At that moment, Yu Luo opened the memo on her mobile phone, flipped through it, and did not find anyone who could make her cry and beg for comfort. From the first to the last, she hasn't been in contact with them since she graduated, and even the class party before the start of school, because of the KTV she went, Yu's mother didn't agree to let her go.

Her fingers stopped at Chu Jie, she thought, what is Chu Jie doing? He may be having dinner with his girlfriend, or shopping with his girlfriend, either or he may be studying, he always gives himself comfort and hope, how can he always complain to him? Moreover, in what capacity is he calling him to complain now?

A few down, it's Xu Lu, since she graduated, she changed the school's phone card, the previous phone card was stopped, the penguin number and WeChat messages were not replied, and she almost lost contact with the world. Xu Lu is also in this world, before the college entrance examination, he said that no matter where he goes, he will be together, and he can't cut off contact, but now he knows that it is impossible, the distance is far away, and the promise cannot be crossed.

Yu Luo put the phone back in her pocket, her heart was even more uncomfortable, she couldn't cry, her throat seemed to be choking on something, she couldn't swallow her breath, and she couldn't spit it out, she held on to the wall and walked to the corner where no one noticed, sat on the ground, her head against the wall, she was really afraid that she would die like this.

If she died, Yu Luo shrank into a ball, she always felt that it was good to be dead, no matter what problems she encountered, death could solve everything, and when she died, all the sadness would no longer exist, and all the discomfort would be gone. But now, in this afternoon when the sun is shining little by little on Yu Luo from the shade of the trees, in this afternoon when passers-by are talking and laughing and passing by outside the wall. Yu Luo pointed at the wall with her fingers and forced herself to cry, she didn't want to die, she was so afraid that she would die like this, she was admitted to university and came to a brand new place, this is not the end, this is the beginning.

Her nerves, her newly awakened body, her heart that had just learned love and responsibility, at this moment, through the discomfort of death, told her: "We don't want to die yet, Yu Luo, we want to live." ”

The plane traveled six thousand kilometers, half of China; The train travels for thirty hours, day and night; It took her a year of non-stop day and night, writing and endorsing the book, to get here, she still has a lot of things to do, her parents are still waiting for her to come home, she wants to make money, make a lot of money, and then raise them, so that they can live a leisurely and easy life in the future. She doesn't want to die, she wants to live, she wants to live, be happier, stronger, have expectations, and live with a purpose.

The phone suddenly lit up, Yu Luo took it in front of her eyes and looked at it for a long time, everything was very blurry, she could only rely on her memory to press and answer.

"Hey, Yu Luo, where are you? Yu Luo, why haven't you called me for so long, have you eaten? If you haven't eaten, remember to eat first, don't be hungry, you have a bad stomach. Eh, Hu Bian, this dog man, a straight man of steel, is so angry with me......" She stopped and asked in a low voice for a long time: "Yu Luo, why don't you speak?" ”

Yu Luo burst into tears, as if he was crying to death, gasping for air, cowering in the corner, trembling all over.

"Yu Luo, what's wrong?" Chu Cha hurriedly asked, "Is it uncomfortable?" What's wrong? ”

"Xiaocha classmate ......" Yu Luo said intermittently: "I want to go home, I miss my father so much, I miss my mother, if these are too difficult, I want to listen to him talk to me all the time, say anything, scold me, I'm so afraid, I can't hear my father's voice, I'm in hell, no one can save me, no one can save me." ”

Chu Cha listened to her babbling, and she said, "Yu Luo, my girl, don't be afraid, and me, fool, if you are in hell, I will be next door to you." Although the room is different, you can't go to the door yet, but you have to know that no matter what you go through, where you are, I am by your side, I will not leave, I will always be with you. ”

Yu Luo stretched out her hand to catch the leaking sunlight, the voice on the phone was very serious and gentle, the sunlight was very warm and comfortable, she couldn't control the trembling of her body, and she couldn't control the tears that kept staying, but she could calm down now, not letting her heart beat at speed, like rushing to death.

"I love you very much, my girl, you have to be good, what's the matter, call me, don't carry it alone, you are such a small one, where can you carry it?"

Yu Luo didn't dare to confide in others, because of the embarrassment and self-blame after not contacting, and not contacting Chu Cha because he didn't dare, Chu Cha was so good to her, when she didn't understand her parents' love at that time, all the warmth and reliance came from Chu Cha.

When she encountered a problem in her third year of high school, she loved to pour it to Chu Cha, but Chu Cha never told her about her troubles.

Later, after the college entrance examination, I saw an article with the title: Stay away from those negative energy friends around you.

What they give you is no help, only negative energy, which is an obstacle in your way.

After Yu Luo read this article, she couldn't sleep for a while, she remembered the way she and Chu Cha got along for so many years, and the role she played was such a person with only negative energy, who was a black hole, and had been consuming Chu Cha's passion for life and hope for life.

From then on, every time she chatted with her, she was talking about happiness and happiness, the fun things she met every day, interesting people, she didn't want to give her negative energy anymore, she hoped that one day she could become the object of Chu Cha's troubles and become her happy agent.

