Hai Piao is still reading:

- My daughter is not like her, like me.

- I wanted my daughter to be like her, with a pointed face, snow-white skin, bright eyes and bright teeth, very beautiful. But she was very happy, she said that she liked her daughter to be like me, healthy, not too beautiful, since ancient times, beautiful women are not as happy as ordinary women.

- Why did she say that? Isn't she happy?

- At first, I always thought that she was nostalgic for her old life, fine clothes and food, glory and wealth, but I was wrong.

— but even with such consequences, I never regretted any of the decisions I made, including the price of her life back.

……

"Stop, stop, let me think." I stopped Hai Piao, who looked at me strangely.

Dad did make a decision back then, but the letter ended there, what kind of decision did he make to save his mother's life? Is there a big price to pay?

"You keep reading, I'm stupid, I'm afraid I won't be able to keep up with you—" I explained.

Hai Piao nodded, slowed down and said:

- As long as I see her, no matter what she looks like, it is a treasure to me like no other.

- It's still the same sentence, as long as it's for you, no matter what.

- It's just that I can't sleep in the middle of the night, always drinking and hating, and those past times are like knives, cutting every inch of my heart. And in this life, I no longer have the face to hold the hand of my son, and I will grow old with my son.

- The oath has been repented, and all of it is hatred.

- If you don't go out again, it seems to be a punishment for me. But even from afar, all you see in your eyes is confusion and strangeness. That occasional smile or two, I know you still have me in your heart.

- I can no longer face you, disturb your peace, and no longer give you the life I promised you, forever.

- May in your heart, I still be the same as I was, never separated, never turned my back.

- Everything will come to an end. I am always with you, doing my life's promise. 】

When I think about the vague words in the letter, I always feel that my father still has a lot of unspoken words, but what does he want to say but can't say?

Then I suddenly remembered two people, maybe they would know what happened back then.

Meng Wu, Qin Zheng.

Qin Zheng seems to be very partial to his mother, he used to have a very close relationship with his mother, and he also did something that his mother couldn't forgive for twenty-three years, maybe he would know what would become like this.

I'm so disappointed that a lot of the truth is so close at hand, and I let them be missed.

"What is Sister Fei thinking?" Hai Piao asked me, thoughtfully, with a smile in his eyes, as if he knew what I was thinking.

I didn't want to say anything to cover up, so I said bluntly: "I'm thinking about the fifth uncle, and that Qin Zheng." ”

Hai Piao raised his eyebrows and said with a smile: "Also, if you want to clear the fog, you need two people who hold the light." ”

I couldn't help laughing, pushed him and said, "You, follow Song Lingjian, you have learned to talk to the gods, but you are not allowed to play a big show in front of me, my brain is slow and I can't understand." ”

Hai Piao smiled: "Isn't it boring to play in front of Sister Fei." ”

I gave him a blank look and said, "Hey, now you can't think you're stupid, you can't read a single big word to be able to read a whole letter, what about me, I've been going back and forth for more than 20 years, and I can know so many words back and forth——"

Hai Piao comforted: "That's because Sister Fei is busy with a lot of things, and she doesn't have time to sit down and study-"

"It's not that I'm not free, I'd rather be in an empty daze, than to look at those words that bend around, I'm so big, the only thing I can write without thinking about it is my own name, and the rest, instead of letting me argue by myself, I'd better let Xia Xia read faster."

Hai Piao said: "Maybe I'm more interested, and Sister Fei has Xia Xia as a good helper, so she is naturally lazy." ”

I stared at the sea drift and couldn't help laughing: "Where do you say you will come from, you man, your heart is brighter than a mirror, and you know a few words like me." I'm curious what you were like before you came here. ”

Hai Piao shrugged his shoulders and said, "Maybe, Sister Fei is so curious about my past, why?" ”

I thought about it for a moment and said, "Maybe it's because I don't know, so I'm curious." ”

Perhaps, it's just that I'm afraid he'll remember—or that this will be the beginning of another tragedy.

Haipiao said: "Nonsense, Sister Fei, you don't know the past of the third brother Ling He, why isn't Sister Fei curious about them?" ”

I didn't hesitate to say, "Curious, I've been curious for many years, so curious that I have to scratch my hair when I think about it!" ”

How could I not be curious, I was so curious that I almost threw up!

Hai Piao smiled: "Since you are curious, why does Sister Fei never ask them?" ”

I was stunned, this really stopped me.

"I don't know, I always think they won't tell me."

"But if you didn't ask, how would you know they wouldn't tell you?"

I nodded, yes.

At this time, the pear bell outside "nail bell" sounded, crisp as water, I sat up straight, I haven't heard the sound of pear bell for a long time.

"Huh?" A man replied strangely.

"What's wrong?" Shangguan Yan's voice asked.

Shangguan Yan?

"It's- it's Rizu?!" The man was surprised and excited.

