There was silence for a while.

Song Lingjian said: "If you really want to protect Yan Fei so much, you should study hard at that time, maybe you can interpret the method of cracking." Now it's better to blame yourself than to complain about me. ”

Han San smiled bitterly a few times: "You are really a good pot." ”

"You can save her for a while, but you can't save her for a lifetime. If you want to protect her, unless you stay here with her for the rest of your life, can you do it? ”

Han Sanxiao did not answer.

Song Lingjian shook off his clamps and threw the door away.

Haipiao said: "You guys, don't quarrel. ”

Han San smiled and said stiffly: "Do we have a quarrel?" Who can quarrel with her? We're just chatting loudly. ”

The clothes rubbed, Han Sanxiao sat down on the side of my bed, leaned over and leaned close to me, my whole body was soaked in the smell of spring water floating from his body, and a coolness fell on my neck, quickly spreading throughout my body, extinguishing the burning pain that was about to ignite on my body.

Han Sanxiao hung something around my neck, a small cool one, and carefully stuffed it into my placket and wore it close to my body.

"This is a cold crystal, which can make you suffer less." He whispered softly in my ear.

I opened my eyes and asked him, "What the hell is going on?" What is written in the letter? That young man, is it really his father's son? ”

I found that when I spoke, I felt like the breath was blowing in my mouth like it was on fire.

Han San stroked the hair on my face with a smile and sighed: "Maybe that stinky woman is right, paper can't hold fire." Whether it's better to have a long pain or a short pain, we don't have the right to help you decide. Yan Fei, if it weren't for us, you would definitely be stronger than you are now. I don't have the confidence to protect you for the rest of your life. ”

Has this been answered to me invisibly?

Grief eroded my heart like a bone worm, and my heart ached to the point of vomiting.

"Rest for a while, and let your heart burn. Come and see you later. Han Sanxiao's voice was gentle, but this gentleness made me feel very scared, because he was deliberately blocking something for me.

I still wanted to ask something, but Han San smiled and sighed and left, and met Xia Xia outside the door, and the two muttered a few words.

Hai Piao half-bent his eyes and looked at me with a smile: "Sister Fei, I will accompany you, like before, you accompany me." ”

I asked eagerly, "What about the letter...... What about faith? ”

Hai Piao said: "Order there." ”

"Have they all seen it? Do you know what is written in the letter? ”

Hai Piao shook his head.

I have a very strong premonition in my heart, especially the conversation between Song Lingjian and Han Sanxiao, I have almost confirmed my conjecture, I also know that they tried their best, Song Lingjian tried her best to save me, otherwise she would not be tired, Han Sanxiao tried her best to suppress this matter, and wanted me to face it after recuperating from my illness. Maybe they're a little caught off guard and haven't figured out how to deal with it yet.

Haipiao had been quietly accompanying me, and when he saw me wandering with his eyes down, he took out a stack of papers, as if he was studying the words on it.

After a while, Xia Xia greeted outside the door: "Sister Song." ”

I quickly stood up, Song Lingjian quickly pushed the door in, and Hai Piao immediately stood up and gave up the seat of the bedside stool, and automatically stood at the end of the bed.

Looking at my swollen eyes and tear-stained face, Song Lingjian said, "Don't cry." ”

This sentence is like a valve head, which directly opened the fountain of my tears, and my tears rained down.

Song Lingjian sighed weakly and sat down in the seat that Haipiao had given up: "Crying will only make you weak, and you can't change anything." ”

"Song Lingjian, I beg you to tell me what happened, please give me the letter." I took her hand and choked up.

Song Lingjian looked at me blankly, his face was slightly pale, his black eyes and lips were light, as if his whole face was hidden behind the painter's danqing picture, his expression was blurred and his eyes were blurred, only the pair of eyebrows seemed to be the marks of a distant mountain, revealing a shallow wound.

Then her eyes became strange, as if she was a little envious and a little pity: "Aren't you happy to be protected like this by lies?" There is so much cruelty in reality, you can turn a blind eye to it. ”

I persistently asked, "Why do you say that?" What's going on...... What the hell is going on......"

Song Lingjian took out an envelope from his sleeve and smoothed it on my bed: "The letter you want." ”

Give it to me so easily, I quickly picked up the letter and held it tightly in my hand, for fear that Song Lingjian would regret it and take it.

"The reality you want, you will suffer the consequences." She got up and left.

I looked at those four words on the envelope and cried.

"Fei'er Personally Enlightens ......"

How could I not recognize Daddy's words? I have remembered it for sixteen years, and when he was young, the stickers when he taught me to learn to write have always been on the table in the study, and this "Fei'er" is like countless Fei'er who taught me to write by hand, bent like a swallow's tail—

I trembled uncontrollably, so I opened my tongue with tears in my eyes and took out the letter inside:

Fei'er Wu'er: I haven't seen you for a long time, is Fei'er okay? This is the first letter to you in sixteen years, two months, and twenty-seven days.

