I held her hand with both hands and said firmly: "Before I got to know you, I thought you should be a squeamish and weak person, Miss Qianjin, and then I thought you were an understanding and good girl, and later, you are a careful, smart and very strong good friend, our friendship has just begun, you can't just stop, you know?" ”

Zheng Zhuzhu sniffed lightly, and said with a dead heart: "If I get better, I will marry here, if the disease does not improve, it will only become more and more exhausted, and the idea of not dying at this moment is a luxury for me." ”

I slapped her hand and said, "Bah, if you don't die, you will get better, my eyes will be better now, and after a while, Yan Cuo's ears will be fine, and we will all live a long and healthy life." ”

Zheng Zhuzhu didn't answer, tears rolled down his cheeks, like a hot soul away from the cold body.

"I know, you always knew in your heart that someone was caring about you, but you have been sick and dead since you left, and you have no love, why? What happened? ”

Zheng Zhuzhu's body moved, and I felt her gently shake her head.

"Is it - is it because you helped me that the rust poison on the gold thread has affected your body and condition? I've heard people say that your health has improved a lot in the past few years, and it stands to reason that you won't suddenly fall ill and die - is it because of me? ——”

"No, it's none of your business."

"Why is that? Originally, everything was fine - Han San smiled and said, before you left the town, Song Lingjian wanted to drive you away, is it true? ”

"No ......"

"Then why did you leave all of a sudden? didn't even say goodbye - didn't Han San smile? Did he say something gibberish that made you angry? You don't have to protect him, I'll help you out! I pressed after Zheng about the reason for his sudden departure.

Zheng Zhuzhu's hand suddenly fell out of my palm weakly, and he muttered: "It has nothing to do with that person, I will completely forget this person, just as he completely forgot me......"

I gritted my teeth and said, "I've always wanted to ask you, what is the story between you and Han Sanxiao?" Why did I never mention him? He's only been in town for about six years, so did he cross paths with you before he came? There have been intersections, so why haven't they continued to interact? Why? ”

Zheng Jewel was crying softly again, and along with crying, she was still panting hard - her current physical condition, even crying softly would make her heart ache, it was a real heartache, a solid pain.

"Okay, okay, I don't ask you these sad things, the most important thing is for you to take care of your body."

Zheng Jewel choked up: "Sad? It was the happiest memory of my life, but sometimes pain is poison, even happiness is poison, it contrasts my cage-like life with more pain, sleeping is heaven, waking up is hell......"

My eyes are red, but also sad, this feeling I haven't had, the dream is always sunny, there is a smile of my father, and the clouds outside the dream are not gone, my father is no longer there.

"I don't know if I'll be able to survive this time like last time, and if I don't die, I'm just a walking dead. What a pity this happy memory, buried with me, should be shared with my best friend, shouldn't it? ”

"Best friend?" I couldn't help but burst into tears, and I didn't want to worry about the burning pain in my eyes anymore.

Zheng Jewel gave a firm sigh of gratitude, calmed her mood, and whispered this happy memory that she had been alone for a long time.

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Ai'er. It seems that every story has to start with such words to appear to have a sense of authenticity of memory.

[ Ai'er was born in the richest village in the town, as the rumors in the town say, it must have been a blessing for many generations, so that she can wear gold and silver like this in this life.

Since she was a child, Ai'er's parents have called her Ai'er, and they love her very much, and they can't wait to give her all the best things in the world.

The family is wealthy, her parents love her, and her children should be very happy, but she has never been able to enjoy these heavenly gifts for a moment.

In fact, there wasn't a moment of true happiness for her.

Although she wears brocade and jade silk every day, she doesn't have a moment to feel with her heart. Because in the home that originally belonged to her, every word she said had to be weighed and handled, and every step she took had to be careful.

At a young age, she has been living on thin ice.

It's all because Ai'er's mother is only the second lady in the house, and there is a big lady above her, and they are under the control of the big lady, and this control is like a curse, which has been entangled in every detail of their lives.

The mother is a weak person, she does not like to fight, everything she endures is to let her only daughter grow up safe and happy.

Dad was always out for months, and I had the impression that he was always in such a hurry, as if for him, home was just an occasional stop.

Ai'er always asks her father: Daddy, why do you always have to leave Ai'er?

Dad always had different answers, but Ai'er always remembered one time, Daddy held her face, as if to remember something through her immature little face, and replied softly to her: Because Daddy lost a piece of the most precious jade, Daddy wants to find it back.

Ai'er has always wondered what the most precious piece of jade looks like, which will make her father, who has a lot of trouble, miss and fascinate her father so much.

When my father is at home, everything seems so happy, my mother is always so tolerant, I pick up vegetables for them during meals, let them brocade cloth when I dress, she and my mother will be commensurate with sisters, and ask for warmth everywhere. But all of that is just an illusion.

As soon as the father went out, the eldest mother suddenly changed another face, and that face was like a nightmare, cunning and hideous, and full of resentment.

The young Ai'er couldn't imagine how the same person could have such two completely different faces.