Shangguan Yan said: "Is it strange? ”

"Ah, Brother Shangguan is here? Who is this? ......" Xia Xia Da Da ran out to greet the guests.

"This is the uncle of the family, just call him Uncle Zong." Shangguan Yan said.

Uncle Zong? Is that the Zong Bai in that alley who recognized Shangguan Li as Shangguan Yan?

Xia Xia sighed a few times and said, "Uncle Zong? Couldn't it be the farrow's father? It also looks very similar, eight or nine are not far from ten. ”

Shangguan Yan smiled: "It's still Xia Xia's sharp eyes." Mother asked us to bring some things for you to eat, is Miss Yan better? ”

Xia Xia chuckled: "It's still Yun Niang's heart, thanks to Brother Shangguan, Sister Fei's injuries are much better, but she was scared." ”

"Oh? How can you be so scared? ”

This Xia Xia, I'm going to start laughing at me again!

I pulled my hair, patted my face, put on my clothes and was about to get out of bed, and said loudly: "Girl, guests are not invited to sit in the hall when they come, what do people look like when they stand in the cold wind?" ”

Xia Xia laughed and said, "It turns out that Sister Fei is also afraid of being laughed at, the two of them are sitting in the hall, and the tea is hot, just to warm up." ”

Hai Piao handed me the stove, and I took a picture in front of the mirror without confidence, a pale and haggard face, chapped lips, a little turtleed from tears in the cold wind, and eyes that were so swollen that they were just healed.

Think about these days, when I was blind, I was blindfolded, full of resentment and grievances, my eyes were just right, which time was not crying and crying, I really didn't live like a person, where am I the beauty in those stories, crying is pear blossoms with rain, laughing is far away with smoke, tears and snot fall down when I cry, and I always can't control the volume of laughter and leans forward and backwards, where is it like a wonderful woman who is loved by everyone?

Ay.

Haipiao said: "Sister Fei is pitiful when she is sick, and the guests will understand." ”

I sighed and said, "I'm afraid I'll scare others." ”

Hai Piaoruo said as if intentionally and unintentionally: "When did Sister Fei care about her appearance like this?" ”

I didn't answer, yes, I never cared before, but now I know that my mother is the first beauty in the imperial capital, like a gorgeous butterfly flying in everyone's dreams, but what about me? Like a bamboo dragonfly with broken wings on a rainy day. Even I began to dislike myself.

Walking out of the door, although there was also a charcoal fire in the hall, it was still a little different from the warm room, and the two people sitting at the table immediately stood up very politely, Shangguan Yan looked at Hai Piao with slight surprise, and said, "It turns out that Brother Hai is also there, bothering him." ”

Hai Piao chuckled: "It's not in the way, it's also a common thing to gossip with Sister Fei." ”

I buried my face in my hat and hat, afraid to be seen in such an ugly state.

Uncle Zong on the side of Shangguan Yan stared at me intently, he was tall, his face was serious, his eyes were like copper bells, that kind of look made me very nervous, as if he was going to eat me alive.

I swallowed my saliva, tried my best to put a smile in my voice, and said to the strange Uncle Zong: "I heard you talking outside, Uncle Zong, hello." ”

Uncle Zong was still staring at me, I don't know why, I felt that he was a little nervous, the bell on the courtyard door rang crisply again, Uncle Zong covered his chest and coughed lightly, and took a step back. He looked around a little flustered, then turned his head to look at the pear bell on the courtyard door.

Shangguan Yan lowered his eyes calmly, seemed to have a moment of thought, raised his eyes to look at me and smiled: "The weather is too cold, come to see Miss Yan, but it makes Miss Yan suffer." ”

I glanced at him, and quickly bowed my head and said, "It's okay, I'm not a mud doll, I'm all well, my eyes are better, don't always treat me as a patient." ”

Xia Xia added charcoal fire to the side and whispered: "If your eyes are good, you won't fall downstairs." ”

I turned my head and glared at her, this girl!

"The pot is brushed, what about you?" Yan Cuo's voice floated from the kitchen in an instant in anger.

Everyone looked down the aisle, Yan Cuo was still wearing only a single coat in the cold weather, his sleeves were rolled up to his elbows, revealing a healthy and thick forearm, he didn't seem to expect that there were guests in the hall, he was stunned, and he didn't have time to show an embarrassed expression, so he immediately turned his head and left.

Xia Xia pouted and said: "This rude guy, he doesn't say hello when he sees a guest - Brother Shangguan, Uncle Zong, just stay and eat together, there are a lot of dishes prepared in the evening, Sister Song and the third brother can't come because of something, just eat together, it's easier to get cold when it's cold." ”

Shangguan Yan turned his head to look at Uncle Zong, thinking that he wanted to discuss, but Uncle Zong stared at the direction of Yan Cuo's departure in a daze, and his expression was very wrong, not at all like what he should have.

Shangguan Yan turned his head, as if nothing had happened, and his demeanor was polite: "Then it is better to be respectful than to obey your fate." ”