The next day, Zhezhe really didn't get up early, she woke up at the end of the day, and she just lay on the bed and lay down until the sun. only to grind up

Ah Wan and Ah Ru got up very early, busy tidying up the house, and when Zhezhe got up, they realized that the room where she was originally writing and playing the piano had moved a bed in, and there was also a dresser.

This is nothing, Zhezhe originally thought that the two of them were going to sleep in the same bed, and he sighed for a while. The bed here is not big, it's okay to lie alone, and if there are two people, she tosses a little on the bed at night, which is a little crowded. It's summer again, and it's so hot that it's hot to lie down alone, let alone two people.

It's also good to live together and sleep in one room alone, no matter how good the original relationship is with this sister, for her, she is not familiar enough to sleep in a bed.

is separated, and there is less embarrassment, as for how to talk to her and let her embroider a purse, it depends on your own ability. Zhezhe feels a bit stressed, but when there is pressure, there is motivation!

When it was almost noon, Zhezhe finally looked forward to his uncle.

Zhezhe was lying on the window of his wing, holding a pu fan in his hand, while paying attention to the window, while listening to Aru talk about the embroidery formation, she had nothing to do, so she called Aru, wanting to see how she made a female celebrity, Awan because she was going to greet Gongbo Xinxin, Zhezhe didn't see her when he got up.

At this moment, I finally saw Xin Xin's figure, dressed in a pink gauze skirt, Ah Wan in front of her led the way, the two maids around her followed, and the little maid helped with the luggage.

Uncle Xinxin's appearance is thinner than when we met before, his face is tired, his face is pale, he looks very bad, and I don't know if it is because of the sun, his face is sweating, and he walks weakly, always like he is about to fall down next.

Seeing this, Zhezhe hurriedly got up to greet her, originally wanting to help her, but Gongbo Xin ignored her directly, walked past her, and went straight into the house.

Okay, the hot face is attached to the cold ass, it seems that this sister is still angry.

I don't know how long this anger will last, do I have to be cheeky?

While thinking about it, Zhezhe leaned up, followed by Gongbo Xinxin, and helped her shake the fan, now she didn't dare to speak to her, but she still would.

It's a pity that Gongbo Xin still didn't accept it, and frowned when he entered the house, saying that he was unwell and went to bed.

Zhezhe had no choice but to go back to his room.

When she had lunch, she didn't see her uncle get up, Zhezhe quietly asked her personal maids, and the maids shook their heads, she knew that the uncle and uncle had been like this for half a year, not eating well, sleeping well, not interested in anything, and the whole person was dying, depressed day by day.

Since the marriage, the uncle and his wife saw that she was so unwilling, so they naturally didn't dare to let her go out and walk around easily, and they were locked up in the uncle's mansion and persuaded every day.

It's really pitiful, Zhezhe sympathizes with her.

Uncle and his wife, those two thieves and chickens, they like to lock up people, either to exorcise evil spirits or to escape, others are normal people, and they will be locked up crazy.

Anyway, on Gongbo Xinxin's side, she still has to get along well, after all, Zhezhe and this cousin Wei Zhen were kidnapped, Xin Xin must know something.

Zhezhe thought about it, then served the meal, went to Xin Xin's bedside, pondered for a while, and then said:

"Eldest sister, let's eat, no matter how unhappy it is, if you don't eat, how can your body eat?"

Gong Boxin didn't speak, turned over on the bed, and turned his back to Zhezhe.

"I know, you don't like Shizi, and I also know that you still complain about me," Zhezhe knew that this would happen, she didn't know much information, and she could say even less, so she had to think carefully before speaking, "But people always have to look forward in life, otherwise, what else can we do?" ”

Uncle Xin Xin did not answer.

"Eldest sister, in fact, I haven't recovered from this illness yet, I can't remember all the things," Zhezhe's voice became smaller and quieter, "I know that you are the same as your cousin, and I am not, you know, I have always had a good relationship with you, how can I be willing to let you be sad?" ”

Uncle Xin pulled the quilt to cover his head.

