Coming out of the community, Lin Qingqing walked directly to the subway station. She even thought about the way to die, probably she really couldn't hold on.

There were not many people in the subway station in the early morning, and the cleaning aunt was still holding a big broom to sweep up the garbage left by the pedestrians the day before. Even though it's March, the early morning fog still hangs over the city.

A cold wind blew, and Lin Qingqing couldn't help but shiver. She wrapped up her clothes tightly and walked briskly into the subway station.

It was still early and there were not many people on the subway. Finding a place where two carriages met and sat down, Lin Qingqing looked around at the people around him.

These people may have tiredness on their faces, or they may be full of vitality. Life may not treat them well, but they still stubbornly live in every corner of the city.

Lin Qingqing felt a burst of envy in his heart, how strong those who did not give up their lives no matter what desperate situation they were forced to be. She used to think she was too, but now she realizes otherwise.

Sitting all the way to the end of the subway, Lin Qingqing got up and got off the subway. She didn't say a word along the way, pretending that she was no different from the people around her.

Fortunately, he was just deaf, Lin Qingqing sighed again. In case she is blind, it is estimated that even seeking death will be a problem. She grinned a self-deprecating smile.

At the end of the subway station is the riverside, where Lin Qingqing and Jiang Nuan have been here before. At that time, the two were still young, standing by the river and watching the sunset end, they only felt that the world was so beautiful, but they never thought that one day they would end their lives in this place.

Back in the familiar place, the past immediately came flooding back like a tide. Lin Qingqing stood by the river, just like when they were twenty years old.

The style that blew from the river was cold, and they came in through the mouth of her dress, robbing her body temperature inch by inch.

Maybe it was because he was already numb, but Lin Qingqing didn't feel cold at all. She squinted at the river, and her eyes were as cold as the river.

She thought about drinking sleeping pills and leaving this world, but when she remembered that Xu Yanran was rescued, she still gave up. She thought about jumping off the building, but it was too intense, and maybe she would be scared halfway through.

After thinking about it, Lin Qingqing decided to fulfill herself in such a gentle way, which she called gentleness. Leaving in the arms of the river, maybe this is where she ends.

The morning mist slowly dissipated, and a ray of golden sunlight penetrated through the mist and lazily sprinkled on Lin Qingqing's body. Her long, curly black hair was dyed blonde, and her skin was almost transparent through the sun.

The rules of the world are such that no matter who is missing, the earth will rotate and revolve in the same way. Lin Qingqing is not the center of this world, Ou Yuanlan will live a better life without her.

Before there were more people on the riverside, Lin Qingqing finally took a step. In fact, it doesn't take much courage to die, and if a person is really disappointed, it is a relief.

Walking towards the river step by step, Lin Qingqing's heart calmed down. Descending one step, the river was only up to her knees.

It may be that the cold wind is too biting, so Lin Qingqing actually feels that the river water is warm. It's like a mother's embrace, comfortable and warm.

This kind of thought made Lin Qingqing can't help but laugh at herself, she never knew what it was like to be in the arms of the so-called mother. Maybe her mother hugged her when she was a baby, but she never enjoyed her mother's hug since she was conscious.

Descending the stairs, the river gradually submerged her waist, her shoulders, and eventually, the river burrowed into her ears and nose from all sides. She closed her eyes and endured a momentary sourness.

People will have a near-death reaction when they are about to die, Lin Qingqing's brain is still thinking. Obviously she was deaf, but why did she hear Ou Yuanlan's voice clearly at this moment?

"Qingqing, I only recognize you in my life." His gaze was deep and determined, and the look on his face did not allow for suspicion.

In a trance, she saw Ou Yuanlan wearing a black straight suit and holding a ring in his hand approaching her step by step. In another world, maybe they'll end up together.

The camera switched, and Lin Qingqing saw his mother. The mother who looks very beautiful, but will never look at herself.

She still had a cold face, holding a broom in her hand, and hit Lin Qingqing when she was a child one by one. Although she felt as if a knife had cut through the flesh when she fell, she gritted her teeth and said nothing.

Jiang Nuan also appeared, and the time went back to when they were in college, and the two met as soon as they entered the dormitory. At that time, Lin Qingqing was inferior and introverted, and Jiang Nuan, who talked a lot, pulled her to chatter non-stop.

She also saw Su Cheng, Xu Yanran, and the people of the Lin family. In short, the good and bad things in this life are all in this thought.

After choking on a few mouthfuls of river water, all these images turned into bubbles of disillusionment. Probably really leaving, Lin Qingqing pulled a smile at the corner of his mouth.

Before consciousness completely disappeared, she seemed to hear someone calling her. But she was so tired, her body was so heavy. Something seemed to be pulling her down, and she let herself slowly fall.

Thinking that everything was over, Lin Qingqing opened her eyes tiredly, and the moment she saw the snow-white wall, she really felt that she had come to heaven.

It wasn't until she vaguely heard Jiang Nuan crying that she widened her eyes as if she were in a different world. There was a roar in the cochlea, and the sound he heard just now disappeared, making Lin Qingqing almost think it was an illusion.

Jiang Nuan's face appeared in front of her, followed by Xu Yanran's face, Su Cheng's face, Bai Luo's face, and Ou Yuanlan's face. When her eyes fell on Ou Yuanlan's face, she couldn't take her eyes off it anymore.

She had never seen Ou Yuanlan like this, her face was black and terrifying, and her eyes were almost full of ice. He stared at himself so hard that she barely had the courage to move away.

It wasn't until Xu Yanran said that the doctor was here that everyone dispersed to make way for the doctor. Lin Qingqing, who was tired and weak, felt the doctor take a flashlight to open her eyelids, and then put the stethoscope on her to listen to the heartbeat.

When the cold stethoscope touched her skin, Lin Qingqing finally recognized the fact that he was not dead at all. I thought it would be so easy to leave, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult to even die.

"How?" Ou Yuanlan asked the doctor coldly.

The doctor who checked the basic vital signs made a little record, and then answered Ou Yuanlan's question, "Miss Lin's body hasn't healed last time, and this time she has been exposed to cold and entered her body, I'm afraid she will fall into the root of the disease." He told the truth.