The curtains were only half drawn, and the night outside the window was extraordinarily rich, wrapped in a hazy haze, with no stars, no moonlight, only a bitter cold wind, and the rustling of leaves.

The whole room was isolated from the cold and the heating was thick.

Xu Xinyi was lying on He Xiao's chest, when he spoke, his chest rose and fell slightly, and a magnetic voice shook out from his chest, striking his eardrums and beating his heart every word, Xu Xinyi's heartbeat became extremely fast.

Stunned by his words, ten.... Seventeen years old???

She was stunned for a few seconds, then looked up at him in astonishment, unable to speak.

As if he knew what she was thinking, he lowered his eyes, locked her eyes deeply, hooked his lips slightly, and seemed to be a little helpless and embarrassed: "I'm afraid of scaring you, you're really scared." ”

The orange light is very dim, his eyes are already deep, and in such a dim light, they are even more deep and dark, and his delicate facial features are half to the light and half hidden in the dark, which makes the facial contours more distinct and three-dimensional.

Xu Xinyi looked at He Xiao without blinking, trying to see the meaning of teasing in his eyes, but after looking at it for a long time, he couldn't see any other emotions except sincerity.

And he is talking about love, and the meaning of this word is too heavy and deep, and it makes people sink endlessly.

was so excited that she even breathed out of order, she opened her lips slightly, her lips trembled a little, and she asked eagerly with a trembling voice: "Then you.... Why don't you accept me? ”

Seventeen years old, the age when she first fell in love, the age when she confessed for the first time.

It turned out that after so many years, it wasn't that she was in unrequited love, he had long liked her.

But since it's love, why do you push her away again and again, and you're not even afraid of losing her?

For a while, the mood was a little complicated, ecstasy, sadness and nervousness gathered together, and it was not a taste in every way.

He Xiao saw through her thoughts, hugged her tighter, laughed deeply, his tone was relaxed and natural, and there was a slight joking tone: "Isn't this about to be talked about?" ”

Xu Xinyi hugged his waist tightly, his chin against his chest, and looked at him seriously, looking forward to his next step.

He Xiao gently combed her messy hair, then stroked her cheek with his hand, gently rubbed her face with his fingertips, and sighed slightly: "Remember the last time we quarreled?" I said that we are not suitable, in fact, it is not that you are not suitable for me, but that I am not suitable for you, you will be very tired with me, I don't have much time to accompany you, the situation of not saying goodbye may happen every day, I can't contact the outside world for ten days and half a month on a confidential mission, even if I want you again, I have to endure it, and even more often even if we breathe the air of the same city, we still can't see each other, no matter who puts it on this kind of day, I can't stand it, and more importantly, the nature of my work is very dangerous, and I may die at any time, I'm afraid I won't even be able to give you a future. ”

"So you rejected me just because of that? Push me away again and again? Xu Xinyi's eyes flashed and asked.

He Xiao nodded: "I don't think I can even guarantee the most basic companionship, or even a clear future, so I shouldn't delay you, you have the right to be with a better man." ”

"You think you think, it's all you think, you never ask me what I think, why do you have to arrange my life?" Xu Xinyi's eyes were faintly angry, and his chest was stuffy and sour when he heard it: "Aren't you afraid that I will really listen to what you said at the beginning, find someone to fall in love, and then get married and have children?" ”

She also thought that he gave up because he was afraid of what others would say, if she had known that it was because of this, she might have slapped He Xiao twice on the spot.

He was questioning her feelings, all his scruples, she was never afraid, what she was afraid of was not getting him.

"I also told you that day, when you are busy, you are busy with peace of mind, I am not afraid of loneliness, although I promise that although my popularity is not good, but it is not that I have no friends, do you think you are busy? I'm busy and flying all over the world, and once I join the group to film, it's been several months, maybe you want to see me, I have to see if the itinerary can squeeze some time for you. Xu Xinyi's eyes were red, and he looked at him stubbornly, a little aggrieved and angry.

"Why are you still angry?" He Xiao smiled helplessly.

Xu Xinyi pursed his lips and lowered his head to stop looking at him.

Can you not get angry? If he hadn't thought about it and cared about this, they would have been together a long time ago, and they wouldn't have wasted those two years.

In fact, it is more sad and moved, He Xiao can think about it so much, which shows that he really cares about her, he is such a rough man, he is so delicate and nuanced.

But she just doesn't need to care in this way, as long as they are together, so the difficulties can be overcome for her.

"If you're so angry, then I won't say anything about it, so you won't be even more angry." He Xiao was even more helpless, his voice softened, and he coaxed.

Xu Xinyi shook his head again and again, took a breath, adjusted his mood, and said in a muffled voice: "You say you say, I'm not angry." ”

He Xiao touched her face, then lowered his head and kissed the top of her hair, and then gently knocked his chin on her head, and continued to say softly, but his tone still had a little flirtatious tone to ease the atmosphere: "You think I feel good?" Of course, I was afraid that you would marry other men and have children, and I made up my mind at that time that I would have it in a single life, and I would not be able to marry you, so it was better not to get married, and if I could live to old age, I would adopt a child, so that I could send it to the end or something. ”

Xu Xinyi didn't speak this time, it was very quiet, so quiet that it seemed to not exist.

With this kind of reaction, he felt that something was wrong, so he had to respond a little.