Obediently, on such a hot day, you still cover the quilt, not afraid of heat stroke? Zhezhe looked hot all over, and just went to uncover her quilt, but he didn't dare.

"The notices put up in this imperial city are all fake," Zhezhe didn't know if he could say that, "Cousin is not that kind of person, you know, you know what I am, you know." ”

This is really impossible to make up, Zhezhe didn't dare to think about what he said, stammered, intermittently, said half of a sentence, hid half of it, and finally didn't know if Gongbo Xinxin understood? Isn't it going to cause some questions or something?

Uncle Xin was in the quilt, his body was trembling slightly, and Zhezhe couldn't figure out the situation, did she suffer from heat stroke to cramps?

"It's so hot, you don't want to be covered with a quilt, it'll be hot," I couldn't bear to look at it, "No matter what, I always hope that you can be happy and happy in the future, and you won't be wronged, and there will be nothing else to ask for." ”

Seeing that the person in the quilt was pumping even harder, Zhezhe was originally going to go out after the last sentence, but when he came to the door, he couldn't bear it after all, turned back again, sat down on the edge of the bed, looked at the person on the bed carefully, and listened attentively.

There was a sobbing, although it was small, was she crying?

Zhezhe stretched out his hand and wanted to uncover the quilt, but finally gave up, just patted her back gently, "If you're sad, just cry, just cry!" ”

If you say anything else to comfort me now, Zhezhe will not speak.

Uncle Xin cried in the quilt for a while, and couldn't hold it back, so he stuck his head out of the quilt, and his face was full of tears, red. Zhezhe looked distressed, got up and went to the dresser on the side, there was water on the shelf, took a handkerchief soaked in water, twisted it dry, came back to the bed and sat down, handed it to Xin Xin, and wanted her to take it and wipe the sweat and tears on her face.

However, she shook her head desperately and refused, and cried even more fiercely, the whole person was crying and gasping, and the bluffing Gongbo Zhezhe was afraid that she would cry to death, so he hurriedly patted her on the back, and personally wiped her face and sweat on her head.

It took a while for Gong Bo Xin to calm down.

"Would you like to eat something and get some sleep?" Zhezhe will not coax people, she used to be in the 21st century, when she encountered sad things, she went to buy a bunch of snacks and bread in advance, found a corner and cried alone, crying tired, eating something, and then sleeping, waking up, and resurrected with full blood.

"You believe me, I'm tired of crying, eat something, get some sleep, and when I wake up, my mood will be much better," Zhezhe went to bring over some cold food, "But this dish is cold, I don't know if you still want to eat it?" ”

"How much will you eat?" Zhezhe was too lazy to let the maid change it, and when they changed it back, Gongbo Xin Xin said that it was not good and did not want to eat, "A lot of things have happened, and there is no way to change them, what we can do is to live, even if it is one person, with guilt." ”

"People can't be resurrected after death, you also want to open a little," Zhezhe stuffed the chopsticks into her hand and began to flicker, "I am also a person who has died once, I can tell you very responsibly, when a person dies, there will really be nothing." ”

"The people you remembered before your death, the environment in which you lived, will be gone, and even if your consciousness is still there, you can only be in another-" Originally, he wanted to talk about the world, but the words were all on his lips, but Zhezhe still changed his words, "Hell, faint." ”

"You see, I'm not looking for death now," Zhezhe racked his brains, thinking about how to comfort her, "People are alive to remember the people you love, people are dead, even if they have souls, they have to go to the underworld to report, drink Meng Po soup, you don't exist in this life, and the people you care about will disappear." It's said to be liberating, but if you think about it, you just want to forget the pain, right? ”

"What are you talking to me about?" Gong Bo Xin hugged the rice bowl, pulled out a wry smile, and looked at her, "You think I want to die?" ”

"I didn't mean that," Zhezhe actually thought of what to say, said this, just to see that she was sad, and wanted to comfort her, her mind jumped too fast, and after the words came out, she couldn't figure it out.

