Thursday, November 14th, 6:15 p.m., three days before the 100th anniversary of the autumn leaves.

"Okay? Have you been in a better mood these two days? I saw you last night, and I wanted to say a few words to you, but you're gone. Ruoyu was afraid that her friend would not be able to think about it for the sake of her feelings, so she asked with concern.

"I also saw Sui Yuan last night, but I didn't talk to him, and I lost my spirit." Lu Feng said slightly apologetically, "I feel very messy these days, and I want to be quiet by myself, I'm sorry." ”

"Nothing, I can understand, because we are friends." Ruoyu's words are so warm and close to people's hearts, this is sincere friendship. It will always be engraved in Lu Feng's heart, no matter the vicissitudes of life. Or the ups and downs of the world several times, I will not forget.

Lu Feng remembered that when she was sorting out the chat records with her last night, she accidentally discovered a secret of Ruoyu, it turned out that she enlightened herself about the 'story of boys and girls' that day, it is very likely that Ruoyu's own personal experience, that may be her first love!

So Lu Feng smiled, gave a thumbs up and praised: "You hide so deeply, you have a feeling of 'killing one person in ten steps, leaving no trace for a thousand miles.'" ”

Oh, that's it! Ruoyu suddenly realized, and smiled happily: "Hearing you say this, I feel like I've become a hero, it's okay." After laughing, Ruoyu wondered, "How did you find out that secret?" ”

It seems that Ruoyu is still quite curious, after all, this pain in her heart will never be forgotten. Lu Feng explained: "Last night, I was sorting out the chat history with you, and I planned to put background music on it and upload it to the homepage of Wind Passing Without a Trace. When I revisited the story you had enlightened me, I realized your good intentions. ”

"If you're okay tonight, I'd like to talk to you, I feel really helpless sometimes. Even though nothing happened between me and him, I can't forget him. Ruoyu's heart seemed to have found a place to talk, and it beat instantly.

In our ordinary and vague lives, there is not only easy laughter and hilarious fun. In the slow progress of time day after day, there is a lot of pain that is like a pushpin that is pierced into our hearts with the rolling wheels.

Lu Feng has a kind of resonance with the people who have fallen from the end of the world, because he understands that kind of lovesickness that can't help it. I have something to worry about. Just like when he stepped on the Yangming Pavilion on Longquan Mountain again, he suddenly felt so sad, and always felt that it should be two people standing here.

As Mr. Wang Yangming said: 'When you don't see this flower, this flower dies with me, and you know that this flower is not outside your heart'. Yes, the scenery of the cherry blossoms is not important, the important thing is the people who can enjoy the flowers with you. With her by your side, even if there are no flowers in front of you, your heart will bloom.

"I've known him for more than ten years, and some things are not forgotten." Ruoyu sighed quietly, the loneliness and melancholy in her heart could not be seen or felt by outsiders.

However, after more than ten years of long time, after endless changes over the years, she still can't forget that first love, the person who can't stay together. It seems that some feelings will always be remembered consciously or unconsciously, the deeper the love, the more true the pain, and some love is destined to take us a lifetime to forget.

"I'm the same, I can't help it, I can't help it, and the feeling of missing someone is everywhere." Lu Feng smiled, and his eyebrows seemed to be quiet, but the sadness in his bones had not been dispersed.

I don't want to numb myself with cigarettes and alcohol. So I enrich myself with study, and replace that longing with busyness. But when you stop, you think of her, especially her bright and lovely smile.

"I sometimes feel like he knows me better than I know about myself. I remember when I was in high school, and I was so obsessed with poetry that he sent me a lot of poetry books and copied a few of them himself. ”

In fact, it is precisely because of their love for words and poetry that Lu Feng and Hongye can become indispensable friends in their hearts. At the beginning, it was through correspondence that the two deepened their understanding of each other, and they would write their favorite poems in the letters.

What impressed me was that in order to express this unapologetic love, Lu Feng sent Hongye a chief Murong's "Uncomplaining Youth": When you were young, if you fell in love with someone, please you, please be gentle with him.

No matter how long or how short you have been in love, if you can always be gentle with each other, then all the moments will be a flawless beauty.

If you have to separate, say goodbye and thank him in your heart for giving you a memory. When you grow up, you will know that at the moment of looking back, there will be no regrets in the youth without resentment.

Like the quiet full moon on the hill.

And Momiji also sent back a song "The Death of the White Bird": If you are the tearful archer, I am the white bird who is determined not to dodge anymore, just waiting for the arrow to break through the air and shoot into my already broken heart.

If you are the only shooter in this world, the only shooter who can hurt me, I am all your youth, all the joys and sorrows that cannot be forgotten.

It was this poem that filled Lu Feng with infinite reverie and understood Hongye's true feelings for him, so he could persist until now. Because there is the same relationship that repays you in the same way, you can't help but be nostalgic and reluctant to give up, otherwise Lu Feng would not be so childlike.

The smile on Ruoyu's face suddenly froze, but the circles under her eyes slowly turned red, and she said in a low voice: "For more than ten years, I have his blessings every year on my birthday, and it has never stopped." We were good friends at the beginning, but after a long time, it will change, in fact, if I had understood what friendship is and what love is, then it may have been a different ending. ”

Maybe there is a so-called fate, and we can't change it. Lu Feng was dazed, and sighed to himself, a kind of pathos that could not do anything about fate welled up in his heart. He didn't believe in this thing originally, but after all these years, he had to admit the ruthlessness and cruelty of fate.

Why, he couldn't help but shout in his heart, why many valuable things, no matter how hard we try to redeem them, still can't change the final result.

If we know that the end is doomed, will we still love someone without hesitation? Thinking of this, Lu Feng couldn't help but ask: "Then when did you understand that this is love?" ”

"When I got it, I happened to be in a relationship with another boy." The two relationships are entangled together, and Hu is difficult to choose, but since Ruoyu has suddenly awakened to her true love, what does it matter if she turns back.

"I turned back, but neither of us could convince the other. His family is in Yunnan, and I am in Sichuan, he is reluctant to leave his parents, I asked him to transfer jobs, he was also unwilling, and then I married my current husband. ”

The two of them are separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, and there are many mountains, not to mention that it is a bit difficult for the boy to leave his parents who are getting older and leave the place where he grew up, Lu Feng couldn't help but sympathize with the boy, and said: "If it were me, I wouldn't want to." ”

So I married myself off without telling him. Then one day he told me that he regretted it and should have agreed to my transfer, and he remembered clearly when I told him about it, and I forgot about it. Ruoyu tried to keep her calm and muttered.

Lu Feng listened silently and did not speak, because he understood that Ruoyu was not that impulsive person, and there must be many hidden pains that he did not know, but how could he evoke Ruoyu's sad memories again, and how could he bear to make his friend so painful.