Chapter Eighty-Seven: Early Depression
The old days have slowed down
Cars, horses, and mail are slow
There is only enough to love one person in a lifetime - Mu Xin in "Once Upon a Time".
The world was quiet, she could even hear the friction sound of Luo Feifei's delicate hand caressing her mushroom head, she hugged the girl's weak waist, looked up at the door with empty eyes, the sunlight outside the door moved slowly, and she always felt that the dark days in the corner like this were far away......
Luo Feifei looked down and saw a face as white as paper, she slowly stretched out her hand to brush away the faint tears in the corners of Xiaoyu's eyes, she adjusted her breathing, slowly breathed out, and pounced on Xiaoyu's face warmly, "Xiaoyu, what's wrong?" ”
The girl hung on her body like a newborn kangaroo, silent, a kangaroo whose soul died as soon as she was born, she held the only girl she could rely on in the wind and waves at this time, felt the warmth from her arms, and held on tightly and did not let go.
Luo Feifei was so frightened that she didn't know what to do, this was the first time Xiaoyu was so helpless, she didn't know how to comfort her, patted her thin back, "Shall I call Qi Wenyan to come?"
Xiaoyu glanced indifferently at the hanging peace charm, so that there was a little burning temperature in her chest, she grabbed Luo Feifei's sleeve uneasily, and shook her head hurriedly.
I'd rather all the pain stay in my heart.
I'd rather ...... All the pain......
Lo Feifei remained seated motionless, only occasionally patting the girl's head, she picked up the water glass on the table close to her, and asked softly, "Would you like to drink some water?" Qi Xiaoyu only had a hollow body left, she ignored it, and the sunlight outside the door reflected part of it at a forty-five degree angle with the sun, falling on the long chair, the silent room, "Tomorrow...... It's the beginning of school. ”
Hearing her speak, the tense strings in Luo Feifei's head suddenly relaxed, "Hmm." ”
"Then I'll go to school tomorrow."
"Hmm."
"I'll see him, last time in ...... I haven't seen him all this time. ”
"Yes."
"Will he still avoid me?"
"No, it won't."
"No, I should be avoiding him, and I must not let him see me." She looked up at Luo Feifei, pulled Luo Feifei's sleeve, and asked for help, "No matter what happens, will you stay with me?" ”
Luo Feifei rested the chin of her goose egg on Xiaoyu's head, patted her on the back, and said softly, "Don't be afraid, I will always be with you." ”
The next day.
The two went to school without incident, Xiaoyu returned to the class of the second year of high school, packed up some books left before, the noise of the classroom highlighted the silent table next to it, and the corner of the table was engraved with your name forever, never green plums, green plums withered, fragrant all over the ground; I don't see the bamboo horse, the bamboo horse is old, and the lovesickness is thousands of miles; From then on, the people I fell in love with were very similar to you.
On the other side of the 38th Boundary Line, his desk had already been cleaned up, as if deliberately cleaning up the dust of her existence, forgotten in the rivers and lakes. The pen fell, she watched the black morning light pen gurgling down, and it involved the memories of the past, her grades were not good, and she couldn't affect Qi Wenyan's class, so she just turned the pen vigorously to pass the boring time in class.
The pen is always unsatisfactory, a class has to drop a few times, she does not reach out to pick it up, nor panic, takes the pen that is being written seriously in his hand, supports her chin, and looks at him with an arrogant face.
Every time, he didn't have to turn his head to look at her, he took care of himself to help her pick it up and put it back on the table.
Her eyes only looked at Qi Wenyan's gentleness every second, and now, she bent down to pick up the gel pen that rolled away, he went to class A, and it was impossible for her to stand here and miss the return of the young man in her memory, blow the chalk ash rolling off the pen, get up, and touch a hard chin.
Before he could look up, he first said cowardly, "I'm sorry." Another glance, the boy looked at her indifferently.
"It's okay."
Qi Xiaoyu saw that the person who was thinking about it day and night suddenly appeared in front of her, her eyes flowed, containing thousands of love threads, the pen in her hand fell out of her mind, and with a light click, her eyes were also decorated with the same layers of indifference, Qi Wenyan picked up the dropped pen as before, put it on her desk, and turned away without saying a word.
The sunlight outside the door adorned his mottled back, bleak and lonely.
She feigned politeness, "Thank you." ”
Xiaoyu watched him walk out of the door in a daze, leaving his sight, last year in this door today, the peach blossoms on the human face were red, the human face did not know where to go, and the peach blossoms were still smiling in the spring breeze.
She picked up the rag on the podium and wiped her desk, and by the way, she wiped the inside and out of the table at the same table, picked up her book, and went to class B.
She carefully recalled the previous words, "I'm sorry," "It's okay," "Thank you", it was really a vulgar breakup story.
The new class and the new table, she sat there, giving people a cold and timid look, and she couldn't fit into this new collective. There was a boy at the same table, and he touched Qi Xiaoyu in a friendly way and asked, "Can you lend me a piece of scratch paper?" ”
She skimmed it lightly and tore it off for him. At the same table, "Thank you, are you called Qi Xiaoyu?" ”
She didn't bother to answer, she lay on the table, the boy smiled awkwardly, Xiaoyu didn't have anything in her stomach early in the morning, and the class followed the teacher's lecture one after another, her eyes opened wide and followed the teacher, and the pen in her hand kept copying.
She only drank a few sips of water during the three meals a day. The classmates all felt that she was weird and withdrawn, and she looked like she was not close to anyone every day, and the students were deliberately estranged, but it also made Xiaoyu want a safe review environment.
She is too lazy to take care of herself, as if everything in her life has lost her vitality, and the happiest thing is to see the results of the person who ranks first every month through the results bulletin board - Qi Wenyan. In this way, she felt that there was still something flickering in her heart, attracting her to live longingly.
In the third year of high school, stomach problems, low blood pressure, lack of sleep, and the high grade ranking, a series of problems and pressures followed, pressing her physically and mentally exhausted, she studied hard, walked and memorized English, and slept memorized mathematical formulas, only hoping that when the next monthly exam came, the ranking could be closer to him.
I can follow you, sleepwalking like a shadow chasing the light, and I can wait at this intersection, whether you pass by or not.
Whenever I look up for you
Even the tears felt free
Some love is like sunshine falling, and you have it and lose it
If you are a firefly on a summer night
The children sing for you
Then I want to draw your hands
Look how small I am
Because you have dreams to make
Maybe you won't stay for me
Then let me stand behind you
I can follow you
Like a shadow sleepwalking after the light
I could wait at this intersection
It doesn't matter if you pass by or not
Whenever I look up for you
Even the tears felt free
Some love is like heavy rain, but they still believe in rainbows
I can follow you
Like a shadow sleepwalking after the light
I could wait at this intersection
It doesn't matter if you pass by or not
Whenever I look up for you
Even the tears felt free
Lonely and lonely insomnia came empty, she pretended to be a faintly floating lilac, passing through the classroom corridor of class A, but her eyes couldn't be opened, one look, another look, one more look, to straighten the young man's thin back, and the beautiful thrilling side face, treasured.