Chapter 019: There is a barrier
"Uncle, aunt."
Shang Qi was not there, Qin Chengxi had no support, and Chen Juan made her worried.
Chen Juan didn't enter the room, but just looked at her with a kind face and expressed concern: "Xiaoxi, how are you doing recently?" Why do you get thinner and thinner the more you grow? ”
"I've been feeling a little unwell these days, so I've eaten very little. The old man is sleepy. ”
Very afraid that she would mention the topic that she couldn't face again, Qin Chengxi yawned, looking really sleepy, hoping to let her know how to leave.
"You can't even take care of yourself, how can I expect you to take care of Shang Qi in the future?"
Qin Chengxi wanted to say "Shang Qi will take care of himself", but he couldn't help thinking about it, and changed his mouth with a dry smile: "I will take care of my body as soon as possible." Uncle, don't worry. ”
"Even if you take care of your body, you can't continue the incense for the Shang family."
Still mentioned the topic, Qin Chengxi's face turned pale for a while.
"There are three unfilial pieties, and no queen is great." Chen Juan ignored the change in her face and sighed to herself, "The Shang family is a single biography, you can't watch the Shang family die, right?" How can Shang Qi have the face to face the ancestors of the Shang family in the future? ”
Qin Chengxi was full of frustration and begged with a wilt: "Auntie, Shang Qi and I really want to love, I hope you can fulfill us." ”
"Ah, don't get me wrong, I don't mean to break you up, we don't object to you and Shang Qi being together, but the Shang family can't be left behind. I thought about it and thought of a way to do both, that is, to find another woman to give birth to Shang Qi, and then bring the child over to you to raise, and let you be a mother. You think that's a good idea, right? ”
Qin Chengxi was stunned.
Isn't this a disguised dismantling of her and Shang Qi?!
"But Shang Qi said that he doesn't like children, he doesn't want children." She weakly and tactfully objected.
"What doesn't he like about children anymore? Don't you see how he coaxed him? He said that he didn't like children, but he was afraid that you would be unhappy, which was simply against his will. Xiaoxi, my aunt thinks you are well-behaved and sensible, so even if your physical condition is so special, I support you and Shang Qi to be together. You have to have a conscience, can you bear to see the Shang family extinct anymore? Can you bear to see Shang Qi not even have a person with filial piety after a hundred years, and become a big joke for Ancheng people? ”
"I, I ......"
Qin Chengxi didn't know how to answer for a while.
The son clothed his deceased parents in linen, and the old man could enter the earth for peace, and she knew the old custom of Anseong.
But she really didn't want other women to contaminate her Shang Qi.
"Xiaoxi, can you count your aunt begging you? As long as you agree to your aunt's request, she promises that she will never treat you badly in the future. Huh! Xiaoxi? Xiaoxi? Where are you going? ”
Qin Chengxi ignored Chen Juan's shouting, grabbed his bag and ran outside.
Ran downstairs, ran out of the courtyard gate, ran out of the community, and then ran forward along the boulevard with a lifeless run.
She didn't pay attention to whether this direction was running to her and Shang Qi's nest, she just wanted to escape from the Shang family where Chen Juan was.
When she finally couldn't run, she crouched down on the edge of the green belt and cried.
God knows how envious she is of the female employees of the company who try to find ways to scratch their heads in front of Shang Qi.
She felt that each of them was more qualified than her to love Shangqi, because they were all real women.
And she, at best, can be regarded as a fake woman.
If she can become a real woman who is no different from an ordinary woman, she would rather be ugly, short, stupid, and poor.
However, there are no ifs in this world, and she is powerless to change them.
Suddenly, she was full of confusion about the relationship between her and Shang Qi......
*
In the evening, Shang Qi and his father returned home, and heard his mother say that Qin Chengxi went back to their residence because he recognized the bed, and immediately guessed that Qin Chengxi had been wronged by his mother.
I wanted to question my mother, but I thought that my mother would definitely refuse to admit it if I didn't have a basis, so I didn't bother to say anything, so I immediately called Qin Chengxi, and after learning that she had dinner at home, he left after a few mouthfuls of food in his parents.
When he got home, he asked the maid, and after learning that Qin Chengxi had really eaten, he went back to the room with confidence, only to see a head peeking out of the pillow, he didn't know if she was asleep, so he sat down next to her and called her name softly.
"Coming back?" Qin Chengxi seemed to be a little dazed in his sleep, and lazily answered in the quilt.
"Hmm. Today......"
"I'm so sleepy and don't want to talk. If you're tired of the day, go to bed early. ”
Seeing that she seemed to be fine, he was relieved to get up.
"Tomorrow I want to go back and see Bang Bang."
"Okay, I'll send you there."
Knowing that she would definitely be in a good mood when she returned to Qin's house, he readily agreed, and went to the bathroom after speaking.
In fact, Qin Chengxi did not fall asleep.
I have mixed feelings.
The doctor had already told her that because the positive surgery was done a little late, her chances of getting pregnant were very, very small.
She knew that the doctor didn't want to hit her, so she said it so tactfully.
The odds are very small, doesn't it mean that you can't get pregnant?
Her low self-esteem also stems from here, as does her resentment towards her parents.
But she didn't want to cry, she didn't want Shang Qi to worry, and she didn't want Shang Qi to fall out with her parents because of her, so she could only hide her troubles in her heart.
This made her particularly depressed, so she wanted to go back to the Qin family and get comfort from her sister-in-law.