At that time, she didn't understand, she asked her mother: Mother, why did my mother take back all the brocade cloth that was sent to us? Why didn't the eldest lady suddenly stop smiling again?

The mother always gently stroked her hair, and said softly: Because the eldest mother thinks that those brocade cloths are not beautiful enough, she wants to find a better one for our Ai'er? That's why she felt very sad.

The mother's hand touching her hair was trembling slightly.

As Ai'er grows up, the eldest mother's attitude becomes worse and worse, and there will often be inexplicable scars on the mother's hands and arms.

Falling, touching, accidentally rubbing, my mother always covers it up in every possible way.

The mother's eyes also began to become complicated, and Ai'er often had a momentary illusion that her mother was not sad because she was being bullied, but sad for Ai'er's appearance.

Ai'er looked at herself in the mirror, is her mother sad that she doesn't look like her?

Ai'er frowned and said to herself in the mirror: Ai'er, you have to protect your mother, and you can't let the big evil mother bully her anymore.

The cold face of the eldest mother, Ai'er doubted, scared, and finally overcame weakness and became brave to look directly, she looked at the hypocritical face of the eldest mother and often couldn't help but laugh out loud, but the weak mother always gently pulled her, signaling her not to annoy her.

As Ai'er grows up, the mother becomes weaker and weaker, and endures in every way, but Ai'er is getting stronger and stronger.

Ai'er was very unconvinced, but she knew that the result of distressing the eldest mother would only make her mother more bullied, and in the life of the eldest mother, it seemed that bullying the mother had become the real meaning of life. She will instruct her mother to serve tea and pour water for her, and even let her mother stand in the courtyard in the cold winter for an afternoon with soup and tea, her mother is so weak, the wind blows her thin body as if she is going to fall down at any time, Ai'er is really angry, but her mother always shakes her head at her, and pursues one word all the time: forbearance.

Since Ai'er was sensible, she often woke up in the middle of the night to hear her mother crying softly next door, but what can she do?

She could only listen quietly like that, as if it was a kind of silent companionship, she didn't dare to comfort, she didn't dare to expose her mother's casual disguise, the first time she heard her mother cry, she ran over without thinking, but her mother's tears were not erased, but she blindly asked her what was wrong, whether she couldn't sleep, whether she had nightmares, whether she was scared......

The mother tried her best to calm down all kinds of turmoil in the house, ease the relationship between the eldest mother and Ai'er, looking at her pretending to be strong, Ai'er was very distressed, she wished that she was a man and could protect her mother.

When she was twelve years old, the eldest mother and the mother had a conflict for the first time in front of Ai'er, Ai'er still doesn't understand that day the eldest mother is so out of shape, she remembers that day she and her mother happily tried on new clothes in the room, the new clothes were bought by the mother herself with moon silver, sewn by hand, it seems to be akane red, the style I don't remember very well, Ai'er rarely wears such a bright and jumpy color, so she is also very novel, looking in the mirror, the mother is behind, looking at it distractedly. Suddenly, the eldest lady broke in, and the smirk suddenly froze on her face, and she quickly pounced on her and ripped off the new clothes that Ai'er had put on her.

The mother trembled and protected Ai'er, and wrapped her tightly in her arms: Da ...... Sister, what are you doing here?

The eldest mother glared at Ai'er viciously, and Ai'er also glared at her angrily: Why did the eldest mother tear the clothes that my mother gave me?

The eldest lady immediately glared at her mother, raised her hand suddenly, and left an even paler palm print on the mother's pale face with a "horn": Slut, if you dare to dress up this evil seed as her, I will cut off your hooves!

The mother didn't even dare to cry, but nodded quickly with her neck in her neck, and on her neck with fear, the green tendons burst violently, and the expression of silent fear waved in Ai'er's mind.

The eldest lady stepped on the torn new clothes and walked out, and the mother silently picked up the broken clothes and hugged them in her arms, crying hysterically in front of her love for the first time.

Ai'er's question has never dared to ask again: Who is she that the eldest mother said?

When my father came back, the palm prints on my mother's face were still red and swollen, and she hid in the room and said that she was sick and did not dare to see her father.

The eldest lady smiled with peace of mind, and the more the mother tolerated and escaped like this, the more unscrupulous she became.

Dad was also relieved to meet their request, and did not go to visit the sick mother, he happily fiddled with the gifts he brought back for Ai'er, and told her the origin one by one.

The more Ai'er thought about it, the more angry she became, and threw everything aside: I don't want my father's gift, if my father really wants me to be happy, go and see my mother.

Dad was slightly surprised, Ai'er pulled him to his mother's room, his mother was dressing up in the mirror, trying to cover up the redness and swelling on her face, maybe she vaguely hoped that she could cover the traces to see her father who hadn't come back for a long time.

Dad stared at his mother and said in surprise: Mochizuki, what's wrong with your face?

The mother looked at Ai'er on the side, her eyes were complicated, she didn't know whether to be relieved or complained, and said softly: Ai'er, you go out first.

Ai'er pretended to retreat and hid by the door, wanting to add to the aunt's statement when her father came out.