Chapter 31: Let Me Love You Well
The old man's eyes were filled with tears, and he didn't make a sound, just held it tightly, how could a thousand words be worth this speechless moment at this time. However, in the end, it was goodbye.
The old man was curled up under the covers, his body trembling. Unable to hide the pain in his heart, his wrinkled face was covered with tears. I heard that none of the old man's children could come to visit him except for the one just now, and the people who took care of him also came.
The old man works hard all his life, how hard he is, who knows, but in the end, do he have to die alone? Is God really so cruel that there is no one to accompany him until he dies?
A few days later, when Lu Feng hurriedly came to his grandmother's ward, there were many people guarding him, with a solemn face on his face. Grandma was hanging a salt water bottle and infusion oxygen. She lay quietly on the bed, deep asleep. Lu Feng stood aside in a daze, looking at his grandmother's earthworm-like face, and her hands that were prickly with needles and eyes as thin as firewood, and his heart ached. But Grandma, no matter what you end up becoming, I will still be by your side, waiting for you to wake up.
Bed No. 1 is still ringing non-stop, and it seems that the patient is not improving. A notary came to bed 3 and was taking notes based on the old man's dictation and other information. The elderly have already owed thousands of yuan in medical bills, and if they do not pay it off, they will be forcibly evicted from the hospital. The old man originally had an accumulation of tens of thousands of dollars to prevent old age, but he was unexpectedly occupied by his stepwife, and his children were unwilling to pay the medical bills, so he had to sue the court.
The old man spoke intermittently, and although his heart hurt, he was very strong, and he did not shed tears. I heard others say that during the period of hospitalization, the elderly rarely trouble others when they encounter any difficulties. And when others took the initiative to ask him what he needed, he asked for something, but how unfortunate he was.
The old man's demeanor seems to be very calm, quiet as a flood of autumn water, perhaps he has experienced too many ups and downs, suffered too much of life's wind, frost, snow and rain, and learned to see through the silence of suffering.
I lowered my head and pondered, and suddenly realized that there was a lot of emptiness next to my grandmother. I asked my uncle, who said they were discussing things in the hallway. Lu Feng walked out of the door in a mess, and saw tears rolling in his mother's eyes, her eyes were red and swollen, and her haggard face was getting older and older. She choked up, tears streaming down her face, and said, "No, it won't go like this." "The mother was so weak that she couldn't cry and couldn't face the cruelty that was coming.
Aunt Dan's heart was like a knife, and she sobbed and comforted: "We have already done everything we have to do, and if we really go, we have no regrets." She said so calmly, but Lu Feng knew that Aunt Dan was also as sad and sad as us, and there was endless love hidden under her strong appearance. If everything is providence, everything is fate, and no one can escape it. If life really comes to an end and there is no way to keep it, it is also helpless.
Silently returned to the ward, looking at my grandmother's dry and emaciated face, full of sorrow. A few months ago, I took a picture of my grandmother, and her loving eyes and innocent smile were like knives engraved in my heart. Unexpectedly, in just a short period of time, the dream of the past has become a phantom.
Walking out of the hospital with a heavy heart, the sun outside still radiated light and heat without regrets, bringing vigorous vitality to all things in heaven and earth, and my heart was as cold as ice. Thinking that his grandmother's illness was basically hopeless, he unanimously decided to let his mother take his grandmother home first, and let the retired mother take care of the last remaining moments of her grandmother's life.
"People, that's what it's all about, when we're old, even the poor people are gone, it's really sad, I don't know if our rest of the years will be so miserable!" Lu Feng said 'we' very seriously, as if each other's lives had been connected.
Hongye knew about his grandmother's illness, and seeing Lu Feng's depressed expression, he sighed in a low voice: "It's hard to say, it's the same when you're old." No one is pitied, no one is hurt, no one takes care of it, no one loves it, and you are lonely for the rest of your life, right?! I will always remember my grandmother, she raised me since I was a child, so on the day she died, no matter whether the unit gave me a holiday or not, I had to give her the last ride, and I had a deep affection for her. Sister Zhao once asked me why I didn't treat her, but I was speechless. ”
Lu Feng's eyes were worried, looking at her eyes in secret. The eyes were too bright, moistened in the water, reflecting pale shadows, as if tears were going to fall at any moment. Momiji said quietly, "People, I don't know what I can do?" What's in the picture? It's just unreal! ”
"I'm going to win a jackpot so we don't have to worry about it for the rest of our lives. If you don't have money in the end, it's not like you're waiting to die at home. Lu Feng forced a smile, wanting to dilute the sadness in front of him with happiness.
"Don't be whimsical, pie won't fall out of the sky. Nothing will be lost, and by then you will be unconscious, and no one will send you to the doctor, and if you have money, it is not the same as not having money? The expression of the autumn leaves seems to have been blown away by a gust of wind, and the sky is clear.
If folding life can be exchanged for our happiness in the future, then as long as we can stay with you, even if it is worth just a few years, it is always like spending the rest of your life alone. Lu Feng waved his hand and said, "It's okay, I can call you first, and I'll be relieved to have you with me." But what is unconscious? ”
"I'm unconscious, but you can't feel me!" Momiji explained, patted his chest again and promised, "Don't worry, I will come to accompany you." "Missing is thin into a dotted line, intermittent, recording the love and hurt related to youth. I know that I remember the traces related to you, and I remember even more that I worked hard and bravely promised myself.
When Lu Feng heard this, he was inexplicably moved, and his longing flashed to his eyes along with loneliness. A little carelessness overflowed with lovesick tears, he looked at the red leaves affectionately and said: "I must be a brother and sister with you in the next life, okay, so that we can be together forever and never be lonely again." ”
"That's great! Do you want to be a sister or a brother? "The bright eyes of the red leaves are like crystal agate, and the smile is like a crooked moon, which is extremely charming and moving. Lu Feng pondered for a while and said, "It's better for you to be your sister, so you have to give me something delicious; When someone bullies me, you have to protect me. ”
He looked at the red leaves, his eyes were as clear as the autumn sky, "Of course, when you are lonely, I will hold your little hand, just like when I was a child with Danmei at my grandmother's house, we join hands in the green mountains and green waters, playing with flowers, flowers, grasses, butterflies, and butterflies, and the mountains and rivers of my hometown are grass and trees." After Lu Feng finished speaking, tears gradually appeared in his eyes. Why is it that such a simple dream, but there is a feeling of tears.
When Momiji heard this, his face was as bright and gorgeous as a peacock's screen, "What you said is true, or are you teasing me?" I'm old, I don't know if you'll still recognize me? ”
Speaking of which, Momiji's hand was holding his cheeks, and his eyes were wide open, and his bright eyes were swimming slowly. When can you hold your hands, and what moments will you feel like you are there forever. In this life, how can I never leave you? With you like this, I can't turn my back and not think about you.
"I'll know you, as long as you don't forget my brother." Lu Feng's face showed a look of determination again. If you allow me to live in this life, accompany me to listen to the breeze, I am willing to return to your world, go to the ends of the earth together, keep one person, accompany each other for a lifetime, choose a city to end, and never leave the white head!
"I've always been very lonely, I really want to find someone to accompany me, I'm afraid that you will be ...... by then", Momiji stopped talking, and his eyes dimmed, like a clear sky covered with a dark cloud.