Su Yu buried his face in Da Xiong's chest and spoke slowly.

"The first time I saw you, it was on the night of Su Meiting's 10th birthday party. Because I was grounded by Li Hong and thought of my mother, I was in a very low mood, so I secretly ran to the garden. I saw you standing by the pond, the moonlight shrouded over you, exuding a sense of intimacy that made me want to get closer. Therefore, love at first sight is not necessarily because of appearance, temperament, possibly, just because of a feeling. It's like when I was standing behind you, I only saw a rough outline, and I didn't see your appearance at all, but I was deeply attracted by you. That maybe, it's just a kind of, inexplicable good feeling. Then, I was even more eager to make the next step of contact with you. It's like, opposites attract, it doesn't make sense, I can't understand it. Some people say it's a smell attraction, others say it's a magnetic attraction, anyway, I'm attracted to you like that. So, I couldn't help but go to your side. I saw your side face, as if I had seen it in a dream, gentle and feminine, but with a hint of sadness and melancholy. At that moment, my heart, as if it were, missed a beat. Time stopped, and there seemed to be only two people in the world, as if there were only two people, and that feeling was like a sharp ray of sunlight piercing the cloudy sky, and like a shining meteor, crossing the dark and silent night. I want to go and learn more about you, just as flowers yearn for the sunshine and flying insects chase the lights. I wanted to look at you like that all the time, but, perhaps because of my presence, disturbing your purity, and it seemed to make you unhappy, I remember that you frowned, but it made me look very good. When I saw that you wanted to leave, I opened my mouth to talk to you, because I wanted to leave you behind. Later, you said you would come back and marry me. That sentence had a great impact on me. You also know that over the years, I have had a very difficult time in the Su family. Your words gave me great warmth. That's the most intimate quote I've heard in many years. It was that sentence that supported me and persevered. Actually, I know, it's just a joke. After all, at that time, we were all young, but it was also the most headstrong. So later, I always thought, always thought, and I took it as a kind of sustenance, and I also started to have expectations. Once, too, I hesitated, I lost, I retreated. At that time, I thought very seriously about your feelings. The initial love at first sight is definitely not love, it can only be called love, it is love. You left me a perfect, first impression. And then, this perfect impression has always been in my heart. As time passed, while the memories faded, they were also beautified by their own hearts. It's like a mental process of 'self-persuasion'. Gradually, I fell in love with the one I thought of you. Actually, to be honest, in the more than ten years since you left, I couldn't remember what you looked like at all, I was originally in the moonlight, looking at your side for half a minute, and I didn't see it clearly at all, so you only had a vague appearance in my memory, and later, it became, deep in my heart, the appearance of imagination. Still, when you reappeared, I recognized you at a glance, still by a feeling, and that was intuition. However, there are some differences between the actual you and the one I have created in my heart. Later, I found out that there are some discrepancies in temperament, but I have always given myself psychological hints, so that I can accept the actual you slowly. It's not hard to do, after all, you've been rooted in my heart for more than ten years, and even if there are some changes, it's hard to get you out of my heart. Like chronic poisoning, the toxicity gradually intensifies, but there is no antidote. ”

Even later, you deceived me and hurt me like that, I still feel that you are still that gentle teenager.

Still looking forward to it.

Until the moment I died, what flashed in my mind was what I looked like when I first saw you.

At that time, I understood that if I want to get rid of you, I can only die.

Later, after being reborn, I tried to restrain my feelings, but in the end, I failed, and I still can't forget you.

Su Yu didn't want to say these words to Zhan Mochen, she didn't want to make Zhan Mochen sad.

Su Yu has thought more than once about what he fell in love with, which Zhan Mochen.

However, the recent time of getting along made Su Yu finally figure out this problem.

Zhan Mochen has just experienced some things, so his temperament has changed.

It was just a stage, as if it was a young rebellion.

From beginning to end, he was who he was, his essence, never changed.

In the past, Su Yu had also doubted his feelings.

If, when he first met at a young age, Zhan Mochen was, like later, treating himself ruthlessly, and he didn't stay, that promise, would he fall in love with him without hesitation.

However, now, it is pointless to pursue these things.

After all, there are no ifs in this world.

The truth is that he was as warm as jade, and, he left, that warm word.

Therefore, the relationship between men and women is, indescribable, and unclear.

It's all a feeling, right there, a moment of electric light.

Zhan Mochen was very sensitive to find that Su Yu deliberately avoided the part where he fell into the water and was rescued by her.

She was worried that she would blame herself when she thought about it.

is also, from beginning to end, only in the previous life, in order to save the child, Su Yu was forced to mention that incident.

That was the only time, unlike Su Meiting, who would talk about it twice in three days to win sympathy.

His little rain will always be, so careful, for the sake of others.

Su Yu said that she had hesitated, lost, and withdrawn, so it should have been that she hurt her during that time.

Although these things had been learned from Su Yu's diary, when they were mentioned again, Zhan Mochen's heart was still painful.

Originally, Zhan Mochen wanted to listen to Su Yu's confession to himself, feel Su Yu's love, and let himself no longer suffer so much.

As a result, now, it has played a counterproductive role, and Zhan Mochen is even more afraid that Su Yu will leave him.