I felt something was wrong and said, "What's wrong?" Am I saying something wrong? ”

Shangguan Yan said: "What the girl wants to say is to go to the soup and go to the fire, right?" ”

"Huh? Is it to go to the soup and pour the soup? I said that I rarely remember such a good idiom to describe that others are good to you, because Xia Xia often lights candles for me to put out fires, and pours soup for me, and I also say that it is very easy to remember...... Why am I misremembering? How do you explain that? I was stunned and couldn't figure it out.

"Go to the soup and go to the fire, in "Xunzi Yibing", in the clouds, to deceive Yao, for example, if you throw stones with eggs, scratch and boil with your fingers, if you go to water and fire, you will be scorched and have no ears. Boiling water dares to wade and fire dares to step on it, it is for the loyal and righteous people. ”

Wow......

I was dumbfounded, I really didn't understand a word......

Shangguan Yan saw that my eyes were straight, smiled, and said, "Actually, it is similar to what the girl understands." ”

I was fascinated: "You are the same as Zheng Zhuzhu, you are people who can spit out articles with your mouth, in fact, Song Lingjian will too, and the name of my embroidery village is still given by her, I don't know what it means, I just feel that it seems to be very profound." That day, Zheng Jewel knew it as soon as he heard it, and after reading a short paragraph, I heard it in a fog, but it was really beautiful. ”

Shangguan Yan said softly: "Qingqing Zijin, I have my heart, but for the sake of the king, I have been groaning so far." The name of the embroidery village is enviable, and it is indeed very elegant. ”

I nodded and said, "Yes, yes, it seems to be this paragraph, I have to write it down by heart, and the next time someone asks, I will know how to answer." ”

Shangguan Yan said: "The girl has friends like this, so why do you have to do everything herself." Sometimes you don't know anything, but it's a kind of luck. ”

I looked at him puzzled, what the hell is wrong with this Shangguan Yan?

"Go to the soup and go to the fire, take care of each other, and try to ask how many sinceritys in the world can be honest with each other. Sometimes even the people closest to you may be wearing the mask that makes you tremble. If you think about it, how much cultivation does it take to have this kind of relationship? There are some people who have been in camp service all their lives, come quietly and walk alone, without even half of the sworn friends, and it is very desolate to think about it......"

Why did Shangguan Yan say such a thing to me? Who betrayed him?

"How can there be so many loyal people around you? You see, I originally wanted to say something good for Chen Bing, but I ended up pouring out this foreign appearance. ”

Shangguan Yan seemed to come back to his senses from talking to himself, looked at me and said, "Oh...... It seems that the girl and Chen Bing are very close to each other. ”

I nodded and said, "I don't know if I am in love or not, maybe he is quite similar to Han Sanxiao in some places, so he thinks it is more cordial." He also told me some old things about his acquaintance with adults, and I know that you men don't like to talk about friendship and care, but I can feel that he cares about you. ”

The smile on Shangguan Yan's face began to retreat, and the feeling he gave me today was: I have a lot of worries.

This kind of confusion has nothing to do with the body, but seems to have encountered a lot of things that cannot be solved.

"Your Excellency, are you alright?" I asked again seriously.

Shangguan Yan no longer had a smile on his face, and he asked me: "There are some things that I haven't figured out, I want to ask the girl something, and I hope the girl can answer me truthfully." ”

I'm a little weak--could it be that he found out about me and Nightshade too? Why do you use this tone and expression? If he really asked me about it, should I answer it truthfully?

"You ask." I bowed my head.

"When Miss Yan received Ling Zun's last letter and saw Yan Cuo again, did she have a moment of hatred for her father who she had respected for many years?"

I don't know why, how can I ask this question in a good way? What does this have to do with him?

Shangguan Yan didn't look at me again, but looked deeply at a certain place in the alley, and said distractedly: "Is there a moment of hesitation, do you feel that the black and white of your belief is reversed, and do you hate that your belief is in vain......

It's a topic that I don't dare touch.

I had a sour feeling in my heart, and I answered truthfully: "Yes, I hated, hated, I was angry, my heart hurt so much that I cried blindly, Han San smiled and persuaded me, Song Lingjian scolded me, and Xia Xia accompanied me, but all this could not relieve the pain in my heart, like I had lived for so many years, all hope was gone, and all the waiting became a joke......"

Shangguan Yan looked at me blankly and sadly.

Those crazy and dark memories came to my heart, I remember my madness when I wrote the cinnabar in my father's last letter, I remember the heartbroken eyes of Han Sanxiao who hugged me tightly into his arms, and in the blur, I vaguely remember that there were many people standing outside the door at that time, and Shangguan Yan was among them......

I looked at him, my eyes wet: "You were outside the door then, weren't you?" How ugly and scary I looked, I was like a wandering spirit, repeatedly guessing my father's motives every day, maybe everyone acquiesced to the fact that my father betrayed us, but the most shameful thing, I was among them. Only my mother didn't, she accepted Yan Cuo very righteously, and always believed in her father's intentions, she also said that no matter how all this right or wrong violated the oath at the time, it would never be my father's original intention, and I was shameless. My father loved me so much when he was alive, but I didn't firmly believe in him when he was suspicious of others - it turns out that I was wrong, my mother was right, maybe in this world, she is really the only one who knows my father best. ”

Speaking of which, my tears have fallen, no one can feel the friendship of my father and mother so keenly like me, why are the vicissitudes of life so ruthless?

