174: Tears of Cowardice
People always need to do something to be able to show value, although things can sometimes be painful, but there is nothing to do, but it makes people more painful.
It is a rare happiness to be able to have something to do, to be able to do it well, and to be able to reflect one's own value.
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In the hospital, ward 606, from Wu Dingfang woke up to now, it has been a day and a night, she has recovered well, her body functions have returned to normal, she can eat and drink, and her mood is very good.
Now he is sitting on the hospital bed, holding a big apple, 'click, click', eating happily one bite after another, without heart or lungs, eating when he wants, drinking when he wants, just like a person who is fine.
She was happy, but others were sad, especially Feitian and Luffy, who were so anxious, looking at Wu Dingfang that there were too many words, wanting to say it, seeing her like that, but not knowing how to speak.
"You two, can you not always walk around in front of me? Can you stop and rest for a while? Can? It makes my heart so annoying, don't you want me to be happy? You have to be sad, there is something wrong with it.
Especially you, Feitian, although most of the injuries suffered were extracutaneous, but now is also the time of recovery, don't you feel that your body is itchy, don't walk too often, and the wound that has just formed a scar, will be broken again.
That's not wonderful, you don't feel sorry for yourself, I feel sorry for you, hurry back to your ward! Don't waste your time with me, I'm not welcome if I continue like this.
Otherwise, I will be discharged from the hospital immediately, don't blame me then, blame me for not listening to you, I can't figure it out, I'm older than you, but now you take care of me like a child, is it interesting? ”
"We ......!"
Feida wanted to open his mouth to write down this topic, and there were a thousand words in his heart, and there were many words that he had thought about countless times, but he didn't know how to open his mouth when it came to the end.
"Sister, it's not what you imagined, we are really worried about you, especially at this time, we are even more worried about you, what I said is the truth, I will never lie to you."
After listening to what Wu Dingfang said, Luffy River was even more anxious, this time he was about to be misunderstood, so he quickly explained that things were not what she imagined.
There was silence, and the ward was quiet, and there were only two sounds left, one was the sound of hanging on the wall and the clock moving, and the other was the sound of Wu Dingfang eating apples.
After a while, Wu Dingfang finished eating an apple, threw the kernel into the trash can under the bed, and saw that Feitian and Luffy River were still in the ward and refused to leave, shaking his head and sighing helplessly.
"You two don't want to do this, okay? To tell you, I really don't have anything, can't I be so happy? I had to cry and cry.
Isn't it just that my husband is dead? What's the big deal? Didn't anyone else have a dead husband? Haven't others lost their loved ones? In this way, it will be in line with the image in your mind.
Am I normal in that case? Am I that kind of person? I know what you're thinking. Aren't people just dead? And who is immortal?
It's just the difference between dying early and dying late, so what do you care about? What's the use? The most important thing to be a human being is to be happy, forget the past, and embrace the future.
Now I command the two of you to go out, one to rest well, and the other to serve the one who is resting seriously, this is my order, and it is also a task for you.
You can choose to complete it, or you can choose not to complete it, the choice is in your hands, you make your own decision, if you choose to complete the task, I am still your sister, and you will follow me in the future, I need you.
If we don't complete the task, then our relationship will end here, and from then on, we still know each other, but they are just ordinary friends, and there is no other relationship.
That's it? That's all I have to say, and the rest is no longer interesting, it's just a waste of saliva, there is no nutrition at all, it's just kind words. ”
Feitian and Luffy River, want to open their mouths to refute, want to speak, it's really not like this, we don't mean that, it's just that you behave like this, it's really abnormal.
It's really very abnormal, even if it's different, but the message conveyed is really misleading, we are different, and we can't be different to this extent.
The span of the transformation is too big a step in this step, such a performance is terrifying, it will make people think a lot, is this deliberate? People are strong in front of them, then vulnerable.
Is it really a very extraordinary thing, their performance is different from ordinary people, so now, what she has done is just another way of expressing sadness.
The so-called soldiers will block, the water will flood, it's just the opposite, I want to be happy, to defeat the sadness in my heart, fragile people are pretending to be strong, it's all an illusion, I'm not sad, I'm a strong person.
