Chapter 18 Opens at the tip of the heart
Momiji said it so hard, he was silent. Darkness gradually filled the sky, countless stars broke through the night, and the night moisture permeated the air, diffusing a sentimental atmosphere. Looking up at the starry sky is exceptionally clear, and the distant stars are shining, like fine tears.
Yes, this is fate, our fate, Lu Feng sighed, the flowers on the other side bloom on the other side, the river on the Nai River Bridge, the song is not over, and the people have dispersed. We are destined to miss each other, and in the next life and this life, we may be like flowers on the other side, and we will be wrong in life.
"When I wrote you my first love letter, I cautiously asked my colleagues at the hotel, but no one knew if you had a boyfriend, so I sent the letter, and there was a 50% chance that it would be anyway.
Then I showed my friend the limerick poem you sent, and he affirmed that you already have a boyfriend, so I was conflicted at the time, I didn't know whether I should stick to this love or give up, I was very confused. ”
Lu Feng's head tilted back slightly, and a faint bitterness flashed on his face, "But my friend encouraged me, saying that if you really like someone, you shouldn't give up easily." So in the following days, I carefully made a homepage for you that loves like red leaves.
There is a classic line in "Journey to the West": If God could give me a chance to do it again, I would say 'I love her' to that girl. If I had to put a deadline on this love, I would like it to be 10,000 years! I hope you read this passage and cherish this relationship between us. At the end of the homepage, I also typed the poem you sent me in gray font, the limerick poem that made me stupid. ”
"Feng, do you remember those two sentences, fate may be arranged by heaven, and true love may not be able to go hand in hand." Speaking of this, Hongye quietly glanced at Lu Feng, his affectionate and regretful gaze, and his heart tingled. Autumn interprets the feelings of the past, transformed into black rose petals, scattered and broken, falling by themselves, becoming countless sorrows, silent autumn night starry sky, forced smiles. Those people, those things, swirl in my memory.
On April 26, 2001, I received my first letter from you. I was going to night school that day and didn't come home, so I got off work and got the letter and went straight to my dormitory. After reading the letter, I don't know how to reply to you, how to tell you that you have always been a dream in my heart, a wordless dream!
I've always put you in the deepest corners, where no one will see, no one will understand, no one will understand. But today is a wordless sorrow, I think of "Belated Love": You should understand my love, although I have never confessed to you, for many years, I have silently cared for you deeply...... That was a wordless injury to him...... The sad heart is blank, how to keep this belated love......
Sorrow, like a spider's web, firmly entangled him, Lu Feng sighed lightly: Actually, when I saw your boyfriend give you that set of clothes, although you had a grudge on your face, I knew it was too late at that time. Do you remember what you told about the village doctor?
You say, it's a great memory. At that time, Aunt Hua gave me a strange look and said that I should listen carefully. I just sighed, knowing that all of this was just a good memory for me, and in the end. So I clamored to see your photo album, and by the way, I grabbed six photos of you, and I will keep them well. ”
Lu Feng raised his head helplessly, looking at the dark sky, and his voice became urgent: "Maybe our story is destined to have no result from the beginning, but I don't want to give up willingly, because you are the kindest and best girl I have ever met, so I have been looking for a suitable opportunity to get your affirmative answer, because I want to put the responsibility on you, I want to deceive myself: it's not that I didn't try my best, but ......"
Lu Feng's face revealed a kind of impotent pathos, someone once said that our love has no ending. I know, but I don't want to end it all so soon. However, time has proved this fact that I have been avoiding for a long time. It's a love that doesn't come to fruition. Like the flowers on the other side, the flowers and leaves do not meet,
"Kaede, I don't know why, I have an inexplicable sense of intimacy when I see you, I haven't spoken to you at that time, and I don't know your surname and name, but I always feel that your words, deeds and thoughts are copies of me, just like the previous me, so when I see you, there is no taboo, no politeness, no estrangement! It's a pity ......"
The autumn leaves are as dark as a summer cloudy sky, and it looks like rain is falling at any moment. "It's a pity that we met too late, and you were born too late, my love for you is powerless to ignore the fact that you are younger than me, I thought a lot that night, I am three years older than you according to the virtual age, and I am more than two years older than you, the gap between these two or three years makes me really dare not make a big bet, after all, I have crossed the age of marriage, and classmates and friends who are married and have children have abounded."
"And I really don't dare to seek anymore, I don't dare to wait anymore, I don't dare to join hands anymore, I'm afraid, my dreams will be broken, my love will change, my heart will regret, I'm afraid. Now your faith is true, your love is true, and in the end your love will be traceless. Even though you are so good in my heart, so perfect, so intoxicating to me. That's why I wrote, 'Fate may be arranged, but true love may not be able to go hand in hand'. ”
"I understand that there are some things that cannot be forced." Lu Feng didn't dare to look up, for fear that tears would fall, shattering you, me, and a thousand-year-old dream. I'm going to embed you in this tear, fantasizing that a thousand years from now will be amber.
Momiji said with reluctance and guilt: "Kaede, this is your first love, I really feel so lucky, but I can't split it into two." The wind was blowing the dust on the ground and blowing away his short hair, and Momiji quietly looked at him and saw his sparkling eyes.
"Kaede, in fact, there are a lot of good girls out there, and I'm not the only one. In the future, if you are looking for a girlfriend, you have to find a safe place, don't always wander outside......" Lu Feng listened, his heart was inexplicably turbulent. The wind was so strong that it rattled the horizontal bars next to it.
The muscles on Lu Feng's cheeks twitched slightly, and he said in a trembling voice: "I know, but I don't know if I will have this kind of heart-warming longing when I meet another girl in my life again." You know, the other day I was full of your shadow, always longing to hear your heart-warming laughter, and I don't know why I miss you so much. ”
He couldn't suppress his excitement and said eagerly: "I haven't dared to call your family because I don't want your family to know, and it will bring you too much pressure, I hope to get your support, but now it's too late." ”
Momiji quietly looked at his ethereal and handsome face, and stood there silently, motionless. The story of the encounter, written in the poetry of the text, is like a half-beautiful paragraph, blooming in a corner of the soul, rendering the former gentleness. Dip a wisp of ink incense, with a rhythm of no regrets, on the end of the pen, the tender thread, spread out between the lines.
A note of heart, such as ink; A touch of warmth, and the years are slightly drunk. The soft waves in the corners of my eyes reflect the shallow smile between your eyebrows; Your tenderness like water permeates my heart.
Her eyes showed the color of memory, and she said quietly: "Feng, at that time, it was common for you to stand in front of the passenger elevator on the fifth floor, (maybe waiting for the elevator to stop to check if there was any debris in the elevator), or raise your head to meditate, or bow your head to meditate, I often appear at that moment, it is really shy cute, innocent and cute, and confused cute!" ”