With this sadness, Lu Feng returned to the studio gloomily, turned on the speakers, and played a soothing and gentle but infinitely painful tune, which was the first time he played music without care, and it was also the first time in his six months on the job. When Lu Feng first came here, he once said to himself: This is his last chance in the hotel, and he has to work hard and not let his parents down.

After coming here to work, I realized the taste of working ten hours a day, and I could only go home and eat a good meal when it was dark. I remember the first month of my internship, and I had a lot to learn. Many of them had to be explored and practiced by themselves, and he always left work late to perfect his work skills in those days.

But what Lu Feng hates the most is that the leaders have to come here every morning to check the meticulous hygiene, especially on Mondays, the leaders are very energetic as soon as they are full of energy, and the national hygiene makes people's nerves tense.

Because of being in the front-line department, the strictness of the rules and regulations sometimes makes people unkind, such as the lack of smile service to be deducted, the sound service is not in place, the grooming and appearance do not conform to the norms, and the meticulous hygiene is not clean.

Lu Feng could only deal with those people in the hotel cautiously, trembling and frightened against those strict rules and precepts, he did everything carefully, playing music without scruples like today, usually even if he had the courage to listen to it, but this time he had no scruples, he just wanted to pour out the depression in his heart. As the music flowed, his heartstrings were tightly pulled, giving him a kind of joyful smoothness.

The song, 'No matter how hard the road with you is,' was recorded by his own hands that summer and placed on the second page of his gift to Momiji. The style has also changed from the expectation of the first 'love like red leaves' to the sadness of today's 'red leaves':

No matter how hard the road with you is / I just want to have the last blessing

I don't care about any amount of hurt / May you and I break free from all shackles

No matter how bitter the road with you is/Dry your tears and tell yourself not to cry

I'm not afraid of anyone who says it's a mistake / As long as you and I insist on never admitting defeat

Looking at these lines of text, Lu Feng couldn't help but smile bitterly, the belief that he once would never admit defeat had been scattered all over the world, and for some reason there was something warm overflowing in his eyes. I don't understand why I still have to be like this, I stayed so late in the park last night, that night, in such a dark park, I miss you like that...... I always believe that there will be perfect things in this world, which are worth looking forward to with our lives.

Just as he was alone and sad, Hongye walked in gently, looking at his lonely figure, his body trembled slightly, and he forced a happy face: "Kaede, what are you looking at, so engrossed." ”

Lu Feng didn't look back, quietly wiped away the tears, and said lightly: "It's nothing, it's the homepage I made for a beloved girl before, I'll just review it." ”

"Show me too!" Hongye leaned against his side, and saw the light blue text on the homepage moving with Lu Feng: 'It doesn't take long to love you, I just need to live for a lifetime', she was stung by something fiercely, and sat there in a daze.

After a while, Momiji said softly: "Kaede, have you read the newspaper the day before yesterday, there is an essay on it, and there is a paragraph in it that is similar to what you once wrote to me, is it what you wrote?" ”

"No, maybe it's a coincidence." Lu Feng shook his head and looked at the sparkling youthful smile of the red leaves, like a water lily that quietly unfolded after the summer rain, with crystal dewdrops. It's just that we can't stay together in this life, but we have to wait for the next life, how helpless we are!

We will meet many people in our lives, some are shooting stars, some are stars. There's no need to hold the meteor tightly. There are too many passers-by, hurrying past us, like shooting stars streaking across the sky in an instant. But when you have those few stars, you should be able to laugh and cry when you look back and think about those meteors in the past.

Thinking of this, Lu Feng's face was a little pale, and he said in a low trembling voice: "You take your time and appreciate it, I'll go outside alone." "I think I need a quiet corner, some time to be alone, and the day after day I miss you, I get worse with each passing day. They say that time can dilute everything, but the thoughts about you are deepening day by day, deposited in the depths of the heart little by little, and nothing can be erased.

In the blue night sky, the mischievous little star drew an arc, and he looked up and savored the words again. Meteor is beautiful, how I hope it can stay in my heart forever, but what I encountered is a meteor after all, the meaning of meteor is fleeting, and the beauty of meteor only comes from an instant. If you pursue it for a long time and grasp the beauty of this moment, you can only suffer yourself.

Oh, yes! She is not the star in my life after all, why should I be persistent, loving someone does not necessarily have to have someone, and silently blessing her is not also a kind of beauty.

In fact, many times, love is not as perfect as we think. It's just an excuse to meet too late. If that's the case, why bother thinking about this person, and why bother with this relationship. Maybe it would have been better to hide this feeling in his heart at the beginning, Lu Feng stood in the wind and muttered to himself regretfully.

The New Year passed quietly, and the days were still as calm as water. There is less bustle and hustle, and more loneliness and loneliness. So he was looking forward to his father's birthday earlier, but unexpectedly, on the afternoon of his father's fiftieth birthday, he suffered from appendicitis again.

My father was a strong and silent man, and he went to the hospital alone to hang up the saline during the interval after the separation of relatives and friends, and then according to the doctor's instructions, he was admitted to the hospital and underwent appendectomy surgery to prevent future problems.

Worriedly, he followed his brother to his father's bedside and handed over the necessities of life such as quilts and hot water bottles to his mother. Originally, one bed in the hospital was occupied by three patients, but because my father was still in charge, the other two beds were vacated.

The brothers anxiously asked about their father's condition, and the mother, seeing their worried looks, squeezed out a smile and said, "The operation was successful, there is no problem, and I will be discharged from the hospital in a few days." ”

At this time, the father clenched his teeth for some reason, and let out a cold shivering sound, and the mother hurriedly stepped forward to ask, and at the same time asked my brother to call the doctor to check, and the doctor said that it was a normal reaction after a minor operation, and it would get better after an injection, and they felt a lot more relieved after hearing it.

But after a while, the cold on his father's body had not receded, so his mother put a hot towel on his father's forehead and covered it with a quilt, Lu Feng also accompanied him in fear, holding his father's cold hand tightly, and prayed in fear, hoping to transfer his own heat, but his father's body was still trembling.

Looking at his father's pain at the moment, Lu Feng hated to replace his father, and his heart was also messy. Thinking of this time last year, perhaps because I was too tired from working the night shift, not only did my throat hurt, I could only whisper, but I also had some nasal congestion and couldn't breathe smoothly.

At that time, my father was the only one in the house, and my mother had to go to my grandmother's house, which was far away, to take care of my sick grandmother, and she was often away from home. My father was busy cooking and cooking every day after work. At that time, I was unaware of the hard work of being a father, and I often threw the changed clothes into the basin and it was over. Now that I calm down and think about it, I feel a little ashamed. Although he also helped wash dishes, collect clothes, and load coal stoves, how much can he share.