When I arrived at the house where Yin Si lived, it was already dawn.

The two of them didn't sleep all night, and when they arrived at the house, they were all sleepy, and the people sent porridge and side dishes, as well as steamed buns, which were placed on the table on the side, and two pairs of chopsticks were neatly placed aside.

"Eat something and go back to taking refuge!" Yin Si sat aside, picked up the chopsticks from the table, and handed them to Kurong.

Ku Rong didn't speak, took the chopsticks, sat on the chair next to Yin Si, and the two of them ate breakfast silently.

This meal was eaten quickly, Yin Si had no appetite, half a bowl of porridge was full, put down the chopsticks, tilted his head to look at Kurong, who had a good appetite, a bowl of porridge, three steamed buns, eating very fragrant, and very devoted.

"Uncle can eat well, do you want another bowl of porridge?" Yin Si watched him put down the dishes and chopsticks, wiped his mouth, and burped in satisfaction.

"No need," already full, Ku Rong waved his hand, pushed the dishes and chopsticks forward, moved the chair, turned to sit facing Yin Si, gathered his spirit, and asked, "You and Zhezhe, what is the matter?" ”

"What do you want to know?"

"After coming back from Qingzhou City, you, I can't find a shadow, she, I can't see anyone," Now Zhezhe was invited to the Shizi Mansion, and he sent someone to the Gongbo's Mansion to ask, saying that he would not return to the mansion until next year.

Letters, Zhezhe wrote a few letters to him, but each one was a few words, and the message was nothing more than that I am very good, how are you, master? When it's cold, pay attention to your body, wear more, and don't catch a cold.

Ku Rong replied every time, wanting to pass on his questions to her through letters, but this letter was going to be sent to the Shizifu, and he was afraid that people would see it, so he chewed his tongue everywhere, so he could only hold back and reply to some inconsequential things.

Yin Si, he looked for it a few times, but every time it was either someone was not there, or he was busy, he could only meet in a hurry, say hello and separate. Finally, I met it today, and the doubts that Ku Rong had held in his heart for the first half of the month really couldn't bear it anymore.

"I do have a lot of things to deal with recently, isn't it good that she's in the Shizi Mansion?" Yinsi's tone was very light, so light that you couldn't feel a trace of mood swings.

"What the hell do you think?" Although the rumors outside now indicate that they have been suppressed on the surface, in fact, they have been spreading.

"What can I think?" After saying this, Yin Si repeated it again, as if he was asking himself, and as if he was asking Kurong again.

"What are your plans for Harukawa to claim to be Tetsuche's fiancé?" Three days after Qingchuan arrived at the Refugee Temple, he received a letter from Yin Si, saying that he wanted them to make a bureau to deal with the upcoming Duke Yannan of the Qi State.

The identity given to Qingchuan is his grandson, or he came out of the snowy mountains, and the jade pendant that can command the Qingwan Pavilion, and more importantly, his marriage with Gongbo Zhezhe was decided by himself, and the jade pendant has been given to Zhezhe?

"That kid, did you really give a jade pendant to Zhezhe?" Qingchuan has been by her side for a few days, this kid has a very strict mouth, doesn't say anything, doesn't mention anything, asks him anything, answers if he is willing to answer, and beats Maha if he doesn't want to.

If he had taken out the jade pendant earlier, he wouldn't have been able to figure out where he had come from.

When that kid comes back from Yannan, he must beat him up.

"No," Yin Si shook his head, took out a jade pendant from his arms, and handed it to Kurong.

"It's—"

"You give it to her, and you say to the outside world that this is the jade pendant you gave to Qingchuan," this jade pendant was taken out and handed to him by Qingchuan when he was in Qingzhou City that day. He has been collecting it, and now he is doing this game, but he just wants to throw bricks and lead jade, and see how many forces will be involved.

"This jade pendant, it's really mine," Ku Rong took the jade pendant, looked at it over and over for a long time, and felt a little nostalgic, this jade pendant, when it was sent out, never thought that it would come back to this day, and it couldn't help but be a little sad, and it took a long time to put it in the sleeve.

"My mother also has an identical jade pendant, which is a pair with this one," Yin Si remembered that the day before his mother was executed, she was dressed in plain clothes, and she didn't wear anything on her body except for this jade pendant.

The jade pendant, after her death, accompanied her into the imperial mausoleum.

"What the master gave us back then is a token between the same door," time flies, the time of cultivation in the depths of the bamboo forest is like a lifetime, and in a blink of an eye, he is also old.

Ku Rong sighed, it is really a time flies, what about people, they can't escape time, and they can't escape the cruelty of the world.

"Why, didn't you take her away?" Yin Si couldn't help but want to ask, after returning from the snow mountain, why didn't he take his mother away, "Don't you like her very much?" ”

"She's the princess, what am I," took her away, not that he hadn't thought about it, but the facts didn't allow him to do this, and besides, she didn't want to go.

"Why didn't she leave?"

"It's all the imperial concubines, where else can they go? At the ends of the earth, I can endure hardship, but this is not something that can be accomplished by enduring hardship, "The façade of the royal family, how can he tolerate her following him? Once she nodded, then for the rest of their lives, they would have to live in pursuit.

He is indeed not afraid of hardship or tiredness, let alone chasing and killing, he just wants to be with her, as long as he can be with her, he doesn't care what.

But she's different!

Ku Rong looked at Yin Si's face, and lost his mind for a moment, he and her are really more and more similar.

"Because of me?" Yin Si clenched his fists, and since he was a child, he knew that his mother did not like his father.

Outside the palace, he built a palace for her based on bamboo forests, opened up mountains and forests for her, and created a residence exactly like her master, but his mother was not happy.

Except when her consciousness becomes a different person.

