I leaned against the wall weakly, I should have been sad, but at this time I was very calm, and even a little relieved: "Auntie, don't worry, I really don't blame my father, as you said, he has given everything to us, and he also has the right to pursue his own happiness, if I let him exchange his happiness and freedom for the company of sorrow, I would rather him leave." I used to think that he abandoned his wife and children, and the arrival of Yan Cuo destroyed all my expectations and trust in him, but this kind of thought really tormented me, after what you just said, everything seems to be reasonable, I know that you are afraid that I will ask more about my father's affairs and dare not mention too much of the past to me, now I hear those details that I can't recall, my father hugged me and smiled, my father loved me as much as possible, I felt very real, although we have only been together for six years, but I have fatherly love, Never less than anyone else has learned from their fathers who have spent half their lives—"

I looked up at the alley to the sky, but the tears couldn't stop sliding down, every brick and tile in this town has traces of my father's intentions, the meticulous alley benches here, the neat streets here, all have the memories of my father passing by. I seem to see my father watching me somewhere in the sky, although he has long since left me, but his shadow has never disappeared, everything he has done for the people of the town, they have repaid me with their hearts, so after so many years of his departure, I am still like a favored little daughter in the family, so carefully and tactfully protected.

Aunt Cai burst into tears, hugged my shoulders tightly and said, "Child, it's good if you can think like this......

"I don't know why my mother is like this, but I know that her heart for her father has not changed, and everyone thinks that her father has turned his back on her, but she has always been very persistent in believing that there is a reason for what her father does, and her unconditional trust in her father makes me ashamed - auntie, do you know why?"

Aunt Cai wiped her tears and cried as sadly as I did: "No one knows, so many people think that it is your mother's responsibility, what a good person your father is, it was your mother herself who pushed him away." ”

My mother has always had a father in her heart, but why should she alienate us? The last time I heard her have a brief conversation with Qin Zheng, they mentioned that her mother was sick - what was her illness? Did she fall when she was pregnant with me?

"Auntie, what is my mother's illness? Don't you think something is wrong and want my dad to find her a doctor? What the hell happened to her? ”

Aunt Cai wiped her tears, thought about it, and said: "I can't say it, it feels very strange, obviously sometimes we have a good conversation, but when I turn my head, she seems to have changed as if she has changed her person, as if she has just woken up from a sleep, and she doesn't know where she is doing what she is doing. ”

What the hell happened to my mother?

"There's one thing I haven't told anyone. When your mother was pregnant with you for almost seven months, once, in the middle of the night, I and your uncle sent you a freshly picked leg bone soup, and I heard your father and your mother arguing in the courtyard, your mother was crying, and I had never seen her cry for so long, because your father had given her the happiness that all women in the world hoped for, and she had always been smiling like all happy women. She cried very sadly, she said that she could no longer bear such a life, and never wanted your father to live such a life again, your father has been persuading her, very gentle, very patient, he said that it was because of his selfishness that he hurt your mother, if everything can go back to the past, he would rather your mother not have a child in the womb...... I didn't understand your uncle, but after all, this is your father's and mother's business, I thought it was just an ordinary quarrel, I used to feel hard when I was pregnant with the pillar, and I often cried and sprinkled my anger on your uncle, but then I thought about it, I always felt that there was really something that couldn't be solved, otherwise your father wouldn't have let it develop like this, and wouldn't have made your mother so withdrawn from the world. ”

Could it be that the change of the mother is the source of all suffering? Otherwise, we will still be a happy family, my father will not be displaced, there will be no incompleteness of Yan Cuo, there will be no early death of his mother, everything will be different.

"Auntie, why are you suddenly willing to confess what happened before? I heard you mention Uncle Black just now, and Yan Cuo also mentioned it, isn't it- isn't it Uncle Hei that he's back? "I bit out my guess, a person who has disappeared for many years suddenly has news, it may be good news or bad news, I hope Uncle Black is back safely.

Aunt Cai sighed and said, "Why does he want to come back, the truth is so important to you?" Han Sanxiao and Song Lingjian have been investigating this matter day and night, your uncle and I haven't slept soundly for a day since he appeared——"

I stood up suddenly, widened my eyes and said, "Auntie, Uncle Hei is back?" Why didn't you tell me? You're all hiding it from me?! ”

Aunt Cai pulled me and said, "You have a recurrence of your old illness and a disease in your eyes, what can you do even if I tell you?" Doesn't it make you feel more uncomfortable? Besides, Hei Jun is in a very bad state, and he is still crazy like that, and we are afraid that he will hurt you. ”

"No, I'm going to see him!" I turned to leave.

