On May 9, 2016, colorful flags fluttered everywhere in the Beijing Workers' Gymnasium, and the fiery poster of "30 Years of Chinese Music Power Rock Concert" on the huge LCD screen at the entrance reflected the surrounding open space, and the sonorous and powerful melody of guitar, bass, keyboard and drum beat came out from the huge speakers.

38-year-old Li Jun stood in front of the door shrouded in red light, looking at many people who were no longer young like him holding red flags in their hands, and their eyes were eagerly flocking to the entrance of the stadium.

Suddenly a familiar figure came into view, Li Jun rubbed his eyes to confirm whether it was her, this figure he had been looking for for 18 years, after her disappointed departure, she seemed to have disappeared in this world, Li Jun has not heard much from her through various channels, she has not changed much from 18 years ago, she is still a thin figure, her hair is no longer the long hair shawl she used to be, but a short hair cut to her ears, and the two deep dimples on her face are still so charming engraved on her face.

"Xinlei?" Li Jun shouted timidly.

Li Jun watched her body shake like an electric shock, and walked forward at a faster speed without looking back.

"Guan Xinlei, I know it's you, you stop me!" Li Jun also accelerated and ran forward, caught up in a few steps, grabbed her shoulder, Guan Xinlei struggled a few times and didn't break free, helplessly stopped resisting, and looked down at the ground.

"Xinlei has been around for so many years, do you still hate me so much? You know, I've been looking for you for so many years, just to make it clear to you, to say sorry to you! Li Jun shouted out what he wanted to say in his heart in pain.

"I haven't seen each other for so many years, why do you still recognize me, in fact, after leaving school, we have all experienced our lives, and I also have my lover and children, why bother to recognize each other again, I have forgotten the past, I also came to Beijing today on a business trip to see the concert here, I have nothing to come over to see, please let me go." After speaking, Guan Xinlei had to break free of Li Jun's hand again.

"I know that I was wrong at the beginning, in fact, I have been blaming myself in my heart all these years, I know that we can't go back, we all have our families and children, we can't do anything to be sorry for them anymore, I just want to make it clear what happened back then, in fact, I only had you in my heart at that time." Li Jun just wanted to quickly tell Guan Xinlei what he had thought in his heart for so many years.

Guan Xinlei raised her head and looked at Li Jun with mocking eyes, and said: "Eighteen years ago, I said that I would accompany you all night when we finished the college entrance examination, but it was you who ruined my dreams and pushed my most idealized love deep into the abyss!" I really hated you at the time, I always thought you were innocent, at first when they told me about Su Li, I thought they were teasing me, but that day I saw the intimacy of the two of you walking together, my mind was blank, why are you like that? Do you really like her? Do you think she's better than me? Guan Xinlei asked Li Jun in front of her like a cannonball, "I have been hiding from you for so many years just to make you guilty and make you blame yourself!" Guan Xinlei's face turned flushed with excitement, and her two dimples seemed to be dripping blood.

Li Jun's face turned pale, but his heart was twisted because of the pain, he thought countless times about what kind of scene it would be to meet Guan Xinlei again, but he didn't expect it to be such an unexpected encounter, he thought that when they met again, it might be the silence after letting go of each other, but today, eighteen years later, he found that everything was just his own conjecture, maybe in Guan Xinlei's heart, Li Jun not only hurt a young heart, he hurt a once simple dream.

Looking at Li Jun's pale face, Guan Xinlei gradually calmed down, "Li Jun, you are still the same person you were back then, you are indecisive, I think your life should still be ordinary all these years, right?" I don't know who is lucky enough to be your wife, is it Su Li? Probably not, she's not your thing. As soon as I vented my resentment, I felt much more comfortable, and I apologize to you for the performance I just had. After speaking, Guan Xinlei bowed her head and bowed to Li Jun.

