Yan Xi woke up in the middle of the night and felt dry mouth and stomach churning.

"Star, I want to drink water, Star ......"

There was no response, she turned over and opened her eyes, suddenly a feeling of dizziness hit the sky, she immediately closed her eyes, reached out and touched her side, she didn't have time to think deeply about why Ling Xingyu didn't come over at night, she couldn't suppress the churning in her stomach, turned over to the side of the bed and prepared to find the trash can.

The sound of sobbing came into his ears, Yan Xi looked up, and then lowered his head and spit out all the things in his stomach into the trash can.

Xia Junying sat in front of the computer desk and saw that Yan Xi had vomited, so she walked over and reached out to pat her back.

Yan Xi raised her hand weakly to stop her, "Don't shoot, Sister Ying, don't shoot, vomit ......"

"Okay! It's also more comfortable to spit it out. Xia Junying walked to the bedside table on the other side with a thick crying voice and picked up the thermos cup, which was the honey water that Ling Xingyu had soaked.

After vomiting, the stomach was on fire, Yan Xi took two tissues and wiped his mouth, lying on the bed panting, the words that would ring every time he was drunk echoed in his mind.

'It's so uncomfortable! I'm going to quit drinking, never drink again, no more, no more......

"Rinse your mouth and drink some water." Xia Junying sent the thermos cup to her.

Yan Xi took the cup and took two sips, and the warm current went all the way down to the pantothenic acid stomach.

Yan Xi sighed, "Alas~ It's so uncomfortable! She looked at Xia Junying beside the bed, "Sister Ying, why are you crying?" ”

Xia Junying shook her head, "It's okay, I just remembered some unhappy things." ”

"What's not going to be happy about? Tell me about it! ”

"I often tell myself that as long as I work hard, there will always be something, but unfortunately I am 33 years old, I have no savings, no car, no house, no husband, no children of my own, and I can't go back even though I have a home."

Yan Xi was a little surprised, Xia Junying has earned enough money from her work over the years to buy a car and a house with a mortgage, since she hasn't bought a garage, there must be a deposit! How can you not even have a deposit?

Since Xia Junying came to work in Jufu Building, Yan Xi has never seen her go home for the New Year, at first Yan Xi would ask her, but later Yan Xi felt that she might be an orphan and homeless, so she didn't ask again.

As if seeing her question, Xia Junying smiled, a little bitter, "I have a home in the countryside, where my grandmother, as well as my so-called father and stepmother, and their children. ”

"Then why can't you go home?"

"Because my grandmother passed away half a year ago, and now there are no relatives of mine there."

"Isn't there your father?"

"With a stepmother, there is a stepfather, I don't dare to go home, as soon as I go home, it's money, they are full of money, and they just want to suck money on me."

Xia Junying's eyes were full of tears, in recent years, her father has used her grandmother as an excuse to ask her for money, last year her grandmother had a heart attack, her father called her and asked her if she paid for the operation? If you don't pay, you won't do it, and you will be discharged.

Xia Junying lost her mother at a young age, her father found her a stepmother after a year, and since then she has no father, it was her grandmother who pulled her to grow up, she can not care about her stepfather's life or death, but she can't care about her grandmother's life or death, she scraped together the money, and went home to see her grandmother several times, they always have a way to empty the money on her.

Before she died, her grandmother said to her, "Ying! Let's go! Don't come back, grandma won't drag you down again. ”

Every time she thinks about it, it always brings tears to her eyes.

Xia Junying wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and sighed: "I have a child who is 10 years old. ”

"Kid?" Yan Xi looked at her in disbelief, she had never heard her mention it for so many years.

"Hmmm! Daughter, followed by her father. The corners of Xia Junying's mouth hooked up a wry smile, if there is anything that can prove that she has a daughter, it is estimated that it is the stretch marks left on her stomach.

"Why don't you fight for custody!" Yan Xi asked.

"It's fighting, why didn't I fight, the child was mine." Xia Junying fell into memory.

More than ten years ago, Xia Junying fell in love with the child's father Wang Junchi, Wang Junchi was a gangster, able to speak well, and coaxed Xia Junying with rhetoric, she willingly entered the entertainment venue to accompany the wine and sing to make money to support Wang Junchi, who had nothing to do.

