Sunday, November 10, 9:36 p.m., seven days before the day of the kamiji tie the knot.

"Hello, I read your chat history yesterday, I read it a few times, and I thought about it for a long time, I think you moved me and made me admire." The QQ sound sounded, and Ruoyu said regretfully: "You are too affectionate!" Too persistent! But what to say, maybe you're all too young. ”

"She's twenty-six years old, more than two years older than me. Actually, she was really nice to me. Lu Feng remembered the days with her, the days passed day by day, you were about to leave me, that feeling became more and more intense and sad as the hour hand turned.

"Alas! In fact, there are very few people who will succeed in first love. Ruoyu sighed softly, read your article with tears in her eyes, and suddenly remembered a sentence that I heard from nowhere: there is such a sadness. Yes, looking back and thinking about the past, it really feels like a lifetime, and the past really can't be recovered.

It is precisely because of the failure of love that I feel so tired, tired from the bottom of my heart. Especially thinking of the figure of the two people on Shenggui Mountain who were drifting apart, Lu Feng's face showed melancholy, and he said slowly: "Yesterday we went to climb the mountain, and the four people burned incense in front of the Guanyin statue and worshipped ......."

"It's really come to this point, can you have a trace of unwillingness and unwillingness in your heart?" Ruoyu couldn't help asking, and couldn't help but worry about this friend in her heart. Love can really consume a person, I remember when I first met him, he was so high-spirited and confident, but after love, there was nothing left.

Lu Feng listened silently, bowing her head speechlessly, remembering that she had said that no matter what the final result is, the process is always the most beautiful. It doesn't matter how long it lasts, but what you once had. Is that really the case?

Lu Feng said blankly: "But what can I do?" I can't say what I feel in my heart, but I feel a lot of pain until I go numb. ”

"If it were me, I would never do it, because it would only hurt myself and my loved ones more." A look of indescribable appeared on Ruoyu's face and said, "I may stay away from her, or I may continue to love her and wait for her." ”

"We're all married, what are you looking forward to?" Lu Feng was stunned and puzzled. Thinking that after saying goodbye to Jun Yi yesterday, he was just like that, numb and trance-like on the way home.

At that moment, I felt like a star in the night sky, fluttering and distant, hanging in the night sky like that, shining faintly but firmly, trying to warm myself, but finding that the edge light was cold.

"Getting married is not a death sentence, I think as long as there is love, there will be hope." Ruoyu replied persistently. I would like to believe that every little spark that lights up the night sky is never extinguished, and they eventually rise into the sky and become the stars of the night. It's just that those who set off fireworks have long been scattered in the vast sea of people, and they don't know where to go.

Ruoyu's words were too ethereal and profound, and Lu Feng smiled indifferently: "In the past few days, I have seen her return to her previous bright smile, and I am very happy for her." I wish she could be so happy forever.

But for some reason, I have been sleepless at night for the past few days, and often after sleeping for four or five hours, I will wake up painfully, and I will think about some hopeless things for no reason, but it is not beyond my control, and I will be drowsy until dawn. ”

Ruoyu listened to his pain, and her thoughts seemed to go to the distant past, the dusty past.

She sorted out her thoughts and said, "I'll tell you a story, okay?" Is there a boy and a girl who have known each other for more than twenty years, and when they were young, they did not realize what the feelings between them were? They have always been referred to as brother and sister. Slowly, they felt that they were no longer friendship......"

Lu Feng listened to her story, but couldn't help but shed his own tears. He continued to listen to Ruoyu say: "But at that time, they had already graduated, and although the two families were far apart, they were still looking forward to being together one day. They began to plan for a bright future. But because the boy didn't want to leave his parents at that time, the girl got angry and married someone else, as fast as she could. A few months after the girl got married, one day the boy called her and asked her why she didn't pay attention to him anymore, and the girl told him that she was already married. ”

When the boy heard this, his heart almost jumped out of his throat, and his chest turned over and set off a monstrous wave. For a while, I was annoyed, guilty, and doubtful...... All kinds of emotions were intertwined and churned, and I was speechless. After being silent for a long time, he finally slowly spit out the words: he will love that girl and will never forget it. ”

Whose mouth is lightly opened, who speaks insistence, is dried into regret by the ancient sorrow wind under the blue sky, like a broken tower, left in the wasteland of a certain year and a certain month.

Ruoyu's face was pale, and the strength in her heart was defeated at this moment, and she said regretfully: "Now that the girl has children, he is still single." Now they still keep in touch, and the boy waits hopelessly. ”

Just let me leave my parents, away from my homeland, and go to a strange place, and I don't want to. Lu Feng was deeply moved by the boy's infatuation, why do we know how to cherish many loves only when they are lost.

But if we miss it, there will never be a follow-up, no matter how hard we bother to find, wait, and look forward to, we can't find the love we once had. Lu Feng asked in disappointment, "Is this the end of the story?" ”

The boy is the eternal concern and eternal pain in the girl's heart, and the boy now regrets his hesitation. He was still alone, and the girl asked him to marry, and he never wanted to, and they were no longer called brother and sister, because that was just deceiving himself. ”

When Ruoyu said this, she suddenly paused and asked, "Do you understand what I mean?" ”

I understood, but I couldn't, how could I bear to see her disappointed look, her tearful eyes, and her own grief-stricken heart.

Lu Feng thought for a moment and comforted himself: "Maybe our ending will be different from theirs, as long as it takes a long time, there will be no more feelings of love." After this year, I still have a lot of things to do, and I plan to continue studying, which will be a good place to enrich myself and forget about my pain. ”

"If you think you're such a person, then I don't think there's any need for you to bow down, because caring for a person doesn't care about form. It is better to bury this love deep in your heart, watch from afar, care quietly, and melt your deep affection into the quiet and long. ”

Ruoyu comforted bitterly. Do you understand that the love engraved in the bottom of the heart, because of selflessness and desirelessness, because of indifference and sorrow, will be truly eternal.

I don't understand, I just feel that it's really hard to love someone sincerely, Lu Feng's face was slightly painful, and he said in a low voice: "In order to fulfill her last wish, next Sunday will be her big day." I found that I was going to lose in the end, and I was already hard to grasp, so after attending her wedding, everything would be fine. ”

Then you have to grasp yourself in the future, maybe you will slowly feel that your feelings are not too real. Or let love become natural, like clouds gently drifting in the free sky. ”

Maybe somewhere on a certain day and at a certain time, there is a cloud that meets you, and when the tears of seeing each other and hating each other fall into a stream, happiness will always flow.