Chapter 50: Self-deception
Du Juan was first shocked by Zhao Qiwei's death, and then heard Zhao Qiwei's mother inadvertently say this point in time, his heart sank again, and he had vaguely guessed something in his heart.
More than a year ago, she had already begun to prepare to be transferred to City A, after all, it was not an easy task to formally transfer with a work relationship, Du Juan had been planning this matter since Tang Hongye stayed on that side, but the timing was not right, there has been no suitable opportunity in City A, and before he had any good work performance, the difficulty of this matter would naturally be relatively greater.
So Du Juan spent a lot of time working hard and fighting for opportunities, and more than a year ago, she finally waited for a suitable opportunity to make her wish begin to turn into reality.
At that time, the name Zhao Qiwei was just a somewhat unpleasant memory for her during her study at school, but she didn't expect him to find a short-term sight during that time.
Du Juan quickly recalled, and soon remembered another thing, after she transferred to City A, many people in the original unit knew about it, for a while, every time Yin Mei saw herself, her expression was very complicated, Du Juan didn't think much about it at the time, after all, the relationship between the two people has not been very familiar, Du Juan does not have a particularly deep understanding of what Yin Mei's personality is like, and her personality has always been so uncertain, and she does not take it very seriously. Looking back now, the time when Yin Mei's mood was wrong should be the time when Zhao Qiwei found a short-term view.
"I really didn't expect this to happen." Although Tang Hongye, Zhao Qiwei's former friend, was fake, but now his shock was real, "Before he had an accident, was there really anything wrong?" How could it be that everything has already improved, and suddenly you can't think about it like this? ”
"We can't figure it out, at that time, his father and I were very happy, and I felt that according to this momentum, we could soon contact the school and apply for Xiao Wei's resumption of school, even if we can't be like you, after graduation, I will become a policeman, at least get a college diploma, and then go out to find a job or something, it is not so difficult, but suddenly this kind of thing happened. Xiao Wei's father and I were so sad that we wished we were dead, but then when the two of us got through a little bit, we thought about it carefully, and found that there seemed to be something else here, we didn't care about it before, and we didn't take it seriously. ”
Zhao Qiwei's mother was asked about this by Tang Hongye, and it seemed that she was also reminded of a memory that she had not mentioned to others: "Xiao Wei was sick and treated in the hospital, and in the years when he went home to recuperate, there has always been a little girl Xiao Yin in your school to come to see him, and he cares about him, Xiao Wei's father and I are very grateful to that girl, although we are not young men and girls anymore, but after all, we are also from the past, a little girl will not always come to see a classmate who has nothing to do with her for no reason, So we estimate that this little girl must be a little interesting to our children, but Xiao Wei is very strange to others, and he doesn't say that he ignores others, but he has not been particularly enthusiastic, and we also feel that we can't go to that girl, so we beg her if she can ignore Xiao Wei's attitude, and come to talk to Xiao Wei when she has time, we just hope that Xiao Wei feels that his past classmates still have someone who remembers him, and someone who cares about him, so that he can work hard to cooperate with the treatment, and be a little positive. ”
"I didn't know much about Zhao Qiwei's situation at that time, otherwise I would have come to see it a long time ago." Tang Hongye said, of course, what he actually meant was very different from what Zhao Qiwei's mother heard in this situation.
"Yes, Xiao Wei's father and I always say that young people nowadays are really too indifferent! Anyway, I used to be classmates with them, why didn't anyone want to care about our Xiao Wei! Zhao Qiwei's mother seems to be really full of resentment about this matter, "Just because he is like this, he is down, so they look down on him and are unwilling to associate with him?" This person is too realistic, and there is no human taste! ”
"Auntie, didn't you just say that there are details related to Zhao Qiwei's sudden emotional problems?" Du Juan also dislikes Zhao Qiwei's mother's attitude of never reflecting on her own problems, and she can't turn around and leave now, so she has to try to lead the topic to the point.