She returned to the state she was in back then, still cold and unfazed, you will never be able to guess her heart, Li Jun let go of her arm, she didn't mean to go far, "Xinlei, Su Li and I really don't have anything!" ”

"Don't talk about her, whether you have it or not, it doesn't make much sense!" Guan Xinlei looked up at the large LCD screen, "The concert is about to start, do you still like rock and roll back then?" ”

The LCD screen is a live broadcast of the concert, the host has finished speaking, and several members of the first team have begun to walk on the stage holding their own musical instruments, "Yes, over the years, a lingering one is still when you followed me to sing rock and roll like crazy, and sang with an open heart, that you will be so petite, soft but able to sing so high-pitched and bold!" Li Jun looked at Guan Xinlei's beautiful face, and saw that some thin crow's feet had grown in the corners of her eyes under the bright light, and she was no longer the young and beautiful girl whose skin was blown off before.

Li Jun unconsciously put his hand on her face and wanted to touch the beautiful face pet that he hadn't touched for 18 years, Guan Xinlei moved his face to the side the moment his hand touched her face, and Li Jun suddenly woke up, she was no longer the "dimple" that belonged to him.

"Rock 'n' roll is almost gone, maybe only people who were born and grew up in that era can feel its charm, it is so simple and direct to tell your heart, your loneliness and your melancholy!" Guan Xinlei said faintly.

"I went to you when I was the loneliest in my life, because of your poems, because of your songs, in my sophomore year of high school, you sang BEYOND's "Sea and Sky" at the New Year's Day party, which made me feel that you are a very atmospheric person, but when I listened to you sing "Cold Rainy Night" in class, I felt that you were a very affectionate man, and your poems were also full of melancholy, I have been thinking about what kind of man you are, but no matter how you think about it, you will not be a flowery man, in the loneliest time of my life, I chose you, I hope your tenderness can warm my lonely heart! Guan Xinlei's eyes were filled with tears.

"It's because your singing makes me a little girl like BEYOND, when we go to sing karaoke together, shout with you, crazy, can make my mood relax, let me forget all my troubles, I know that many people will laugh at me, saying that a girl shouldn't shout like this, easy to bad voice, but I just want to." Guan Xinlei said to herself.

"Of course, rock songs are also sad, do you remember Zhang Chu's "Sister" that you sang to me?" Saying that, she raised her head and looked at Li Jun, "I cried when I sang, and you also said that the song was rewritten based on a true story, what a poor sister!" I asked you to call me sister, but you never agreed, you said you would call me old, am I old now? ”

Li Jun's eyes were also a little moist, and the previous bits and pieces of water that had opened the gate hit his brain all at once!

"It may be destined to meet you today, we started with rock music that belongs to our time, and we got together at rock concerts eighteen years after we broke up, but everything is as it used to be, you are no longer you and I am no longer the same person I was back then!" Guan Xinlei's tone was full of loss and helplessness!

"Lei Lei, can we go back?" Li Jun asked hesitantly.

"Haha, classmate Li Jun, what are you thinking? How do we get back? Can you afford to give up your wife and your children? After speaking, he raised his head and looked at Li Jun defiantly, which means that I still know you, and you can't do it.

Li Jun's intuitive anger surged upwards and shouted, "I can!" After speaking, he held Guan Xinlei's hand tightly.

"I can't do it, I have a husband who loves me and children I love, my husband also likes rock and roll, he also sings "Like You", "Cold Rainy Night", "Sea and Sky", "Glorious Years", he also likes Zhang Chu's "Lonely People Are Shameful" and his "Sister" but he doesn't dare to sing to me, he is afraid that I will cry after listening to it, but he will call me sister, in my eyes he is a boy who doesn't grow up, he can't live without me, and you won't!" Guan Xinlei let out a long sigh.

Li Jun's heart was even more unbearable, every song Guan Xinlei said had been heard and sung countless times, and they also said that these songs only belonged to the two of them, but the oath was still vaguely in their ears, and everything had changed.

"I talked to him about you, not for anything else I don't want to hide anything from him, he is too good to me, he treats me as his pearl, now my daughter is 8 years old, she eats my jealousy, saying that Dad loves me too much, and doesn't love her!" Guan Xinlei still confided in Li Jun as before, her eyes were full of happy smiles.

"Li Jun, I was too impulsive just now, but this matter has been suppressed in my heart for too long, you also know that I am a strong person, I am not reconciled, just now I thought of my lover, my daughter I still think that I am very happy now, the concert has started, let's relive the passion we once had!" After speaking, Guan Xinlei took Li Jun's hand and walked towards the ticket gate.