It's just that I don't want her to be sad!

Zhezhe looked at her, always thinking of his former self, isolated, alone in a strange city, squatting in a small house, the sound insulation effect is not good, and if he wants to cry, he deliberately turns on a lot of music, for fear of being heard.

When people are sad, they all want to have someone to accompany and comfort them, no matter who this person is, whether it is family or friends, I am most afraid that no one cares, and I bear everything alone, and it hurts my heart.

But people, the more they grow up, the more they are afraid of burdening others, worrying their families, and being laughed at for being immature, so they have to hide even crying.

How sad, hiding.

Seeing Xin Xin's face red from crying in the quilt, she was very distressed, and she just wanted to do her best to comfort her and tell her that she could accompany her, even if she didn't know how to comfort her, she was willing to talk to her.

"I just think it's better to have someone by your side when you're having a hard time," so I stayed here, "I want you to know that when you cry, I won't say anything about you, people want to cry when they're sad, and it's good to cry!" ”

"Anyway, when I'm very uncomfortable, I want someone to accompany me, even if she doesn't speak, just accompany me, I'm very relieved," Zhezhe looked at Xin Xin, "I'll just say so much, for the sake of me saying so much, eat two bites!" ”

I'm not a bad person, even if you said you hated me and wanted me to die, I don't have any complaints.

Gong Boxin was silent for a long time before he slowly picked up the bowl and picked up half a bowl of rice, and Zhezhe didn't dare to ask her to eat it all.

Eat as much as you can, it's normal to see her crying liver and intestines and have no appetite.

"You don't hate me? Don't blame me? Xin Xin looked at Zhezhe, who was silently packing up the dishes and chopsticks, and preparing to go out.

"Then do you hate me? Blame me? Zhezhe asked rhetorically, she didn't know what they were doing between them, and how did she know if she hated her or not?

"Say you don't hate, don't complain, do you believe it?" Xin Xin sighed, "But when you talk about hatred and resentment, you are always ruthless." ”

"Me too," I can't say it clearly at this time, so it's better to follow the trend, and what others say, I also pretend to say that I'm actually just like you.

"Why did you kill yourself?" Xin Xin couldn't help but ask.

……

This question, in fact, Zhezhe also wants to know, why did Gongbo Zhezhe commit suicide?

"I'm saying something resentful, but you can't think about it because of what I said, right?" Xin Xin didn't understand, "I'm just asking you why, but I want to know what happened, although I was angry at that time, but my reason is still there, you, why don't you just refuse to tell me?" ”

…… Zhezhe could only continue to be silent. She couldn't understand what Gongbo Xinxin was talking about, and she couldn't think of committing suicide, she knew that it was because of Gongbo Zhezhe's suicide that she crossed over. As for what you asked her before she committed suicide, why didn't she say it, don't say you don't know, I myself can't figure it out.

"You're like this again," Xin Xin was silent for a while, and smiled bitterly for a while, "I really don't understand, others say that the two of us are not in harmony, I don't believe it, but now, I believe it." ”

What do you believe? Whether I have a good relationship with you or not, I didn't know before, but I know that now, you are not very easy to get along with, Zhezhe took the plate, and began to break out in a cold sweat on a hot day.

"You know that I care about my cousin, but you still hide it from me and don't tell me," Xin Xin laughed at herself, "Now that you have persuaded me again, and after saying so many things, I really want to ask you, what can I do to not resent you?" You tell me, what am I going to do? ”

"People can't be resurrected after death," Zhezhe explained, "I also told you, how I have lived in the past two years, you know, there are many things, I don't remember!" ”

"You lie," Gong Boxin looked at her and paused word by word, "don't think I don't know, this is just a game you did with your father and mother, and the purpose is not to tell me the truth." ”

Obediently, really no, Zhezhe shook his head like a rattle, the couple are devils, did they really find a bunch of mages and Taoist priests, and they wanted to kill her, how did they get to Gongbo Xinxin, and it became their partnership? Is it so cruel to do the game?