Many times, he felt that his mother was strange.

She would dress up for her father, accompany him to watch the clouds roll up, and she would also wear plain clothes, close the door, and hide in the corner of the house crying. She will dance in the sunny bamboo forest, and she will also hold an umbrella and look at the north by the bamboo bank in the heavy rain, as if she is waiting for someone.

But in the end, no one came, and she didn't wait.

In the dead of night, Yin Si woke up from a nightmare, and when she groped into her room, she could be heard whispering in her dreams, brother.

Senior brother, it is Kurong.

Eight years ago, my mother's illness finally reached the point of madness, and she couldn't tell who she was, and the whole person became more and more crazy. Although her father left her outside the palace, protected her, and let people guard her, Zhao Ying still knew about it.

So, in the name of medical treatment, they took them all back to the palace.

A month later, his mother was executed.

Three-foot white silk, one side of the beam, his mother, is relieved.

The night before she left, she calmed down for a long time, took his hand, and told him a lot of words, telling him not to hate anyone, and not to think about who to seek revenge, there are only two people she can't rest assured in her life, one person is him, and there is another, she didn't say anything, just smiled.

She said, I entrusted someone to take care of you, after I leave, he will protect you, you must help me take care of him, when it is cold, remember to remind him to wear more clothes, on weekdays, tobacco and alcohol do not let him be contaminated too much, he is not in good health, when it rains, his knees hurt, after I leave, you have to live together.

Yin Si thought that this person would be his father.

As a result, it was the guard who had been guarding the gate outside the bamboo forest.

When he grows up, Yin Si will know that he is Qingming, the senior brother that his mother has always been thinking about.

In the bottom of Yin Si's heart, there was no hatred or discomfort, but he just let out a very light oh, as if he knew that there was nothing to express his emotions.

I don't know why, he just doesn't hate Kurong, he doesn't resent his mother, and he doesn't have any other emotions, he wants to vent to his father and Zhao Ying.

From birth to growth, he has always lived in that bamboo forest, in the palace, he went very little, accompanied by his mother in the first ten years, and Kurong in the back.

The two of them, their mother is gentle and considerate, although she will change her personality, but when facing him, she is gentle. Ku Rong is a little more arrogant, likes to be on an equal footing with him, there is no distinction between young and old, and many times, he is like a friend.

Mother said that Qingming was his brother, and when she left, he would follow him and call him uncle.

This uncle, Yin Si shouted very little, except for the first time when he identified himself.

When he was a child, he would often run and play in the bamboo forest, Qingming was the strangest guard he had ever seen, every time he could meet him, he was seen standing at the foot of the mountain, looking up at the depths of the bamboo forest, as if there was something there that made him miss someone or something.

After his mother died, he would still be like this, holding the wine jug, lying at the entrance, looking at the mansion deep in the bamboo forest, drunk, crying, laughing and making trouble, and every time he had to drag him back to the bamboo garden.

His father, since his mother's death, has rarely set foot in the bamboo forest again.

Yin Si has thought many times, what kind of existence are his parents, and is there a relationship between them?

The answer is very realistic, but Yinsi never wants to accept it.

He was afraid that once he admitted it, he would be an existence that hindered his mother's happiness for the rest of his life.

But the more you don't admit it, the more obvious and unforgettable this fact becomes.

"If you take her away, don't pay attention to me, maybe now, she will still be with you," Yin Mi's words came from the heart.

"Now it's saying that you and Zhezhe, how did it get involved with me," Ku Rong waved his hand, with a fierce expression, "Don't change the topic with me, just tell me, do you care about what Zhao Rui said?" ”

"I said I didn't care, do you believe it?"

"It's not that I don't believe it," Ku Rong put away the expression on his face, a little embarrassed, I'm not a roundworm in your stomach, how do I know what you think?

"In this world, no man will be shocked by this kind of rumor, "Even if you are an infatuated man, no matter how you ignore it, whether this rumor is true or false, there is no half-separation in my heart, and I can't do it at all."

"Did you ever mind back then?" Yin Si really wants to know, you like my mother so much, after returning from the snowy mountains to ask for medicine, when you see her marrying someone else, and having me, what do you think? I really don't have any distractions at all, and I still want to marry her wholeheartedly?

"I-" said I don't mind, how can it be? When I came back that year, I knew that this was the result, and my whole heart was broken, and I was drunk in the restaurant for three months before I saw the truest thoughts in my heart.

What chastity and worldliness, without her, all this is a joke, with her, all these jokes, he can ignore them.

It's just that he figured it out, but she refused.

In Kurong's life, the saddest thing is to leave her, and the most regrettable thing is to leave her.

If he had been braver, dead-skinned, and tougher, he had directly robbed their mother and son, took them with him, and wandered the world together, would everything be happy now?

It's a pity that there is no turning back, he can't turn back, and she has disappeared from the past years.

"I also need time to accept all this, to understand all this, if I don't accept anything now, but lie that I don't care, then I lied to her!" Yin Si knows that he can understand and accept Kurong's mentality back then, but he needs time, precipitation, and self-convincing.

"I don't want to hurt her for this momentary recklessness in the future, so this is the best status quo," keep your distance, cut off contact, calm down with each other, think sincerely, and make the final decision in your heart.

"Okay," Ku Rong could only say this one word, "Then you can think about it, but-"

"Many times, many people, many things, will not be waiting for you all the time," this point, you must also be clear, Ku Rong has a deep experience, "Everyone wants the best thing in the world, but no matter how beautiful it is, it will also have shortcomings, life will not go well, it is difficult to live up to your heart." ”

"I know," how could Yin Si not know these truths, he just really wanted to calm down and ask himself what kind of result he wanted in his heart.