Chapter 17: I Lost My Self

Gu Xiaoxiao was looking at Yan Beixiao with loving eyes at this time, and Yan Beixiao at this moment was not Qingwang in her eyes, but her former third brother Gu Yanbai.

"Third brother, second sister likes you and likes you very much, but why do you want to marry a woman, do you know that we are a couple, and the person you knew first was me."

I looked at Gu Xiaoxiao at this moment, and she really looked crazy, but even if she was really crazy, I didn't plan to let her go.

As he spoke, Gu Xiaoxiao suddenly collapsed to the ground and cried, "Why did I lose, why?" ”

"Gu Xiaoxiao, I won't kill you personally, but you have to pay for what you've done." After Yan Beixiao finished speaking, he gestured to the thin young man who had been following behind him and didn't talk much, and then the young man caught Gu Xiaoxiao and Hao Laisan, who was kneeling not far away, into the dog park, although Yan Beixiao and Kun Yan had lost a lot of vicious dogs before, but the dogs that were stunned by Leng Si with * were still alive, I saw Leng Si spilling something in the air again, and the dogs that were originally lying down all stood up.

Then Yan Beishen left this terrible place with me, but the young man who originally followed Yan Beishen did not come out, and I understood that Yan Beiyan was also murderous this time.

I didn't go back to the house directly, but went to Leng Si's medical center, Leng Si took out a lot of bottles and cans, and then some gave Yan Bei Shen, and then Yan Bei Shen carried me into the inner hall, from he saved me to take me to Leng Si, he didn't say a word to me along the way, so he made me a little uncomfortable.

He carefully put me on the high table in the inner hall, and then tore off the clothes that had been connected with the flesh and blood, and the pain that had been numb was all restored at this moment, but I couldn't bear it and didn't cry out for pain, if I shouted Yan Beishen, I guess my heart would be even more uncomfortable.

"Shout when it hurts, don't bear it."

"Hmm." I nodded, but my fists were clenched tighter, most of these whip marks were on my upper body and face, Yan Beishen pulled down the plain clothes on my shoulders, and I only saw my injuries clearly at this time, some of these flesh and skin have been slightly rolled, and they are still spitting blood, which is indeed terrifying.

He applied the medicine very gently, and he would help me apply the medicine while blowing cool air, as if it would reduce my pain.

"Yan Beishen, you can ...... the medicine in that golden bottle" Leng Si suddenly broke in, and Yan Beishen hugged me instantly, "Get out!" ”

Leng Si realized that it was not the right time to come in, so he hurriedly spoke, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, that golden bottle of medicine for pain, you can use it more, I'll withdraw first." ”

I reached out and hugged Yan Beishen, "I don't hurt, it really doesn't hurt." ”

Even if I know it's a lie, I want to say it.

"It seems that you have been hurting, and I said I would protect you but I didn't protect you every time, Iris, you are already my weakness." There was a hot current on his shoulder, Yan Beiyan cried, he was actually crying.

I took his head off my shoulder, but he quickly turned his back to me, and I knew he was wiping away tears, and I didn't expose him, and when he turned around, I pulled him over, "Bow your head." ”

He lowered his head obediently, and I also took advantage of the situation to wrap my arms around his neck, and then kissed his forehead, his eyebrows, his cheeks, and the tip of his nose gently and carefully, "Beishen, don't blame yourself, your self-blame will make me hurt more, I love you, I will definitely cherish my life for you, you remember that my southern kite will not die, as long as you are here, I will never die." ”

He looked at me as if he was looking at his most cherished thing, and then he reached out and grabbed the back of my head, and his kiss was dense and warm, I never knew that Yan Beishen would tremble when he kissed me, in order to make him feel more at ease, my whole body was almost hanging on his body, I wanted to give him everything I had, no matter what it was.

A kiss, a room.

Gu Xiaoxiao was finally rescued by Long Shiyan, but Yan Beixiao made people cripple Gu Xiaoxiao, and Gu Xiaoxiao was really crazy this time, and when he saw people, he said that he was going to marry Gu Yanbai, and the prince Yan Dingchen also gave Gu Xiaoxiao a letter of resignation, but out of the spirit of humanitarianism, she was still raised in the prince's mansion.

Ge Wei was bitten on the arm, Leng Si tried his best and didn't save his right hand, but Sheng's life survived, and Yan Beishen gave him a good fat difference in order to repay Ge Wei for saving my life, and also found the best matchmaker in Mocheng to find him a good match, and afterwards I asked Yan Beishen why he didn't let Ge Wei stay in the palace.

"I'm grateful that he saved you, but he's always been interested in you, and this king is not stupid."

also said that he is not stupid, the stupidest person in the world is him, the person in my heart has always been him, except for him, how can I fall in love with someone else, but the only regret is that I may not be able to give him children, but as long as he doesn't say it, I will never say it, in case I break this layer of window paper, I don't know how to deal with myself at that time, I can't say that it's okay if I don't have children, and I can't let Yan Beishen go to take a concubine, so obviously both of us know, but we both agree and choose not to say it.