Shangguan Yan's eyes were red, and he said sadly: "What if that is...... What if what you guess is the truth? ”

"I ...... I do not know...... Maybe there will be no hatred for a while, after all, blood is thicker than water...... But I know that if ...... If I could exchange it, I would be willing to exchange everything I had for my father's resurrection and everything I had. As long as he lives. I firmed.

Shangguan Yan looked into the distance, a line of tears fell from his handsome and gentle eyes, he nodded lightly, and muttered, "Thank you, girl...... I know what to do......"

I had a bad feeling in my heart, and this worry made me forget the pain of rehashing the old thing, and I said anxiously, "What do you mean? What are you going to do, adult? ”

Shangguan Yan looked at me and smiled calmly, reached out to wipe away the tears that were about to fall from the corners of my eyes, and said softly: "I'm sorry, I provoked the girl to cry." ”

"What the hell is going on? Can you tell me? ”

I'm really worried about him like this, no longer as rigorous and resolute as before, as if he made a very painful decision to give up some important things or people, but was it just my words that made him finally make a certain decision?

Shangguan Yan withdrew his hand, and changed into the resolute and calm look I was familiar with, and said, "I have something to go back to deal with, and I can't accompany the girl home and say goodbye." ”

I began to be afraid, and I thought back to what I had just said, for fear that those words would lead to some irreparable tragedy—

What's going on?

I grabbed him, his hands were very cold, as if the cold disease was still on him, I said urgently: "No matter what decision you make, don't hurt yourself, you are all smart people, love more truth, but you all love to do stupid things, there are many people who are worried about you, don't make them sad, okay?" ”

Shangguan Yan stared at my hand, nodded distractedly, and walked away.

I'm upset, what should I do? I really want to do something to help Shangguan Yan, but I don't know where to start, I don't have crutches with me, and I don't know where to go in the night, who should I find?

Could it be—does it have something to do with the West Flower Plain? I always thought that Yun Niang was the widow in Xihuayuan, so who was the son who took her with her back then? Shangguan Yan? Or is it Shangguanli?

If it was Shangguan Yan, then - he had lived in the town for several years when he was a child, and it was impossible to hide it so well, as if he had never been here, but he was not in good health, as if he was suffering from the same disease as Yun Bo back then, but Shangguan Li also seemed to be quite afraid of the cold-

By the way, it suddenly occurred to me that I could ask someone about the past.

Aunt Cai.

She also had a relationship with the widow back then, at least she could tell the reason for her appearance.

I wandered around the market, maybe it was too cold, many stalls were not placed, even Uncle Cai and Aunt Cai, who did the meat business in the New Year, did not set up a stall.

Go to the house to find them, and by the way, you can sneak a look at Uncle Black......

After I regained my sight, I didn't seem to have seen him, and I didn't know what happened to him.

As soon as I turned into the alley where Aunt Cai and the others lived, someone suddenly crossed in front of me and said, "Miss, where are you going?" ”

I looked up and saw that it was not Zhu Jing who was dressed in black, with a long sword tied to his back, black hair braided and his sword eyebrows raised?

Zhu ...... Brother Zhu, is it so coincidental? "I can't think of any other name, but he must be older than me, so he exclaimed.

Zhu Jing raised her mouth and smiled, and said, "Miss, don't call me that, just call me Zhu Jing." ”

I smiled and said, "Then in that case, you can also call me Yan Fei, and I'm not a daughter, so you don't need to call me that, it sounds weird." ”

Zhu Jing was very insistent and said: "The eldest lady is the eldest lady, how can you call the name directly - where the eldest lady is going, Zhu Jing will send you." ”

I was a little puzzled, pointed to the front and said, "I'll go to the front to find a friend, don't send me, thank you." ”

Zhu Jing nodded and said, "Then Zhu Jing is waiting for the eldest lady here." ”

I scratched my head and said, "You really don't have to be so polite, and besides, shouldn't you follow the adults?" ”

That's right, Shangguan Yan is sick, since they all have time to hang out here, why is there no one to stay by his side?

Zhu Jing pressed her eyebrows and said, "My lord has someone else to protect him, and it's not Zhu Jing's turn to follow." ”

Why is this similar to what Chen Bing said? It feels like you're competing for favors.

I was worried: "But Chen Bing should be helping out at Lian's house now, I just saw the adult alone, and I said something very strange, I'm a little worried about him, can you help me go and see him?" ”

Zhu Jing stared at me strangely, like a casual teenager: "Is the eldest lady annoyed me and doesn't want me to follow, so she makes an excuse to send me away?" ”

I shook my head and said, "No, why should I bother you?" I'm really worried about adults. ”

Zhu Jing grasped the key point that was not the point, and said, "How does the eldest lady know about Chen Bing?" He rarely shows his identity to others, let alone his real name. ”

I wondered: "What's so bad about letting people know, he sent me back yesterday, and we had a small chat on the way, he is a very nice person and enthusiastic." ”

Zhu Jing looked displeased, and said solemnly: "The eldest lady can come to me if she has something to do in the future, don't bother Chen Bing and them." ”