Beicheng, as the name suggests, is the northernmost city located in Huaguo.

Cheng Qinqin has been here for almost three months.

She wiped the haze from the window, looked at the white expanse outside, and was a little distracted.

"Thousands of miles of ice, thousands of miles of snow drifting", this should be what I said.

Some of the dilapidated rooms are well heated.

Zhan Moming has already gone out.

This is Qin Yiying's hometown, and this house is the house of the Qin family.

That day, Cheng Qinqin finally found this place with a lot of effort, and unsurprisingly, she was rejected by Zhan Moming.

Fortunately, Cheng Qinqin did not wait at the door all night as expected, because in less than an hour, she fainted.

She didn't know when she had entered the room, but by the time she woke up, she was already in bed.

Maybe it's because of his poor physique, or maybe it's because he can't adapt to the water and soil, Cheng Qinqin can't leave this house.

As soon as she went out, within half an hour, she would start to have a fever, which would quickly turn into a high fever, and then faint.

So, she has been in this warm prison for more than two months.

Zhan Moming would go out every morning, and at first, Cheng Qinqin thought he was going to work.

Cheng Qinqin endured her physical discomfort because she wanted to know Zhan Moming's place of work, pasted more than ten fever reducer stickers on her body, and secretly followed Zhan Moming out, but he didn't go to work, as if he was looking for something purposefully, and he seemed to be just wandering around casually.

After following four times intermittently, Cheng Qinqin's body finally couldn't support it and fell seriously ill, and that time, she lay in bed for a week before recovering.

Later, Zhan Moming added a lock to the outside of her door, as soon as he went out, he would lock Cheng Qinqin in the room, and only when he was at home, he would open the door of the room for Cheng Qinqin and let her come to the living room to let her wind for a while.

Cheng Qinqin didn't think about tracking Zhan Moming anymore, because she wanted to understand what Zhan Moming was looking for, he was looking for Qin Yiying's childhood memories.

She guards him, but he guards the memories of a deceased woman, the story of three pathetic people.

It turns out that a woman who is about to reach a special period will be irritable for no reason.

Just like now, Cheng Qinqin suddenly felt irritated when she saw Zhan Mochen's unchanged black face.

The pair of dishes and chopsticks prepared for Qin Yiying was even more dazzling to suffocate her.

As soon as he saw the dishes on the table that were completely unsuitable for his taste, Cheng Qinqin's nameless fire broke out.

"I don't like shiitake mushrooms." Cheng Qinqin threw the mushrooms on the table and shouted angrily.

Zhan Moming's hand subconsciously paused, and said coldly: "Pick it up and eat it." ”

It's not loud, but it's full of intimidation.

Cheng Qinqin endured the fear in her heart and continued to shout: "I don't like to eat, I won't eat, I want to eat chili." ”

Zhan Moming put down the chopsticks in his hand, looked at the set of chopsticks that were always empty, and said with a smile: "Yiying likes to eat shiitake mushrooms the most, and Yiying doesn't like to eat chili peppers." ”

It's just that that smile, in Cheng Qinqin's opinion, has no trace of warmth.

Cheng Qinqin angrily yelled at Zhan Moming: "Zhan Moming, you are enough, Qin Yiying is dead, already dead, how long will you still be half-dead like this......

Before Cheng Qinqin's words could finish speaking, Zhan Moming grabbed her neck and roared: "Shut up, my Yiying is not dead, if you dare to say one more word, I will abolish you!" ”

A trace of bitterness rose in Cheng Qinqin's heart, but on the surface, she said disapprovingly: "Okay, I'm waiting for you to abolish me." ”

Zhan Moming stared at Cheng Qinqin with those cold and ruthless eyes, as if he wanted to see through her soul.

Cheng Qinqin tried her best to hide the panic in her heart, and made a seductive gesture to Zhan Moming, after all, there were not many opportunities for them to get close to each other like this.

Ever since she fell in love with this man who couldn't ask for it, she has been running wildly on the road of death.

Suddenly, Zhan Moming shook his hand hard, and Cheng Qinqin fell to the ground.

