In a few days it will be Chinese New Year's Eve.

This year's winter was a bit colder than usual, and it was even colder just after the snow. Jin Zhao has been afraid of the cold since she was a child, and her hands are cold, so she shrunk her hands into her sleeves.

She sat alone on the warm floor, looking at the red plums adorned with branches outside the window in a daze, strings, flowers, red all over the yard. Seeing such a scene in front of him, Jin Zhao's mouth was slightly raised, and a smile appeared that he had not seen for a long time. She couldn't remember how long she hadn't laughed, it seemed like a long time, and she almost forgot that she could laugh too. It's just that the corners of the mouth stiffened in the next moment, and the smile disappeared in an instant, and the two people who appreciated the plum at the beginning have now become one of her, probably in this situation, inexplicably a little lonely.

Jin Zhao, who has always loved Mei, only felt that the red plum in front of her was too dazzling, so she slowly withdrew her gaze and no longer looked out the window. At this time, tears suddenly fell, maybe this is the most suitable for her current state of mind.

With a squeak, Qiao Ci entered the house with hot water, raised her eyes and saw that Jin Zhao's face was full of tears, and she was distressed, so she hurriedly put down the hot water and took out a handkerchief to wipe her tears for Jin Zhao.

"Mother, why are you crying again?"

These days, Jin Zhao has cried many times, as if his tears can't stop crying.

Qiao Ci wiped her tears and whispered: "Niangniang, don't cry, if you make up and cry later, it won't look good, or the slave maid will make up for you."

Jin Zhao cherishes his makeup the most, whether it is in front of people or behind people, he always pays attention to his appearance. Qiaoci kept it all in mind.

It is no wonder that the daughter of the Su family was the daughter of the Su family, who was captivating the country and the city, and with a smile, she was famous in Kyoto. It's just that Jin Zhao, who is over thirty years old, has been sick for a long time, and it seems that he is no longer as good as he was back then.

Qiaoci was about to help her to the dressing table, but was stopped by Jin Zhao waving his hand.

"No need, now that I'm sick, my appearance is long gone, no matter how much rouge gouache I have, I'm old."

The most taboo word in the palace is "old".

When Qiao Ci heard this, her nose was sour, and her heart was very uncomfortable, she comforted and said: "Niangniang, is it nonsense, in the eyes of the slave maid, Niangniang is overwhelmed by the country and the city, and there is no second person in the whole Kyoto who can compare with you." ”

This is also Qiaoci's true words.

Qiaoci is Jinzhao's maid who married, and she has been by Jinzhao's side since she can remember, serving her daily life, and she is the most intimate and trusting one among many maids. Thinking about how many children of the family admired the demeanor of the eldest lady of the Su family, the person who came to the door to propose marriage broke through the threshold of the Su family, and the scene was extremely sensational for a while. For this reason, there was a good saying at that time: marry a wife and marry Su Jinzhao.

Jin Zhao chuckled and said, "You don't have to comfort me, no one will come if I dress up like this." As he spoke, Jin Zhao slowly looked outside the house and muttered, "At least, he won't come." ”

I don't even care much about my appearance, which shows that people really have no hope in life.

Qiao Ci naturally understood who Jin Zhao was referring to, and said in a choked voice: "Niangniang, don't be cranky, the emperor may be entangled in everything, so he delayed the time to see Niangniang, maybe it will come soon, don't be discouraged." ”

Jin Zhao raised his eyes and looked at her, and then lowered his eyebrows and looked at the clothes on his body, they are not the latest, nor the best style, but they are just last year's clothes, I am afraid they have long been outdated. It's been a long time since she's made new clothes, and she probably doesn't remember. I don't even care about my most important appearance, what does it matter if my clothes look good or not.

Jin Zhaowei closed his eyes, and when he opened them, he shook his head and said, "Silly girl, what is the current situation, I know in my heart that now this palace is no longer my favored day." Think about it, I've been sick for so many days, when did he care, when did he ask, why should I think that he would come, in the end it's just stupid self-deception. ”

Thinking of the days of love with him in the past, Jin Zhao felt an inexplicable sadness in his heart, saying that he would never abandon him for the rest of his life, and he would grow old, how long had it been, and how could he have changed his mind. It turns out that the most hurtful thing is people's hearts, and she is smart all her life, but she is confused on the love word.

Qiao Ci saw Jin Zhao's hand shrunk in his sleeve, and couldn't help but step forward and shake it, and his body was stunned.

"Mother, why are your hands so cold?" Qiao Ci's eyes were surprised, and he hurriedly put Jin Zhao's hand in his arms again, and he was angry, eager to warm Jin Zhao's cold hands.

Jin Zhao withdrew her hand, and she whispered, "It's okay."

How can it be okay.

Qiaoci said anxiously: "Niangniang, no matter what, you have to take care of your body, you are still sick, and the weather is so cold, in case you freeze your body, the condition is more serious, but how is it good, let the slave and maid explain to the deceased lady." With that, Qiaoci turned around and closed the window.

Jin Zhao is most afraid of the cold, but now he doesn't care about his body, Qiaoci looks distressed, what she can't understand is how a good person became like this.

Qiaoci was quick for a while, and inadvertently mentioned the deceased wife, and Jin Zhao froze on the spot when he heard this.

Jin Zhao's father was a general of the dynasty, and as the eldest daughter of the Su family, her mother can be said to be the person who loves her the most in the world, but this love has become an irreparable regret in her life, and it has also become a scar in her heart, which is still deeply piercing.

A person who didn't want to see her before he died shows how unforgiving he is to her. Jin Zhao really couldn't figure it out, his mother who once held herself in the palm of her hand, there was a day when she was indifferent to her, she always thought she was a brave woman, who knew that in the face of her mother's cold words, but there were times when she didn't dare to face it.

After all, she still missed the last time she saw her mother......

For so many years, she has always had a dream, in which her mother told her that she no longer blames her, until she woke up from the dream, she realized that it was just a dream, and her mother finally left, and she would never hear her mother's forgiveness.

Jin Zhao sighed inaudibly, and said helplessly in his tone: "Mother, she is gone, she left with hatred for me, and she will never be able to forgive me."

As she spoke, the tears couldn't help falling again, Jin Zhao reached out and touched her moist cheeks, she had always been the most disgusted to see a woman crying, she always felt that it was a cowardly act, once upon a time, she herself became such a person. It's ridiculous to think about.

When Qiao Ci saw it, she was full of self-blame, and she said: "Niangniang, it's not good to be a slave, and you shouldn't mention Madame in front of you."

Knowing that Mrs. is Jin Zhao's heart hurts, she also mentioned that she really shouldn't have it.

Jin Zhao didn't blame her, if it was before, she would have scolded Qiaoci a few words, but now she didn't say anything. I looked up at the gloomy weather outside, it had been cloudy for a few days, and I didn't know how long it would continue and when I would see the sun. Jin Zhao prefers sunny days to cloudy days, especially in winter, he likes to make a pot of tea, sit in the yard to drink tea, and bask in the sun. This is also something that someone likes, yes, someone likes, Jin Zhao muttered......