Pregnant?

I shuddered and looked down at my stomach, overwhelmed by the sudden "bad news", and my head went blank.

I'm pregnant!

More than three months?

A series of fragmented concepts confusing me, and more than shock, more fear, deep fear.

He shouldn't have come.

"Muzi, why don't you speak? I think that Xiaolin is very good, it's good for you, it's a good thing to be pregnant, why are you unhappy? ”

Woken up by his grandfather's words, he came back to his senses and looked at the hazy fog outside.

Gray, like my heart at the moment.

If there weren't those things, if I were okay too, if we could be together...... A good thing indeed.

But we can't be together, and I can't give the baby a good environment to grow up, and his arrival is a mistake, a foolish mistake.

"Why did Grandpa just sigh and shake his head?"

He picked up the hookah, rubbed the tobacco, lit the fire and took a puff.

He sighed heavily and said, "I'm worried about you, your body is already weak, if you ......"

His voice choked and he couldn't continue, and the high-frequency fluttering eyelashes were full of sentimentality.

He took another puff of his cigarette and leaned back against the wall. Staring into the courtyard, the bare pear tree. The eyes narrowed slightly, stained with pain.

Looking at him, I also knew that he remembered some sad past, and he didn't dare to bother.

They were silent for a long time, "My daughter died when she gave birth. The tone is sad, and he has not yet gotten out of the pain of losing his beloved daughter.

"That year, she was only twenty years old, and she was killed by that man."

In a mournful voice, he told me the story of his daughter.

Grandpa was married in his thirties, married for more than two years, and was happy to have Lin'er, and the next year he had a second child. A pair of sons accompany him, but he is not very happy, and he wants a daughter with all his heart.

However, grandma is not in good health, so she has not been able to do so.

But he is very persistent, in order to have a daughter, he does not let his grandmother do rough work, and takes care of his body at home every day. There are also all kinds of upside down, perennial Chinese herbal medicines, to make up for grandma's body.

When he was fifty years old, God had mercy on him, and he finally gave birth to a daughter.

I felt that it was a gift from Providence, so I named it Providence.

The grandfather who made up for the shortcomings was very doting on God and treated her as a treasure in the palm of his hand. Everything goes according to her, and the will of heaven is spoiled so willful and stubborn, and even if there are nine cows, it can't be pulled back.

Before graduating from high school, she insisted on following an uncle who had a family, and since then she has embarked on an unfortunate path.

The old man just liked her youthful beauty and had no intention of staying with her for long. coaxed her sweetly, promising to divorce and marry her.

But what she was waiting for was the merciless abandonment and indifferent hurt of men.

Following the old man, she was also scared in her heart, and she had always done contraception. But the old man lied to her that he wanted a child of his own, and vowed to divorce and marry her as soon as she gave birth to a child.

He also unilaterally signed a divorce agreement to show his sincerity.

Slowly, she fell into the trap of his sweet words as bait, and became his doll completely, and everything was at his disposal.

Soon, she became pregnant. And he also accompanied her in everything according to her heart and as promised.

Until her due date, they were fine, as much as all parents who are looking forward to the arrival of their children into the world.

The turning point of events was when her eldest brother went to see her.

The family knew that she was pregnant with the old man's child, and she persuaded and persuaded, but she stubbornly refused to do it. Eventually, they gave up, left her alone, and left her to do her own thing.

But after all, it is his favorite daughter, and grandpa can't ignore it.

Privately, he also asked his sons to go to the old man and ask him to divorce and marry Providence.

But even if it is coercive and tempting, the old man has never really divorced.

There is really no way, grandpa looks down on it, and really doesn't care about the will of God anymore.

The brothers of Providence also felt sorry for her, and occasionally secretly went to see her.

It's just that I didn't expect that everything was an elaborate hoax.

The old man just used her as a fertility machine.

That day, the eldest brother of Providence went to see her, but on the way he met several women gossiping about the old man's house, and after hearing that the old man's wife was born without a uterus, he rushed into the old man's house in a rage and almost cut him with a knife.

But unfortunately, his knife cut off the old man's life, and he also buried his own years. Brother Providence entered the bureau and was only released a few years ago.

After the scam was revealed, Providence was extremely emotional, which led to an early due date, and finally lost her life.

Grandpa said that he would never forget the hoarse crying of Providence in the delivery room, which was the last words of Providence and his nightmare.

Providence said that her life was actually ruined by her grandfather, and she blamed her grandfather for not teaching herself well, and even the last sentence was "I hate you!" And to grandpa.

I saw tears slipping from the corners of my grandfather's eyes as he spoke of Providence's last words.

He must be lonely and miserable!

Wholehearted love is regarded as the greatest harm. They are not yet understood by their families, and they are even isolated.

