His voice was still indifferent, but it was so cold that my heart trembled.

Despair crept through me.

Even though I hadn't experienced that, even though everything was in the past, I was still scared and helpless for him.

At the age of four, he was already shrouded in darkness, and in his childhood, there was only a shadow of terror.

How scared and helpless must he be? He must have thought about ending his life.

Can......

Trembling, he turned slowly, looked into his eyes, his lips moved a few times, but he was still silent.

I don't know what to say.

No matter what I say, I can't change those desperate facts.

Tears fell one after another, blurring his sadness.

I bit my lip in fear until the smell of blood completely numbed my nerves, and then I turned and ran away. But he still found out. ”

"He caught me running away, and that night, he was going to commit the assault. We were living next to the new building, and to avoid him, I ran to the balcony and jumped into the construction building. ”

"He chased after me, and I ran as hard as I could, but I still couldn't escape his clutches. He grabbed me and slapped me in the face, almost fainting. ”

"I'm so tired that I can't run anymore, but I'm unwilling. While he was taking off his pants, I pushed him away as best I could. Running in a panic, he tripped under his feet, fell from a tall building, and stuck in a steel bar. Luckily, I saved myself with half my life. ”

I cried and crouched on the ground in fear, forcing myself not to imagine.

I saw a scar on his left abdomen before, and I wondered what was going on, it turned out to be the claw of darkness, a rift of despair.

Sobbling, he raised his head, looked at him, and said with difficulty: "It hurts! I was choking in pain just listening to it. Huo Nanyi, thank you for your strength, wait until we meet, give me gentle care. ”

"Don't you think I'm dirty? Mu Zi, the blood on my hands is no less than Leng Xingwei. Your hands that felt warm and secure were once dirty. ”

I didn't say a word, just watched him quietly.

It's not that I think he's dirty, or that if he tells me that my hands are covered in blood, I'm going to really give up on him.

Give him up, I can't do it. It couldn't before, and now, it's even more impossible.

I want to accompany him to wash his dirty hands from the bad guys, and I want to join him in atoning for the sins of those who may be innocent.

"I know you can't take it, but I've always been scared. I'm afraid that one day you suddenly know that my past is unbearable, and I am afraid that you will suddenly leave me. Mu Zi, before I met you, the light of my life had been worn out. And you, simple and innocent, are like a warm morning light, driving away the haze. ”

"Actually, at first, I probably didn't love you, but the person who could give me a clean and peaceful heart. It wasn't until later, when you overlapped with the person in my heart, that I fell hopelessly in love with you. ”

"If you want to scold me, scold me as much as you want! I am not as good as you know, and I have been selfish, dirty, and even dark. ”

Seeing that I was motionless, he finally opened his eyes, smiled wryly, drank another glass of wine, and then put his glass down.

"If you're leaving, leave me a note. When the formalities are completed, I will ask Chen Ke to transfer you to you. Don't blame yourself, I pulled you into this filthy world. ”

Standing up, his steps fluttering, he gradually left the living room.

I didn't come back to my senses, only to hear footsteps drifting away, and I had only one impulse, which was to keep him.

"Wait!" He paused, I got up, and looked at his tired back, "Huo Nanyi, what do you mean?" Do you want to push me away with a sad story? I don't promise! ”

Approaching him, "You don't want to drive me away like this!" I won't go, and I won't die! Isn't it just someone else's blood on your hands? Then I'm dirty too. And I have my grandmother's blood on my hands, my aunt's blood. ”

"Am I hopelessly dirty, according to you? Even dying a hundred times is not enough to pay for your sins? Then why do you want me? Why don't you throw me out? Such a dirty woman doesn't deserve to stay with you at all. ”

He turned around abruptly and scolded, "I don't allow you to insult yourself like this!" Mu Zi, you ......"

"Then I won't allow you to say you're dirty! Huo Nanyi, I love you as much as you do to me. We've all been dirty, and we've had a lot of bad pasts. But the only thing I'm glad about is that I used to love you, and that's the only thing that's clean. ”

"To my Mu Zi, you are the impeccable Huo Nanyi, strong and unyielding, gentle and considerate, this is you. In my eyes, you have never been like this, and you have never changed. ”

We looked at each other, he looked at me, I looked at him, and neither of us spoke.

I know he's wavering, just as I once rebelled against him.

It's true that we're not perfect, but I'm still happy that I'm like that because I have him.

It was before and it is now.

Tacitly no longer speaking, he came over to take my hand and went upstairs to rest quietly.

As the night before, I fell asleep with my arm on my arm and my heart against him.

We didn't talk about those unhappy pasts anymore, as if they were like clouds of smoke, gradually dissipating in the cool breeze of early autumn.

And my memory, finally, awakened in the golden autumn falling wood, returned to its original appearance.

I remembered the forgotten past, bits and pieces, and it was all deeply embedded in my mind.

At the beginning of September, Maocheng, once famous for its "deep-sea apricot building", was dyed golden yellow, layered like rice fields in the wind, with layers of golden waves.

When school started at will, I met Huo Nanxi, but she still didn't want to see me, and even hated me.

I asked her about my mother, but she just slapped me angrily, gave me a hateful look, and didn't tell me what my mother had done to her.

In fact, I also asked Huo Nanyi before, but he only subtly changed the topic, and didn't seem to want me to know about it.

So, I fell into the embarrassing situation of ignorance and always hateful.

I asked many natives of Maocheng personally, and they didn't even know about my mother's existence.

She is like a legend, and a legend that is only known to a small number of people.

Unwilling to be like this, I decided to go to Su Tian for help.

After remembering all the past, I also knew about the entanglement between me and her. I have also hesitated and even been angry because of past hurts.

But when I remembered that when I had amnesia, she was always with me and helped me unconditionally. Don't know what to do?

Even though she has hurt me in the past, the help and care she has given me is enough to offset all the unpleasantness.

Because I ignored her for a long time, I felt a little reluctant to go, so I went to buy a lot of things and apologized to her.

I drove to Wutong Garden, but she was not at home, and I didn't have the key, so I had to sit at the door and wait.

From the scorching sun, to the sunset, to the twilight, she did not come back.

Sister-in-law Gui called me several times and asked when I was going home and she was ready to prepare the meal.

Fortunately, Huo Nanyi was not at home on a business trip, otherwise, I would have been dragged home.

I was bored waiting for her, I wanted to call her, but I wanted to surprise her, so I kept waiting.

Finally, when I waited for my eyelids to fight and I was sleepy, I heard her "giggle" laughter.

Stood up, straightened his clothes, and waited for her to appear.

After a while, the footsteps were getting closer and closer, and her laughter became more and more ambiguous, even accompanied by the heavy breathing of men.

With wide eyes, he felt that his existence was very disappointing, but there was no other way out, so he had to continue to wait.

Hang your head down, not wanting to embarrass them.

After about two minutes, the ambiguity grew louder, and they finally reached the door.

Seeing me, Su Tian hurriedly pushed away the man buried in her, and his face suddenly turned as white as paper.

"Mu, Muzi, why are you here? I...... You...... We ......"

"Mu Zi, long time no see! I heard Ah Tan say, you have recovered your memory, you should still remember me, right? ”

He held out his hand, waiting to shake my hand.

I looked up along the calloused hand and was amazed to see his face.

Because the man in front of me was the man I bumped into at the door of her magazine when I went to find Su Tian that time.

And, I do know him.

"Long time no see, Dong Chen."