There are still a lot of middle-aged people who haven't bought tickets next to the ticket gate, hoping to buy a few tickets from the people who refund the tickets, and they all show envy when they see Li Jun and Guan Xinlei enter the gymnasium.

The workers' gymnasium, which can accommodate more than 60,000 people, is full at the moment, the stage built in the center is flashing with colorful neon lights, the rotating beams of light are constantly projected onto the spectators in the stands, and the egotronic music is loud, and many of the spectators at the scene stand up and shake their bodies to follow the singing on the stage.

At the time of ticket checking, Li Jun miraculously found that he and Guan Xinlei's seats were next to each other, maybe it was really God's affection, after entering the gymnasium, Li Jun took Guan Xinlei's hand and walked towards the east stand, all the way to see middle-aged people of the same age as them, their faces and eyes were full of passion, maybe these people are all intermediate forces in the office, they will face their subordinates without smiling all day long, old-fashioned may be the evaluation of their subordinates, but at this moment they are really releasing themselves, Looking for their youth and passion.

Several newcomers on the stage sang the rock version of "The Internationale", and after the two of them walked to their seats and sat down, the official performance began, the first to appear is the new generation of rap rock group "Shuangzi and porcelain", the combination of rap and rock style has also created a novel rock style, and the passion of the lead singer has also driven the audience below, and the strong drum beat beats everyone's heart.

Next up was the veteran rock band "Paradise Band", a band that had been in existence for 24 years and had made a corresponding contribution to the era when rock was just booming, and they sang the famous song "Forever Young" of that year.

"Before you know it, the night is deep,

The world around us is getting old

However, we will continue to be young

Until the time we die

Thank you for this crazy and deranged world

Thank you for the emptiness of me and the loneliness of you

Thank you for the free flickering candle in your heart

Burn all the time and burn all the time

Every time the drum beats, I see another you

I don't know if I forgot myself

Or find your true self

…………………………”

The frenzied music and hysterical singing pushed the atmosphere to a small climax, Li Jun turned his eyes to look at Guan Xinlei beside him, Guan Xinlei was also turning her head to look at him, and shook her head gently when she looked at him, perhaps to say, "We are no longer young!" ”

In the later performances, there are always new generation of rock sounds interspersed with the old rock bands, for the new generation of Li Jun is not in more contact, this may be the consensus of more middle-aged people, the cheers of the old band when they appear are obviously more than these new generation of combinations, but the overall exciting music still deeply stimulates Li Jun's long-dormant heart, and feels that he is rejuvenated with passion.

Zhang Chu's "ants, ants" music sounded when the scene was sensational again, as one of the "three heroes of magic rock" in the heyday of rock and roll, Zhang Chu accumulated too many fans in that era, people unconsciously sang along, Zhang Chu's hoarse voice, after years of experience, more vicissitudes, "Lonely People are Shameful" music followed closely behind "Ants".

"It's the season of love

The air smells of couples

Lonely people are shameful

It's the season of love

Everyone should smile at each other

Cuddle cuddle hug so it's fine

I love flowers

There should be flowers in the city

Even if someone takes it off

Flowers should also grow

……………………。 ”

Guan Xinlei's eyes were already full of tears, and two thin watermarks flowed across her cheeks, this is the song that Li Jun sang to her on their first date, because Guan Xinlei told him about her loneliness, and he also wanted to take advantage of the relationship between the two people, so he sang this song to her, and she also leaned on his arms.

Li Jun fell deeply into the memories of the past, and he didn't have a little feeling for the music outside, suddenly he felt that someone was holding his hand tightly, he was shocked to react from the memory, and saw that it was Guan Xinlei who held his hand tightly and Huang Jiaqiang of the Beyond band on the stage at this time, he was standing on the stage, singing "No More Hesitation" passionately, and the most they sang together in karaoke was this brother, both of them were holding hands, shaking their bodies together, Singing affectionately face to face. At this moment, eighteen years later, the two of them are once again facing "No More Hesitation" together, and Li Jun's thoughts flew back to the green years of the year.