Before she could get up, Zhan Moming pounced like a hungry beast all the time.

The sharp pain made Cheng Qinqin couldn't help but want to scream, but she finally gritted her teeth and didn't let herself make a sound.

Isn't that what you want? Is this what you want?

Zhan Moming is like a soulless robot, repeating a single action, attacking, plundering, and possessing without any emotion.

Cheng Qinqin could only hug Zhan Moming harder and respond to his ferocity even harder.

It wasn't until Cheng Qinqin fainted in pain that Zhan Moming stopped moving, looked at her indifferently, and only said: "This is all your own doing!" Then he pulled out, got up and strode away.

Listening to the footsteps of Zhan Moming going away, and then the sound of "bang" closing the door, Cheng Qinqin smiled sadly.

The tears could not be suppressed at all, like a faucet that opened the floodgates, and flowed down in a loud voice.

She never imagined that her first time would happen in this situation.

It should be the best moment in her life, but what happened to her would be so embarrassing.

She was like a clown who forced a smile and performed alone, with no flowers and no applause.

Although her heart hurt to the point of dripping blood, she chose this path by herself, and even if the front was full of thorns, she would walk on her knees with tears and blood until she lost her strength.

Cheng Qinqin resigned herself to lying on the ground, it hurt too much, and after a long time, she held on to the chair next to her, got up with difficulty, and then leaned against the wall and slowly moved back to her room.

Late at night, Zhan Moming sat alone on the empty sofa, and the white light looked extremely cold.

It turned out that his world was so lonely, if Qin Yiying was still there, he would not be like now, accompanied by only the pale red mark on the white carpet.

Cheng Qinqin lay on the bed for a day before barely surviving.

Her body was still crushed and painful, but she had to get up, or she would die of thirst before she could die of pain.

Cheng Qinqin took a photo of her neck and sent it to Su Yu.

The kiss marks made Su Yu a little stunned, and asked playfully, "Are you showing affection?" ”

"I'm just remembering that I've finally become a man's plaything." Cheng Qinqin said lightly, her tone full of desolation.

Su Yu didn't know what to say for a while, she really thought just now that she was about to hear some good news from Cheng Qinqin's mouth, but she didn't expect it to be such a sad result.

"Are you okay?" Su Yu asked worriedly, it will definitely not be good, how can it be good to be by the side of such a violent man, those traces of love that seemed to her just now seem to be evidence of abuse.

"I, very good, this is also a dream come true, I have been dying by his side, isn't it just for this result? I should be happy now. Cheng Qinqin said with a smile.

But ...... "But he won't fall in love with you, he's not normal."

Su Yu changed his words and said: "You are playing with fire like this, and you are the one who loses in the end." ”

"From the moment I fell in love with him, it was doomed, I would lose badly." Cheng Qinqin said self-deprecatingly.

"It's better to give up, his love for Qin Yiying is too paranoid, he doesn't even have a bottom line, what are you insisting on?" Su Yu persuaded weakly.

Cheng Qinqin smiled bitterly: "What am I insisting on, I am insisting on accompanying him." I don't want him to live in hatred and darkness all the time, he should be happy and sunny. ”

Su Yu said ruthlessly: "Zhan Moming's heart, you can't open it." ”

Cheng Qinqin was not hit, because, from the very beginning, she knew the answer, Qin Yiying died, it was like a cinnabar mole, forever imprinted on Zhan Moming's heart, the living can't compete with the dead.

Cheng Qinqin said calmly: "I know, but I want to give it a try, people, you must love desperately once, don't leave regrets for yourself, and when I don't love him, I will naturally leave." ”

"Is it worth it?"

Cheng Qinqin said lightly: "There's nothing worth it or not, I can't let him go, this is obsession, Xiaoyu, you don't have to persuade me, we are both crazy." ”

In fact, Cheng Qinqin really envied Su Yu, although she had also experienced misfortune and pain, but she waited for the man who loved her the most and spoiled her the most, and could give up everything for her.

This kind of love, how many people can't get it in their lifetime, just like herself, in this life, I'm afraid she won't have it.