Later, I learned that the emperor was in such a hurry to summon them because there was a distinguished guest from the Lebanese Congress not long after, and no one could say for sure whether this distinguished guest would bring good luck or bad luck.

I told Yan Beishen what Yu Heng asked me to convey at the beginning, but Yan Bei Shen only said that Yu Heng was in a hurry.

"Are you with Yuheng?" I don't know how to ask, it's clear that Yan Beishen didn't break off the relationship with him at the beginning, could it be that they reconciled again in private.

He scratched my nose, "Yuheng is too extreme, although I made up my mind to be a stranger to him that day, I can't do it." ”

I lie comfortably in his arms, I don't care what he wants to do, as long as Yuheng doesn't come to harm us again, if I don't hate it, it's also false, if it weren't for the blood poison, I wouldn't lose my qualification to be a mother, but I don't want to embarrass Yan Beiyan, if I choose between being a mother and Yan Beiyan, then of course I will choose Yan Beiyan, for me he is the most important person.

I haven't seen Gu Ran for a long time since the last Lingfu birthday banquet, and when the injuries on my body are almost healed, I will take Yan Beishen to Lingfu for a trip, and Yan Beishen finally can't say that I will come again, I nodded again and again, I think that kind of self-poisoning thing will not be done a second time in my life.

After going to Lingfu, I found that Gu Ran's belly was getting bigger and bigger, it had been seven months, and it was estimated that it would be born in two months, and the doctor said that this baby was a handle nine times out of ten, but he didn't say it on the surface, but it was an indisputable fact that Gu Ran loved to eat sour, not that there is a saying that sour and spicy girls.

Gu Ran cried when she saw me, "What are you crying about, don't cry, I'm not good, a pregnant woman can't cry, otherwise the child will be unhappy." ”

I had to move the child out, Gu Ran stopped crying, she took my hand, and her voice was still crying, "Nan Kite, if it weren't for you, maybe my child would really not be able to keep it, blame me for being too anxious, when I saw you coughing up blood, I was so scared that I didn't know what to do, and then I wanted to go to see you, but Qingwang didn't let me go, I guess he guessed that it was my reason why you were like this, you didn't see him at that time, if I wasn't pregnant with a child, he estimated that he would have killed me." ”

"In the end, I'm too blind, and Yan Beishen was also frightened by me, but don't worry, he will never touch you, otherwise I won't spare him."

Seeing that I looked like I was heavy on righteousness and light on color, Gu Ran couldn't help laughing, "Come on, in the end, you will definitely stand on the side of Qingwang, but because of this matter, Ling Han hasn't spoken to me for a long time, if it weren't for my mother who escorted him to see me later, I'm afraid that he wouldn't come to look at me if I gave birth to him." ”

Seeing Gu Ran smile and said that in the end, there was a lonely look on his face, I squatted down and lay on her stomach and listened carefully for a while, "It seems to be sleeping, Gu Ran, don't worry, Ling Han is probably also scared by you, seeing that you usually laugh and laugh, I don't want to have the courage to do this kind of thing, my family also taught me a hard lesson later, I don't dare anymore." ”

"By the way, I heard a few days ago that Gu Xiaoxiao was completely crazy and was given a leave of absence by the prince, this matter has something to do with you, right."

I didn't expect Gu Ran to change his words and tell Gu Xiaoxiao about the matter, I thought about it for a while and told Gu Ran what happened, Gu Ran clenched his fists and slammed down on the table, "I didn't expect my second sister to be really ruthless, if you want me to say that it is better for her to live than to die, it is too cheap for her to die, fortunately, you didn't have an accident, otherwise I would have died of guilt." ”

"It's none of your business, Gu Xiaoxiao already hates me, even if it wasn't for what happened last time, she would deal with me sooner or later, but I feel that I am too useless, once I leave the protection of others, I don't have the ability to protect myself."

Gu Ran saw that I said the anxiety in my heart, and she continued with my words, "It's too late to learn martial arts, how about studying medicine?" ”

I've thought about studying medicine, but the problem is that Leng Si doesn't want to teach me at all, "No one teaches me to study medicine, and I don't know who to teach me except Leng Si, and after I took poison last time, Yan Bei Shen didn't allow me to touch these things, I don't know what to do." ”

"Otherwise, you look at this, you can secretly practice martial arts by yourself, and then get a little injury on yourself, so that the Qingwang will naturally feel sorry for you, and the lesser of the two evils, the Qingwang will agree to let you go to study medicine."

I really can't see that Gu Ran has so many ghost ideas, but I still rejected her proposal, for no other reason, I don't want to deliberately make Yan Bei Shen uncomfortable, I don't want to achieve my own goals in this way, for me, Yan Bei Shen's comfort is the most important thing, he already has a lot of things to deal with, if I worry about me again, wouldn't I be too undeserved.

"You, completely captured by the Green King, Nan Kite, I really can't imagine that you will have such a little woman one day." Gu Ran's last words made me blush, yes, I didn't expect that I would love someone so much, all I wanted was to make him happy and make him happy, I felt as if I had lost myself.