"The concubine sends you back, the road is lost" The song ...... from one side of the palace to the other.

I followed the singing and walked into the verandah.

Dampness and musty smell intertwined, clinging to the tender green creeper leaves, and the cold wind whistled by, whirling in the ears faintly, and then disappeared.

I walked step by step, past mossy puddles and gardens full of rotting leaves.

I saw her, leaning against the middle of the corridor, her shadowy back against the light, her wide-sleeved shirt covered with oil stains and dust, and a flick of her sleeves would bring up a flutter of dust.

She sang, and I listened quietly, standing behind her.

Time passed, and I saw the woman in the pink shirt singing a cheerful song, and the disfigured palace maid next to her listened quietly, the years were quiet and the sun was shining.

In a trance, I came back to my senses.

She seemed to notice something behind her, and turned her head in confusion.

The moment she saw me, there was no emotion in her numb eyes, and she asked, "Who are you looking for?" ”

Xia Xiying understood what I meant, and stepped forward and handed her a piece of rose snow lotus cake.

She devoured it like a treasure, leaving a mouth full of pastry crumbs.

"Did the emperor ask you to come?" She was excited to pounce, but was stopped by the palace maid guards and couldn't move.

But her eyes were full of light, expecting something, fantasizing about something.

I waved them to let her go, and she was quiet again, like a frightened fawn, rolling her eyes to look around.

"Are you hungry?" I asked her.

She nodded, put her index finger in her mouth and sucked, the same as an eight or nine-year-old child.

I reached out and stroked her cheek, and perhaps her skin was no longer as smooth as jade, but rough and dull.

The color of the back of my hand contrasted with her face, and instead of the pleasure of her retribution, I felt desolate and desolate.

I fed her a piece of pastry and she ate it carefully.

I suddenly felt distressed, for her, and for the sacrificial Silver Moon.

Yinyue shouldn't have died, she was still so young, as young as Mu Han, she would have a bright future, but by mistake, she would sleep underground forever for an unworthy person like me.

The arsenic powder is sprinkled on the pastry, and the white powder and the glutinous rice flour on the pastry noodles are mixed together and blended into the delicate pattern.

She opened her mouth obediently, and I pinched the pastry and brought it to her mouth.

Although she is a useless pawn, I want to use her to warn the person who is targeting me, this is a disadvantage in exchange for human life.

It is also the prestige that I am about to become the concubine of Beiyan, and the future queen of Beiyan.

I want them to know that if they go against me, even if they hide in the cold palace, they will not escape death.

Fingers touched her chapped lips, dots of blood stained their fingertips.

"Su Jin, you can't let others bully like this anymore! You have to fight back, and if you can't, I'll protect you. ”

"What do you mean by people staying in the palace? But fortunately, I know you, and you will be my Muhan's sister in the future! ”

"You are not in good health, you must not be able to stand their criminal law, you say, this bottle was broken by me. I'm in good health, isn't it just a few boards, I'll carry it. ”

The words she had said suddenly came to her mind little by little, long ago, dusty.

The finger is released, and the pastry falls to the ground.

She cried, tears falling. "You bully people, you don't give me good food!"

"I'm sorry." She was going to pick it up, and I took her hand and hugged her.

From the beginning to the end, the person who caused this result was not anyone's fault, it was my fault.

I was clever enough to push her into the harem, and I made her snobbish and not like she used to be.

I thought I was helping her, but in fact, it was all selfish, and I wanted more of a competent helper who could allow me to travel freely in the harem.

Yinyue's death and Nata's death were all caused by me, Liu Sujin, alone.

Who am I to blame? Who can I blame?

I wish I could go back in time, to the winter when I was kicked out of Liufu.

I should die in prison, instead of lingering on the plague of the world, history has its own changes, even if we can restore the country, will we be able to defend this country and govern the people of the world?

I don't know, but I think that the reason why Liangxi lost was because it was not strong enough to protect its own people, can a country still be called a country?

"Muhan, I'm sorry." I'm sorry for the changes I made you, and I'm sorry for hurting you to such a situation.

But I can't turn back, I can't go back, I want to go on, I want to live. Do what I have to do, even if my feet are full of bones, even if I go to eighteen layers of hell. I have to keep going.

"Xia Xiying."

"Mother." She took two steps up.

"You know how to do it, what traces to leave behind, who to let know, I don't need to go into details."

"Don't worry, mother."

I turned around, my whole palm shaking. My right hand grabbed my left wrist, but I couldn't control it.

"Su Jin."

Behind her, she suddenly shouted. "I remember, you're Su Jin, haha!"

The voice was as joyful as a child, and then turned to crying. "Are you taking me out of here?"

Can't go back, can't go back.

I walked step by step, and heard her heartbreak when she was stopped.

I have experienced too many lives and deaths, and each time, it is purgatory.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry......

I shouted in my heart countless times until I came out of the cold palace numbly.

The sun was shining faintly on me, and I could no longer hear her crying.

Vertigo hit me, eroding what was left of my sanity. Pain rattled around his abdomen, blood dripping from his nose smeared the back of his hand.

Oh, retribution, is it coming so soon.

"! Empress! Call the Imperial Doctor! Doctor! ”

The darkness came into my eyes, and I could finally rest for a while......

Long darkness, no dreams, no fear, no consciousness.

The whole person seems to be floating in the depths of the sea, quiet and cold.

I heard the wind, I heard the crashing of the waves, surging in silence, igniting in indifference. I want to come to my senses, the more I struggle, the more painful it becomes, and I can only go with the flow and wait for time to pass little by little.

I don't know how long it took me to see a glimmer of light, and the light slowly expanded, filling the entire pupil of my eyes.

"Mother? You're finally awake. "The person who spoke was Zhao Yanbo, and it took me a while to see his appearance clearly.

I got up half-propped up and found myself weak.

He hurriedly fetched a cushion and found that he was no longer wearing clothes with ragged edges, he was wearing an official uniform made of cotton silk, but the material was not very good, and it was a material that the people in the market could buy.

But the embroidered edges on it are very delicate, and it looks like his wife should have embroidered it herself.

"How long did Hongu sleep?"

"Back to Niangniang's words, soon, two hours, and now it's dark."

I rubbed the corners of my forehead and said, "Did the medicine from the concubine go?" ”

"Sent it on time, don't worry about it."

He handed over a prescription and said, "Niangniang must not delay taking medicine in the future." ”

I looked at it, and it was some very lukewarm conditioning herbs. I put the prescription aside and said in a deep voice: "Now it's just you and me, you tell me the truth, how long can my body last?" ”

He was stunned for a moment and said, "Niangniang...... If you take care of it, it's actually ......"

"Didn't you hear what Motonomiya said?"

For a moment, there was silence.

"Niangniang's body is like a palace with a gorgeous appearance but an unrealistic structure, and any point can turn the entire palace into ruins...... If you plan for the worst, there's still a year to go......"

"A year?" I was stunned.

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