Always careless again and again

Step into the forest of sorrow

Thought it was a sleeping romance

He woke up in the middle of the night

I always think of you unconsciously

Panicked eyes

It's like the back of a person who has gone away

Still leaning into my arms

Alone

Walk the streets of the shadows

Forgot what I was looking for

Wait for tomorrow or go back

Always want to have it again after you lose it

If only time could be turned back again

The fireworks in the night sky

Reflected in the bottom of your heart

Whether it touches the dusty memory

I always want to go back after parting

No matter how lonely it is to wait again

The fireworks in the night sky

Reflected in the bottom of my heart

It's endless, permanent

On the first day after the winter vacation, Li Jun sat alone at the round table by the window, playing Wu Qilong's "Fireworks" on the tape recorder, and watching a letter in his hand. The letter was written by Fang Ning, but it was not sent directly to him but to Song Jingya, and Song Jingya transferred it to herself just yesterday.

When Song Jingya handed her the letter, Li Jun still looked at her with some doubts, I don't know how she could give herself a letter, the relationship between Li Jun and Song Jingya is not as stiff as it was in junior high school for half a year, after all, junior high school classmates have lived for three years, although there are some ignorant love barriers in adolescence, but Li Jun has a lot of light on the past after half a year of high school.

Looking at Li Jun's eyes, Song Jingya was not a little shy and retreated, and said to him with a smile: "Don't think too much, we were not suitable before, and nothing will happen now, your sister Ning wrote a letter to you." After saying that, he threw the letter down on his desk and turned away.

Li Jun took the letter and opened the envelope, and a photo first fell out of it, which should have been taken recently, because the clothes were wearing a red turtleneck, short hair with ears, fair skin, and bright eyes and teeth against the red sweater looked even more youthful and beautiful. Fang Ning's spirit had obviously improved a lot, and he had lost the melancholy and pale face he had when he was here.

Gao Yujun didn't know when he walked in from outside the classroom, snatched the photo from Li Jun's hand, glanced at it in front of his eyes, and handed it back to him without waiting for Li Jun to take it back, and said with a smile on his face: "Fang Ning is still getting more and more beautiful, is this a revival of your old feelings?"

Before Gao Yujun's words were finished, a book flew towards Li Jun from the front with a whistling voice, and at the same time, Guan Xinlei's soft voice was heard. Li Jun hurriedly put his right hand in front of his face and grabbed a notebook. looked up at the front with a blank face, the first thing that caught her eye was the panic on Guan Xinlei's face, and then in the distance was another female classmate, He Lin, holding her head with her hands.

"Li Jun, I'm sorry, I didn't pick up the notebook just now, and I almost hit you." Guan Xinlei changed her previous indifference, put away her panicked look and looked at Li Jun with an embarrassed smile.

"It's okay, I think He Lin threw too hard, so you couldn't catch it." Li Jun said and handed the notebook to Guan Xinlei, but at this moment her eyes fell on the photo of Fang Ning who had just fallen on the desk.

Seeing Li Jun looking at herself, Guan Xinlei quickly withdrew her gaze, took the notebook handed over by Li Jun and turned around and sat back in her seat.

Gao Yujun lightly touched Li Jun next to him at this moment, and then looked at Guan Xinlei with a wicked smile and cast his eyes on Fang Ning's photo.

Li Jun ignored his appearance, sandwiched the photo into the book, unfolded the letterhead, and Fang Ning's delicate handwriting appeared in front of him.

Brother Jun:

I still want to call you brother, just like when we first went to Grandpa Zhang's house to call you brother, I also want to call you brother, because I do feel the warmth brought by a big brother in you.

I know you must hate me because my selfishness has caused you to suffer a lot that we should not bear at our age, so I have been hesitating to write this letter to you, I am afraid that you will just tear her to pieces and throw her in the garbage. So I ended up writing a letter to Jingya and asking her to pass the letter on to you.

Brother Jun, I've been thinking about writing this letter to you for a long time today, thinking about the happy and carefree junior high school life we have walked through together, easy jokes, and easy play. But then everything changed, until I graduated from junior high school, the problem between the two of us became more and more serious, maybe what Xiaomei did at the beginning did make you have some misunderstandings, and that was because I felt that you were a very kind person, and I did want to find someone to take care of me.

Brother Jun, I know I'm being too selfish to do this. Later, in high school, I began to feel scared of your fiery feelings, I was afraid that I would not be able to accept her, and I would not be able to bear her. So I chose to escape, in the process it was also your brother Zhao Yingzhong appeared, in fact, I don't have any feelings for her, I just feel that I can talk to her, and I have a common understanding of some things, and it will be very easy when we are together, just like at the beginning when we played together and made trouble together, the feeling was very similar.

I may have missed the simplicity and happiness of the past so much that I ignored your feelings, and eventually triggered your deep anger. The moment I watched your angry face lead a group of boys with sticks to rush downstairs that night, my whole body trembled, I was afraid that you would do something stupid that couldn't end, and at the same time I hated myself even more, I knew that everything happened because of me.