In a few years, they used the money she earned to open two stores, both of which ended in failure, during which Xia Junying did two abortions.

Over the years, Wang Junchi has followed a gang of gangsters, often touching contraband, smoking too many times, affecting the brain nerves, often punching and kicking Xia Junying, and then regretting and coaxing her sweetly.

Just when Xia Junying made up her mind to leave him, she suddenly found out that she was pregnant, and she didn't want the child to live in an unhealthy family like her, she went to the hospital alone, and the doctor told her that if the child was taken, she was afraid that she would no longer be able to be a mother, so Xia Junying kept the child in desperation.

Wang Junchi learned that she was pregnant, and immediately informed her family and went to Xia Junying's house to propose marriage, Xia Junying's stepmother and father, seeing that there was money to collect, regardless of her life or death, directly agreed.

Xia Junying was taken back to Wang's house, at first Wang Junchi accompanied her all day long, gently caring for her, and within a few months, Wang Junchi returned to his previous appearance, once skating. Powder, sex. Wanting to get up, regardless of Xia Junying's five-month pregnant belly, he forcibly pressed her again and again, the next day, she saw that Hong was admitted to the hospital to protect the baby for a month, and then they no longer had the same room, as soon as it was dark, Xia Junying locked the door of the room, no matter how he knocked on the door, it would not be opened, and over time, Wang Junchi was tired of her.

finally survived until the birth of the child, and after the confinement, she took her daughter and took the bus back to her mother's house in the countryside.

Stepmother Yang Zhilan asked her for money all day long for various reasons and excuses, and she was penniless in less than a month.

"Jun Ying!" Yang Zhilan twisted her ass and entered Xia Junying's room full of miscellaneous old things.

Xia Junying, who was sitting on the bed with the child in her arms and breastfeeding, frowned and said nothing.

Yang Zhilan smeared a thick layer of powder, the whiteness of her face and the blackness of her neck formed a sharp contrast, and she walked up to her and said with a smile: "Your father borrowed 500 yuan from Brother Li from the next village before, and Brother Li came to ask for money, you give it to me first, and in a few days your father will receive his salary, and I will give it to you." ”

Xia Junying sighed, "Aunt Lan, I really don't have any money." ”

"You give it to me first, and I'll promise to return it to you in a few days." Yang Zhilan walked to the table, where Xia Junying's handbag was placed.

"Aunt Lan, I really don't have any money, if I have money, I gave it to you yesterday." Xia Junying looked at Yang Zhilan, who was rummaging through her bag, "If you are really in a hurry, ask Yaxin to take it first, and I will give it back to her next time." ”

Xia Yaxin is her half-sister, that is, Yang Zhilan's biological daughter.

"You dare to think about Yaxin's money," Yang Zhilan rummaged through her bag and threw her bag on the table angrily, "Let me tell you, your father doesn't make much money, and our family can't afford to support idlers, so hurry up and pack up and go back to your mother-in-law's house!" ”

"Aunt Lan, I'm divorced, and I won't go back."

"It's none of my business, you want to eat and drink for nothing at home, no way."

Xia Junying was not nutritious enough and the milk was insufficient, and the child still had to drink milk powder, so she finally decided to wean and begged Yang Zhilan to help her take care of the child, saying that the money she earned would be given to her except for the milk powder diaper money needed by the child.

Even so, Yang Zhilan refused to take the child well, and thought it was troublesome to get up at night to make milk powder, so she directly soaked a large bottle, did not drink it at one time, and continued to drink it at the next meal, causing the child to vomit and diarrhea and hang in the hospital for a week's drip, she was only a three-month-old baby.

After the child was discharged from the hospital, Xia Junying no longer wanted the child to be poisoned by Yang Zhilan, so she hid in the room and cried with the child.

Grandma pushed the door in, grandma's health was not good, but she insisted on helping Xia Junying take care of the child.

The child was handed over to the grandmother, Xia Junying went to work with peace of mind, and within a few days, she received a call from Yang Zhilan scolding, and when the grandmother made milk powder for the child, her feet slipped and her arm bones were broken.

