Before Song Lingjian appeared, the doctor had always asserted that even if my illness did not worsen, I would not live to twenty-two, and that this old disease had already taken root in my body and there was no cure. But Song Jinjian took a lot of prescriptions for me, because I cherished her rare heart, and every time I drank the medicine seriously. It's been a lot better over the years, with fewer illnesses and a short period of time, but after all, I'm too optimistic to think that there will be a turnaround...

After this autumn, by winter, I will be twenty-two years old...

Doom is inevitable.

I sat in the alley for a long time, recalling my ordinary and small life, so short, busy making a living, busy settling the people around me, and I didn't even have time to dream.

Walking out of the alley and coming to the toast building, I ordered a lot of their favorite meals, and specially ordered an extra chicken, so that Han Sanxiao could take it with him to nibble on when he took it back for the watch.

When she came back with a bunch of meals, Xia Xia Dada ran out to help, she was always so happy and carefree.

"Buying so many vegetables, what day is today? Did the talks with Zheng Fu go well? Xia Xia asked me.

I was absent-minded and couldn't lift my energy: "Well, it's okay." ”

"That's good. Sister Fei, when I went to the opposite hospital today, Brother Haipiao actually looked at me and smiled, it seemed that it was indeed much better. Sister Song is amazing, isn't she? I think he will soon be better if he drinks a few more doses of medicine. ”

I stiffened and said, "Oh, have you been medicated?" ”

"Well, I just went to see it and came back, and I'm already asleep again."

In this world, there are always people who are blooming and some people are withering.

I swallowed and held back the tears in the corners of my eyes: "Where's my medicine?" Are you frying? ”

"I'm frying, and I'll drink it after eating. Sister Fei hasn't been sick this year, isn't she okay? ”

I turned my head, tears had already fallen, and while wiping them away, I said, "Go and set up the dishes in the other courtyard, and they will be back in a while." ”

"Yes, Boss Yan!" Xia Xia Da Da ran away.

I was so uncomfortable that I almost fainted.

After Xia Xia finished it, she shouted to me in the courtyard: "Sister Fei, everything is set up, and I have also made Xiao Shilang's meals." I'm going to go and play with the little donkey, you can eat. ”

Xia Xia always doesn't eat at the same table with us, she seems to deliberately want to leave space for the three of us, and doesn't want to be embarrassed to participate in it.

It's time, Song Lingjian and Han Sanxiao haven't come back yet, Haipiao is lying alone in the courtyard, it's autumn, the quilt I confessed to Song Lingjian is still thrown in the hall and not taken out to cover him, and the whole person is already frozen cold when I touch his hand.

The food and soup were all congealed, and there was a greasy layer of fat, and it was dark, and my whole body was cold, and they still didn't come back.

I've always been used to waiting for them, and today I'm suddenly tired of it, as if I still have a lot of time in my life to waste on endless waiting.

It was nearly dark, and at last there was the sound of footsteps.

They're back!

My heart was beating fast and I wanted to stand up to meet them, but suddenly there was a tingling in my chest, and a wave of nausea welled up in my heart, and I was about to throw up!

They walked in, both of them looked listless, as if they didn't notice me sitting in the dark at all, Han San smiled and sighed, and cursed: "Fuck it, digging a pit is more tiring than hanging." ”

Song Lingjian didn't speak, just exhaled for a long time.

Han San laughed so angrily that he jumped to his feet, shaking off something on his body like crazy: "Filth!" Filth! You know how to toss me to do these things! I owe you all my life! ”

Song Lingjian said angrily: "I didn't beg you, I don't want to pull it down at that time, don't come to me after the story."

"I don't recognize people, I remember."

"Where have you been?" I finally couldn't help but ask.

Han San laughed and screamed, startled by me, looked for me in the dark, and said angrily: "Ouch, scared me to death, when were you there?" Those who sit in the courtyard with black lights are not afraid of scaring people. ”

My heart is already on fire.

Han Sanxiao lit the candle and kept panting, I saw that his hand was shaking to light the candle, why did he go? I could smell the smell of dirt on them, mixed with a faint fishy smell.