"Oh, I'm talking about the little girl who always comes to see Xiao Wei," Zhao Qiwei's mother hurriedly said, "Every time she came to see Xiao Wei before, the two of them would close the door and muttered in the house that they didn't know what to talk about, and we weren't allowed to listen, if we wanted to go over and listen to what they were talking about, Xiao Wei would lose his temper, and we were afraid that he would be excited, so we wouldn't dare to mess with him." At first, Xiao Wei's father and I thought that Xiao Wei and the little girl liked each other, but later found out that it was not like that. When the little girl came over for the last time, she chatted with Xiao Wei for a long time, and when she left, Xiao Wei didn't seem to have any special reaction, the little girl's eyes were red, as if she was not in a good mood, we didn't know what the two of them were talking about, so we didn't pay much attention to it, thinking that it was the same as many times before, there was no difference. I didn't expect ...... After a few days...... Xiao Wei, this stupid boy, he ......"
Zhao Qiwei's mother pinched her sleeve and began to wipe her tears, Tang Hongye and Du Juan did not speak. Zhao Qiwei's mother lost her child, which is quite pitiful from this point of view, but when she thought of each other's positions, Du Juan didn't know how to open her mouth to comfort each other.
"Auntie, there is a sentence that I don't know if to ask," Tang Hongye also thought of the same thing as Du Juan, he hesitated slightly, and asked Zhao Qiwei's mother, "Zhao Qiwei had such a thing, the root cause should be because he had inappropriate behavior with a female classmate in school, this matter must be known, I don't know if he figured it out about this matter before he had an accident?" ”
"No, he has something to figure out!" As soon as Zhao Qiwei's mother heard Tang Hongye mention the incident back then, her face suddenly became not very good-looking, "If it weren't for the fuss made by your school at the beginning, our family Xiaowei was wronged, would the child be able to have a heart disease?" His father and I were both distressed to death, and then the child was reluctant to mention the incident, and of course we couldn't rub salt in his wound and wouldn't mention it in front of him. ”
Zhao Qiwei...... That incident made him feel very aggrieved at the beginning? Although Tang Hongye was already trying his best to restrain himself, hearing Zhao Qiwei's mother's words, he couldn't help frowning.
"Of course! Subjected to such an inexplicable punishment, who can feel unaggrieved? If it were you, would you feel aggrieved? Zhao Qiwei's mother was obviously not very satisfied with Tang Hongye's attitude.
Tang Hongye smiled, shrugged his shoulders, and spread his hands: "If it's me, what do I have to be wronged?" After all, he was ambushed on the side of the road, and then suddenly rushed out to hug his female classmates, he did everything, and he had to admit that he was punished for doing something wrong. ”
"Yes, there must be something wrong with Xiao Wei in that incident, but isn't it okay to admit that there is a mistake, and an apology is not enough? The matter is a matter of two people, why do you punish our family Xiaowei himself if it makes a big fuss? With such an eccentric way to deal with it, who can feel that it is not aggrieved? Zhao Qiwei's mother said confidently.
"So according to your opinion, the girl who was scared by Zhao Qiwei should also be punished? People belong to the victim in this matter, how can they deal with the victim? Tang Hongye laughed angrily.
"It doesn't matter if you are punished or not, the most important thing is that both parties are responsible for this kind of thing, just deal with my Xiaowei himself, and deal with it so heavily, this is to let our children be wronged."
"Auntie, I'm a little confused when you say that, how do you see that 'both parties are responsible'?" Tang Hongye looked at Zhao Qiwei's mother like an alien.
"Why isn't it that both sides are responsible? I don't know other people's children, my Xiaowei is an honest and good boy, if it wasn't for the girl who made him have any misunderstanding before, how could he have the courage to run to hug someone! There is not only such a girl in your school, why doesn't Xiao Wei hug others, but hug her? You've heard the phrase that a slap doesn't make a sound, right? Zhao Qiwei's mother glared at Tang Hongye with some displeasure, and it could even be said that she was a little angry, "You are Xiao Wei's friend!" How can you say such a thing? Don't you feel ashamed to say such things in front of Xiao Wei? ”
As she spoke, she pointed to Zhao Qiwei's portrait, and her tone sounded extremely angry.
