my grandfather's cards, and asked the secretary to tell me that I would be responsible for all the expenses of my grandfather in the nursing home.

And I, I don't have a penny at all, if it weren't for Su Tian's help, I'm afraid I can't even guarantee my grandfather's peace.

During that time, I was crazy about looking for a job, and then after being rejected again and again, I coincidentally met Sister Tang Li.

She looked at my design, was satisfied, and offered me a job as a designer.

Because of her importance, I regained that unique self-confidence and indulged in design. The inspiration was bursting, and the design was bold, breaking my own limitations.

Wei Errui's brand image is improving, and it is close to Mu's, which is why my aunt specially came to train me that day.

Because she accepted me when I was desperate and was willing to believe in me and appreciate me. I just wanted to work hard to repay her trust.

But in the end, I still failed Sister Tang Li's heart.

Walking aimlessly on the street, he became at a loss again.

Seriously, I don't want to have anything to do with my aunt now, and I don't want to live under the same roof with her.

At least, I'm out there, I'm free, and I don't have to remind myself all the time that I'm sorry for her, I'm guilty!

Obviously, this is my extravagant expectation.

In desperation, the next evening, I carried my sketches again, dragged the suitcase, and returned to Mu's house.

Standing in the doorway, I felt ridiculous.

He was kicked out, but he came back in disgrace.

Because I didn't have a key on me, I had to wait at the door for my aunt to come home.

Sitting in the corner, waiting left and right, but there was no trace of my aunt.

Maybe I was stupid, I didn't even want to go to the hotel to sleep for a night, so I shrunk there, hugged myself, and fell asleep in the night breeze.

It wasn't until my aunt called me that I slowly opened my eyes, but I was blinded by the dazzling light and hurriedly closed my eyes.

"Why don't you call me? Want to sleep at the door? I don't know how to find a hotel to rest, Ah Zi, why don't you still know how to take care of yourself? ”

My aunt opened the door and talked about me.

But she forgot, in fact, I told her before that she would go home yesterday evening, and I specifically asked her what time she would come home.

Her answer to me was: I'll go home after work.

However, she forgot all about me.

With a bitter smile, he got up, and "snapped" to the ground, but a piece of clothing fell to the ground, it was a men's suit.

I suddenly woke up, picked it up, touched it, and still had my body temperature, so I believed that the clothes had fallen off of me.

But who put it on me?

Kind passers-by?

But the texture of the clothes is not simple to the touch, and ordinary passers-by should not wear such clothes.

After my aunt opened the door and went in, she saw that I didn't move, so she urged me, and then hurriedly put the coat in her pocket and took it home.

It's just that when I opened the door to my room, for a moment, the smell of it came to my face, and I was so disgusted that I wanted to vomit.

I ran to the bathroom in a panic and threw up for a while.

The smell seems to have been left by my aunt and those men.

It's still there. How many times have they been here since then?

Looking at myself in the mirror, I really want to slap myself, I hate myself like this, and even despise it.

Weakly fell to the ground, biting his lower lip and weeping silently.

Suddenly, I felt that every breath of air had that dirty breath, and I just wanted to take the initiative to cut off my breath and isolate those dirty.

After I recovered, I washed the room several times with water and put on disinfectant, but the more I washed it, the more obvious the smell became.

Frustrated, he sat on the ground, letting the water flow, tears falling.

Do I really deserve such an insult because of my mistakes?

Why did my aunt say that she didn't blame me, but she wanted to do this to me? She knew very well that I had a mental cleanliness fetish. Why do you want to take revenge on me like this?

No way, at night, I didn't sleep in the room, nor did I go to sleep in the living room, because the whole building was filled with that disgusting smell.

Carrying the clothes I had brought back, I went to the garden, lay on the grass, and forced myself to stop thinking about the so-called injustices.

I finally fell asleep in the early hours of the morning, but was quickly woken up by the noise of people.

Hurriedly got up and saw that the gate was crowded with people, those paparazzi who caught the news.

I thought something was wrong with the company, so I hurriedly ran over and wanted to help my aunt block it first, but as a result,

"Miss Mu Zi, Wei Errui's internal secrets were exposed by you, right? Are you so ungrateful, crossing the river and tearing down the bridge, are you really worthy of your conscience? ”