Song Lingjian looked very tired, took off his coat covered with wet mud, looked at the dishes on the table lightly, and said, "If you don't eat it, you have no appetite." ”

I looked at them coldly, I waited for most of the night, and what I waited for was such an understatement of "no more".

They didn't want to ask for my consent, they just told me like this, Han Sanxiao found the corner and patted the dust on his body, and Song Lingjian was washing his hands.

"If you're really busy, you can take a little time to talk to me, or leave a message, I don't have to wait silly for you to wait until dinner is cold. Also, if you don't want to take care of Haipiao and find him troublesome, you can place him with me, he is alone every time I come. ”

Han Sanxiao and Song Lingjian didn't seem to listen to me at all, Han Sanxiao thumped his legs, Song Lingjian was in a daze, one of them was working in the mountains and the other was at night, what are you doing and coming back together?

In their world, am I so unimportant?

I held back my tears, both resentful and unbearable: "I also specially ordered your favorite dish for you, but when you came back, you said that you had no appetite, and I was so hungry that I was about to vomit and waited for you to come back and eat together." ”

"Really, I'm tired, wait until I get some sleep before eating, okay?" Han San smiled and touched his head.

I stood up and threw all the food on the table to the floor.

Both of them were startled by me and turned to look at me.

The sleeping sea drifter in the hall was also awakened and almost sat up.

Song Lingjian frowned, and said unhappily: "It's noisy." ”

"Noisy? Can't I wait for you to complain for most of the day?! "I stared at Song Lingjian.

"Yes. Whatever you want. Song Lingjian didn't want to quarrel with me at all, so he turned around and went back to the house.

"Now it's like I'm making a fuss!" I sneered.

Song Lingjian stopped and stared at me: "Did I say that?" ”

"Okay, okay, don't fight, it's not a big deal, isn't it just a meal," Han San smiled and looked down at the food in one place, and sighed, "I really want to eat now." ”

I was so angry that I laughed, "Then don't eat it all!" Anyway, both of you are immortals, and you can't starve to death, if I don't do my best to block this qi with you, my nine lives are not enough to die! ”

Han San smiled as if he was really tired, leaned against the wall dizzily, closed his eyes and sighed.

I burst into tears: "You never think about it from my point of view, I should bear it, I can't bear it, I become willful and ignorant." I'm really fed up, I'm fed up with being your old mother all the time, so be it, let's do it, everyone will have their own way in the future, and no one will have to bother anyone! ”

Without waiting for Han Sanxiao to persuade again, because I was afraid that I would be soft-hearted and compromised, I turned around and ran out quickly, using all my strength, and closed the courtyard door with a bang.

With a bang, the dumb bell that had just hung on the courtyard door slammed down on the door panel, and there was a sharp knock.

I leaned against the door, covering my mouth and holding back the crying, listening to the movement outside.

If there's no sound outside, they don't want to say something? Or, even if it's just complaining about something?

My whole body trembled so badly, I was afraid that the door panel would tremble with my trembling, I couldn't be noticed by them, and I still had a soft heart for them, so I went back to my room, covered the quilt and cried loudly.

It's the first time I've been angry at them, and maybe it's only with this remnant that I have the courage, otherwise how could someone like me have such a temper?

Occasionally willful, but also very happy.

Yan Fei has a long ability, Han Sanxiao will definitely think like this, yes, I am rarely hard once. I cried and laughed like a fool.

When the disease comes, everything is normal, but the seedlings of the disease have started to grow, like a spark on the prairie fire, stretching and vigorous.

This night I was tormented, my throat was itchy, the heat was unbearable, a pot of water drank but still did not quench my thirst, and in the middle of the night I couldn't stop urinating.

Tossing and turning, thinking a lot, I decided to get up all night. Just as they were getting dressed and about to go out, they suddenly heard a "ding" sound in the courtyard, a crisp bell.

Did I hear me wrong? It's a dumbbell on my door, how can there be such a crisp ringing bell?