If Nie Congcong has used the DELETE key to erase everything between 2004 and 2016 from the hard disk of his brain, then Liao Feng is the only one who can recover with one click.

After they finished dinner together that night, the two of them didn't say anything all the way, and silently walked to the door of the community where Nie Congcong lived before parting. It's quiet, it's normal, it's not sad, and it's not reluctant. Like countless goodbyes before, he waved his hand very casually. No matter how many years have elapsed between them, or in their hearts, there has never been a difference!

Before going to bed, Nie Congcong wrote in his diary: Many times, life is really like a dream, especially when you are about to step into the 38th year, looking back on those roads you have walked, you always feel that everything is like a fake. That young self, fresh clothes and angry horses, strange and familiar, you want to go up to her and hug her, and say to her, "Baby, go and take another road, that road will be straighter than this one, and there will be fewer thorns...... However, our whole life is just a one-way ticket, and you'll never get a chance to ride a time shuttle back and do something to your younger self......

At the age of 20, Nie Congcong graduated from medical school and went to work as a nurse in the best hospital in the city, and that year, she was the only intern student in the hematology department who stayed. Other classmates said that Nie Congcong had a background, and the director of the hematology department was a relative of her family, and some people said that Nie Congcong was lucky to meet the director of the nursing department who liked her. In fact, no, whether it is the director of the hematology department or the director of the nursing department, they like Nie Congcong's serious and responsible work attitude and excellent professional skills, during her one-year internship, her department received a lot of letters of thanks and pennants, some of which were sent to the hospital office. She is a well-known hit in the department, patients say that she is as skilled as the pediatric nurse, at that time Nie Congcong can perform venipuncture on the veins on the fingers, for patients who are infused every day, the protection of blood vessels can be much better. Of course, this skill is basically useless now, and a retained needle can be used for a week, and it will not be infected.

That year, Nie Congcong was still short-haired, a small chubby girl, who liked to comb a pigtail on the right side, tie a small peach-colored bow, like to wear a goose-yellow shirt and peach-colored suspenders, and a small white thong leather shoes that would never change. Putting on a white coat and a mask, she is a professional and conscientious little nurse, her voice is sweet and soft, she is the little yellow bird in the whole ward, and the only identification symbol for doctors and patients.

However, in this year, Nie Congcong has seen the most beautiful love, the coolest family affection, the most tenacious desire to survive of patients, and the helpless expressions of some patients who have no money to treat them...... That scene, in another 50 years, Nie Congcong will not be able to forget.

The first patient Nie Congcong was in charge of nursing died, and she cried more than the patient's family, and was directly pulled out of the ward by the head nurse and taken back to her office. It was a late autumn afternoon, it was raining coldly outside, and the nurse said to her gently, Xiao Nie, you have to be professional, I know you are very kind, but this is our job, and you can't go on like this. You have to get used to it, and only rationality can you do the job well. After saying this, she patted Nie Congcong's shoulder, okay, you go, little girl. Before going out, the head nurse stopped Nie Congcong again, took out a piece of Dove chocolate from the desk drawer and sent it over, and said with a smile, little thing, in the future, you must pay attention, don't go around giving me eye medicine, you know, I am also a person with a leader! Nie Congcong immediately nodded, uh-huh, understood, I understand, dear comrade head nurse. After saying that, he closed the door with a bang and went out.

Many years later, Nie Congcong still remembers the pleasant feeling that the sweetness of that moment brought her after the chocolate was entered. It was also from that time that Nie Congcong fell in love with desserts, and in every lonely and desperate moment, a piece of chocolate or a piece of cake could save her from the brink of emotional collapse.

Although they have to face birth, old age, sickness and death every day, patients are the simplest type of people in the world, especially those with cancer, who have only one wish - to try to live. Therefore, after the initial adaptation period, Nie Congcong has begun to like this job, and even picked up his books, planning to work for another five years to take the postgraduate examination and go to a medical university to further his studies.

When exactly did you start to get tired of it? Nie Congcong thought for a long time, but there was no answer, but she knew that she needed to leave this place. Her heart is far away.

One spring evening, Nie Congcong went to the night shift, which was the shift from half past six in the evening to half past twelve in the evening. It had just rained during the day, Nie Congcong was sunny on the way to work, she walked into the door of the department, there was no one in the whole corridor, the slanting sun shone in through the window, the whole corridor was splendid, like a dream, Nie Congcong was stunned, she felt that she had a little life in her heart, and it was resurrected in an instant, like a flower, slowly unfolding, she couldn't control herself.

After the night shift that week, Nie Congcong found the nursing department and asked for a transfer. During that time, Nie Congcong was educated by all the people in turn, but she was determined to leave, and no one could hold her. The last time she asked the head nurse to help her sign, the head nurse didn't do anything more, just signed her transfer form, looked into her eyes, and said very seriously, Nie Congcong, you will regret it.

If you want to say regret, then you must have regretted it later, the time of regret was in the summer of 2016, Nie Congcong walked alone in the hot afternoon, there were few people on the empty street, she suddenly had an epiphany - don't listen to the old man, suffer a loss. The decision at that time and now span 15 years, and a small baby of zero years can grow into a big child of 15 years old.

After Nie Congcong's work was transferred from the hematology department to the blood bank, her work content was relatively simple. Every day, the specimens of patients who need blood transfusions are matched and the blood samples stored in the blood bank are typed, and the same type is distributed to the patients. Ordinary ABOs also said that the more difficult thing is that some people get sick, and during the illness, due to viruses or drugs, there will be some suspected blood types, which is very dangerous. If the blood is mismatched, the patient will die, and that is a major medical accident.