Xia Junying quit her job and returned home to take care of her grandmother by the way, and soon, the child had no milk powder, and she couldn't pay the living expenses again.

Xia Junying knelt in front of her father and begged him, "Dad, you help me, help me get through this period, and when the child is older, I will go out to make money and repay you." ”

"If you can't afford to raise a child, you can raise it for others, anyway, I don't have any money."

Father's words cut off Xia Junying's last hope.

Back in the room, the child was still sleeping on the bed, Xia Junying opened the empty milk powder can, and there was only thirty yuan left in her pocket, and tears slipped silently down her cheeks with her sigh.

"Ying!" Grandma pushed open the door, walked in, took out a cloth bag from her pocket and opened it tremblingly, inside was a neat roll of change, two hundred yuan was just enough to buy a can of milk powder, she knelt on the ground and hugged grandma's legs and let the tears flow freely.

After buying back the milk powder, Xia Junying decided to get on the bus and continue to go to entertainment venues to accompany the wine and sing, at least the money is fast, as long as there is money, Yang Zhilan will treat her with good words.

Two days later, Xia Junying received a call from her father, "I'm going to sell the child." ”

"Dad, what are you talking about!" Xia Junying thought she had misheard.

Father Xia's tone was relaxed, "Brother Li in the next village has a distant relative who wants to buy our child, I plan to sell it, it's useless to keep it anyway, you can't see it, it's still dragging us down, and if you sell it, you can exchange it for some money." ”

Xia Junying sat directly on the ground with soft feet, trembling all over, trembling even when she spoke, "Dad~Dad~Dad~ You can't, Dad's can't ......"

"Don't talk about it, people will come in a while."

"Dad, you're crazy! That's your granddaughter! Xia Junying licked her chapped lips and roared: "If you dare to sell my daughter, I will immediately call the police and arrest you, I will go home immediately, I will take the child away, if I can't see the child when I go home, I will kill you." ”

Hanging up the phone, Xia Junying stumbled to the side of the road to take the car, and returned home, fortunately, the child was still in her grandmother's arms.

Xia Junying took the child back to her rental house.

Life was forced, and in the end, she helplessly sent the child to Wang Junchi's house, and the love on her parents-in-law holding the child was true.

It's right to leave a child to someone who loves her!

Xia Junying gave her a name, Wang Xibao.

Baby, you are your mother's hope, your mother hopes to be able to raise you in person, but your mother can't selfishly let you suffer with your mother, I hope you will grow up healthy and happy, and your mother will always love you.

After that, Xia Junying stepped on a long-distance bus, came to Y City, and applied for a waiter in Jufu Building.

The neighbors who played well before these years would occasionally help take photos of the children and send them to her, and Wang Junchi moved out after remarrying, and the children lived with their grandparents.

Every two years, Xia Junying will use her vacation time to secretly go to see Wang Xibao. Every time she went back, she would take a photo and entrust her photo to a neighbor, who helped secretly stuff it to Wang Xibao and told her that it was her mother.

She didn't know why she didn't have the courage to recognize Wang Xibao, perhaps because she was afraid to hear her question, 'Why don't you want me?' Why leave me behind. If she says, 'Mommy, it's here for you to suffer less.' I don't know if the child will understand or believe it.

After the death of her grandmother, Xia Junying's only relative in the world is her daughter, and her longing is hard to resist.

In the silence of the night, there is only a small nightlight in the shape of a mushroom at the bedside, which flickers with a soft halo.

Yan Xi really couldn't imagine that there was such a father and such a family in the world, Yan Xi kept looking at Xia Junying with the glimmer, trying to find a flaw on her face, but she didn't laugh like she did after making up nonsense in the past.

"This time it's true." Xia Junying let go of her clenched fists, she had never confided in anyone about her unbearable past over the years.

Yan Xi endured the feeling of dizziness and sat up and hugged Xia Junying, she didn't know what to say, maybe it would be more appropriate to hug instead of words.

"What are you doing?" Xia Junying smiled, "Don't sensationalize me!" ”

"Sister Ying," Yan Xi patted her on the back, "Let's go see your daughter together on the fifth day of the Lunar New Year!" ”

"Let's talk about it!"