Tang Hongye looked at Zhao Qiwei's portrait, a person who had died, he didn't want to say anything, let alone do anything, but Zhao Qiwei was fortunate to be gone, otherwise what he did in the past today, as well as his mother's disrespectful words today, the new and old accounts together, Tang Hongye would definitely not let him have a good time.
Because the words are not speculative, Zhao Qiwei's mother's attitude has also become cold, after Tang Hongye learned the fact that Zhao Qiwei has been dead for more than a year, he has no intention of staying for a long time, so he didn't say too much and left, Zhao Qiwei's mother was so happy that they left quickly, and the position that Tang Hongye spoke made her feel uncomfortable to listen to.
Leaving Zhao Qiwei's home, it was already more than eight o'clock in the evening, the two of them found a hotel to live in, and they were a little tired after a day of traveling, this place was not familiar with the place, and they were too lazy to go out to find a place to eat, so they bought some bowls of noodles, bread and ham sausages in the small supermarket next to the hotel, took them back to the room, boiled a pot of hot water, and chatted about today's harvest while soaking instant noodles.
"Now I really don't wonder why that Zhao Qiwei was such a weird way of thinking, on the one hand, his mental condition may not be very stable, on the other hand, it is estimated that it is also 'thanks to' his parents' way of educating him for so many years, anyway, his own children will always be pure and harmless, and the responsibility will always be on the head of others, even if his own children make mistakes, it is someone else who pulls their own children into the water." Tang Hongye was angry at Zhao Qiwei's mother's argument, "She said that we won't mention your words, just talk about the root cause of Zhao Qiwei's short-sightedness, she never thought about it, is it that their whole family has not found the location of Zhao Qiwei's knot, and they have not paid attention to his mental health status, and they are even pushing this matter on Yin Mei's body inside and outside the words, as if Yin Mei indirectly killed Zhao Qiwei." ”
"Actually, I think it is possible that Yin Mei indirectly killed Zhao Qiwei." Du Juan subconsciously fiddled with the plastic fork on the instant noodle bowl, his expression was a little solemn, "The time when Zhao Qiwei's mother said today that Zhao Qiwei was looking for a short time happened to be when I transferred to City A to have eyebrows, and someone from the original unit gradually began to know the news, so I think Zhao Qiwei must have heard something to say, and it made him feel hopeless, just like you said, he may not have really realized from beginning to end, and reflected, what originally supported him to pretend to be recovering from this illusion may be something else." , but then that idea was shattered, and he lost the spiritual support he had always had, so he didn't even have the motivation to live. Just like Zhao Qiwei's mother said, during that period of time, the only person who would contact Zhao Qiwei and come to visit him from time to time was Yin Mei, and I think Yin Mei must have told him about my transfer to City A. ”
"But...... Although there is a bit of a gap between here and city A, and from here to our house, it is not so big that people don't even have the belief to live, right? Tang Hongye always felt that Zhao Qiwei would not be able to survive just because Du Juan wanted to transfer his job to City A.
"Indeed, if I just want to transfer my job to another place, maybe this is not a big deal for Zhao Qiwei, but what if he knows that I am transferred to City A not for that place, but for someone there? Yin Mei has been testing since she came to City A with me, trying to trick me by all means, when she was in school, we didn't pay attention to her, but it doesn't mean that she didn't pay attention to us, so I think she may have always known about me and you, so I tried my best to transfer to City A for what, what does it mean if the transfer is successful, Yin Mei knows better than anyone else, she may not be able to bear Zhao Qiwei's attitude of refusing to face reality, so she didn't leave him a chance to continue to escape, It's just that I didn't expect Zhao Qiwei to deceive herself for so long, and it was impossible for her to wake up instantly because she revealed the objective facts, but because she was stimulated too much, she didn't even have the idea of living. ”