Later, I saw Chu Pan post and say it, probably to thank a certain boy who sent her home, Yu Luo clicked on the photo and took a look, it was good.

Xu Lu sent a video link to Yu Luo, she said: "Look at this damn love of other people's families. ”

Yu Luo clicked on it and watched it, it was a beautiful trailer, and she saw her aunt smile, and then carefully watched all the videos on station B.

"Tut-tut, it's so good, my old aunt believes in love." Yu Luo sent it with a blood-vomiting emoji.

"Don't, it's me who looks at it, the love of other people's families, I don't know Chen Xiaoxi and Jiang Chen, as well as you and Zhang Xu."

Yu Luo looked at this news and thought about it, it seems that it is really similar, the bumpy love road between himself and Zhang Xu seems to be quite an idol drama, and the height and story are real, like a novel. Then she deleted and changed a message in the past, "Little Huya, you don't love me, you don't care about me, I'm going to break off my friendship with you, don't I tell you everything?" Zhang Xu and I have broken up. ”

"Broke up? Wow, I don't believe it, you can't fight for some gas? I also show off my classmates as a novel, my God, Yu Luo, who said to break up? ”

"I said it."

"I'll go, you really have the guts, Zhang Xu, that sullen man, didn't call you to scold you a few words?" She sent many messages in a row, the last one was "You can definitely reconcile, if you don't reconcile, I don't believe in love." ”

Yu Luo sent a lewd panda head emoji, and then sent a message, "I hope your Gai Yan won't kill me by then." ”

She also sent a lot of messages in a chattering manner, "Yu Luo, I'm afraid you're a ghost, Zhang Xu, you are also willing to score." ”

"Yu Luo, did you go to college and hook up with the senior?"

"Yu Luo, then you still looked half-dead at that time."

Half-dead? Yu Luo turned off the light and climbed into bed, her roommate's mobile phone was still on, she closed her eyes, and the last month of her senior year of high school appeared in front of her eyes.

On Sunday evening in May 17, Yu Luo was picking up mp3 in the two-dollar store, when her mobile phone rang, she excitedly ran to the side of the road and coughed twice to clear her throat, and then connected.

"Yulo." On the other end of the phone was the voice of the boy who couldn't distinguish his emotions, "I can't come to class at night, my grandmother died, I may have to take a few days off, you study obediently, I will be back on Wednesday." ”

"Uh-huh." Yu Luo felt that the appearance of holding her mobile phone and smirking was probably scary, but she was really satisfied, she actually had the same status as the teacher, and this person also reported her itinerary, afraid that she would worry.

There is no source of distraction in the classroom without Zhang Xu, Yu Luo's regular life, listening to classes in class, writing questions after class, going home from school, and occasionally mixing among the girls to listen to their gossip about the news in the class.

"By the way, Zhang Xu hasn't been here for several days." Lin Yuejin suddenly looked at Yu Luo, who was standing at the very back of the crowd, and said, before Yu Luo could answer, someone next to him picked up.

"Zhang Xu, his grandmother passed away and asked for leave." Chu Pan said triumphantly.

"How do you know?" Lin Yuejin glanced at Yu Luo cautiously and asked her.

Chu Pan took his mobile phone and flipped through the text message and handed it to Lin Yuejin: "See, I asked him last night." ”

Endless writing questions, Yu Luo occasionally took out his mobile phone to see if Zhang Xu had sent him a message, but no, the dialog boxes were all group messages, and there was no person he wanted to see.

"Yu Luo, do you know about Zhang Xu?" Lin Yuejin took the potato chips in Guo Luo's hand, "You also have to ask Zhang Xu, just her Chu Pan, with a smug face." ”

Yu Luo nodded, and she said, "I know, Zhang Xu called me on Sunday and told me." ”

"Tut-tut." Lin Yuejin took a bite of the potato chips, "I'd better eat my potatoes and ask for dog food." ”

Yu Luo spent three days full of expectations and suffering, Zhang Xu had no news, no phone, and no news, Yu Luo clicked on Zhang Xu's number countless times, and then withdrew, she really wanted Zhang Xu to take the initiative to call, she longed to be pampered and treated preferentially.

Yu Luo has read a lot of novels in the end, and he is extremely looking forward to the love of those sweet dead people, longing to be pampered like a child, eager to be firmly chosen by him, and eager to let the world know their relationship from his mouth.

So she has been waiting for Zhang Xu's calls, messages, or updates.

She hopes that he can tell her about what has happened these days, say that he misses her, and will show affection in the space and tell everyone about the different relationship between the two of them.

But no, not all the time. She persuaded herself that Zhang Xu must still be immersed in the grief of his grandmother's death, he would come back on Thursday, and he would have to ease his mood when he came back.

She'll be able to see him on Thursday, how nice.

Such a contradiction caused her to be particularly nervous and anxious on Thursday, but that day she did not see the boy who promised her to come back from the time the class bell rang in the morning to the bell rang at the end of the evening self-study.

Lao Geng said: "To tell you an unfortunate news, our class Zhang Xu dropped out of school, and he can't fight with us in the future, but we still have to work hard, and the one who persists is the final king." ”