The person in the letter, what has he decided? What happened to them?

I waited, waiting for the next content, but Zheng Zhuzhu flipped through the letter and said, "No." ”

"What? Without? ”

Zheng Zhuzhu said: "Well, the letter ends here. ”

Finished? It can't be another disbelief, right? Could it be that Yan Cuo has hidden some more?

Zheng Jewel said softly: "What is written in this letter is the old story between your father and your mother?" It's beautiful. ”

The content of this letter really has nothing to do with me, what it records is my father's messy memory of the old days, Yan Cuo said, his memory has deteriorated very badly because of his illness, but he can clearly remember every sentence he said when he met his mother-

"It turns out that in this world, there is indeed true love that will be like thousands of troops, so unforgettable, so resounding, but how many feelings in the world, how many infatuated people, can be broad-sided and still remember that person's voice and appearance are like yesterday after a long time, a smile into the bones and blood, he can put that person in his heart and burn incense devoutly, and ......gaze at it all his life," Zheng Jewel gently stroked the reddish letter page on the corner and muttered.

I took the letter paper tremblingly, and there was a reddish on it that could not be washed away by the years, which was the trace of Ye Xin's existence, faint, adding a faint sadness to this vigorous and sincere love. Maybe she once felt that she was important, and insisted on patience without regrets, but in the end she realized that she was so insignificant, that she should not be in this beautiful story of a good couple, that her presence was like a stain that made everything sad and ironic......

Zheng Zhuzhu leaned on the bed and looked at the sun outside the window, tears were full of tears, and he whispered softly, like crying: "Gazing at the king with affection, a farewell voice and two slim, in heaven I wish to be a winged bird, in the earth I wish to be a branch, the sky is long and sometimes it is over, this hatred is endless." I hope that there will be no separation from eternal age, and this life will always be complete......"

I hope that I will grow old forever, without separation, and that this life will be eternal and always complete.

I burst into tears and cried aloud.

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I hurried home with a look of sadness turning into anger.

"Mother! Mother! ”

The door opened halfway, and the lady's sideburns were like light clouds and her face was like the moon, and she looked at me strangely: "What's the matter?" ”

I stared straight into her face, "I have something to ask you." ”

My mother is still puzzled, yes, since I can remember, I have never looked at her face so directly and rudely, she is like a bright moon, which makes me ashamed of myself.

I rudely pushed the door open and pressed the heavy letter on the table: "Here's a letter, look at it." ”

The mother had regained her usual elegant posture and looked down at the letter on the table.

I gritted my teeth, my body was already shaking, I was hesitant to tell her the bad news about my father, I would give her another chance, and give her one last chance to soften my heart.

The mother picked up the envelope, pulled out the letter inside, and sat by the window and looked through it quietly.

I trembled and looked around, my mother's room, I had hardly ever entered, and I had to stand in front of the door forever, looking carefully inside. The loom made by my father is still in front of the window, and after all these years, it is still very new and spotless, and there is a bamboo basket next to the loom, in which some half-finished pieces of cloth are thrown. On the table by the window, the teapot and a cup, the mother's world, she will always be alone. There is a ball of thread on the side of the tea tray, a palm-slap size, smaller than the last time I saw, this colorful seems to be a lot of threads wrapped together and rolling the ball of thread, my mother will sometimes hold it to solve, in addition to weaving, solving this ball of thread is her only pastime, Xia Xia asked me before, Mrs. Yan is really so boring, holding a ball of thread has been unfinished, she is anxious, I really want to steal in the middle of the night to help solve a few nights.

This ball of thread was also deliberately wound by his father, maybe before he left, he was afraid that his mother would be lonely and bored without company, so he wrapped this ball of thread to let her pass the time......

I searched around, and finally found a broken and yellowed feather key on my mother's dressing table—

I held back my tears and glared back at my mother.

The mother held her face lightly, quietly following the movement of her father's pen and hanging her butterfly-like eyelashes.

Who would know that this butterfly in the imperial capital finally perched in such a wooden building in such a small town that no one cared about, and for many years she was deeply trapped in the lonely building, and the world could no longer see her face of the country and the city, and no longer knew how she was doing, happy or desolate.

Why does such a vigorous legend have such an ending?

How could she look so calmly?! That was written by Daddy?! That's Daddy's painstaking efforts to pull it out of his own memory!

I stood up hard, clenched my fists, and asked in a suppressed voice, "Mother, do you still recognize this handwriting?" Do you know who is written in it? ”

My mother turned her head to look at me, the sun shone on her face, she chuckled, not feeling my anger at all: "Of course I recognize, it was written by the fourth brother." This nerd, even these have to be written down and written. ”

I gritted my teeth and sneered: "Because that's my father's sincerity to you, he can forget everything, but he can't forget you - mother, what about you?" How much do you remember Dad? Why are you doing this to him? Why?! ”

If it weren't for my father's deep affection for you, he wouldn't have lived so painfully for so many years, if he could grit his teeth, he would be able to let go of you, and Ye Xin wouldn't have to bear our shadow like this and endure it, all because of you!

I suddenly hate you, I hate your ruthlessness, I hate you so much!

