Chapter 290: I Don't Love Anymore
Although it was August 15, He Qingmin's condition was still not suitable for discharge, so this Mid-Autumn Festival could only be spent in the hospital. But what is rare is that I also counted a normal Mid-Autumn Festival.
In the past, I had the Mid-Autumn Festival casually, and for the first time I knew that the mooncakes were originally cut and eaten together as a family.
After dinner, I can only admire the moon on the roof of the hospital with He Pingqing, I have to say that the moon on the fifteenth is really round, but when you look closely, you will find that there are always some missing corners.
Maybe this is the same as life, everyone will leave a lot of regrets, if you must pursue perfection, you can only be content and happy.
"Linglong, what are you thinking?" He Pingqing asked me suddenly.
I turned my head to look at him and replied lightly, "I didn't think about anything!" ”
He smiled and looked at me, "So guess what I'm thinking?" ”
I thought for a moment, "I can't guess! ”
He looked up at the moon, his eyes were a little hazy, "I'm thinking about how you have come over all these years, our family has been waiting for you to come back all these years, every time at this time, your mother can't help but sigh, lost you, it's the pain of her life, and now it's hard to find you, but she didn't have a chance to see it, this is really an irreparable regret." ”
This is indeed an irreparable regret, and I also want to know what my biological mother is like, but I will not have this opportunity in my life.
"Can I ask you a question?" I thought about it and said.
"You ask!"
"Have you ever loved my biological mother? Why did you marry her in the first place? ”
He pondered for a while and replied, "Yes, I really didn't have that kind of affection for her at the beginning. I married her just to find someone to live with, because at that time your adoptive mother married someone else, which was a very painful thing for me, I was once obsessed with the fact that I lost her, but later, your mother brought me too much touch, she is a good woman. ”
"And what about my adoptive mother? What kind of mindset have you had with her so far? Still in love? ”
"I don't love it anymore, in fact, I don't feel that way anymore. It's just that in the past few years, I've heard that she has had a very difficult life, so I want to take her out and make her feel better. ”
"That's all you think? Other than that, you don't have anything else in mind? After the death of your wife, you immediately went to find the first love you once loved, and you wanted to bring her back, didn't you have any other thoughts at that time? "Actually, I have complaints about these things, and it is because of his actions that I forced my aunt to kill my mother.
No matter what my mom did wrong, I can't deny that she really is a woman who deserves to be sympathized with and pitied, after all, she was not wrong in the first place. All her mistakes are only because she is a victim who wants to fight back, and she fights back because she is oppressed. It's not the right way, but I can still forgive her.
It was true that she had done a lot of harm to the He family when she stole me, but in other words, in front of mother's love, everything else seemed very insignificant, so what was wrong with her wanting to save her child? If she hadn't wanted to save Tang Xin, then she wouldn't have thought of stealing me. Even though I've really suffered all these years, I can't deny that she has really treated me very well.
He sighed, his voice a little helpless, and a little self-reproachful. "Actually, I already understand the cause of your adoptive mother's death, and I also asked someone to investigate these things that you went to investigate. So I know why you're asking me this question right now, and you've always complained about me, right? That's why you've been reluctant to call me my father, because you think I'm the fuse that killed your mother. ”
I pursed my lips and insisted, "You just have to answer the question I just asked." ”
"The question you just raised is not difficult to answer, I really don't have any other ideas about this matter, I just want to take her out and make her life a little better. Because I heard that she was tortured. For me, after all, she grew up together, no matter who she used to be with me, just because of the affection we grew up with, I can't ignore her. In addition, I am not alone in this matter, I have discussed it with Minmin, and you can ask her to testify against her. ”
Did he discuss it with He Qingmin?
If this is the case, then his heart is open.
"But you took her out so hastily, and you thought about how she should live in the future?"
"I've already thought of everything you can think of, and Min Min and I have said that as long as she comes out, we will arrange a place for her to live and work. I don't really have any other thoughts or purposes, just to make her feel better. But I didn't think I'd hurt her in a self-defeating way, and if I had known it would be like this, I wouldn't have done it. I don't know how to forgive myself, but my heart is really full of guilt. ”
His voice was full of self-blame, and you could hear that he was indeed quite guilty.
If that's the case, then it's probably overthinking.
I didn't say anything more, I didn't say forgiveness, I didn't blame, I just stared at the moon in the sky for a long, long time.
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Because there was a homicide in the original family, our whole family moved. I don't think it matters to me, anyway, it's not the first time I've encountered such a thing, and I've seen more of these things, so it's not so scary. But He Qingmin and He Pingqing couldn't accept it, so they could only move. However, it is also very easy for rich people to move, they can make a phone call and someone can arrange it, and even the furniture can be replaced.
I got used to the new house for two days, and then I was going to go to the cake shop to have a look, and the sales in the physical store and online have been doing quite well recently, especially the various new breads and biscuits launched in the store are very popular, plus isn't it popular to live broadcast now? I hired a well-known anchor with high popularity to anchor us, and the business was better than before. Plus coffee and tea upstairs and the like, so the income is very good.
I'm still thinking about opening a branch......
But as soon as I went out, I brought some people to block it, and Xue Dingxiang stood at the door with a smile on his face and looked at me, "Has your family moved?" But your family is too low-key, why is the new house still so ordinary? ”