There's no way, it's all said to this point, if you keep going, what's the point? The sad person is pretending to be happy, but what can the outsider do? You can only go with the flow and resist it at a critical time.
The two people who have nothing to do can only go out obediently, according to what the parties said, what to do? Do what you have to do?
Don't think too much about this thing, otherwise it may really be done with good intentions and bad things, then it will really outweigh the losses, and the parties will be even more sad, and in the end they don't even have the courage to pretend to be happy, so it's terrible.
Forget it? I can't control her anymore, it's not bad to think about such a scene, hide sadness in the deepest part of my heart, take out happiness and share it with others, maybe this is another way to deal with her sadness.
Then respect her, right? Everyone is already an adult, and they all have the right to choose their own way of life, as well as ways to deal with various emotions, and they can't ask too much of others, and they can't let others walk according to their own way of walking.
Whether it's happy or sad, as long as you can stick to it strongly, you must support it, as long as you are there, you can be your own, if you are not there, then everything is someone else's.
"Got it, sister, then you have a good rest! We're out, take care of ourselves, don't let us worry too much, we're just really worried, you're our own sister! It is also our spiritual pillar now. ”
One step and three turns, as if you want to leave to a distant place, I really want to take another look, I am afraid that the person in front of me is not very obedient, like a child naughty and mischievous, anyway, he just doesn't listen to you, and the promise on his mouth is faster than others, which is not the same thing.
The more you talk to him, the more he will take your words as wind in his ears, going in from this ear and going out from that ear, and this kind of thing is not once or twice, which is really worrying.
Out of the ward, gently closed the door, and stood in the corridor, Tokita and Luffy looked at each other, and both smiled bitterly, at this time, their mood seemed to be thinking of going together, otherwise they would not have such expressions.
After a wry smile, what can I do? It's already happened, what else can you think? That's it, you can only go with the flow, you don't have the right to choose, and you have to accept it if you don't accept it.
In life, when you encounter something, you can only solve it, can you still escape? If you run, the monk can't run to the temple, unless you have the courage to pick up a knife and give yourself a knife, and say goodbye to the world.
But this kind of courage, it is a representative of cowardice, will be despised by all people, and ants still steal life, let alone a person? That's too irresponsible, isn't it?
People live a lifetime, it is not long, it is not short, it is not short, according to the time of living a hundred years, in addition to the time to eat and sleep, how much can be left?
Some people will feel that time is very short, it is not enough at all, things have not been done a little bit, time has passed, so he raced against time and said, he did not dare to waste a little bit of time, this is all money! Maybe he will open his mouth and scold: "Time, you bastard, where have you gone?" ”
Some people will feel that the time is very long, and they are wasting a lot of time all day, and when the day dawns and their eyes open, they don't know what to do at all, because there is nothing to do, so they waste their time like that, and they are still saying that this is the day of the year, and it is simply not a human life.
Everyone has already gone out, and there is only one person left in the ward, and now it is almost noon, and today's weather is particularly good, and the sunlight has already penetrated the glass, and it has shone in unceremoniously.
It doesn't discuss with you at all, even if you don't allow it, there is no way, unless it is to pull the curtains, but it still can't be stopped, it can be said to be pervasive.
Wu Dingfang was just like that, quietly, sitting on the hospital bed expressionlessly, not seeing a trace of emotion on his face, looking at the sun outside the window, looking at the sky in the distance, white clouds and mountains, I don't know what he was thinking, or what he was thinking?
Time passed minute by minute, and I don't know how many of them escaped, these hateful creatures, always never looking back, never seeing them back, don't know where they died, just like those who close their eyes and never open them again.
I don't know how long it took, Wu Dingfang's eyes finally blinked a few times, and a few uncontrollable tears finally flowed down, they were really disobedient.
Are they all good? Are they all agreed? Why don't you just follow it? Is it really that difficult? If there is pain in my heart, do I have to show it on my face? You have to shed tears to prove it, the suggestion is too nonsense, right?
But he still couldn't control it, he was, and his cowardly tears defeated him.