I feel the unspeakable suffering.

He was still leaning against the wall, looking melancholy at the rain falling in the mist, and did not say a word.

Relatively speechless, his hands on his stomach, sour and astringent, heartache and embarrassment.

This time, I don't know how to deal with it.

Even if it had something to do with him this time, I didn't dare look for him.

I don't dare to be delusional about being tied to him because of my child.

Silently turned around and went back. Watch the children laugh and play games and bake sweet potatoes...... I suddenly wanted to keep him, and our children.

Touching his stomach, the smile froze instantly.

After all, it's too extravagant, and the child won't belong to me.

……

The next day, the rain stopped, and I didn't wait for Lin Ziyu to come back, so I said goodbye and left the mountain village and returned to Maocheng.

I didn't dare to get involved with Lin Ziyu anymore, for fear of ruining him.

If someone knows that we have been together for more than half a month, and I happen to be pregnant, I will definitely make up a lot of terrifying bloody stories.

I can't afford it.

I didn't dare to go to the hospital, I went straight home, I was afraid of the cruel facts after I was confirmed, and I wanted to deceive myself for a while.

When I dragged the suitcase home, my grandfather was not at home, and my aunt had just come out with a pile of papers.

"Ah Zi, why did you come back alone? Quarreled with Young Master Lin? ”

Shaking his head weakly, he replied: "No, he still has to stay for a while, the countryside is too cold, I can't bear it, so I ran back." Auntie, are you back to get the papers? ”

"It's okay! Dad went on a group trip and had to come back in a few days. The company is very busy these days, and I can't go home often, you take care of yourself. ”

After saying that, she hurried away, and soon disappeared in front of the house in the car.

I wanted to share it with her, but she didn't give me a chance to say it.

I was a little sleepy, so I went straight back to the bedroom to rest, but I had a box at the door.

When I picked it up, it was a little heavy, and I glanced at it, but I didn't leave a message, I don't know who gave it to me. After opening the door and entering, it opened curiously.

Lying inside turned out to be the gold medal trophy of the last "Xinjing Cup" design competition, as well as a certificate of honor. And my name was printed on it.

“……”

I carefully reconfirmed it N times, and it was indeed my name, as well as a photo of the finished product.

With black accents and red tones, the whole work exudes a strong melancholy.

And most of it did come from my hands, but I didn't finish it, and I didn't take it to the competition at all.

It was Huo Nanyi who made his own assertion again.

Put it away, and don't bother to pay attention to it anymore.

Obviously, they did all this because they loved me, but I didn't feel warmth, except for depression.

The more he gave me love like that, the more sad I felt.

took a shower, but still didn't dare to turn on the machine, got into the quilt, and slept with his head covered.

After sleeping for a long time, I was in a daze, and I saw the light shining in the window.

Got up and walked over, it was him.

My body was shocked, and I didn't know whether to go down or not.

Afraid of being seen by him, he hurriedly hid in the corner.

I don't know if he knows everything about me, even my whereabouts, or if he comes over a lot and tonight is just routine.

But I'm in a mess right now, and I don't know how to deal with him. I didn't dare to ask why I had to change my medicine and get me pregnant.

I'm afraid of the deep affection he exports, and I don't want him to have to bear the grief of just getting it, but losing everything in the next second, and having nothing.

I turned back, turned on my phone, and saw that he had many missed calls.

I didn't call back, changed my clothes, and went downstairs.

Since they all have to face it, they can't hide from the first year of junior high school, and they can't avoid the fifteenth.

In the half-lowered window, his gloomy face was inlaid with smoke, and his loneliness was even more lonely.

When he saw me walking by, he extinguished his cigarette, stretched his eyebrows, and looked at me fixedly.

When I walked over, he didn't get out of the car, still with one hand half-resting on the door, staring at me.

"Have fun? Why did you lose weight again? Can't get used to eating? ”

"Why are you here?"

"I'm used to it, but I can't sleep when I come to see you."

"Then haven't you been insomnia for more than half a month? I just got back. Didn't you sleep when you couldn't see me? ”

"So you're going to pay me! Get in the car and have a meal with me! "Got rid of the usual mild, tough commands.

I opened the car door, made sure I would definitely go up, and waited patiently.

"Huo Nanyi, aren't you going to explain to me about the design competition? Why did my semi-finished product win an award? ”

"Isn't that your dream? As long as it is what you want, I will accompany you to achieve it one by one. ”

"But one day, I will become someone else's, and I have no qualifications to continue to entangle, at that time, will you still accompany me? When the time comes, how will you accompany you? ”

"Mu Zi, in this life, you can only be my Huo Nanyi's woman, and it is impossible to have any other identity."