*
Early the next morning, Shang Qi sent her back to Qin's house.
Because her grandfather was not there, although she hadn't returned to the Qin family for a few days, she had a feeling of being in a different world.
"Toot toot. Doodle. ”
A small figure slipped out of the crack in the door, and was overjoyed to see her, walking on short legs and waving small white and tender hands, and pounced on her.
"Bang Bang, my little darling."
She happily greeted him and picked up the little guy who was still drooling and slurred at the corners of his mouth.
Mu Yu chased him out, and when he saw this scene, he immediately laughed.
"This little kid, do you have a telepathy? I don't usually run out. ”
Qin Chengxi proudly grabbed the holding hand and kissed it: "Who called me my aunt?" ”
Mu Yu smiled and led her into the house, while teasing: "Very good, very good, I will hand over the ban to me today, see how long you can kiss her." ”
"I can be with Bang Bang for the rest of my life."
"Brother." Unexpectedly, the eldest brother came out of the house, Qin Chengxi hurriedly greeted him, and then smiled again, "It is said that the daughter is the lover of the father's last life, and you must be with the mother for a lifetime." ”
"Baba hug. Hold your baby. ”
Qin Chengxi was still talking, and Bang Bang opened his arms to Qin Jinhuan, and drooled a little more when he spoke.
Qin Jinhuan hugged his daughter without disgust, and while carefully wiping her saliva, he asked her gently in a child's tone: "Is Dad okay?" ”
"Okay."
"Where's the good?"
"It's good. Poop, resistant to babies. ”
As he spoke, he poked Qin Jinhuan's chest with his fleshy little finger, making Qin Jinhuan laugh.
Mu Yu smiled: "Such a small mouth is so sweet, what's wrong with it when you grow up?" ”
"My daughter just loves to coax me, what does it matter?" Qin Jinhuan responded with a smile, turned around and hugged his daughter back to the house, and continued to speak to her in a child's tone, "It's cold outside, you can't freeze my baby, Dad takes the baby into the house to get food." ”
"Look at your brother, I don't know what to do. Xiaoxi? What happened to you? ”
Mu Yu realized that something was wrong with Qin Chengxi.
"No, nothing."
Qin Chengxi retracted his thoughts and entered the house with her with a forced smile.
In her heart, the eldest brother has always been very serious, but she didn't expect him to become a daughter slave.
"A woman who cannot have children is not worthy of being a wife."
"Unfilial piety has three nos."
"It's not that Shang Qi doesn't like children, it's just that I'm afraid that you won't be happy and don't dare to like it."
Thinking of Chen Juan's words, her heart was poked again.
And the cute appearance of Bang Bang also touched her heart deeply.
If she could, she would be willing to give Shang Qi a bunch of cute children like Bang Bang.
Subconsciously touched her lower abdomen, her emotions fell to the bottom, and infinite inferiority shrouded her.
After staying at Qin's house to play with Bang Wan for a day, her mood finally improved, but when she returned to her nest with Shang Qi after dinner, she saw that Shang Qi had not come back yet, she couldn't hold back for a while, and hid in the quilt and cried.
Hearing the sound of the doorknob turning, and knowing that Shang Qi was back, she hurriedly got out of the bed and ran into the bathroom as if she were fleeing.
Shang Qi had actually seen her run into the bathroom, but pretended not to see it, just looked at her with distressed eyes.
Don't think that if he wasn't with her that day, he wouldn't know anything.
Qin Chengxi in the bathroom was drenched for a while before he stabilized his mood.
She didn't want Shang Qi to know the pain in her heart, and she didn't want him to know her inferiority.
Seeing that her eldest brother loved her so much, she was very afraid that one day Shang Qi would also like the child and would slowly dislike her, just as his mother disliked her.
"Xiaoxi, I brought you fruit."
As soon as she came out of the bathroom, she saw Shang Qi sitting in front of the coffee table with a smile, as if waiting for her.
She hesitated, but walked over.
In fact, she didn't have any desire to eat, and she barely ate a few pieces.
"Mom told us to go back to dinner tomorrow night, saying that she would make nourishing soup for you to drink, saying that you have lost a lot of weight recently."
"Really?" She wasn't interested.
"Hmm. Let's go straight over tomorrow after work. ”
"Tomorrow night? In the evening, my eldest brother told me to go back to dinner. She made a lame excuse to excuse herself.
She began to reject going to Shang Qi's house in her heart, and when she saw Chen Juan, she felt extremely depressed, just like the feeling her parents had brought her before.
As smart as Shang Qi, knowing her thoughts, Shang Qi was not reluctant, and only said: "Then tomorrow I will send you to Qin's house first, and I will go back and pick you up after eating." ”
"We'll talk about it then." Qin Chengxi sullenly burrowed into the quilt again.
She suddenly realized that there was an invisible gap between her and Shang Qi.
Shang Qi looked at the back of her head a little dullly.
She had grievances in her heart, but she refused to tell him anything, and she still held on.
When did she get so angry with him?
He was tempted to pull her up and make her speak clearly, but in the end he held back.
Companionship is the most affectionate confession, and he will use time to prove his love for her.
After work the next day, Shang Qi sent Qin Chengxi to Qin's house, and then he left Qin's house and prepared to go back to his home.
He wanted to find a time to talk to his parents.
As soon as the car drove out of Qin's house, he received a call from a woman.