Chapter Twenty-Five: The Past Is Unbearable

A few days later, Ling Moyu returned to the capital, a city that had been lost for a long time, giving him happiness and making him sad, and it seemed like a century had passed when he came back again. The youth is no longer there, in just three years, after the smoke and fire that ordinary students will not experience in their lifetime, the grass and trees here, the majestic ancient towers, and the calm lake are all the original appearance, but what has changed is to look at these deep eyes. Ling Moyu came to the campus where he had been with him day and night for nearly 10 years, and the past was vivid as if it was yesterday.

Ling Moyu is from a small city in the south of the Yangtze River, his parents are middle school teachers, his father teaches history, his mother teaches physics, the two are peaceful by nature, there is no quarrel, because of the family relationship Ling Moyu has been particularly interested in history and physics since he was a child, when he was just in elementary school, he liked to hold "Five Thousand Years Up and Down", "The Story of the Three Kingdoms" and other books to read endlessly, sometimes playing the game of the Three Kingdoms with his friends, imagining that he was a commanding general. After I went to middle school, I was exposed to various physical laws and interesting phenomena, and there were also reveries of Einstein traveling on a light ride in extracurricular books, the confusion of Schrödinger's cat, the mystery of the uncertainty principle, which completely inspired the ambition of teenagers to uncover the truth of the universe, and the fact that he went to the park with his father to practice Tai Chi and Baguazhang with them.

The college years are undoubtedly the best time, full of spirit, guiding the country, and life has infinite possibilities. Originally, it was not difficult to find a good job in a top school in China like Jingcheng University, especially Ling Moyuxue's theoretical physics, and his mathematical skills were excellent, so he didn't need to go to various scientific research institutions, and he was also a sought-after commodity in various financial institutions, and he could easily have a lot of income effortlessly. He is an idealist obsessed with the vastness of the universe and the weirdness of elementary particles, and what he wants to do is to explore the unknown.

During his college years, he was particularly interested in quantum mechanics, and he was very impressed by a statement by a physics professor that the key to uncovering the truth of the universe is not in the depths of the vast galaxy, but in the invisible particles, the so-called sand and one world. The good university years passed quickly, and the students went their separate ways, one-third went abroad, one-third went to the world's top 500 companies, and the rest went to study for a doctorate in China. Ling Moyu has his own ideas, he likes the atmosphere here, the familiar environment as long as you are willing to be able to do research quietly, besides, domestic basic research is developing rapidly, and the hardware facilities will soon be comparable to the West, and the Internet is developed today, and the information you need can be obtained at any time. Therefore, he chose to study for a master's degree and a doctorate, and continued to study the esoteric elementary particles at his alma mater.

Ling Moyu likes to play basketball, is the main force of the basketball team, and is also the sports committee member of the class, under the influence of his father, he will play the erhu, whenever the college has a party on New Year's Day, he will play the "Horse Race" must be a reserved program. In particular, the high-pitched and vivid voice of the horse at the end must have won the warmest applause.

Such boys are the most popular among girls in college, and he met a girl named Song Qi at a friendship with the School of Economics in his sophomore year. In order to digest the excess male hormones, their class decided to take the initiative to find the class of the School of Economics to hold a social activity, and the class committees of the two classes contacted in advance to discuss the content, place and time of the activity. Song Qi is a member of the literary and artistic committee of their class, she plays the piano well, knows that Ling Moyu can play the erhu, and the music is all figured out, so naturally the two of them have more common language. At the formal sorority, the two also performed "The Street Where the Wind Lives" together.

The girl's bright eyes, clear and clear, as bright as stars, I don't know what she thought of, she smiled excitedly at Ling Moyu, her eyes were curved like a crescent moon, as if the spirit rhyme also overflowed. Between a smile and a smile, the noble expression naturally revealed, and he had to marvel at her elegant and delicate light.

Love in college is simple, there is not too much utilitarianism, there is not too much calculation, it is enough for the two to be happy, campus life is simple, the study pressure of a prestigious school is very high, there is not much free time, it is nothing more than eating together, studying and watching movies, and then you can go to concerts.

The carefree life is beautiful and short, four years of time passed in a blink of an eye, and the two had disagreements for the first time on the issue of graduation, Ling Moyu hoped to continue the research of theoretical physics and study for a doctorate with a master's and doctorate, while Song Qi hoped that he would change his career to finance or real estate and other industries with obvious economic benefits, and change his major to graduate school, with Ling Moyu's mathematics and English skills are not a problem. However, although the two did not reach an agreement, since Song Qi was also going to graduate school, the contradiction between the two was over, and it was still the same as before.

Gradually, Ling Moyu felt that Song Qi had changed, because Song Qi chose the direction of finance, often went out to research and socialize with her mentor, and had more opportunities to contact people and things outside. They see each other less and less, sometimes not once a week, and they speak less and less. Even when I met Song Qi, there was more relish to talk about, all kinds of luxury goods and fashion, as well as various gossip news in the entertainment industry, and then who and how to make a lot of money, how to make money, and so on.

It's not that Ling Moyu doesn't understand these, although he didn't pay special attention to these, but he basically knows that the gossip in the entertainment industry, it's difficult if you don't want to know, open the news homepage and jump straight into your eyes. At first, he also felt very fresh, but after a long time, he still couldn't accept endless talking about this, poetry and distance are really far away.

On Christmas Eve before Song Qi's master's graduation, the two took a walk on the cold campus, "It's been a long time since I've walked together like this." Holding Song Qi's soft hand, Ling Moyu felt very warm

"I'm graduating soon, and I want to go to Morgan Stanley after graduation."

"It's hard to go, I heard that the newcomer who enters will earn a million a year!"

"Almost, as long as you work hard, you can't do it. You better stop studying, work with me, you see that Dai Zerong, the leader of your class, did not engage in your physics research, went to Vanke, engaged in real estate, and the annual salary exceeded 500,000 yuan in only 3 years. and Xie Hua in your class, he usually doesn't study very hard, he has several subjects, and now he is in an energy company, and his annual salary has already exceeded one million. ”

"Everyone has their own aspirations, everyone has their own pursuits, and the study of basic physics has been my wish for many years."

"How difficult it is to produce results in theoretical physics, there has only been an Einstein for hundreds of years! Life is just a few decades, and youth is gone in a flash, so why waste it on boring academics. The world out there is so wonderful that you will miss it. ”

"I'll graduate next year, you still have three years, and when you graduate, I'll be almost 30, and I'll be a leftover girl. I have to buy a house after graduation, how expensive is the house now! We have been struggling for 10 years after you graduated, and at the age of 40, what is left of life! Look at Niu Rongrong in our class, now she lives in a villa and drives a luxury car, that's life. ”

"You didn't see that her husband is almost older than his father, how did you become like this, you know money!"

Song Qi was anxious by one sentence, shook off Ling Moyu's hand, strode forward, and walked to the dormitory without looking back. Ling Moyu knew that he had made a mistake, so he hurriedly chased after him, no matter what he said, it was useless, and he watched Song Qi enter the dormitory blankly.