"In this world, the emperor's list notices are all fake, and no one is worth trusting," Xin Xin got up and approached Zhezhe, "You said that you have a deep sisterhood with me, and you will not deceive each other in this life, but you still keep silent." My father and mother said that they would find a wishful person for me, but my wishful person died unclearly, and I myself must obey the emperor's grace. ”

"Everyone told me that now my life is no longer my own, one of my thoughts, every action, will bring disaster to the whole family, if I disrespect the will, the whole house, everyone will be buried with me," Zhezhe was forced into a corner by her, "No one cares about what I want anymore, and no one cares." ”

"I care," Zhezhe leaned against the wall, she understood, she knew the sadness of Gongbo Xin, and she also knew the rules of this world, "To put it bluntly, we don't have the freedom to choose, you see, I'm not also married?" ”

"We were carefree when we were young, and when we grow up, when we reach the age of marriage, how many of us can be happy?" Zhezhe sighed, "Since you can't change it, why don't you accept it calmly?" ”

"Accept it? You're talking so lightly! Xin Xin smiled weirdly, "On that day, I shouldn't have believed you, I avoided it, if I went, my cousin had an accident, I would definitely not come back alive, I would guard him and live and die with him." ”

When he said this, Zhezhe keenly captured the information, this is to say that the Confucius Temple met on the same day, that is, Gongbo Xin Xin also went that day? Was it Gongbo Zhezhe who suggested that she not go, and then something went wrong?

But why should she be shunned?

"I've always believed in you, but now, I don't want to believe you anymore," Xin Xin turned around, every step he took, he swayed, and he looked like he was about to fall, "I don't even believe in myself anymore, what should I do?" ”

"What do you want to do?" Zhezhe held the dishes and chopsticks, behind her, thinking about following her words to see if he could know anything more.

"I think? I guess it's okay? Xin Xin looked back at her, "I want my cousin back to life, is that okay?" ”

Zhezhe shook his head, how could that be possible, he couldn't borrow a corpse to resurrect his soul.

"I want to die, can I?"

That's even more impossible, you yourself just said the reason, Zhezhe shook his head again.

"So what's there to think about?" Xin Xin sat back on the bed, "Could it be that I don't want to do it from the bottom of my heart, and I have to say it to deceive myself, and I think it if I don't want to?" ”

"You can accept it calmly, it doesn't mean that everyone can," Xin Xin stared at her face for a long time, "Sometimes I also wonder who is luckier between you and me, and sometimes I envy you." ”

"If you also have a beloved, if you are also separated from him by yin and yang, if you are also in love with him and can't stay together, will you be able to understand?" Xin Xin seemed to say it to Zhezhe, and it seemed to say it to herself, "Everyone else says that you are talented, but I always feel that you don't understand anything, you are just talking to yourself!" ”

I don't know how to answer these words.

"Although I complain about you, I don't have to be as sad as I am, I don't mean to curse you," Xin Xin sighed, "If you are happy in the future, it is fine, at least, one of us is happy." ”

"Sister," these words, Zhezhe was about to cry, a little moved, a little sad. This sister is a knife-mouthed tofu after all, and she can't bear to deceive her anymore.

If I could, I really wanted to take her to the 21st century, and I really wanted my cousin to live in the 21st century, and the two of them could walk together without any scruples and be together for a lifetime.

"Don't be sad, although there is no fate in this life, but in the next life, you will definitely be together," Zhezhe comforted her, "One day, we will meet again." ”

"Didn't you just tell me that when people die, there is nothing?" Xin Xin shook his head, "You're still the same, you talk over and over again, do you think I'm so deceitful?" ”

No, Zhezhe really didn't want to lie to him.

"You go out, I'm tired!" Xin Xin issued an expulsion order.

Zhezhe wanted to talk for a while, but Xin Xin ignored her and went to lie on the bed. Thinking that she had just cried, I had to give up, quit, and let her have a good rest!

She didn't come here for this day, she had time to communicate with her slowly.