Chapter 361: Love but Can't
When he saw Xu Yanran, Lin Qingqing was not surprised by her. She was thinner, and her thin body was like a piece of paper, and she couldn't seem to even take a light breath.
Because she was more casual at home, Lin Qingqing saw that she had not had time to wash her unkempt hair, and a plain little face that had not been used by any brand-name skin care products and cosmetics on her face.
She was wearing a mint green sundress, and her fair skin seemed to be transparent. Without the cover of that down jacket, Lin Qingqing felt that she was almost only a handful of bones left on her body.
"Yanran ......" Lin Qingqing called softly, and then choked up.
Like a fish in his throat, Lin Qingqing now understands this word very thoroughly. Her throat was like a cobweb of dust, and she couldn't even spit out a single superfluous word.
Although she knew what Su Cheng meant to Xu Yanran, Lin Qingqing also knew how much she wanted to give up her life. But when she saw that she was pale and desperate to this point, she couldn't help but feel sad.
Looking back, it was Lin Qingqing and Jiang Nuan, and a smile appeared on Xu Yanran's pale little face. "You're here." Her tone was light, as if she was talking about a very ordinary little thing.
Don't like things or be sad about yourself, it's probably Xu Yanran's current state. In fact, it is not difficult to do this, as long as the heart is dead and there is no interest in everything in this time, it will naturally become like this.
The two walked up to Xu Yanran and sat down, and then followed her gaze. On the wall hangs a magnified photograph of two smiling faces.
"Yanran, otherwise...... Let's take that picture anyway......" Jiang Nuan reassured her. "Seeing things and thinking about people, but people are no longer there, why do you bother yourself?"
Xu Yanran herself didn't understand this truth, but what could she do? Thinking is simply involuntary.
If she could be at her disposal, how she wished she hadn't fallen in love with Sioux City. But how is that possible? She knew very well that even if she turned back the clock again, she would still be thrilled.
Just like winter goes to spring, spring grass burns green ridges, clouds pass over Wushan, and the moon goes up to the sky, which is a natural thing. And Xu Yanran's fall in love with Sioux City is also a predestined inevitability.
Adjusting her gaze, Xu Yanran looked down at the city street below the bay window. It's always a bustling and bustling scene. "I'm tired, I'm too lazy to toss." But she was only in her twenties, and the words that came out of her mouth were like those of an old man in her sixties and seventies.
In just a few years, everything has changed, including Xu Yanran herself. Safely left, Sioux City left, and my father was dying overnight. These things were like a burden on her, and she couldn't breathe.
"Yanran, Jiang Shang likes you a lot, otherwise you ......" Lin Qingqing didn't know what was wrong, and suddenly the ghost made a god open his mouth.
Xu is she is too direct, so Xu Yanran also answered directly. "Qingqing, if Ou Yuanlan dies, will you fall in love with someone else?" She asked stunned, without the slightest turn in her tone.
This rhetorical question made Lin Qingqing also fall into deep thought, indeed, how could she ask Xu Yanran for something she couldn't do herself?
There will always be some people who will tell you to do this and that under the banner of being good for you, telling you how you should be and how you should live. But is that really the case?
All the things that have happened, are about to happen, or have not yet happened, are like people who know how cold and warm they are, and no one is qualified to make decisions for another person.
"I'm sorry." Lin Qingqing lowered her head, she did regret saying that impulsively just now.
Now Xu Yanran has no resentment, she just thinks that all this is what she should accept. "Qingqing, I don't blame you." She said lightly. "I just think that Sioux City is going on a long journey, and one day, I will go to him." The wind blew in from outside the window, raising the white gauze curtains.
Following the transparent glass, Xu Yanran's gaze drifted away. She seemed to see Sioux City in the air, and the man with the same eyebrows and eyes was smiling at her.
When he left Xu Yanran's house, Lin Qingqing's heart was a little heavier. She understood very clearly that Jiang Shang had no possibility at all.
In fact, Xu Yanran's feelings for Su Cheng itself are not terrible, and the terrible thing has become an obsession. Regardless of whether she can meet another person in the future, she will subconsciously tell herself that it is impossible.
Because of this strong self-suggestion, even if there is such a person, it is destined to be a sad ending.
"Nuan Nuan, I'm a little tired, I'll go home first." Lin Qingqing grabbed her black handbag and looked at Jiang Nuan with a tired face and said.
Jiang Nuan, who had been silent all the way, nodded slightly, and then raised her hand to help her brush the broken hair around her ears. "Be careful on the road." She said with a smile.
Looking at the face with heavy makeup, Lin Qingqing's chest suddenly overflowed with a trace of sadness. If Jiang Nuan in front of her was still plain-faced, she would probably think that the two of them had just graduated from college not long ago.
But what? Time never stops and waits for anyone. It has a pair of fastest feet in the world, and it keeps moving forward, even if the world collapses in the next second, it never stops.
Standing on the side of the road and waving his hand, a taxi immediately stopped in front of Lin Qingqing. "You go home early, too." Lin Qingqing admonished.
It's really a good thing to have friends, even if she doesn't have relatives in this world, but she is warm. This person is like her family, and he has accompanied her for nearly eight years of youth.
After Lin Qingqing got into the taxi, Jiang Nuan waved his hand. After the car started, Lin Qingqing suddenly heard a voice.
"Qingqing, will you forgive me no matter what I do?" This is Jiang Nuan's voice, Lin Qingqing is extremely sure.
She quickly asked the master to stop, then opened the car door and walked down. It was only a minute before and after, but in this short minute, Jiang Nuan disappeared in the place just now.
Could it be that she misheard? Lin Qingqing began to question himself. Probably because she was too tired, she had auditory hallucinations. Eventually, she came to such a conclusion and stepped back into the taxi.
From this moment on, fate revealed his minions again. However, Lin Qingqing didn't realize it, she just felt a little tired, just like reading too many documents would cause fatigue and sleepiness, and Chenchen's arms would be sore after holding them for a long time.
Probably tomorrow I will wake up and it will be a new day. Lin Qingqing thought silently in her heart, she leaned against the window of the taxi, closed her eyes and rested temporarily.