Today, Xiaoice Bing's new book Heavenless Spirit Emperor is about to hit the shelves.

Before it was put on the shelf, it was customary to write a testimonial to pull some subscriptions for his book, and Xiaoice spent an hour writing a testimonial tonight, but when I typed the last word, I deleted all the previous testimonials.

Because when I typed the last word, I suddenly realized that I had been coding words for five years, and in a few years I would be an old Bingbing.

I asked myself, is it worth it to continue writing day in and day out?

Is it worth it to give all your youth to a computer keyboard?

Every day at six o'clock to catch the car to work in the company, after a busy day of work, to get home to deal with chores is to open the computer codeword, there is no time to spend with the family, the neighbor will point behind the back and say that you are a weirdo, friends will gradually become fewer, the social circle will be smaller and smaller, and what is worse is to sit for a long time lumbar muscle strain, vision loss, cervical spine pain, all kinds of chronic diseases.

In five years of codewords, I have never doubted myself as much as I do today.

I repeatedly asked myself in my mind if it was worth it?

Is it really worth sacrificing time with family, sacrificing one's health, sacrificing all one's spare time?

The moment I deleted the testimonial, I really wanted to give up, and out of boredom, I clicked on a web page, at the entrance of the train station, in the heavy snow, there was a man who was soliciting customers sitting on the ground, with a runny nose with snowflakes, with snowflakes on his eyelashes, and a bite of bread in his hand.

Whose father is he, whose husband is it, whose son is it, who would be willing to suffer in the extreme cold weather if it were not forced by life?

But what can be done, as long as the children have books to read, the parents have food, and the wife has a sense of security, they are willing to work hard.

There was an office worker in a suit on the subway, munching on bread and wiping away tears.

Xiaoice didn't know what was going on with him, but she could understand his mood.

Who is not breaking down while trying to live, from the moment we open our eyes every day, we have to earn a series of expenses such as rent, mortgage, children's tuition fees, living expenses, etc.

If we don't earn and can't pay the rent, the landlord will kick us out, and if we can't pay the mortgage, the house will go to the bank, and if we can't support the family, the family will not have a good life.

So we can only hold back tears, struggle and work hard, and work hard for the future of our family and children.

Occasionally we will have a breakdown, there will be frustration, we are no longer young we are adults, and in the adult world, there is no such thing as easy.

There is a single mother Li Shaoyun in Wuhan who drives a taxi with her baby, when the child was born, her husband disliked it as a daughter and wanted to give the child away, Li Shaoyun decided to take her daughter by herself.

Li Shaoyun and his daughter drove a taxi late at night, and once Li Shaoyun's car collided with an electric car, causing Li Shaoyun to lose his job.

Desperate, she had the idea of suicide, but her three-year-old daughter persuaded her to come back.

Li Shaoyun wiped her tears, and the next day continued to beg the owner to rent the car to her.

Now that Li Shaoyun and his daughter's lives are getting better day by day, which line of work is it easy to do?

When you feel like you can't stand it, maybe it's the darkness before dawn.

Seeing this, Xiaoice Bing suddenly remembered that five years ago, he uploaded his own text on the website for the first time, and that text could not even reach the sign, but Xiaoice Bing was still immersed in it and wrote very happily.

From not being able to sign a contract to making my first recommendation to earning my first manuscript fee, I can feel that I have been improving along the way, and although I am still a street fighter, writing a book has always been my dream.

If I give up like this, I will be restless for the rest of my life, and when I am 70 years old and old, I will regret my reckless reluctance to give up.

"When Happiness Knocks on the Door" has a line that you have to do your best to protect your dreams. Those who laugh at your dreams because they are bound to fail, so they want to turn you into someone like them.

Xiaoice firmly believes that as long as I have a dream in my heart, I will be different.

I think you are too.

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