Therefore, a person with an anxious personality like Nie Congcong is not suitable for this job for a long time. Many years later, when Nie Congcong led the team, she tried as much as possible for the following employees, and the most common thing she said was, it's okay, you try it, and you won't die. Her attitude has cultivated a group of elite soldiers for her team. That's a later story, so let's not mention it for the time being.

One afternoon, Director Huang of the department came to Nie Congcong with an emotional magazine. Seeing the cover of the magazine, Nie Congcong sighed in his heart, there were three articles published by her in this issue of the magazine. She looked at the director, and the director looked at her, and neither of them spoke. Nie Congcong was annoyed to know that the sample issue sent by the magazine had been cut off again. She looked at the director with a pitiful face, the director usually smiled like Maitreya Buddha's face, wrinkled bitterly, especially the two sword-like eyebrows, which looked particularly weird, and the eyebrows could be twisted into a lump. He picked up a cigarette, took a puff, and spit out the smoke ring, before he spoke slowly, Cong Cong, you should know what I said to you, right? Nie Congcong nodded.

Director Huang flicked the cigarette ash. Said softly, Xiao Nie, after the morning meeting, Dean Li called me to his office and brought it to me, and he asked me to discuss with you how to solve this matter. Seriously, it's not a big deal at all. Everyone has their own hobbies, and you have never let your hobbies affect your work. It's just you, Xiao Nie, you're too ostentatious! What an industry like ours, a unit like ours, wants no logo, like a white screw, silently, nailed there, do your own thing, don't speak casually, don't be paid too much attention to medical staff. Last time, because of this incident, I was criticized once by the whole hospital, saying that I was not strict in management, and the department staff did not do their jobs properly, and they were free and loose. I have been in this position for many years, and no one can find fault with the business, only this matter of yours, criticized again and again, Cong Cong, I am about the same age as your father, I just hope to retire smoothly in the end...... So, I don't want to be difficult for you, I can't help myself, I hope you can understand.

Nie Congcong whispered, I know, director, I'm sorry. Director Huang put out the cigarette in the ashtray and continued, Cong Cong, why do you have to write these useless things? There are also a lot of things that can be written in our industry, with your intelligence, it should be no problem to work here for two years and write a few papers, I believe in your ability. Nie Congcong bit his lip and said softly, Director, I don't like it, you let me think about it, give you a result as soon as possible, I won't embarrass you anymore...... After saying this, Nie Congcong turned around and left, the moment she turned around, tears couldn't help but flow down anymore, she was just an extremely ordinary girl, she had a hobby of her own, she didn't kill people and set fires, she didn't do anything that violated national laws and regulations, why can't everyone tolerate her?

I went to work at eight o'clock the next morning, and after the morning meeting, Nie Congcong handed over the resignation report to the director. Director Huang glanced at her, looked at the resignation report, pouted, and stood up from the chair angrily, he was more than two heads taller than Nie Congcong, his eyes looked at Nie Congcong, and he yelled at Nie Congcong very angrily, Nie Congcong, you have a good ability, if you are my daughter, I will beat you up now. I said, how come you kid can't understand human speech, if you don't write those novels about love and love, will you die? Although I am your leader, I am also a father, for this, you TMD is going to resign, are you in the water? Have you asked me how I feel? Have you asked your father how he felt? Don't mention this to me again in the future, you get out of here now, write a deep examination and hand it to me before you get off work, you're going to me off. Also, ask your father to call me, you kid is simply lawless. You're not that old, and you still want to rebel...... His voice was so loud that the whole building could hear it, and his eyes turned red as he roared.

Coming out of the director's office, Nie Congcong also felt a little sad in his heart. Whether it is Director Huang or Nurse Li of the Nursing Department, each of them treats themselves as their own children, and they have never worn small shoes for her because of her problems. Even when she left the nursing department, Nurse Li cried and persuaded her that life in the system would be very hard, and she didn't want Nie Congcong's future to be full of thorns...... However, Nie Congcong, who was looking forward to a new life, finally failed her.

When I went back in the evening, Nie Congcong explained the situation to my father, but my father didn't say a word, just smoked one cigarette after another, and when he finished smoking the fourth cigarette, his father asked Nie Congcong, are you sure you want to go down the road of writing? No matter how hard and difficult it is? Nie Congcong nodded, yes, Dad, I'm sure. And I don't want to cause trouble for anyone, including our director. So, hopefully you'll give him a call tomorrow and we'll both be relieved.

When he was about to get off work the next day, Director Huang called Nie Congcong to the office and said to him, your father called me, I respect your choice, you must take care of yourself in the future and take care of your future. However, Cong Cong, you have to treat your father well in the future, his love for you is far higher than my love for my children, at our age, there are too few parents who can give their children absolute freedom of choice, you are ready to go through the formalities, if you need my help in the future, you can come to me directly, I will do my best. Nie Congcong suddenly couldn't control his emotions, and cried and said to Director Huang, thank you, Director, I will......

In such a hospital, it is difficult to enter a person, but it is easy to walk a person, Nie Congcong completed all the formalities within a week, and after that, he never went back, but during the New Year's holiday, he would call Director Huang and Head Nurse Li to say a blessing.

Having come to this point, Nie Congcong has nothing to say, she feels that leaving is a relief for herself and a relief for the leader. The most important thing is that Nie Congcong's manuscript fee income is already more than her previous salary, so she doesn't care about leaving the hospital, leaving the system, and leaving this place where restrictions are everywhere.

It's just that occasionally seeing his father's worried eyes when he looks at her, Nie Cong will feel a little sorry in his heart, but this kind of apology will only appear in a very small time, after all, for Nie Congcong, the wonderful world is outside, and the place where the heartbeat is somewhere else......