Fortunately, there was no big chaos that night, after seeing that the boys in the class returned to the classroom, Limeng and I went to your classroom to see you, but I didn't find you, and I went to find Jingya after the evening self-study, and she said that you haven't returned to the classroom.

That night I curled up in the quilt and cried all night, for myself naïve, but also for your impulsiveness, I don't know if this incident will affect you, after all, the city is full of storms, and it is difficult for the school not to deal with it.

For the next few days, there was no shadow of you, and my heart was tormented, and I kept blaming myself for my selfishness that led you down this wrong path.

Three days later, you finally appeared, and my heart finally relaxed, as if I was sorry to you, as if you could still smile and touch my head as before, and gently scrape my nose with your hand, but you frowned at me. I know you've been hurt, not just because of the school's disposition, because of someone else's accusation, but because of me.

I was expecting you to appear in front of me all day, and then there was no figure of you all day, I knew I should leave, maybe my departure can make you forget some sadness, can bring you some happiness, at night I hid in the quilt with a flashlight to write you the original letter, Limeng and the classmates in the dormitory persuaded me to stay, but thinking of your sadness and indifference I still decided to leave. If two people don't care for each other, it's better to leave far away and give each other a space to let go.

Brother Jun, it's been almost two months since we were apart to write this letter again, and it's about to be winter vacation, and I don't have anyone I know here, which makes me feel very relaxed, because I don't have to hide anything, I don't care what everyone thinks of me, I don't talk to boys easily here, I don't want anyone to have any other thoughts, I don't want to repeat the same mistakes. But to let me tell you the news, my table mate's personality is like a 'tomboy', his hair is also short, and his clothes are the same as boys, and he says every day that he will marry me in the future.

I haven't written so much, I don't know if you'll read it, but if you can see this, it means that you shouldn't hate me so much, and I will feel some comfort in my heart.

I didn't do very well in the exam this time, after all, we have experienced a lot of things in the past six months, and the time has been put in other places, and there is less time for studying, and I also feel very self-reproachful, because our parents let us study, and we have wasted a good time.

Brother Jun, I don't know how you did in the exam? You're a sentimental boy, have you chased other girls since I'm gone? I hope that now it should still be important to study, of course, if there are suitable girls who can urge each other to study, it is also good, of course, this situation is still try not to happen, I think the emotional entanglement of two people should do more harm than good to study, or hope that you can concentrate more on studying, in the future, take a good university, find a good job, why do good men have no wife, what do you say?

It's late at night, I'm writing half of the letter in the classroom, and now I'm still writing a letter with a flashlight in the bed, the discipline here is stricter than our school over there, and I lifted my quilt a few times on the opposite bed, I want to see who I'm writing to, whether it's to my boyfriend, she's going to be jealous, I told her that I wrote to my brother, are you still my brother? I wish I could have you as a brother.

Enclosed with the letter is a photo of me hanging out in the same dormitory last Sunday, I hope you can still remember the silly Ning'er when you see it.

I don't want to write it, but I'm at the same table to see who I'm writing to, and I'm looking forward to hearing from you.

Ning'er

Li Jun refolded the letter and took a deep breath. In a blink of an eye, Fang Ning had been gone for two months, and then since she left, he thought of her a few times in his heart, and the school had a big trouble at the beginning, maybe it was indeed because of her, but since she left, he had forgotten about it. Reopening the pages of the book and looking at the smile in the photo, Li Jun couldn't help but feel sour.

"Li Jun, I heard from my classmates that you have written a poem, can you show it to me?" Guan Xinlei turned her head and looked at Li Jun with a slightly red face and said.

Li Jun closed the page and said with a smile: "I just scribbled it myself, how can I get into your eyes." ”

"That's inconvenient to look at, isn't it?" Guan Xinlei's face suddenly turned a little cold.

"No, of course not." Li Jun said as he took out his own poetry notebook from the table, held it up and handed it to Guan Xinlei's hand across the pile of books on the desk.

"Confusion! Is this poem of yours called a collection of confusion? Are you confused about something? Is it learning or feelings? Guan Xinlei turned the first page and saw the big three words written by Li Jun, and then raised her head to look at Li Jun.

Looking at Guan Xinlei's eyes, Li Jun habitually scratched his head and said with a smile: "No, I just thought of this name and named it like this, maybe it's because the teenager doesn't know what it's like, right?" Let's worry about the new words. ”

"Well, but that's what suits your character, sentimental and indecisive." After speaking, he didn't even pay attention to Li Jun, took his poem and turned his head.

"Bang!" There was a loud noise outside the window, and then a colorful fireworks bloomed in the sky, and the sky had darkened unconsciously, and the younger brother himself was trying to set off the fireworks he bought from the market today.

Li Jun repacked the letter in the envelope and retracted his thoughts. The Chinese New Year is coming soon, and the new year is gradually approaching unconsciously, and in the new year, I hope that my life can be as colorful and full of imagination as fireworks.