Aunt Cai pulled me tightly and said: "Don't go, don't go-I have already broken the promise made by everyone and told you about the past, Song Lingjian emphasized, no one can mention the matter of Hei Jun's return to you without authorization, for fear of affecting your condition - Fei'er, you should help Auntie, don't you know?" Heijun is well at home, we will take a good look at him, and you will see him when the time comes. ”

I was undecided, irritable, and the big guy was hiding this and that with one nostril: "Time is ripe? When is the time to come? ”

Aunt Cai said: "Anyway, it's time, and they'll tell you." Fei'er, your eyes are good, my aunt is really happy, my aunt doesn't want to become a sinner, okay? ”

I looked at Aunt Cai's sad expression, and remembered what Yan Cuo said to Hai Piao early in the morning, and only then did I understand what Hai Piao's sentence "Why should even he be hurt" was going on - if Uncle Hei returned here, then the hatred in Yan Cuo's heart would have a target, and Han Sanxiao had an argument with him in the morning, probably because of this.

"Did Yan Cuo go to Uncle Hei?" I stared at Aunt Cai.

Aunt Cai's expression froze obviously, avoiding my gaze, shaking her head, and about to answer, I grabbed the topic and said, "I know he must have gone to Uncle Hei, and he did very bad things—I can pretend not to know everything, but you can't really make me blind, right?" ”

Aunt Cai said: "Okay, then you have to promise me that you don't want Hei Jun's business, and don't let others know that you know that he is back - otherwise, your aunt and I will no longer be able to gain a foothold in the town." ”

I nodded eagerly, "I promise." ”

"Actually, we don't know when Hei Jun came back, inexplicably one day, we heard someone shouting in the courtyard, Hei Jun's courtyard has been uninhabited since he was exiled by the Yamen, and suddenly there was a human voice, we didn't get used to it for a while, and after listening carefully for a while, the cry was intermittent, and it was indeed from the courtyard. Your uncle has the key to Hei Jun's house, usually I will go in to clean it during the New Year's holidays, we took the key and pushed the door to take a look - both of them were startled, there was a man hanging on the beam in Hei Jun's courtyard, his face was full of blood, his neck was hanging in the knot, his eyes were like bells, his legs were kicking in mid-air and almost didn't die, we didn't recognize who the person was, dare to save it first. When I rescued him, I found out that it was Hei Jun, and we were stunned at the time, we didn't show up for so many years, and when he had died outside, he came back quietly, and he hanged himself in his yard for some reason——"

"Hanging? Why did Uncle Black hang himself? ”

"We don't know, but he was the only one in the yard at the time, and the gate was locked, and when he woke up, he shouted there, saying that the eldest brother had come to ask for his life—he used to call you daddy big brother—and when we rescued him, he had a bad card in his mouth, and it was your father's bad card—"

"My dad's bad cards? Didn't my dad carry his bad cards with him and disappear sixteen years ago? How did it end up in Uncle Black's mouth? ”

Aunt Cai said: "So Han Sanxiao and Song Lingjian suspected the matter on Yan Cuo, the only person who may hold your father's bad card is Yan Cuo, they immediately began to suspect that Yan Cuo was applying for something for your father, we are very afraid, afraid that they will find out what we have been hiding for the past sixteen years, if your father really eloped with Yunlan, it is normal for Hei Jun to hate him, he wants to use his death to expose the fact of your father's disappearance, and he wants to fight against all of us - Song Lingjian knows how to heal, if she cures Hei Jun's madness, I can't hide what happened back then, after so many years, your father is no longer alive, why dig up these meaningless old scars to make people who are still alive hurt? I also wanted to say this to Song Lingjian, but she didn't listen at all, I know that she is looking for justice for you, maybe this is the will of God. ”

I was silent, I didn't expect that Uncle Hei, who I had painstakingly inquired about for so many years, wanted to use his death to accuse my father of betrayal with the widow, but-why did my father shout Uncle Hei's name in a nightmare, Yan Cuo also thought that Uncle Hei must have done something to make Dad angry, so as soon as Uncle Hei appeared, he would have to trouble him, could it be that my father's bad card was really stuffed into Uncle Hei's mouth? Could it be that he was the one who almost killed Uncle Black by hanging him up? According to what they said, it was obviously Dad who betrayed Uncle Black's trust, why did he end up with Dad hating Uncle Black? What really happened to them?

"Auntie, when did that happen?"

"It's been about three days, I still saw you in the city that morning, you had breakfast with Han Sanxiao and Song Lingjian in the toast building, I was still happy for you at that time, I didn't expect this to happen that evening."

That? I thought about it, we had breakfast that day, and Song Lingjian was invited to Zheng's mansion to see Zheng Zhuzhu before me, and then I also went with Yesheng. When I came back from Zheng's Mansion that night, I ran into Shangguan Yan, Shangguan Yan sent me back to the house, and then, we met Yan Cuo in the courtyard who had just come back from climbing over the wall outside-