In the next second, He Xiao felt a warm liquid flowing into the palm of his hand, he couldn't help frowning, held Xu Xinyi's face, raised it to see, the crystal tears just drew out the tears, and wet the palm again, he gently wiped away her tears, and asked helplessly: "Why did you cry again?" If you do this again, I really don't dare to say any more. ”

Xu Xinyi shook his head, tears still flowing.

She always thought that in this relationship, she was the only one who was giving, and she was the hardest one, but she didn't expect that he was.

Withholding love is the most tormenting.

She never thought that He Xiao would be so stupid, so stupid that it made people feel distressed.

What he said about "not marrying her" is so true.

"Don't you keep saying that you can't die, okay? I'm really scared. ”

Xu Xinyi's voice choked, wiping his tears as he spoke, this aggrieved and pitiful act really poked He Xiao's heart, he felt distressed and blamed himself for a while, and coaxed: "Okay, okay, I won't say it." ”

Xu Xinyi sniffed, with tears in his eyes, his vision blurred, looked at him, and said solemnly: "He Xiao, for me, a clear future is enough to have you, but if you have to talk about the topic of life and death, I can't escape it." ”

"I just want to tell you, in fact, you don't have to think too much, if one day you really ....." Speaking of this, she couldn't say the word "dead", she automatically omitted, paused, and spoke again: "I will ....."

"You're not allowed to say that you're going to die with me."

Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by He Xiao.

Xu Xinyi stiffly pulled out a smile, glanced at him, pretended to be relaxed, and teased him: "You think beautifully!" Life is so good, why should I give up? ”

He Xiao breathed a sigh of relief.

"Actually, I had that thought." Xu Xinyi pursed her lips and said softly, "But now there is none." ”

"Well, it's good if you don't."

"If that ever happens, I'll be your widow." Xu Xinyi's eyes were extraordinarily bright, flashing with deep and hot love, like an oath, solemn and sincere: "If we already had a child at that time, I would tell him that his father is a big hero, and we will guard you together, if there are no children at that time, I will guard you alone, and there must be someone in this world who guards you and looks at the motherland you are guarding with your life." ”

As she said, he guards the motherland, and she guards him for the rest of her life.

It seemed that Xu Xinyi could always say words that made him powerless to parry, his heartbeat leaked a few beats, he looked at her with bated breath, his eyes couldn't help but heat, and then he hugged her into his arms, so strong that he wanted to rub her into his bones and blood.

What a silly girl.

Widow, two words, just two words, but the bitterness behind this, can she bear it?

"But it's better not to have that day!" Xu Xinyi stretched out his arm and hugged him tightly, "The motherland only makes sense when you see it with your own eyes!" ”

He Xiao couldn't help laughing, kissed her cheek dotingly, and said, "Hmm": "I see for myself, don't bother you, princess." ”

Although it is shameful to have this method as a soldier, at this moment, this girl made him become 'greedy for life and afraid of death'.

How could he let her die alone.

seemed to feel that this topic was too heavy, so He Xiao changed the topic to ease the atmosphere, and there was a shallow smile in his voice: "Do you know when I fell in your way?" ”

Xu Xinyi shook his head.

"Although it was when you were seventeen years old, it wasn't the first time you confessed, at that time I still purely regarded you as a niece, as a child, not to mention, I was shocked when you confessed, I was still thinking, hey, did this girl take the wrong medicine or what? You're fat enough, even your own uncle dares to like it? He Xiao's tone was relaxed, with a half-joking tone, "At first, I was really troubled, I didn't know what to do, I could only avoid you, but do you know how crazy you are?" Day by day, he is getting bolder and bolder, chasing me every day and telling me that he likes and likes to like, and there are so many sensual love words back and forth in his mouth, and he is not ashamed. ”

I'm embarrassed to say it, is it really that crazy?

"But sometimes, this fate is very strange, the more I avoid you, the more I can't dodge, the pit that should fall into, sooner or later, and somehow let myself fall into it because of a trivial matter." He Xiao sighed a few times, sighed again and again, paused, looked down at her, and continued: "Do you remember my 28th birthday?" When I came home from training that day, you gave me a birthday surprise in a very old-fashioned way, the house was pitch black, you came out of the room with a cake and sang happy birthday songs, I said how did you suddenly remember to learn to bake during that time, although you practiced many times, but the cake was really ugly. ”

He Xiao couldn't help but smile as he spoke, and Xu Xinyi slapped him a few times angrily.

"As a result, the emergency assembly whistle suddenly sounded at that time, there was a mission, I didn't even have time to say it and ran away, my birthday was spent in a bump, a week later, I returned to the army after the mission, I thought you would definitely forget about your birthday, but after you went back, you came to me with a cake like last time, and said happy birthday to me, and said that this time you must blow out candles and make wishes."

And the later cake was much better than the first one, exactly like it was bought in a cake shop.

Later, he opened the refrigerator and saw that there were a lot of cakes.

She waited for him to come back every day, because she didn't know when he would come back, so she would make a cake every day and wait for him to come back to make up for his birthday.

For the first time, for the first time, someone made a cake for him.

For the first time, for the first time, someone was waiting for him.

He will never forget her expression at that time, the flickering candlelight of the candle, reflected in her eyes, bright and pure, full of affection, she smiled sweetly and said to him: "He Xiao, happy birthday." ”

Just six words made him fall into the love network she had been planning for a long time, and he fell without warning, involuntarily.

He Xiao's heart softened into a puddle of water, he kissed her eyes, and every word was extremely reverent: "Xu Xinyi, I, He Xiao, only love you alone in my life." ”