I slowly opened the door of Hei Xuan's bedroom and walked in gently, at that time Hei Xuan was already asleep, she had turned off the light in the bedroom, but even so, I could still see Hei Xuan's body by the little light outside the window.

She was lying on her side on the bed with her back to me, covered with the quilt underneath, and she was asleep in her clothes.

I closed the door softly, and the sound was so small that I could barely hear it.

I walked to Hei Xuan's bedside and sat down slowly, looking at her figure, I suddenly had a lot of thoughts in my heart, thinking about many things complicatedly, especially my affairs with her.

I sat on her bed, staring at Hei Xuan without blinking, I didn't know whether to wake her up, I wondered why she was running away now, or that she was trying to give up on me.

I sat at the head of her bed and watched her, I thought about it for a long time, but I gave up, I didn't want to disturb her at the moment, I wanted her to sleep well.

I slowly stood up and walked to the bedroom door, and when I was about to open the bedroom door, Hei Xuan behind me suddenly said to me, "Is this fair to Bai Ling?" ”

Maybe the moment I came in at that time, Hei Xuan already knew, she just didn't squeak and kept pretending to be asleep.

I took my hand back and turned to look at Hei Xuan, who also sat up from the bed at that time, and at this moment she was sitting on the bed with her hands on her knees and a sad face.

I walked up to her and looked at her lonely figure, I was so sad that her question filled my heart with torment, and at that moment I really had a hard time finding an answer that would make her heart feel relieved.

Maybe I didn't know how to tell her at that time, but I still told her what I thought at that moment, I looked at the lonely Hei Xuan on the bed, and I said to her calmly: "I know this is very unfair to Bai Ling, what about you?" Is all this fair to you? I don't want to see you like this, I just want to see you as you are, that's your true self. ”

Saying this, I sat on Hei Xuan's bed again, I really didn't have any other thoughts, I just wanted to have a good chat with her, I wanted to know what she was thinking, and I wanted her to know what I was thinking.

I lit a cigarette, took a hard puff, then sighed, and said to her: "I don't want to see you torture yourself like this, I don't want to see you unhappy, and I don't want to see you sad, Bai Ling's affairs have nothing to do with you, all the reasons are because of me, it may be that I didn't do well enough in my previous life to hurt you and Bai Ling, even if God punishes me in the future, I hope it will punish me alone, so that I won't hurt you and Bai Ling." ”

When I said this, I didn't look at Hei Xuan, I was sitting on the bed with my back to her, and at that moment I was speaking from the heart and from the depths of my heart.

The cigarette in my hand has also burned out, I immediately put out the cigarette and put it in the ashtray, I slowly stood up and said to Hei Xuan: "Don't think too much, I don't want to see you live in the abyss of pain every day, from today onwards I hope to see you happy every day, no matter what happens in the future, I want to see the smile on your face, even if there are more tribulations in the future, I will protect you and Bai Ling, even if it costs my life, I want you and Bai Ling to live happily." ”

After saying these words, I was going to leave Hei Xuan's bedroom, since I told her what I had to say, now I didn't want to disturb her, but before I could leave, Hei Xuan suddenly hugged me from behind, his hands tightly around my waist, her face pressed against my back, she cried, hot tears wet my back.

"I'm sorry! It's me who made you sad, but I can't help it, it's really hard for me to face all this, I don't want to hurt you and Bai Ling again because of me, it was my fault in the previous life, I don't want to make the same mistake again in this life, you did well enough in the previous life, and I don't want you to pay anything in this life. Promise me that no matter what happens later, you will not give your life, especially for me, I don't want to see that moment! Hei Xuan is not like Bai Ling, she always cries, she just cries silently, she is silently sad, she always imposes all the faults on herself.

Hei Xuan said very sadly, her words pierced my heart like a needle, I turned around slowly, Hei Xuan took the hands holding me back from her waist, she was sitting on the bed at that time, through the outside light, I saw Hei Xuan's face that was covered with tears, she was very heart-wrenching at that time.

Hei Xuan touched her tears, but her tears still flowed down the corners of her eyes to her cheeks, I gently sat on her bed, stepped forward and hugged her, hugged her tightly in my arms, gently stroked her hair with one hand, and said to her gently: "I know what you say, I promise you, but you also have to promise me, no matter what happens in the future, you are not allowed to torture yourself, you have to be happy, you are not allowed to cry, and we will talk about it later, okay!" ”

Hei Xuan nodded lightly, she didn't answer me, I raised my hand and gently wiped her cheeks, wiped away the tears on her face, and pretended to be angry and said to her: "Look at you, I said I don't want to see you sad and sad, come and laugh and let me see." ”

Hei Xuan barely managed to squeeze out a smile when he heard me say this, but then his face became cold again.

I knew in my heart that Hei Xuan had gone through too much, and it was really difficult to make her happy at this time, I wasn't forcing her, what I thought was that everything would be fine in the future.

I looked at Hei Xuan in my arms, snuggled in my arms like a kitten, she stopped crying at that time, I unconsciously kissed her on the forehead, and asked her, "Have you missed me in the past few days?" ”

Hei Xuan suddenly pushed me away, with a little anger on her face, I knew that she was embarrassed to answer: "It's almost dawn, you should hurry back to the house!" ”

I was suddenly pushed away by Hei Xuan, I was a little unconvinced, I knew she didn't want to say, but I told her to say, I really thought I was bad at that time, especially in front of Hei Xuan, this time I forcibly held her in my arms, with a wicked smile on my face, and forced her to say: "Answer me, do you miss me?" ”

Hei Xuan broke free twice, but didn't break free from my arms, glanced at me angrily, and said angrily: "No! ”

After listening to her, I hugged her tightly again and said to her with a straight face: "Say it well, it's not like this!" ”

Hei Xuan showed impatience on his face, but he looked helpless in his eyes, and said to me, "What the hell are you asking me to say?" ”

"I just want to know if you miss me these days!" I replied.

"Then I'll tell you, go back to the house and go to sleep." I nodded in agreement.

Hei Xuan suddenly turned his head away from looking at me, but just whispered two words, "I think!" ”

This was a bit perfunctory, so I asked her again, "What do you think?" ”

Hei Xuan turned his head to me, then gently pressed it against my chest, and replied, "I miss you!" "At that moment I felt very happy and held her tightly in my arms.

After a while, Hei Xuan gently kissed me on the face and said to me, "Go back to the house and go to sleep, it's almost dawn, and Bai Ling should wake up in a while." ”

I was very happy at that moment, and then I kissed her on the forehead and said, "Okay! You also rest early! After speaking, I gently helped Hei Xuan to lie on the bed, covered her with a quilt, and said to her: Good night! At that moment, Hei Xuan smiled, laughing very happily and satisfied.

I smiled at her as well, and I was really happy at that moment, and Hei Xuan whispered to me, "Go back!" After that, I left Kurogen's bedroom satisfied.

(End of chapter)