The mother gently spread the letter paper on the table, her fingertips wandered on the letter, and she smiled like a cardamom girl: "Naturally, I remember that the nerd always followed behind me, neither far nor close, sometimes he was annoyed by him, but he refused to retreat a step, sometimes he wanted him to take a few steps closer to say something to him, but he didn't dare to approach a step." Obviously, he was talking and laughing in front of you, but when he saw me, he didn't speak. Ah Zheng said that every time their brothers talk about the past and the present, he always gritted his teeth at those women who bewitched the country, he must have thought that I was also a bewitching person, the imperial capital butterfly, others heard it was a reputation, but for me, it was a burden that could not be lightened, I wanted to be like an ordinary woman, only in the eyes of one person. ”

With tears in my eyes, I said, "But you also found your father, didn't you?" ”

The mother gently rolled up the letter paper, hugged it to her chest, shook her head, and frowned slightly: "It's not that I found him, it's not that he found me, but fate finally made us see each other at the same time and in the same turn." Some people you have seen thousands of times, he is always just a face, falling in the sea of people and disappearing in an instant, while some people you can see at a glance and know that he is your destiny. ”

I laughed, tears flowing, but I couldn't help laughing: "But your fourth brother, your fate, will not come back in the future!" ”

The mother frowned lightly and stared at me, as if blaming me for breaking her bland afternoon dream: "Why have you been unwilling to understand, the fourth brother promised me, not because of appearance, we can stay together, we can give up everything, the most beautiful time, maybe really short, very short, but more happiness than others can condense in their lives, I know that the fourth brother will not come back, but he has always been by my side, just like the beginning, not far or close, just like the butterfly that flies in his palm, that is, he can spread his wings at will, But it will never be possible without his protection. ”

I rushed up and shook my mother's shoulder: "You open your eyes and see clearly, I am Yan Fei, I am your daughter Yan Fei!" ”

My mother glared at me, her pupils reflected my fierce face, I suddenly woke up, I was frightened by my own appearance, I retreated, and my heart ached.

"In the old days, Wang Xie Tang Qianyan flew into the homes of ordinary people. The fourth brother said that if we have children in the future, whether male or female, they will be named Yan Fei, and he wants to remember our oath for the rest of his life......" Niang's eyelashes trembled slightly, and crystal tears rolled down, "But fourth brother, I can't stand it anymore, I'm so afraid that I will forget you when I turn around, I'm so afraid that I will silently live up to our oath without knowing it, and I'm afraid that I will forget you all when I wake up......"

"Mother, tell me, what is wrong with you, what is wrong with you......" I couldn't speak......

Mother pursed her lips sadly, helplessly holding her father's letter and crying, this is the first time I have grown up to see her cry, a person can be so beautiful, so beautiful that even crying is heartbreaking.

I rushed out the door, tears in my eyes clouded my vision, I thought I could blame my mother for all my anger and heartache, but I couldn't.

I ran in such a hurry that I didn't even want to stay on this floor for a moment, three steps and two steps, stepped on the skirt foot, and the whole person rolled down!

My world, everything I can see and hear, turns upside down......

"Miss Yan!"

My head hit somewhere, it ached suddenly, and I reached out and touched the sore spot with difficulty, and it was hot and humid—

Someone helped me up—

"Miss Yan, you're bleeding—" He helped me to lean into his arms, hurriedly took out a towel from his arms, and pressed it the bleeding place where I fell, "You bear with it for a while—is there a golden medicine at home?" ”

My tears kept flowing, and it was already in pain, and I said numbly: "No...... Nothing......"

"Can you go? I'll help you back to your room first, it's too cold outside-" He frowned at my tearful face, and reached out to wipe away the tears that hurt my face.

"Where can I go? Where can I go without getting cold? My mind went blank and I asked him stupidly.

He sighed softly, his brow cut so deep that it was thought that the crease between his brows was on his face.

Dad would also frown, and on the countless nights when I secretly went to the study to see him, he would always sit alone in the middle of the study, frowning his brows, and looking up at the attic room at the end of the skylight that would not be turned off.

"Dad, why are you dying? Why did you leave us? I hate myself so much, I can't recognize you when you've stood in front of me so many times, I hate myself so much, I hate ...... so much"

"This kind of self-pity and self-pity can't make everything better, time can't go back, and those who are gone will not come back."

I'm so tired, I'm really tired, this kind of exhaustion, no one can carry it for me.

If Yan Cuo was by my side at the moment, he would definitely think that I was hypocritical and didn't know the blessing in the blessing, but how could he know that I had more torture and guilt in my heart than anyone else, and I had been living in the peace that others had exchanged for blood and tears, and this kind of peace made me vomit when I had already woken up......

I seemed to see my mother at that time, she leaned lightly on her father's arms, gently put her hand in her father's palm, and was naughty like a butterfly waiting for her father to catch it.

She swore softly and said: I will stay with my fourth brother for a long time, even if the sky is thunderous and hot, I will never regret it.

"I hope that there will be no separation from eternal age, and this life will always be complete...... "I can't see everything in front of me clearly, and I only have the happy smile of my father and mother in my mind, and the colorful glow full of blood.

He sighed and held me tightly in his arms.