I can't read it, I don't know a lot of the next words, intermittently, intermittently, I can't understand what is written on it at all-

Dad gave me so many words, but I only understood these two sentences, why didn't I learn to read and write, why did I live idly for so long?

I shook my hands and carefully looked down from top to bottom, reading many times, and piecing together all the words I recognized as much as I could: two women, sorry, a lifetime...... What do you mean? What do you mean?!

"Sister Fei......" Hai Piao grabbed my hand that was trembling to the point of pain: "Don't worry. ”

I laughed like a madman: "I can't read the letter my father left me, I can't read it, I can't read so many words, am I useless?" Isn't it ridiculous......"

Hai Piao looked at me distressedly and handed me the sticker in his hand: "There is always a way." ”

Right. I lifted the quilt and got out of bed, hugged the stickers and the letter paper tightly in my arms, found the cinnabar and pen, spread the letter paper on the table, and began to find the corresponding glyphs.

My whole body began to heat up again, and the cold crystal left by Han Sanxiao on my chest was sometimes cold, and sometimes it seemed to be burning my heart as if I had absorbed too much heat, but none of this mattered, I had to recognize these words one by one, and I had to read the letter that my father left for me.

Haipiao stood aside and looked at me quietly.

"The third line...... The third line ...... "I read it in pieces, marking the words I didn't know, and I didn't have time to read the whole sentence, and I wanted to read the whole letter carefully after I marked it all out—

To others, these pages of letters could be read in a snap of a finger, but I stayed up all afternoon, and every page of the sticker was covered with twisted cinnabar marks......

Finally, it's over......

I know, I know my dad has tried to use as simple words as possible so that I can understand them, but unfortunately I am too useless.

I trembled as if I were hanging on the side of the abyss, and the pages were no lighter than a piece of brocade paper, so heavy that they almost crushed me.

One word at a time, like boulders, crushed all my hopes one by one.

Fei'er personally opened -

Fei'er Wu'er: I haven't seen you for a long time, is Fei'er okay? This is the first letter to you in sixteen years, two months, and twenty-seven days.

The dust is thick, and the past is like smoke, blowing without a trace.

The world is unpredictable, what a long sigh, life and death are separated, and how many people can measure it-

Every time I think of Fei'er, I still look like I was at that time, I always laugh, I never cry when I fall, the blood and bones of our Yan family, and life-

It's been sixteen years, and it's been sixteen years since I left Fei'er, although I'm fortunate to see Fei'er as a young adult, and I've been unable to accompany him-

Fei'er has her own happiness in the time when she is not a father, what a good child Fei'er is, she can always get rid of the resentment in the hearts of others, bring happiness to others, and when you can see Fei'er smile, you can be stable for a long time-

There are too many reasons, and I don't know how to explain it at this time, and I don't know how to talk to Fei'er about where I have been going for sixteen years.

recalled the scene of recognizing and reuniting with Fei'er tens of millions of times, but it was finally hastily ended, and the paper and book met each other, and it was Yin and Yang forever.

……

I couldn't hold back the despair in my heart anymore, and cried loudly, my father, who had been waiting for sixteen years, gave me a letter of eternal separation between yin and yang!

My world is falling apart, and the faith that has fallen crushed my heart!

I couldn't see everything in front of me, and I couldn't remember the truth in these black letters and red circles, I only heard my own voice whirling violently, falling like a storm of countless cold needles, and the cold crystals in my chest were hot like fire!

"Sister Fei!" Haipiao finally realized that my state was wrong, and screamed to wake me up from my self-sleep, his eyes were full of tears of self-blame, as if he was going to shed blue tears!

At this time, the door was also pushed open by someone, and there were many people standing at the door, many people, all with varying degrees of horror on their faces—

"Don't come in—don't come in—" I could barely hear myself, just frantically protecting the paper I had pushed under me, my head scattered, tears like ghosts, "I haven't finished reading my father's letter...... I haven't finished reading my father's letter yet......"

Han Sanxiao still came in, he stared at Haipiao hatefully, looked at me who was in a mess on the ground and said, "Yan Fei, calm down, you will hurt yourself like this." ”

"I'm calm...... I'm calm...... I'm going to read my father's letter...... I'm useless...... I'm useless......" I said in a hoarse voice.

Han Sanxiao cautiously walked in avoiding the messy paper, took my hand, wiped my hand with bright red cinnabar, and breathed a sigh of relief after confirming that I was not injured. He gently lifted me up, and I felt him gasping for air all the time, as if suppressing the anger in his heart.

"Dad, I beg you, please live...... It doesn't matter if you don't come back, it doesn't matter...... I beg you...... Please live...... "I am dizzy."

"......Shhh You can sleep for a while, just sleep for a while......" Han Sanxiao's voice flickered far and near, and I was like a string that had collapsed too tightly, and it collapsed in one fell swoop.